Ink my whole body lyrics

I'm 32, basically struggled with mental health my whole life so I figured it was time to take action. Turns out I'm bi-polar ( Makes sense now). So now I need to go in for a blood panel and ECG.
I just started a cycle a couple weeks ago of Test cyp 500 and Tbols to prepare for the coming work season. This is my 5th ever cycle (First one at 25). I didn't do pre-cycle bloods, i've never had issues with side effects and basically just hop on a basic cycle before summer to manage my chronic tendonitis.
Basically, I guess I'm wondering if recently starting a cycle is going to negatively impact my blood panel to the point it raises suspicion from my doctor? Should I care?

2.9.2020
SUNDAY FEBRUARY 9TH, 2020
9:12PM EST - 9:50 PM EST
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DEDICATION: HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY KEVI FROM KEVITV
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THIS VOLUME IS DEDICATED TO SHAKEVIA KANIAJAH. MY 19 YEAR OLD NIECE. SHE TURNS 19 TOMORROW. I WANT TO PUBLISH THIS BOOK, ON HER 19TH BIRTHDAY. THIS PROJECT HAS BEEN PROOFREAD. THE PROOFREADING WAS AUDIO RECORDED. HELPS. I AM WRITING THIS PROJECT AND IT WILL HELP MILLIONS OF PEOPLE. I LOVE YOU KEVI. I WANT YOU TO BE ONE OF THEM. IT WOULD BE IRONIC IF YOUR UNCLE WROTE A PLAN, HELPING MILLIONS, AND YOU DIDN'T PARTICIPATE. WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS. I LOVE YOU. I THINK OF YOU WHEN I INVEST IN ASSETS. I HAD THE PRILIVEGE OF WATCHING YOU GROW UP. IF THEY ASKED ME WHAT I DID ALL DAY INSIDE OF MY MIND? THE ANSWER IS KARAOKE. SOMETIMES AT WORK I GET CAUGHT. ENGAGING IN KARAOKE. I TOOK YOUR ADVICE FROM FIVE YEARS AGO. I MAKE MYSELF LAUGH INSIDE OF MY HEAD ALL DAY NOW. IT IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL ARENA.
THIS BOOK IS AWESOME KEVI. I JUST FINISHED IT, TWO DAYS AGO. KEVI I LOVE YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I FINISHED THE BOOK, TWO DAYS OR THREE DAYS BEFORE YOUR 19TH BIRTHDAY. SO I JUST SAID I HAD ENOUGH TIME TO EDIT IT BY YOUR BIRTHDAY AND PUBLISH IT WITHIN THE HOUR. I LOVE YOU. I WISH I HAD ECONOMIC GOGGLES TO SEND YOU, SO YOU CAN SEE WHAT I SEE. IF YOU NEVER READ THIS OR APPLY IT AFTER READING, I APPLY IT FOR YOU. THERE ARE TWO TYPES OF LITERACY I KNOW OF. READING WORDS. READING PERCENTAGES. READING THE LETTER. READING THE DOLLAR. IT'S NOT ABOUT SALARY. IT'S EARNING POWER. YOU WON'T GET IT UNTIL YOU GET IT. FINANCIAL LITERACY. AT THE SAME TIME, AS YOU CAN SEE, I BACKED OFF. I LET YOU DO YOU. IT IS WHAT IT IS. I LOVE YOU KEVI. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAKEVIA KANIAJAH. I WROTE A BOOK. RIGHT BEFORE YOUR BIRTHDAY. HERE'S PART OF YOUR GIFT. I WILL STASH AWAY CRYPTO AND STOCKS FOR YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN. I PUBLISHED THIS BOOK ON YOUR 19TH BIRTHDAY. 46
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10:38PM EST -11:35PM EST
CHRISTMAS DAY 2019
WEDNESDAY DECEMBER 25TH, 2019
12.25.2019
PERSON OF NUMBERS
CANDARA FONT
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THE INTRODUCTION: HORRIBLE MINDSET
WHAT IS A PERSON OF NUMBERS? A PERSON OF LETTERS, IS THE TERM INSPIRING THE TITLE FOR THIS ONE. A MAN OF LETTERS IS ONE WHOM WRITES BOOKS POSSIBLY. SO, CONVERSELY, A MAN OF NUMBERS, THE PERSON OF NUMBERS, IS ONE WHOM POSSIBLY SPONSORS INVESTMENTS. LIFE IS ALL ABOUT INVESTMENTS. YES, WE TOOK IT THERE. HOW MANY GREAT INVESTMENTS CAN YOU MAKE FOR YOUR CHILDREN'S SAKE? YOUR GRANDCHILDREN CAN BE PAID. THEY SHOULD BE PAID. THEY ALSO NEED TO LEARN HOW TO GET IT ON THEIR OWN. THEY NEED TO PAY THEMSELVES. HOW DOES ONE WIN THE RAT RACE??? HOW DO YOU ESCAPE THE RAT RACE MATRIX? WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WHEN UNCLE SAM COMES SLAMMING FOR YOU? WE HAVE TO HAVE GREAT INVESTMENTS FOR OUR FUTURES, FOR OUR FUTURES TO BE LESS CONCERNING OF AN ISSUE TO US. THERE IS A MINDSET OF INVESTO-PHOBIA. HORRIBLE MINDSET, FOR THE RECORD. WHY BE AFRAID OF RETIREMENT? BREAKING THIS DOWN IN AN EQUATION, RETIREMENT IS SOMETHING HAPPENING YEARS FROM NOW. SO INVESTING IN TECHNOLOGY STOCKS WHILE YOUNG ALLOWS A PREFERRED RETIREMENT FUND TO LIVE ON AND FURTHER GROW. IF RETIREMENT IS LATER, THEN INVESTING IN EMERGING TECHNOLOGIES, WHICH WOULDN'T POP OFF FULLY UNTIL RETIREMENT AGE. WHAT WE WOULD HAVE WISHED IN OUR TWENTIES, SOMEONE TO SAY THESE THINGS TO US THEN? THE LEAST FRIGHTENING WAY OF LOOKING AT THE STOCKS ARE INDUSTRY BUCKETS.
THROW YOUR MONEY INTO THE RIGHT BUCKET, BUCKET PROFITS DOUBLE AND SPLIT. THIS ENTIRE PROJECT WILL DELVE INTO CONSORTED ECONOMIC STRATEGIES. MY WAY OF TELLING YOU I WOULD SWITCH THE CONCEPTS OFTEN SO YOU DON'T SQUIRM AS MUCH. I WILL GET NO BENEFIT IN THE AFTERLIFE FOR LYING TO YOU NOW MY FRIEND, I FEAR. I INTEND TO LEAVE HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS IN DOLLARS INVESTED IN THE STOCK MARKET, TO BE LEFT TO DIFFERENT PEOPLE. THESE PUBLICATIONS ARE MERE DIARIES OF WHAT WENT ON WHEN. WHEN IT IS ALL OBVIOUS, THESE PUBLICATIONS WILL BE GIVEN OUT AS CONVERSATION ENDERS. WE LOOK FORWARD TO DISPLAYING THE CONCEPTS FROM OUR MIND ON ECONOMIC BLISS. WE ALL WANT ECONOMIC BLISS. IF I COULD WRITE A LETTER TO MYSELF TEN YEARS AGO, ONE LONG LETTER TO 18YR OLD CHAD. HOWEVER I CAN NOT, I CAN ONLY WRITE LETTERS TO THE CHAD TEN YEARS FROM NOW AND I CAN WRITE LETTERS TO YOU. SO, THESE ARE MY LETTERS TO YOU, MY FRIEND.
LETTERS BUT NOTES. NOTES ON ECONOMIC STRATEGIZING. WHATEVER INVESTMENT ARENA I AM INVESTING IN MYSELF, I WILL INCLUDE NOTES ON THE EXPERIENCES. THESE PUBLICATIONS WILL INCLUDE TRADE ACCOUNT PICTURES. I WILL IMMEDIATELY RESTART YOUTUBING AGAIN, BUT AS A FOREX TRADER'S CHANNEL. I DEFINITELY HAVE TO SAY THANK YOU TO GOD FOR MY LIFE IN WHICH I LOVE SO DEARLY. I WANT THE PUBLICATIONS I WRITE IN MY THIRTIES, DURING THE 2020'S, TO REFLECT A CERTAIN GROWTH. A CERTAIN ECONOMIC GROWTH THE WRITING PHASES SHOW. ON THE CREATIVE SIDE, I WILL BE DELVING INTO COSMIC HORROR TO HONOR THE NEED TO VENT. I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR GIVING THIS PUBLICATION YOUR ATTENTION AND I LOOK FORWARD TO ENTERTAINING YOU WITH THE INFORMATION I WAS PRIVY TO.
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DECEMBER 29TH, 2019 11:25PMEST -12:05AM EST
DECEMBER 30TH,2019
(30TH BIRTHDAY)
LAST THIRTY MINUTES OF 30TH BIRTHDAY WRITING SESSION AUDIO RECORDED AS WELL. EVERY WRITING SESSION OF THIS PUBLICATION HAS BEEN AND WILL BE AUDIO RECORDED TO SPUR STEED SPEED..
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CHAPTER ONE: THIS IS JUST MY DIARY AND SO NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY
