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I think my everything failed when I kept giving up on killing myself. I kept trying and trying to make him even fucking care when all he wanted was sex. All he wanted from me was some fuck hole. As I’d lay there and let him do what he wants and I’d sit and cry when I’d get home wondering if I should have let anything continue if I should have let him do this to me as he continues to use me for shit. I hope he actually kills himself before me so I can go spit on his grave and cry at the same time, because he is all I have left and he ignores me and complains that I fuck up so much and how I can’t do anything right. And I can’t do anything if I leave him he’s gonna attack me and most likely ruin my life. Even if it’s already fucked. He’s like a fucking man child he can bitch at me and treat me like shit but when it comes to me even slightly being upset because of his actions I’m the fucking bad guy. I’m the piece of shit.he is why I want to kill my self he is why I don’t want to find anyone to help me because he will get mad it’s not him. He will get pissed that I didn’t tell him I was going to kill myself while he has told me he wouldn’t care that I would die that I should do it and I will this week once I get the courage I need to say goodbye and not feel like shit as I die. I’m tired and sick of trying so fucking hard for him to treat me like garbage. I know I fucked up before I did a lot of bad things in this relationship but I apologized. I changed and I became new and now it hurts. Now I’m hurting myself when I said I wouldn’t now I’m shoving a pistol in my mouth with one bullet so he can’t hurt himself when I do it. Even in the middle of dying I’m thinking of him. Im thinking of how much I truly love and care even when he’s done this to me. Im still wondering if I’ll actually do it or after i actually end up pregnant or maybe during pregnancy? I want to hurt him as he hurt me.I want to leave an impact on him when I die I want to make him hurt. But I don’t at the same time. (On a alt account so if I don’t see I’m sorry)

Help! I am having troubles, my printer will go about 7 hours of printing. Then the nozzle slowly begins to clog until it full is. Causing the filament to snap and the print to say it is finished when it is only about halfway or so. Is it just getting too warm? I already run my nozzle at 190 Celsius and my bed at 60 Celsius. Or am I having too much retraction now so that it slowly builds up? I believe I have it set to 0.6mm when the default was 0.5mm. Maybe I was getting the stringing from it getting clogged and the retraction height needs to be not as high. I do print inside an enclosure as well and not sure if that would cause problems, but I want them in the enclosure so I few more secure about leaving an overnight print at my school where I teach. Any suggestions or insights please! I’m on an Ender 3 v2 by the way!

I have a 5 month old kitten who is somewhat active and will run around/jump on things. For context, she is 5 lbs and I have carpeted floors. My new neighbors that just moved in texted me nicely complaining about loud footsteps and sounds coming from my apartment during the day and waking them up at night. I am often gone or working at my desk during the day, and even if I walk around I usually am pretty quiet. I'm thinking the sounds are likely coming from my kitten since she loves to run around and play somewhat loudly in my bathtub (it echoes). She gets the zoomies for maybe 5 minutes in the middle of each night, so I do feel bad if that is what might wake them.
I try to tire her out during the day but now that they've complained, I'm worried that I'm also making too much noise playing with her. I usually wave her wand toys around for her to pounce on or use her laser toy. I'm not sure how loud you can hear her through carpet but I can't imagine she is crazy loud and she only gets really active for a little bit each day.
Anyone have advice or experience for what I should do in this situation? I feel like I shouldn't have to restrict my cat too much but I also feel for them if she is loud.