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INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS CALLED FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. MONEY IS ONLY SCARY WHEN YOU ARE NOT FINANCIALLY LEVERAGING. FINANCIAL LEVERAGING IS AKIN TO PUTTING YOUR MONEY TO WORK FOR YOU, FOR A CHANGE. YOU WANT TO PLAY THE GAME TO WIN. IT IS A GAME AND EVERYTHING GOES BACK IN THE BOX. BUILDING WEALTH IS ALL STRATEGY. WHAT PLAN CAN YOU COME UP WITH TO GET YOURSELF OUT OF THIS ECONOMIC MATRIX MY FRIEND? INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS SOMETHING YOU DO FOR YOU CHILDREN. INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS THE LEAST RISKY THING YOU CAN EVER DO WITH YOUR MONEY. MAINLY DUE TO THE FACT, NOT INVESTING YOUR MONEY LEAVES YOU LITTLE BUFFER. IF YOU DO NOT INVEST YOUR EARNINGS, THEN WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU BURNING YOUR EARNINGS ON? THE ELECTRICITY BILL IS A LIFE LONG BILL. THE MOBILE CELLULAR PHONE BILL IS A LIFE LONG BILL. EVERY BILL IS A LIFE LONG ONE. EVERY SINGLE BILL IS LIFE LONG.
SO, IF THE BILLS ARE NEVER GOING TO STOP, THEN ONLY PAYING THE BILLS WILL NEVER STOP YOU FROM HAVING TO PAY THE BILLS MAN. THE BEST I CAN DO IS TO LEAVE WITH YOU A COLLECTION OF THE MOST STRATEGIC THOUGHT PATTERNS I HAD AVAILABLE ECONOMICALLY. THIS IS AS SAID BEFORE, A DIARY OF WHAT IS TO COME AND HISTORICALLY AN INVESTMENT STRATEGY TO ENACT. STRATEGIES ARE TO BE ENACTED AND I AM DOCUMENTING THE STRATEGIES I AM EMPLOYING NOW AT THE BEGINNING OF MY THIRTIES. FOR THE LAST THREE YEARS, THE LAST THREE YEARS OF MY TWENTIES, I HAVE BEEN ENCAPSULATED MENTALLY WITH INVESTMENT PHILOSOPHY. ALL OF THOSE WRITINGS WILL BE INCLUDED IN THESE WRITINGS JUST BECAUSE THIS IS THE FULL PUBLICATION FOR THE INVESTMENT WRITING.
INVESTING STRATEGY IS A MINDSET. WARFARE IS A MINDSET. THE ECONOMIC WARFARE CALLS FOR STRATEGY. ECONOMIC STRATEGY WILL FREE YOU FROM THE ECONOMIC WARFARE, CAUSING ECONOMIC SLAVERY. WE ARE ENSLAVED TO THE DOLLAR AND WHAT DID YOU EVER DO TO THE DOLLAR FOR IT TO ENSLAVE YOUR GRASS? THE DOLLAR LITERALLY ENSLAVES YOUR GRASS. ZEY CALL IT PROPERTY TAX. IT'S YOUR MONEY AND SADLY YOUR FORTUNE IS IN YOUR HANDS RIGHT NOW. NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, I JUST MIGHT NOT BE ABLE, TO HELP YOU AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT I SAY OR DO. SO, IF YOU ARE AN OPEN MIND, WE ARE HERE TO HELP YOU PURCHASE YOUR ECONOMIC FREEDOM. ECONOMIC FREEDOM MUST BE PURCHASED MY FRIEND.
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1:43AM EST - 2:30AM EST
NEW YEAR'S DAY 2020
JANUARY 1ST, 2020
1.1.2020
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CAPRICORN SEASON EH? (COMIC BOOK GUY VOICE) (SIMPSONS)
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CHAPTER TWO: Z'WORLDS
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MOST PEOPLE WHO LEARN WHAT I AM RESEARCHING, WILL NOT TELL YOU ANYTHING ABOUT IT, AT ALL, EVER. MOST PEOPLE, I HOWEVER, SHALL SPILL MY GUTS FOR FREE UNTIL THE AFTERMATH. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD FOR THIS LIFE AND THESE GIFTS AND SO I MUST SHARE THEM WITH Z'WORLD. SO HERE WE GO. HERE'S HOW I REALLY FEEL ABOUT FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. WHAT IS INVESTING? INVESTING IS, TO US, FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. IN WHAT MANNER ARE YOU FINANCIALLY LEVERAGING IS THE QUESTION TO ASK MY DEAR FRIEND? YES!
(PERSONAL MANDATE) YOU SHOULD, AS IN I, INVEST 80% OF YOUR PROFITS FROM INVESTMENTS, INTO OTHER INVESTMENTS. INVESTING, FINANCIAL LEVERAGING, IS HOW YOU ARE GOING TO RETIRE YOURSELF AND YOUR FAMILY. YOUR LOVED ONES WILL FINANCIALLY BENEFIT FROM YOUR SUCCESS BECAUSE YOU ARE GOING TO ENJOY RETIRING THEM, ECONOMICALLY, BUYING THEIR FREEDOM PAPERS. YOU'RE ACTUALLY GIVING THEM THEIR FREEDOM PAPERS SO THEY CAN PURCHASE THEIR FREEDOM THEIR SELVES. THIS IS WHY I AM NOT EVER AFRAID ANYMORE, OF LEVERAGING THE DOLLAR.
THE DOLLAR, IS A DEFLATING TIRE. I SHALL LEVERAGE, THE DEFLATING TIRE, THUS HAVING A TEE-PEE HUT FULL OF TIRES BEING LEVERAGED. I DIDN'T DEFLATE SAID TIRE, THE GAME WAS RIGGED. RIGGED OR NOT WE WON. WE WON. WHO WON? WE WON. WHO IS WE? WE. YOU. ME. WE. I'M TAKING YOU WITH ME. IF IT'S IN YOUR DESTINY TO SEE THE WHITE RABBIT. HERE IS THE WHITE RABBIT. HERE IS THE WHITE RABBIT, TO ESCAPING THE ECONOMICAL MATRIX. MONOPOLY IS A BOARD GAME, CLEARLY. AT THE END OF THE GAME, NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU ACQUIRE, IT ALL GOES BACK IN THE BOX.
IF IT ALL GOES BACK IN THE BOX, YOU MUST ACQUIRE, THEN DISTRIBUTE. BEFORE DISTRIBUTING, YOU SHOULD INITIALLY CONSIDER EXPANSION. AFTER EXPANSION, ALLOW THE LEVERAGED FINANCES TO REVOLVE AND AGE. "SHOULD" IS SUCH A STRONG WORD. I HATE USING THE WORD "SHOULD". I SHOULD, STOP USING THE WORD "SHOULD". THIS IS AN INVESTMENT VEHICLE SO, "SHOULD", IS A WORD USED IN THE REALM OF PROJECTION AND SPECULATION. IF YOU FEAR SPECULATION, WHY DO YOU HAVE EXES?
ALL I WANT FROM YOU, IS AN EARLY RETIREMENT. ALL I WANT OF YOU, IS FOR YOU TO RETIRE AS SOON AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN. ALL I WANT FOR YOU, IS YOUR NEST EGG. I WANT YOU, OUT OF THE ECONOMICAL MATRIX. THERE'S NO NEED FOR YOU HERE. HONESTLY, YOU SERVICES ARE ACTUALLY, REQUIRED ELSEWHERE. ELSEWHERE YOU SHOULD GO, FOR MEANS AFFORDING RETIREMENT. THEY SAY AUTOMATION MEANS PEOPLE LOSE JOBS. THEY WERE NEVER SUPPOSED TO ALWAYS NEED A JOB TO PAY THEIR BILLS IN THE FIRST PLACE. OTHERWISE THAT'S THE WORST CASE. THIS IS THE NEW DECADE AND FRIEND, THERE ARE M O R E L E G A L WAYS TO SKIN THE EVICTION NOTICE OFF THE DOOR. THE CAT IS THE RENT. SKINNING IS A MENTAL PROCESS.
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1.1.2020
JANUARY 1ST, 2020
NEW YEAR'S DAY 2020
11:55PM EST - 12:18AM EST
12:18AM EST - 12:33AM EST (EDITING TIME)
12.2.2020
JANUARY 2ND, 2020
FROM SYRACUSE, NEW YORK
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CHAPTER THREE: AS OF YET, UNBORN
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I JUST TURNED THIRTY YEARS OLD LAST SUNDAY, DURING NEW YEAR'S WEEKEND. SO WITH ME BEING THIRTY NOW, THE MAIN THING I THINK ABOUT IS MY FUTURE. THANKFULLY FOR ME, DURING MY TWENTIES, I HAVE BEEN PUTTING IN STRONG THOUGHTS AND CONCENTRATED ACTIONS/EFFORTS INTO REALIZING AND ACTUALIZING THE YOUNG ADULT AND CHILDHOOD DREAMS I CARESSED WITHIN. SO WITH THIS, AT THIRTY, I ONLY THINK ABOUT BUILDING MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO IS WHAT WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE MYSELF. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE MY ENTIRE FAMILY. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO LEAVE AN INHERITANCE FOR ALL OF MY SEVEN NIECES AND NEPHEWS. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO LEAVE AN INHERITANCE FOR MY OWN CHILDREN, AS OF YET, UNBORN.
MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO FUND THE BUSINESS PARTNERSHIPS I HAVE IN THE WORKS WITH BUSINESS PARTNERS AND MY BUSINESS MENTOR. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO SETTLE DOWN AND START A FAMILY OF MY OWN. AN INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL HELP ME GROW MY BRAND AND EXPAND THE BRANDS I GROW FROM SCRATCH. AN INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANY OTHER PHYSICAL TASK ON THIS EARTH, FOR ME INDIVIDUALLY, FOR THE INVESTMENTS WILL ALLOW ME TO PROVIDE FOR THE WIFE AND CHILDREN I TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR. I AM NOT ONE TO JUMP INTO SITUATIONS I KNOW I CAN NOT HANDLE MYSELF IN. IF A CHILD COSTS TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY THOUSAND DOLLARS, ONE QUARTER OF A MILLION DOLLARS, I MUST GET MY EARNING POWER UP TO THE MILLION DOLLAR LEVEL, SO I CAN AFFORD TO SIMULTANEOUSLY FINANCE THE GROWTH OF FOUR CHILDREN.
LET'S SAY I HAD FOUR CHILDREN, AND AN EARNING POWER OF ONE MILLION DOLLARS PER SEASON. THAT WOULD BE FOUR MILLION DOLLARS PER YEAR. THAT'S ONE MILLION DOLLARS PER SEASON TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE CHILD'S LIFE, EACH CHILD. THE REMAINING INCOME FROM THE EARNING POWER MUST GO INTO VARIOUS DIVERSE INVESTMENT VEHICLES FOR THE CHILDREN. THE FUTURE OF THE FAMILY RAISING ME UP TO PREVIOUS POINTS, IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO ME BEFORE HAVING CHILDREN OF MY OWN. I SET A PERSONAL GOAL FOR MYSELF; TO NOT CREATE A FAMILY OF MY OWN, UNTIL I HAVE FULLY FINANCED THE FAMILY I ORGINATED FROM. WITH THIS GOAL FINISHED, WHENEVER I DO IN FACT FINISH IT, I WILL BEGIN PUTTING AWAY INVESTMENTS FOR MY FUTURE CHILDREN.
I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MYSELF. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MY FUTURE CHILDREN. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MY FAMILY OF ORIGIN. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR ALL BUSINESS PARTNERS AND THE MENTOR. THIS WOULD MEAN, I WOULD HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS SET UP FOR THE PEOPLE I CHERISH. THE INVESTMENTS IN MY OWN INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS, I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH THEM, IF I AM STILL ALIVE WHEN THEY BLOSSOM. THEY WOULD ONLY BE IN MY ACCOUNT, SO I WOULD HAVE ACCESS TO A STASH OF STOCKS, CRYPTO, AND INVESTMENTS, I COULD LIQUIDATE MYSELF, DURING MY LIFETIME. THOSE INVESTMENTS WILL OF COURSE, BE IN MY WILL AS WELL. I WILL ONLY HAVE A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF MONEY INVESTED IN MY PERSONAL ACCOUNTS. THE AMOUNT MAY STILL IN FACT BE STAGGERING BUT NEVERTHELESS, IT WILL PAIL IN COMPARISON, TO THE ACCOUNTS LEFT IN MY WILL FOR MY LOVED ONES. I INTEND TO HAVE MY LOVED ONES AS WELL, SIGN UP FOR THE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS, SO I CAN BUILD THEIR ACCOUNTS FOR THEM WITH MY CAPITAL.
I REALLY JUST CARE ABOUT MAKING SURE THAT I DID IN FACT LOOK OUT FOR ALL OF THOSE WHOM I LOVED SO DEARLY. PERFECT SEGUE. WE ARE NOT INVESTING OUR EARNED INCOME FOR OURSELVES, PRIMARILY. WE ARE INVESTING OUR EARNED INCOME, FOR THE SAKE OF OUR FAMILIES AND LOVED ONES. NOTHING MATTERED TO US MORE, THAN THOSE WE LOVE. WE ALL LOVE A PRE-SELECTED GROUP OF PEOPLE, MOSTLY COMPRISED OF FAMILY AND FRIENDS. ANY CHILDREN WE HAVE QUICKLY BECOME LOVED ONES, IMMEDIATELY. IT IS THEM, WE ARE TO KEEP IN MIND, WHEN WE CONSIDER BUILDING INVESTMENT PORTFOLIOS. MY ULTIMATE GOAL, THE DEFINITE CHIEF AIM, OF THESE CREATIVE ENDEAVORS, WOULD BE TO HELP YOU RETIRE YOURSELF, AND YOUR FAMILIES, AS QUICKLY AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE. EARLY RETIREMENT IS ONE OF THE MOST HUMANE ACTIONS, A HUMAN BEING CAN PERFORM. THERE IS NOTHING MORE IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE, THAN YOUR PERSONAL RETIREMENT, AND YOUR CHILDREN'S INHERITANCE. I AIM TO HELP YOU ACHIEVE WHATEVER GOALS YOU HAVE PREVIOUSLY SET FOR YOURSELF. I AIM TO HELP YOU IN ACHIEVING THE PERSONAL GOALS, YOU HAVE YET TO SET FOR YOURSELF. THE MAIN THING YOU HAVE TO DO, PERSONALLY, IS TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, AND TO BELIEVE WITHIN YOURSELF, IT IS IN FACT POSSIBLE. IF YOU DO NOT SEE YOUR GOALS, AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE, AS A HUMAN BEING, YOU SHOULD BE UTTERLY ASHAMED OF YOURSELF. COMMA.
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2:08AM EST - 3:08AM EST
SATURDAY JANUARY 4TH, 2020
1.4.2020
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CHAPTER FOUR: PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY
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WE ARE STARTING THIS PROJECT OFF, CONCEPT WISE PER CHAPTER, GRADUALLY. BUT WHAT IF WE THREW YOU, IN THE DEPTH POOL? HERE WE GO. YOU ARE NOW IN THE POOL. HOLDING COMPANIES. INVESTING CAPITAL, FOR COMPANIES, IN EXCHANGE FOR DIVIDENDS FROM SHARES. SHARE WEAR. WEAR SHARE. DIVIDENDS FROM WHERE? HOLDING SHARES FROM COMPANIES, IS PUTTING YOUR MONEY INTO A BUCKET. FIRST YOU NEED A BUCKET LIST. IN THIS UNIVERSE, YOU PUT YOUR MONEY IN THE RIGHT BUCKET, AT THE RIGHT PROFIT MARGIN TIME FRAME, THE MONEY DOUBLES FOR DECADES. A GOOD THREE DECADES THE MONEY WILL DOUBLE. SOMETIMES I FEEL THE EMERGING MARKETS, AS A PART OF DESTINY.
IN MY TWENTIES, I WAS OF A CONSUMER'S MIND VS. FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. AT THIS POINT, I ONLY WANT TO BUY FOOD AND CLOTHING WITH EARNED INCOME FROM WORK. I DID NOT KNOW CERTAIN KEYWORDS TO SHAKE THE FEAR. HOLDING SHARES IN EMERGING MARKETS. MARKETS IN HEAVY DEVELOPMENT. MARKETS POISED TO ERUPT WITHIN A DECADE. MY THIRTIES, I REALIZE NOW, GIVES ME, ONE MORE CHANCE AT PURE YOUTH. ADDING TO THIS DECADE, THE APPLICATION OF EVERYTHING LEARNED, DURING THE RESEARCH IN MY TWENTIES. I AM USING THE TOBACCO MONEY, BAD HABIT MONEY, TO BUY SHARES. ONE WAY OF FUNDING. FIRST WAY OF FUNDING. ANOTHER WAY OF FUNDING IS THRU EARNED INCOME. ANOTHER WAY IS THRU RETURN ON PREVIOUS INVESTMENTS.
THE BUCKET LIST OF EMERGING MARKETS IS THE LIST OF PREVIOUS INVESTMENTS. MARKET CAPITALIZATION IS THE PERCENTAGE OF THE MARKET, THE COMPANY ADHERES TO. HOW MUCH MONEY FROM THE MARKET, DOES THIS COMPANY OR INDUSTRY OWN? IT IS A GAME NAMED "PROFIT MARGINS VS. PRICE LEVELS". WHEN A COMPANY GOES PUBLIC ON THE STOCK MARKET, THE INITIAL PRICE AT THE OPEN ON IT'S FIRST DAY IS THE IPO. THE INITIAL PUBLIC OPEN, THE FIRST PRICE LEVEL AND PROFIT MARGIN. YOU ARE PLAYING, PROFIT MARGIN PRICE LEVEL. WE ARE IN THE TECHNOLOGICAL ERA. TECHNOLOGY STOCKS, WHAT KIND OF TECHNOLOGY STOCKS?