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Alright, all. I need some help. I usually don’t struggle with type of thing, but there this one guy who, for the past 13 years, I can’t help but return to. I developed deep feelings for him when we dated the first time (we were 19 then, 32 now).
I have at times gone years without talking to him, blocked him, etc. When that wasn’t happening, we were off and on romantically. He has, or maybe just used to have, the capacity to be generous and decent.
He’s got a troubled past, and I’ve afforded him a lot of grace for that as I also had a difficult upbringing. I’ve done a lot of inner work to comb through my trauma, to heal, and to become my best self for me and my loved ones.
In 2020 and 2021 we had a long running reciprocal, and otherwise healthy platonic friendship. We were open with each other about our positions in life, our long term goals, we confided and advised each other in our romantic endeavors. I was over the moon to have him in my life in a way that was meaningful and drama free. And then he wrecked it. I know it takes two to tango, so here’s the tea:
We go out for boba, all is good, friendly, on par with our new normal. Then he just asked if he could kiss me. I told him ‘No’ and he was respectful, but shared that he felt I was ’the one that got away’ and that he he wanted to try again. He drove this point home for eight hours. We were together chatting until 4 am. I told him I was shocked, that I had resolved my feelings for him, etc. He held his ground, he was polite, he was gentle, he talked about taking things slow, about settling down in a couple years, starting a family, yada yada. 😕 So I think about it for a day or two and I tell him that I’d be happy to try again (All those ‘resolved’ feelings came rushing back SO FAST!).
So the following weekend, my birthday weekend, we go on a date. Spend the whole day together, and at the end of it he says this: “Yea, so… I think I just wanted to get laid, and I have deep feelings for someone else.”
I was crushed. I lost who I thought was a friend and who I thought I might be able to have a genuine relationship with in under thirty seconds. All I could do was cry in disappointment in myself for being so stupid. I called a friend from my car and couldn’t drive home because I was crying so hard for almost half an hour.
At this point in my life I was very confrontation averse, but a few days later, over text, I laid into this guy like I will probably never do to another soul for as long as I live. And therein I still tried to be accountable for my role in the whole mess. I could’ve been genuinely mean, but I was more transparent, assertive, and accountable instead. His response was silence. Total silence. He never responded.
A year and a half later, (which is up to the present day) a mutual friend of ours from 7th grade passed suddenly, completely unexpectedly. I thought about him, and I couldn’t help myself. He responded in kind saying that he wishes we were on better terms and that he wishes me well no matter where we stand. So I’ve tried to talk to him and rebuild something but all I get from him are super dry responses. Now he’s asking if I have lingerie and getting generally suggestive. I’m now stuck asking myself ‘why the hell do I care? Why the hell am I trying?!’
I have good memories with him, and I know from our time as friends how much he wants out of life and how hard it is for him to change. I believe in people, including him, that as long as you’re willing to put in the work, you can achieve what you set your heart to. I think that’s one of the reason I just can’t walk away.
The last experience with him set me on a journey of finding my voice and finding people who need and are open to help. I’ve become someone that communicates better, and my life is changing in good ways for it. But when I talk to him, I can’t channel my better self.
So, I can’t see the forest between the trees. I’m looking for some judgement here. Pleas be honest. About him, about me, being it on. I need to hear it. I don’t want to be vulnerable to this guy anymore.

I posted similar post before but it’s not letting me view comments at all.
TLDR: his home life is shit, he’s got adhd and is on crutches and can’t occupy his mind enough, he’s getting pent up in rage, and he takes things out on me sometimes like yelling which I don’t like because I have trauma ✨
I haven’t received any affection since he’s gone through the major surgery nearly two months ago. I’m always the one giving the affection.
I don’t know how to approach him on this topic because I believe it’s unfair that I bother him with my needs when he’s going through things.
But I have no job at the moment and I’m stuck in the house with him and his shit parents. We are hoping to move out but we need at least one of us to work and get a car. Even that will be enough freedom but for now I’m affection deprived.

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So I’ve been on the pill for about 10 years and still haven’t got a concrete answer for this! Whenever I try to skip my periods (I.e. miss the placebo week in my birth control pills (levlen)) I can skip my period for 3 months but any longer than that I will breakthrough bleed. Why is it shorter or longer for some women? Also, is it normal to still get severe PMS symptoms when ‘skipping’ your period? Whilst I won’t be bleeding on any of these 3 months, I still get the cramping, sore boobs and headaches which are similar to my symptoms during my actual withdrawal bleed! Thanks so much.

Cholesterol is a lipid-like (fatty) substance present in the blood that our body usually needs to act as precursors for the production of Vitamin D, hormones, digestive acids to help in the breakdown of fats in one’s diet, and other important biological substances. It is one of those terms that everyone may be aware of but doesn’t know its actual meaning when it comes down to their health.
To clearly understand cholesterol, one must know about triglycerides too. Triglycerides are the fatty components of the body or those fats that a person receives through food. Its levels in blood tests indicate the fats that the body has absorbed in the blood from the recently eaten foods. The triglycerides are later packaged by the liver as fats in adipose tissues and some of them are turned into cholesterol. So, cholesterol marks the fats that a person has received through diet over a long period. This means, after a few days or weeks of eating a fatty meal, an individual has high cholesterol levels in their blood.
As soon as people hear the word “cholesterol,” mostly they relate it to health issues. However, that’s not always true. Cholesterol can be bad and good and only when there is too much bad cholesterol in one’s body and less good cholesterol, there is a high risk of cardiac problems like stroke and heart attack. So, what’s the difference between the two types of cholesterol? How do keep the good and bad cholesterol in balance for maintaining good health? Continue reading to get into the heart of the matter. [1, 2, 3]

What do Good and Bad Cholesterol Mean?

Good cholesterol medically refers to the High-Density Lipoproteins (HDL) while Bad cholesterol is the Low-Density Lipoprotein (LDL) or Very Low-Density Lipoprotein (VLDL) produced in the liver. All these lipoproteins in blood together make up for one’s total cholesterol.
National Institute of Health has prepared a chart depicting the different levels of bad and good cholesterol as well as total cholesterol and the categories to which they belong. It is as follows:

Bad Cholesterol (LDL) Level

• Less than 100 mg/dL: Optimal category
• 100-129 mg/dL: Near-Optimal
• 130-159 mg/dL: Borderline High
• 160-189 mg/dL: High
• 190 mg/dL and above: Very High.

Good Cholesterol (HDL) Level

• Less than 40 mg/dL: It shows a greater possibility of having heart disease
• 40-59 mg/dL: The higher the levels the better is heart health
• 60 mg/dL and higher: It indicates minimal or no risk of heart disease.

Total Cholesterol Level

• Below 200 mg/dL: Desirable category
• 200-239 mg/dL: Borderline high
• 240 mg/dL and above: High.

In a lipid profile test done on the patient’s blood sample, the healthcare provider can detect the levels of total cholesterol, LDL cholesterol, HDL cholesterol, and even triglycerides. After knowing that, the doctor can accordingly treat the patients and guide them on how to bring their cholesterol levels in balance.

Good Cholesterol Vs Bad Cholesterol

The role of the good type of cholesterol is to transport the excess cholesterol from all the blood vessels throughout the body to the liver where it can be eliminated from the body. This way, it may protect the body against the narrowing of the blood vessels. However, its levels must be at least 60 mg/dL or higher otherwise those who have 40 mg/dL or below are at an increased risk for heart disease.
On the other side, a bad type of cholesterol is problematic as it can worsen the narrowing of arteries and blood vessels by building along their inner walls. The medical condition where this plaque build-up occurs and results in hard and narrow arteries is called atherosclerosis. It can result in reduced flow of blood to the heart, kidney disease, peripheral artery disease, and heart disease. Ideally, the levels of bad cholesterol must be as low as possible. A normal person usually would have LDL levels less than 100mg/dL while those who have above 100mg/dL of LDL or VLDL could be at high risk of developing severe health complications.

Causes and Complications of Having High Levels of Bad Cholesterol:

The causes of having high levels of LDL cholesterol include:

• A fat-rich diet
• Sedentary lifestyle
• Liver disease
• Chronic kidney disease
• Family history
• Obesity or Syndrome X-a metabolic syndrome
• Smoking
• Excessive intake of alcohol
• HIV/AIDS
• Hypothyroidism
• Lupus
• Diabetes
• A side effect of the intake of certain medications to treat other health issues like acne, HIV/AIDS, hypertension, cancer, irregular heart rhythms, and organ transplants.