EMERGING TECHNOLOGIES. DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES. DISRUPTIVE INDUSTRIES, EMERGING INDUSTRIES, THE NEW REVOLUTIONS AND AGES. THEY CAN BE A PART OF YOUR RETIREMENT FUND MAN. THESE KEYWORDS ARE TIMELESS. THE STOCKS FOR THIS TIME PERIOD, THIS AGE OR REVOLUTION, IS TIME SENSITIVE. THEREFORE, THIS PUBLICATION WILL INEVITABLY SERVE AS A DAMMIT I SAW IT COMING. ON PAPER. ON PAPER, THE STOCK BUCKET LIST, IS THE FUTURE. YOU ARE LITERALLY INVESTING IN THE FUTURE INDUSTRIES OF THE FUTURE, IN THE PRESENT. IN THE PRESENT, YOU MUST REMEMBER, THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT. THERE ARE NANO FLIES IN THE HOOD. INVEST IN NANO FLIES, GET OUT OF THE HOOD. THE GHETTO DOESN'T NEED US. WE NEEDED THE GHETTO TO BRING US HERE. NOW, IT IS TIME. TIME FLIES QUICKLY. WOULD YOU SAY?
WE CALL IT "NBC ART". NANO TECHNOLOGY. BIO METRICS. CRYPTO, CYBER NETICS, CYBER SECURITY, ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE, ROBOTICS, TRANS HUMAN INDUSTRIES, PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY. COGNITIVE AND NEURO SCIENCE, BIO SCIENCE, ENTERPRISING SOFTWARE. SOON WE WILL GO TO THE LIST OF 100 DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES. WAS THIS SWIM, THIS CHAPTER, DEEP ENOUGH FOR DEPTH?
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6:30PM EST - 7:10PM EST
1.4.2020
SATURDAY JANUARY 4TH 2020
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CHAPTER FIVE: PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY CONTINUED
HOLDING STOCKS WILL BE MY NEST EGG. WE MUST UTILIZE THE TECHNOLOGICAL INNOVATIONS OF OUR DAYS, IN OUR LIVES, FOR THE BETTER OPPORTUNITIES OUT THERE, AWAITING OUR HEIRS. I AM NOTHING MORE THAN A STUDENT. I WILL NEVER BE ANYTHING MORE THAN A GRAND STUDENT. I LEARN WHAT I MUST APPLY. I MUST APPLY WHAT I'VE LEARNED. WHAT IS AN ASSET CLASS? THAT'S WHAT I WOULD ASK ALEXA. HEY SIRI. HEY GOOGLE. OK GOOGLE. WE ARE ENTERING THE ALEXA AGE. THE ALEXA REVOLUTION HAS TAKEN PLACE SEAMLESSLY. IT APPEARS AS IF MORE PEOPLE ADORE HER THAN NOT. CAN ALEXA TESTIFY IN COURT?
THERE'S A NEW TYPE OF ASSET. THE DIGITAL ASSET. WHEN WOULD THE DIGITAL ASSET APPEAR? IN THE AFTER THE. AFTER THE DIGITAL REVOLUTION, THE DIGITAL ASSET APPEARS, IN THE DIGITAL AGE. WE HAVE BEEN IN THE DIGITAL AGE, I FEEL MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. I WAS BORN DURING THE DIGITAL REVOLUTION. MILLENNIAL. I SAW THE WORLD DIGITIZE. IT WAS BEAUTIFUL. I HAD NO IDEA. I HAD NO IDEA I WOULD STUDY THOSE TIME PERIODS. DIGITAL ASSETS, DIGITAL CURRENCY. DIGITAL CURRENCY UNITS. DCUS. HOLDING DCUS ARE THE START OF THE STOCK PORTFOLIO.
THE FUNNY. THE FUNNY THING ABOUT THE FIAT AMERICAN DOLLAR, IS INFLATION. THE PURCHASING POWER IS LESS THAN THE DOLLAR IT IS POSING AS. DIGITAL CURRENCY HOWEVER, EVENTUALLY EXCEEDS ONE DOLLAR IN VALUE, PER UNIT. SO, WHILE YOU ARE FIGURING OUT WHICH INDUSTRIES AND COMPANIES TO INVEST IN, YOU ARE HOLDING THE STOCK FUNDS, IN A DIGITAL ASSET PORTFOLIO. AS THE DIGITAL CURRENCY UNITS ENHANCE PRICE LEVELS, YOU CAN NOW AFFORD MORE SHARES. OUR GOAL HERE, FOR YOU ALL, IS TO PROVIDE AS GREAT A SERVICE AS POSSIBLE. BEING PUBLISHED, I HAVE TO SPILL THE GUTS.
DIGITAL CURRENCY ISN'T INFLATED. IF YOU CAN MANAGE TO UTILIZE THE TECHNOLOGICAL ADVANCES DURING YOUR LIFETIME, YOU SHOULD INVEST IN THEM. RISE WITH THE EMERGING MARKETS MY FRIEND. THE EMERGING INDUSTRIES COULD UTILIZE YOUR CAPITAL IN THEIR ENDEAVORS. THEY WOULD BE EVER SO GRACIOUS TO YOU. YOU'D PROBABLY GET DIVIDENDS. YOU COULD SHARE THOSE SHARES. YOU COULD LEAVE THOSE SHARES, TO YOUR CHILDREN, OR THEIR CHILDREN. IN ESSENCE, I AM ACTUALLY PUBLISHING A TREASURE MAP. IT'S FAIRLY ODD. SHOUT OUT TO MY PARENTS. SHOUT OUT TO THE "EBONY TREASURE MAP". THE BITS OF THE BOOK I WAS ABLE TO FINISH DURING AGE TWENTY WAS GREAT TO AND FOR ME.
WHEN YOU GO SHOPPING FOR GROCERIES AND YOU ARE LOOKING FOR CEREAL, WHERE DO YOU GO? THE CEREAL ISLE. YOU SHOP FOR STOCKS, BASED ON THE ISLE. THE EMERGING ISLES. THE ISLES EVERYONE IS NOT ON. WHEN YOU FINALLY FIND THE CEREAL, IN THE CEREAL ISLE, YOU'RE ON THE RIGHT ISLE. GET EVERY BOX YOU CAN AFFORD. THERE'S A MILLION DOLLAR PRIZE IN THOSE BOXES. NOT IN ALL OF THEM, MAYBE, BUT NOT ALWAYS ALL OF THEM. THERE ARE BILLIONS OF PRIZES IN CERTAIN CEREAL BRANDS. PURCHASE THE RIGHT CEREAL, LEAVE AN INHERITANCE. I FEEL LIKE, THE BEST WAY TO MAKE A BILLION DOLLARS, IS TO PROMISE TO GOD YOU'LL GIVE HALF OF IT AWAY TO OTHER PEOPLE. THAT'S HOW I DID IT. NO ONE KNOWS YOUR FUTURE NET WORTH, THEY MOSTLY TREAT YOU BASED ON YOUR CURRENT NET WORTH. THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT FOR ALL OF US. LOOK AT WHAT I AM WRITING AND WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING AT. INTERNALIZING. I WANT YOU TO HAVE THE ECONOMIC POWERS I WIELD. IT'S A CIRCUS AND A JUNGLE OUT HERE. THE CIRCUS IS INSIDE OF THE JUNGLE. STAY OUT OF THE CIRCUS, TO GET OUT OF THE JUNGLE.
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7:05PM EST - 8:05PM EST
SUNDAY JANUARY 5TH, 2020
1.5.2020
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CHAPTER SIX: HOLDING
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HOLDING STOCKS IS FOR BUILDING ECONOMIC POWER. IF YOU CAN MANAGE TO BUILD YOUR ECONOMIC POWER, BEFORE THE STOCKS SURGE, YOU CAN BUY AS MANY STOCKS AS YOU WANT TO. NOT ONLY SHOULD YOU BUY STOCKS, YOU NEED TO BUY STOCKS. WE EMPHATICALLY IMPLORE YOU. STRAIGHT UP, YOU'RE NOT HOLDING STOCKS FOR ME. I WON'T SEE A DOLLAR. YOU KNOW IT. THERE'S NO WAY. YOU ARE HOLDING PORTFOLIOS, FOR YOUR CHILDREN'S INHERITANCE. RIGHT?
WE ARE HERE TO HELP YOU RETIRE. BUY AS MANY STOCKS IN THE EMERGING MARKETS AND DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES, AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN. YOU WILL RETIRE SOON. I AM A VERY SPIRIT FILLED INDIVIDUAL. I HAVE MY OWN WAVE. WE ARE IN A NEW WAVE. THIS WAVE IS NOT OF MY DOING. I CAN SEE THE WAVE EMERGING ON THE RISE. WITH ECONOMICAL SURFBOARD IN HAND, AFTER LETTING YOU KNOW WHAT THIS WAVE IS CAPABLE OF DOING FOR US, I BID YOU FAREWELL. WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS. I WAS ACTIVELY PURSUING ECONOMIC FREEDOM, THIS IS ALL THAT MATTERED ABOUT ME. I PUBLISHED THE NOTES AND STRATEGY AND THEN I BID YOU FAREWELL.
POSTERITY. FIND OUT ABOUT AS MANY DIFFERENT, LEGITIMATE, WAYS TO LEVERAGE FINANCES. LIMIT YOUR CONSUMPTION EXPENSES, AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. INVEST YOUR BAD HABIT MONEY, INTO THE STOCK MARKET. THOSE WORDS CAUSE FEAR. THIS PUBLICATION, HELPS TO SERVE THE NOTION, FEAR ITSELF IS THE ONLY THING TO FEAR. FDR. I CAN EARN BILLIONS FOR MYSELF AND MY FAMILY. MY CHILDREN. MY BUSINESS PARTNERS. MY MENTOR. EVEN THERE IT IS STILL MUCH FURTHER TO GO. HELP WISE. SERVICE TO OTHERS. SO THIS PUBLICATION, DOES IT'S OWN DAMAGE. DAMAGE TO WHAT, I'M NOT GOING THERE WITH YOU. I JUST WANT TO HELP AS MANY PEOPLE RETIRE AS EARLY AS POSSIBLE.
I FEEL IT DEEP WITHIN MY HEART. ONCE YOU CROSS OVER, YOU TAKE NOTHING WITH YOU. I CAN EARN BILLIONS OF DOLLARS. MONEY CAN BE PUT IN MY CASKET, I STILL DIDN'T TAKE IT. IT'S ALL ABOUT DISTRIBUTION. THE ACCOUNTS I SET UP WILL ONLY HAVE WHAT I NEED IN THEM AND THE REST WILL BE DISTRIBUTED. STOCKS AND ALL DIGITAL ASSETS, UNTIL WE COMPLETE THE LIST. FOR NOW, THE FIRST MILLIONS EARNED, GO INTO HOLDING PORTFOLIOS OF ALL KINDS. STARTING WITH THE STOCKS AND CRYPTO CURRENCIES, HEADING TOWARDS COMMERCIAL AND RESIDENTIAL REAL ESTATE. FLIIPPING HOUSE EQUITIES, TAX LIENS, JOINT VENTURES. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN THE BIG DREAMER. NOW I MUST ACT THEM OUT. DAY BY DAY, IMPLEMENT MORE STRATEGIC HABITS INTO THE SPARE TIME I HAVE.
AT THIRTY, THIS IS GENERALLY WHEN ONE WOULD DELVE INTO FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. I BARELY MADE IT. THE THREE YEAR PREPARATION STUDIES CURVED THE BEND AHEAD. AT THIRTY, AT THIS POINT, I AM FINANCIALLY NEUTRAL, MY DECISIONS BROUGHT ME HERE, TO THIRTY AND NEUTRAL. MY DECISIONS FROM HERE ON OUT, WILL DETERMINE THE LIFE'S SAKE. I BARELY MADE IT. THREE YEARS FROM NOW, WILL BE TEN YEARS FROM THE FIRST ASSET PURCHASED. THE DIGITAL ASSET, THE FIRST EVER. I HAVE WAY MORE STUDYING TO DO. I MUST INCREASE THE STUDYING, AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. ASAP. AMAP. THE APPLICATION OF WHAT IS STUDIED MUST BE ALL THE THRITIES ARE ABOUT. IF YOU LIVE TO SEE FORTY, THIRTY FIVE FOR YOU. CHILDREN. I HAVE FIVE YEARS TO CREATE THE DREAM SCAPE I WANT FOR MY LIFE SITUATION AND LIFE, BEFORE HAVING A CHILD INSERTED INTO IT BY MY OWN GLANDS. AT MY OWN GLANDS. I WANT TO BE A STAY AT HOME DAD. WE MAKE MONEY FROM HOME OVER HERE BABY.
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SATURDAY JANUARY 11TH, 2020
1.11.2020
6:38PM EST - 7:00PM EST
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CHAPTER SEVEN: ANY RETURN ON YOUR INVESTMENTS
ANY RETURNS ON YOUR INVESTMENTS, MUST SEE THE TAXES FOR IT PAID. IF YOU RETAIN THE PROFITS INSIDE OF MORE INVESTMENTS, OR THE SAME INVESTMENT, YOU DON'T GET TAXED UNTIL YOUR CAPITAL IS DONE GAINING. INVESTING IS IN YOUR BEST INTEREST. INVESTING FOR YOUR BLOOD, IS IN YOUR BEST INTEREST. HOLDING STOCKS IS HOW YOU WILL RETIRE SOON. WITHIN THE DECADE, OF READING THIS MANIFESTO. IF YOU CAN SOMEHOW MANAGE TO ENACT THE STRATEGY, AS MUCH AS I WANTED TO DO, YOU MY FRIEND SHALL RULE YOUR OWN WORLD. RULING YOUR OWN WORLD, IS NOT BEYOND YOUR REACH. HOWEVER, OUR REACH, SHOULD ALWAYS EXCEED OUR GRASP.
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CHAPTER SEVEN SESSION TWO:
1.12.2020
SUNDAY DECEMBER 12TH, 2020
1:42AM EST - 2:54AM EST = 1HR 2M
AT THIRTY YEARS OLD, I AM TERRIFIED OF THE RAMIFICATIONS OF NOT HOLDING STOCKS. OH BOY, I MUST REMEMBER, I WILL BE FORTY, WITH GOD'S GRACES, GOD WILLING, SO I MUST CONTINUE SETTING UP MY LIFE. IN MY TWENTIES, I WAS PURSUING THE ARTISTIC PORTFOLIO. FILMMAKER AND NOVELIST. WHAT NO ONE I KNEW TOLD ME, WAS WHAT I NOW TELL PEOPLE OF, IN REGARDS TO TECH STOCKS. AT THIS POINT, WE GET A DEEP SENSE OF RELIEF, KNOWING WE ARE INVESTING OUR BLACK AND MILD MONEY INTO TECH STOCKS, INCLUDING CRYPTO.
DOING WHAT I AM DOING NOW, WITH INVESTING, IN MY TWENTIES, WOULD HAVE FUNDED CXF AND DXC BY NOW. THAT'S THE REALIZATION OF THE TWENTIES. MY TWENTIES. IN THE 2010s. IN MY THIRTIES, I MUST INVEST AS MUCH AS I CAN INTO MY HOLDINGS. LEARNING TO TRADE, WAS TO FURTHER THE HOLDING ABILITIES. NOW, I HAVE TO TAKE PROFIT FROM THE TRADING. WHEN THE MONEY DOUBLES, PULL IT OFF AND PLACE IT IN THE CURRENCY'S RESPECTIVE WALLET. THEN SEND THE CURRENCY OUT TO HOLD AS CRYPTO, OR TO PURCHASE STOCKS AND REAL ESTATE.
WITH THIS SAID, I MANAGE TO GET THE TRADING RIGHT, THE PROFITS WILL JUST FLOW INTO THE HOLDINGS. THE EARNED INCOME FROM ACTIVE INCOME, WORKING JOBS, WILL GO INTO BILLS AND STOCKS AND CRYPTO. THE BETTER THE TRADING GOES, THE MORE STOCKS CAN BE PURCHASED IN OTHER'S ACCOUNTS. FOR OTHERS. FOR NOW, PURCHASE THEM IN YOUR ACCOUNTS, WITH YOUR MONEY. THE TRADING PROFITS WILL CREATE A MONEY MAKING MACHINE, FROM, TWO MONEY MAKING MACHINES.
EVEN WITHOUT THE TRADING, THE HOLDING PROFIT RETURNS WILL BE MILLIONS. PURCHASING SPECIFIC INDUSTRY STOCKS, OVER THE NEXT DECADE, MY THIRTIES, WILL BRING IN A BILLION, I CAN SEE THAT. TRADING AND HOLDING FROM THE TRADING, FOR TEN YEARS, ON TOP OF HOLDING FROM SLAVE WAGES, WILL DEFINITELY SEE IT FIT FOR BILLIONS. GET THE TRADING, NOW YOU'RE STILL WORKING SLAVE WAGES, BUT THROWING THE HALF OR FULL CHECK INTO THE HOLDINGS. THE TRADING PROFITS NOW PAY FOR THE BILLS, HOWEVER, THE REST OF THE PROFITS GO INTO THE HOLDINGS. THIS IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT. TRADING IS HARSH TO LEARN FOR YOU ARE CONQUERING YOURSELF, NOT THE MARKET.
YOU WILL LEARN TO CONQUER THE MARKET, AFTER CONQUERING YOURSELF. THIS IS WHAT I AM LEARNING, DOING IT. I MYSELF AM TRADING. I MUST TRADE AGAINST MYSELF. WHEN I TRADE AGAINST MYSELF, I AM ACTUALLY ACCOUNTING FOR THE POSSIBILITY, IN WHICH I MAY BE WRONG. THE OTHER FIFTY PERCENT. CAST BOTH LINES.
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1.12.2020
SUNDAY JANUARY 12TH, 2020
5:47PM EST - 6:27PM EST
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CHAPTER EIGHT: THE FOREX MARKET
THE FOREX MARKET JUST OPENED 49 MINUTES AGO, EASTERN TIME. TIME FLIES, THIS IS WHY HOLDING STOCKS, IS WELL JUSTIFIED. IF TIME FLIES SO SWIFTLY, INVESTING CAPITAL INTO THE EMERGING MARKETS OF THE FUTURE, TIME AND CHANCE WILL SEE TO IT YET AGAIN, THE DOT COM BOOM. THE NANOTECHNOLOGY BOOM IS ON ARRIVAL. THE BIOMETRICS BOOM IS ON IT'S WAY. THE CYBER SECURITY BOOM IS EN ROUTE. THE ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE BOOM IS AT YOUR FRONT DOOR, RIGHT NOW. THE ROBOTICS BOOM COULD BE YOUR BEST FRIEND.
WHY NOT LEAVE INHERITANCES, TO YOUR FAMILY AND CHILDREN? WHY NOT? WHY NOT YOU? WHAT DOES THE FUTURE LOOK LIKE? WHAT SAY YOU? EVER HEARD OF CASSANDRA? ALL I CAN DO IS INVEST MY HARD EARNED MONEY, AS CAPITAL, INTO THE MERGING EMERGING MARKETS. THE SECRET LEARNED DURING MY TWENTIES. TOOK ME A DECADE TO FIGURE THIS OUT. I NOW HAVE AN ENTIRELY NEW DECADE, TO APPLY IT, THUS CATCHING UP. IF I AM TRADING FOREIGN CURRENCY, TO HOLD STOCKS AND CRYPTO, TAKE PROFIT IS THE NAME OF THE TRADING GAME.
I AM TRADING AND HOLDING. I AM TRADING IN ORDER TO HOLD MORE. I AM HOLDING, IN ORDER TO TRADE MORE. THE TRADING AND THE HOLDING, GO TOGETHER, HAND IN HAND. WHEN THE TRADING PROFITS, PULL THE PROFITS, FROM THE ACCOUNT. PUSH THE PROFITS INTO THE WALLET PIT. ALLOW THE WALLET PIT TO STACK TO SURFACE LEVEL. SEND THE WALLET PIT, TO USD AND XRP WALLETS. BTC WALLETS AS WELL PERIOD. THIS METHOD IN STRATEGY, WILL PROVE TO REIGN SUPREME OVER MY ECONOMICAL TAKEOVER OF MY DAY TO DAY ROUTINE.