As, the presence of high levels of bad cholesterol obstructs the flow of oxygen-rich blood that the heart needs, it can result in:

• Stroke
• Chest pain (Angina)
• Heart attack

How to Balance HDL and LDL levels?

There are various ways that a person can raise the levels of good cholesterol (HDL) and lower the levels of bad cholesterol (LDL) to rebalance them to normal numbers and minimize the risk of heart disease and other health issues. These include:

• Change in Diet- Adopt a heart-healthy diet that involves cutting down on trans fats like eating red meat, butter, and hydrogenated oils; limiting sugar intake, and increasing the intake of good fats as found in the fish, avocado, and flax seed, and even fibers that can be derived from plant-based foods. Mainly vegan diets can help in reducing the risk of cardiac problems.
• Regular Exercises- Try for 30 minutes daily workout of moderate or high intensity for at least 5 days per week. This way one can maintain a body mass index of 30 or less and have a stable body weight.
• Lifestyle Modifications- This includes quitting smoking, limiting excessive alcohol consumption, and managing stress through different relaxation techniques.
• Intake of LDL-Lowering Medications- If natural ways don’t work out, the doctor can prescribe medications to normalize the cholesterol levels.

Outlook:

In the majority of instances, elevated cholesterol is a warning indication. However, even if a diagnosis of high cholesterol does not guarantee heart disease or a stroke, it should be addressed carefully.
If a person has high cholesterol, they may take actions to lower it, which will likely lessen their risk of heart disease and stroke. Changes in lifestyle that lower cholesterol also improves general health.
Prevention Advice

• One is never too young to consider avoiding high cholesterol levels. Eating a healthy, balanced diet is an essential first step. Here are some adjustments you can make immediately:
• Replace white rice with brown rice and standard pasta with whole wheat pasta.
• Instead of high-fat salad dressings, use olive oil and a dab of lemon juice to season salads.
• Eat more seafood. At least two servings of fish should be consumed every week.
• Substitute seltzer water or plain water flavored with fresh fruit slices for soda or fruit juice.
• Instead of frying meats, bake them in the oven.
• Substitute non-fat Greek yogurt for sour cream. Greek yogurt tastes similarly sour.
• Choose whole grain cereals over sugar-filled ones. Try using cinnamon instead of sugar as a topping.

Source:- What’s the Difference Between ‘Good’ and ‘Bad’ Cholesterol?

Luckiest House of the Day: Ursine (Bear) That hard work will pay off. Be there to enjoy it.
Sanguine Houses of the Day: Canid (Wolf), Feline (Cat), Serpentes (Snake) Sometime today will be Sociable and Easygoing. Don't let goals get too far out of view while enjoying that carefree joy. The following might experience the following:

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• Feline (Cat) - Outgoing
• Serpentes (Snake) - Carefree

Choleric Houses of the Day: Crocodilia (Crocodile), Hyenad (Hyena), Selachimorpha (Shark) Today brings Restless and Changeable temperaments. Channel the energy but don't let theatrics to derail the day otherwise others will think you're egocentric. The following have a tendency for the following:

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• Hyenad (Hyena) - Optimistic
• Selachimorpha (Shark) - Impulsive

Melancholic Houses of the Day: Squamata (Lizard), Vulpine (Fox), Rodent (Rat) Reserved and Moody will plague the day. This will be balancing act to keep out of unwarranted suspicions, but if the mood can manage it will lead to a breakthrough. The following must resist dwelling in the following patterns:

• Squamata (Lizard) - Sober
• Vulpine (Fox) - Unsociable
• Rodent (Rat) - Quiet

Phlegmatic Houses of the Day: Chiperaran (Bat), Corvidae (Raven), Arachnae (Spider) Calm and Controlled is today's central points. The persistent ones can find plenty of time to get some self care. The following should cultivate the following attitudes:

• Chiperaran (Bat) - Thoughtful
• Corvidae (Raven) - Reliable
• Arachnae (Spider) - Passive

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