BY PULLING OFF THE PROFITS FROM THE FOREIGN CURRENCY TRADING, INTO THE STOCK AND CRYPTO HOLDING PORTFOLIOS, THE HOLDING PORTFOLIO'S GROWTH SHOWS THE VALIDITY OF THE TRADING STRATEGY. THE PURPOSE OF THE TRADING, OVERALL, IS TO USE THE PROFITS, FOR OTHER INVESTMENTS. STOCK HOLDINGS ARE THE FIRST INVESTMENTS. FROM THERE REAL ESTATE. THE FILM PRODUCTION COMPANY. THE PUBLICATION MARKETING COMPANY. MEDIA PROMOTIONS COMPANY. ALL OF THE COMPANIES I HAVE EVER WANTED TO START, I WILL START THESE COMPANIES, TO KEEP ME COMPANY, WHEN THERE SEEMS TO BE NO ONE THERE TO ACCOMPANY ME, IN CREATING THESE COMPANIES.
WHETHER I SUCCEED OR FAIL, ULTIMATELY, THIS LONELINESS MAY NEVER LEAVE ME. THE BURDEN I PERSONALLY DEAL WITH. SO DESPITE THIS, I WRITE THIS. I WRITE THIS AS A DECLARATION OF WAR TO THE FINANCIALLY ILLITERATE PAST VERSIONS OF MY OWN MINDSET. I AM GOING TO RULE MY OWN WORLD, AND YOU DEAR STRANGER HAVE FOUND YOURSELF WITH THE DIARY OF A MAD MAN. THE DREAMS I HAD IN MY TWENTIES, FOR MY OWN FUTURE, WERE MY OWN. I KNEW THEY WOULD BE LIFELONG PURSUITS. MEANING I WOULD HAVE TO SPEND MY LIFE PURSUING THEM. WHAT I DIDN'T REALIZE, IS THAT WOULD CREATE SUCH A LONELY LIFE. IF THE ONLY WAY TO SEE THE DREAM THRU, IS TO PURSUE, A LONELY LIFE INDEED.
WHEN EVERYONE ELSE WANTS TO SOCIALIZE, YOU MAY NOT HAVE THE TIME. EVENTUALLY YOUR DISTANCE WILL RESULT IN WHATEVER IT RESULTS IN AND YOU MAY FIND YOURSELF, PONDERING ON THE EFFECTS OF YOUR PURSUITS. I WANTED A FAMILY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. LIKE MOST PEOPLE, I DESIRED CHILDREN AND A WIFE OF MY OWN. MY OWN PERSONAL EXPERIENCES GROWING UP SHOWED ME THE IMPORTANCE OF HAVING CUSTODY OF MY CHILD. I DON'T HAVE TO HAVE SOLE CUSTODY BUT SHE CAN'T EITHER. MY MOTHER ALWAYS TOLD ME. I REMEMBER WHAT MY MOTHER TOLD ME. AGAINST ALL ODDS.
MY MOTHER BECAME A GRANDPARENT, WHEN I WAS IN 6TH GRADE. I HAVE BEEN AN UNCLE, SINCE I WAS TWELVE. I HAVE SEEN BABY MOTHER DRAMA, TO A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL, BEFORE PUBERTY. NOT TO MENTION, GROWING UP IN A SINGLE PARENT HOME SINCE AGE 7. SO MY OWN PERSONAL FANTASY OF THE FAMILY LIFE THAT MENDS THE WOUNDS OF WHAT I PERSONALLY DEALT WITH. THE WRITING WAS ALWAYS SEEN AS A GIFT FOR ME TO LEAN ON WHEN IN PAIN. I SAW PAIN. I WROTE IT ALL DOWN. I SAW VISIONS, I WROTE THEM ALL DOWN. I WANT FINANCIAL CONTROL OVER MY OWN ECONOMIC STANDING AS A PERSON.
BEFORE I HAVE CHILDREN, I WANTED MY EARNING POWER TO SUIT MY PREFERENCE. I DON'T ARGUE OVER MONEY. I NEVER WANT TO PUT MYSELF IN A POSITION WHERE I AM. I WANT TO PAY MY BILLS HALF A YEAR IN ADVANCE AT MINIMUM. THIS WILL ALLOW ME TO INVEST. THESE TWO ACTIONS, WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE AS SOON AS I CAN. THIS ACTION WILL ALLOW ME TO FUND THE MEDIA EMPIRE I BUILT IN INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY, DURING MY TWENTIES. THIS ACTION WILL ALLOW ME TO STUDY POLITICS AND ECONOMICS, AFTER FILM SCHOOL. I CAN BEGIN TO THINK OF SETTLING DOWN WITH WIFE AND CHILDREN, THEN. I HAVE FIVE YEARS LEFT REALISTICALLY, TO GET THESE ACCOMPLISHMENTS, ACCOMPLISHED.
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TUESDAY JANUARY 14TH, 2020
1.14.2020
3:24AM EST - 3:51AM EST
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CHAPTER NINE: FINANCIALS
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FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS AND FINANCIAL SECURITIES. THESE TACTICS ARE HOW WE ARE GOING TO RETIRE, AS EARLY AS POSSIBLE. WITHIN THE NEXT DECADE, WE WILL RETIRE, FOR WE WILL BE INVESTING OUR HARD EARNED FIAT CURRENCY, IN AS MANY FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS AND SECURITIES AS POSSIBLE. WHAT ARE THE LIST OF FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS? WHAT DOES THE LIST OF FINANCIAL SECURITIES CONTAIN? WHICH ONE SOUNDS MORE LIKE THE MONEY MAKER? FINANCIAL SECURITIES, OR FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS? WHICH FINANCIAL VEHICLES, DO YOU FANCY? DO YOU PREFER BONDS OVER STOCKS? BOMBS OVER BAGHDAD. DO YOU PREFER STOCKS OVER BONDS? DO YOU FAVOR HOLDING STOCKS OVER HOLDING CURRENCIES? WHAT ABOUT DIGITAL ASSETS? THERE HAVE NEVER BEEN DIGITAL ASSETS BEFORE.
I TURNED THIRTY, TWO WEEKS AGO. FOR THE NEXT TEN YEARS, THE REST OF MY LIFE AS WELL, I WANT TO, I WILL, INVEST HEAVILY IN MY NEST EGG. AFTER THE NEST EGG, COMES THE INHERITANCE FOR THE CHILDREN, AND YOUR BIRTH FAMILY. AFTER THIS COMES THE MONEY FOR THE HUMANITARIANISM. WE ARE GRATEFUL TO GOD WE ARE IN THIS POSITION, WE MUST GIVE BACK WHAT WE OWE THE COSMOS. WHAT ARE THE DIFFERENT TYPES OF BONDS? WE MUST INVEST IN THEM ALL. THE ENTIRE LIST OF FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS, AND SECURITIES, WE MUST INVEST IN THEM ALL. FOR THE NEXT DECADE, WE MUST INVEST IN THE INSTRUMENTAL SECURITIES.
AS LONG AS WE START THIS, AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, WE WILL HAVE A GRADUAL AND CONSISTENT FLOW OF INVESTMENT CAPITAL, TRAVERSING, THRU THE WORLD OF INVESTMENTS. STOCKS, BONDS, FOREIGN CURRENCIES, DIGITAL CURRENCIES, ANY OTHER INSTRUMENTAL SECURITIES, WE WILL SECURE AS INSTRUMENTS. AT AGE EIGHT TEEN, WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PURCHASING BONDS, FOR OURSELVES. PERIOD. WHAT IF WE FOCUSED ON OUR NEST EGGS IN OUR THIRTIES? RETIRING AT FORTY IS GREAT. WE COULD'VE RETIRED AT THIRTY SO WHAT DID I GAIN, BY NOT TRAINING THE BRAIN?
I DON'T BELIEVE IN GIRLFRIENDS. IF I AM NOT READY TO GET MARRIED, THEN FOR WHAT AM I DATING? IF I KNOW WHAT I AM LOOKING FOR IN A WIFE, THERE'S NO NEED TO DATE. FIND IT AND THAT'S A WRAP. GIRLFRIENDS, HAVE NO BENEFIT. THERE ARE NO BENEFITS FROM HAVING A GIRLFRIEND. GEORGE FROM AFRICA TAUGHT ME THIS. CAPRICORN GEORGE FROM AFRICA. GEORGE ISN'T HIS REAL NAME. SHAFER. WITH WIFE, THERE ARE BENEFITS. WITH GIRLFRIENDS, THERE ARE NO BENEFITS. I BELIEVE IN AN ECONOMIC FORTRESS. A FORTRESS IS TO BE TIGHT. THE FORTRESS IS TO BE SECURE. SECURE YOUR INVESTMENTS. SECURE THE BAG. IS THE BAG SECURE?
ONCE THE EARNING POWER IS AT A MILLION DOLLARS, FROM TRADING CURRENCY, I WILL HAVE A BABY OF MY VERY OWN. IT WILL BE A BEAUTIFUL SIGHT, IF I AM EVER TO SEE SUCH A VISION. I WOULD LOVE TO TEACH MY CHILD, WHAT I HAVE LEARNED OF ECONOMICS AND FINANCIAL LITERACY, AMONG ST EVERY OTHER SUBJECT. I WAS TERRIFIED OF NOT HAVING ECONOMIC CONTROL OVER MY OWN REALITY, WITH A CHILD OF MY OWN. I WITHDREW FROM SEX ALL TOGETHER. ALTOGETHER? NOT ONLY DO I AIM TO TEACH MY CHILDREN ECONOMIC STRATEGY, I AIM TO LEAVE THEM WHAT I HAVE PUT ASIDE FOR THEM. THEY CAN GIVE MY FORTUNE TO THEIR KIDS, AND MAKE THEIR OWN. OR THEY CAN MAKE THEIR OWN AND LEAVE IT FOR THEIR CHILDREN.
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1:32AM EST - 2:08AM EST

ever since i can remember i’ve had an intense fear of Owen Wilson. i swear it probably sounds like i’m trolling but i swear i’m not. my first memory of my fear of him, was when i was about 6. my parents were watching a movie he was in, and there’s a scene where he’s naked in the living room, and then the house burns down. i can’t even look up the name of the movie because i can’t see his face without my heart racing my my whole body getting really tense, but i remember feeling so overwhelmed and anxious watching that scene. i can’t watch cars because his voice is terrifying to me. this phobia of mine came up in a conversation at work once and my team, jokingly started impersonating his famous “wow” and i started crying because it was just too much. why do you think i have this very niche phobia????

I remember when I used to look on this sub for answers to the question "how do I get over them"
I cant guarantee this will help you nor can I guarantee the process will be quick, but it helped for me so I thought it would be nice to put this out there in case it helps anyone
Also um a lot of these kinda only work if ur not super close friends with them. I mean if ur friends with them then maybe try em but itll probably be more difficult

1. Stop yourself

Do you find yourself looking for them all the time? Or thinking about them? Stop yourself from doing it. If you ever catch yourself doing that, just stop yourself and try to think of something else. I know its hard at first but if you keep doin it, it really does get your mind off of them. Or at least for me it did...

1. Find someone else to think about

Ik it sounds crazy and stupid but it worked for me so I'll put it on this list
I'm not saying go and find a whole new crush, but like, maybe if you think one of ur classmates is cute or something, think about them instead. Ur less likely to think of ur current crush if ur... options are open, I guess.... 💀💀💀
I used to think it was dumb as hell too but then I actually did it and it worked so 💀 maybe go ahead and try it if ur that desperate

1. Dont bring them up in convos

This ones for people who love talking to their friends about their crushes (me😭)
I used to talk to my friend about my crush ALL THE DAMN TIME. For a while it would be the only thing we'd ever talk about. Idk how but we never got tired of it... it was just funny ig 💀 This one was really hard for me to do. But this method combined with method #2 in this list was something that helped me SOOO much. You just need to slowly get out of the habit of bringing them up. It's a really slow process but it helps a lot, or at least for me it did

1. Resist the urge to be around them

Ik this one probably seems stupid if ur like classmates with them or something. But if you dont HAVE to be close to them, dont. I used to have a hallway crush and I would always be trying to find ways to be around them since I didnt have classes with them, and if I ever saw an opportunity, I would take it.
Dont do that
I used to tell myself "out of sight, out of mind" all the time. And it's kinda true, for me at least. Whenever I was near them, they were all I thought about. The only thing I would ever think around them was, well, them. Things like "omg they're right there how do I get them to notice me"
If you dont have to be around them, then dont

1. Focus on class if ur in school

I know this one probably seems obvious. But when I actually stopped daydreaming about them in class and focused on what I was learning, it really helped me, especially since my classes are long and I get a lot of time to just think about whatever I want or do whatever I want.
Choose to like do homework or something instead of daydreaming. Ik it's fun and nice but yknow what else is nice? Good grades and no homework 😎😎😎

1. Treat them like any other person, because they are

Dont even lie to me bro ik u fantasize about them and think they're super cool and amazing and u put them on a pedestal
When u pass by them in the halls or whatever, do u think "oh wow there they are... they're so cool" or something like that?
Well stop it bitch >:( (respectfully)
Ever had a crush before and thought "damn bruh why did I like them"?
Well ur probably gonna think that in the future enough this crush too. Might as well start early if ur trying to get over them right
Ask urself, "what's so special about them?" Be realistic. They're not the ideal human being u may be daydreaming about. The person you like so much is probably just a figment of ur imagination with their face on it

1. Focus on yourself and maybe other people too

Do you love yourself?
If the answer is no, stop right there mf
How u gonna love other people if u cant love urself huh
That's a rhetorical question dont answer that
Instead of focusing on ur crush, focus on 🤩yourself🤩
Cuz ur COOL AS FUCK
Yknow liking my old crush used to make me hella insecure. Like I would always think stuff like "they're so much more talented than me" or "they have so many more friends than I do" but like... theres nothing wrong with that
There is nothing wrong with YOU
Just cuz they might not like u doesnt mean other people dont like u too
You are your worst enemy... probably
Nobody looks at u like u do. Like if ur insecure about ur face, ain't nobody gon look at u and be like "damn they're ugly" nobody does that only assholes do
I like to believe that nobody is truly ugly and that society just sucks ass
Ok kinda went on a tangent on that last one
But uh that's all I have, or at least all I can think of rn
If u have any of ur own advice that isnt on this list, feel free to contribute and help others and put it in the comments
For those who try any of these methods and are trying to get over their crush, I wish u luck

I want to share a story for all the people who are lonely and afraid.
There's a certain background feeling that everything's not quite alright. It can manifest in many different ways, and give life to a lot of different fears. It's been with me for almost my entire life. This notion that I was different, all the observations that both others and I myself made about me, particularly on how I struggled with things most people don't struggle with. It was very isolating, because I didn't know how to put it to words, and there was no one to relate to about it.
Whenever I felt really bad, and didn't know what to do, or how to cope, I wished that a future version of myself would come and tell me that everything would be alright. That when I hit a certain age, all my troubles would disappear and I'd finally feel safe from the threat that my life would collapse on top of me and crush me.
This feeling lasted for years, decades even, at this point. Despite an early diagnosis, despite conventional success in school, and despite many genuine friendships.
But now, something's different. A ton of things are different, actually. But I think the most important two are that I started researching who I was and what I was feeling, and that I became part of a community of neurodivergent people.
I'm kind of at the point that my younger self was hoping for. Not everything's alright yet, and I don't know if all of it ever will be. But I know myself a whole lot better. I know my fears and my dreams. The world is no longer unknowable and undefeatable.
I can't really go back to my younger self. But I can turn to you. If you're anything like who I used to be, I think you can draw strength from these things: nothing is absolute. Many things you believe may not be true. You won't be alone forever, and you won't be afraid forever. Help is available, in many different shapes and forms, you just have to find the right method for you.
To be more concrete: find out who you are. Question what you think you know about yourself. Especially when you feel very strongly about something. There will be questions and thoughts that make you feel uncomfortable. Ideas about yourself you'll be quick to dismiss. Learn to notice these things, and to be alert at those moments. Start from the premise that everything you believe about yourself might not be true. Let yourself be surprised by the things you find out.
There are a ton of examples I could give, and a ton of obstacles that you might encounter, but I'd rather stay vague and leave you to discover your own path, than have you try to shape yourself to mine.
There are only a few things I can tell you for sure. You will encounter more pain and endure more fear. But you will also find more hope, and joy. You will heal. You will become the person you always dreamt of becoming, even if that dream is one you deny, even if that person doesn't look like as what you imagine them now.

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The lid closes, sealing me into the coffin sized space.
I take a few moments to run a final diagnostic on my four artificial limbs. All returned values are nominal.
The parts of myself that I have to worry about are those still made of flesh.
The only sign that I’ve been accelerated to a whole number percentage of the speed of light is the slight shudder that the infiltration pod’s internal inertial dampeners are not able to compensate for and the vacuum light turning from green to red, indicating it’s not safe to exit.
My suit is sealed and pressurized around my organic head and torso, so it’s not as if I would suffocate… No… I’d just harmlessly splatter against the side of those monsters’ ship!
Not yet… I don’t give a damn about my worthless life but I do give a damn about making those scum pay for what they’ve done… So I can’t die yet… not until old Auntie Terra has seen a return on every last credit she’s invested in me!
I know what I am… I know what the Phoenix Brigade is…
Little more than suicide the long way around(!)
A home for the hopeless… a promise of the opportunity for some satisfaction before death.
Is it ethical… hell no!
Am I going to take every advantage of it… hell yes!
The light turns green and, a twentieth of a second later, the lid is blasted from my pod and me a long with it.
I’m thrown a full 17ft in the air and, once I’ve judge that I don’t need to brace myself against impact with the ceiling, I turn my attention downward.
The idiot xenos still have their ugly faces turned to the 8ft long missile that just crashed into their gun deck and not at the 6’7’’’s worth of black, durasteel death that just burst from it.
None of them are close enough for me to hit on the way down but I’m able to calculate exactly which direction I need to dash when I hit the ground.
I touch down and the ten retractable claws on my synthetic legs rip through the flimsy metal of the floor as I bound toward the largest and closest xeno here.
Its chest has the consistency of butter as I plunge the durasteel claws of my flattened right hand through it, point first.
The xeno sack of shit (I’d guess to be no more than 300lb, despite looking like it should weigh more than a ton) hits the deck and I’m already decapitating the one next to him with the edge of my palm.
The next one at least has time to draw its kinetic pistol before my fist punches a six inch hole in its weak plastic chest plate.
The final two scream, uselessly, as I surge towards them on all fours then smash their heads into eachother, silencing them.
I cast around, scanning for any hostiles I missed. Finding none, I shorten my legs and lengthen my arms to suit quadrupedal locomotion better before flying from the room.
My mechanical arms and legs are well within their tolerances as their claws tear into the deck for traction.
The same can’t be said for my organic hip and shoulder joints which are screaming protest at me for subjecting them to this much strain.
“Alkawa! Tarra na!” shouts a gardenworlder in a language my helmet can’t decode for me.
Its friend looks at it instead of me, an opening that I exploit to turn its head into a splatter pattern on the wall.
The one who noticed me has a quarter of a second to scream before I kick it to the ground and sever its head with a stomp to its neck.
I continue sprinting through the halls of the flagship that’s currently locked in battle with the dreadnought I was just shot from, about half a lightminute away.
My plasmadaggers stay in the compartments in my thigh cavities.
As much as they are useful tools for cutting through thick doors and the like, they have a major drawback when used against organic matter in confined spaces; the steam they generate hampers visibility.
Plus, their hardly more effective than just using my clawed hands!
Wherever I come across one of the monsters, I dispatch it with ruthless efficiency.
The sympathy that the rest of Terra squanders on these wastes of life is utterly infuriating to me!
But… they aren’t here… and I am!
These scum will see no sympathy from me!
I know that I’m approaching the Bridge from the map my helmet is feeding me when I round a corner and am confronted with a hastily erected barricade.
I dive back behind cover as a volley of kinetic and laser fire is levelled at me.
The wall panel behind where I was standing is crumpled and scorched by the barrage, though, given the overall quality of xeno construction, that doesn’t necessarily mean much!
I activate a miniaturized camera in my left index finger and slide just that finger around the corner.
The feed is displayed on the inside of my helmet and allows me to examine the fortification I’m about to assault.
It’s about 50ft away, down the hall, and made of what looks like office furniture.
The lip is around 10ft from the ground with a dozen or so xeno heads and weapons poking out over the top.
It takes me 1.4 seconds to choose a route of best approach from those my helmet suggests, deactivate my fingercam and break from cover.
I tear down the hall at a speed no one could ever match using biological limbs.
I’m obviously not fast enough to dodge lasers or kinetic pulses… but I don’t actually need to be… All I need to do is move my body out of the way faster than those moronic xenos can aim their guns!
I’m still hit a few times but it doesn’t do much more than buffet my body a little and make a few scorch marks in my armor.
When I’m practically point blank, I launch my self into the air.
Even though I have more than enough power to clear the top of the barricade in this weak gravity, I intentionally aim to clip the top of it with my body, my judgment being that flimsy xeno office furniture won’t stand up to the momentum of 500lbs of man and durasteel and that the impact will likely produce a blast of shrapnel like pieces that will eliminate some of the work of putting these fuckers down.
My gamble pays off.
The one standing nearest catches a shard in the neck and falls.
Three more are hit in less vital areas that will still be partially incapacitating.
Crossfire kills as many as I do over the next few seconds until the ones left have the sense to draw their swords.
A tall one brings a screaming edge down on me but my hand shoots up to catch its wrist, uses its blade to parry the blow following from the other side, a fifth of a second after, and kill two more who happened to be standing close enough before folding the big one’s arm back on itself, impaling it on its own weapon.
Discipline breaks and the remaining ones begin scrambling to get away… None of them do…
Dropping the head of the last of the barricade force onto the ground, I shorten my arms and extend my legs, making my way through the thick clouds of steam to the door of the Bridge.
It doesn’t open for me, obviously (even xenos aren’t that stupid) but, by the method of stabbing my claws into the seal, I’m able to gain enough purchase to leverage my enormous mechanical strength to force it open.
As I do I hear a round of pulse fire and enter the room to see the second to last of the Bridge crew slumping into its chair, its head reduced to pulp.
The only xeno left in the room, who neither died on the barricade nor spared me the effort by doing the job for me, is a 15ft tall, white furred, six legged creature that looks like a giraffe.
It’s four empty hands are raised up with the palms facing me.
“We surrender, Terran! We surrender!!!” It pleads in a language that’s been decoded enough that my helmet can translate it for me “There is no need-Aaaaagh!”
It screams as I close my fist and swing a right hook into its left clavicle.
I only hit it with enough force to crack the bone and bring out a bright goldenrod color bruise but, from the way the impact buckles its body, its spindly left foreleg very clearly breaks as well!
8ft of neck pass me by as the creature falls to the ground.
When its head is around a foot above mine, my left hand shoots up to grab one of its ossicone horns.
Suspending its head level with mine, I speak “Surrender?! You want to surrender!?!?!?… Don’t make me laugh!… Did my wife get the chance to surrender?! Did my daughter?”
I’ll give this giraffe thing credit: It’s braver than most who find themselves in its position. It hasn’t evacuated it’s bowels or bladder (or equivalents) that I can see and, while it’s clearly terrified and in agony, it’s still able to answer “I… would guess not… Though I couldn’t say for certain without knowing where they served…”
“Where they served…? Where they served?!?!?!… Oh, let me tell you where they ‘served’! My wife served as a technician at Clear Smiles Dental Office!… My daughter served as a fucking KINDERGARTNER at Blue Spruce Nursery in New Aspen! Her name was Sophie! She was six! She liked to fingerpaint!… New Colorado had barely heard the War had been declared when you showed up to rain fire down on our cities…!”
“Sir… You have the wrong man… I have never been to New Colorado and did not participate in its decimation!” the giraffe thing interrupts.
“And yet HERE you stood!!!” I scream “Until moments ago you stood here, commanding a fleet fighting for the proposition that Terrans have lost our existing privileges for nothing more than being frightening to you!!! You commanded forces dedicated to the genocide of MY people! You wear this uniform… and you claim innocence!?… As far as I can see, every single xeno in this fleet is just as guilty for what happened to my home as if they did the deed themselves!!!”
“I’m only doing what I’ve been told! I would have been shot for cowardice if I had refused!” bleats the creature.
“Ah… so… you were only following orders…(?)” I hiss, causing it to obviously realize that it said the wrong thing “…the last, desperate defense of every evil being ever confronted with their crimes!” my visor retracts, revealing a burned, mutilated face “Orders did this to me!… Your orders cost me my arms, my legs, my city, my friends, my family, my LIFE!… Do you have any idea what that’s like!?”
“I… don’t…” admits the thing.
“Is that so…? Well then, allow me to give you a taste of it!” I say, my visor closing.
Dragging him by his ossicone, I stride to the panel in the center of the room. He whines protests and questions but I’m not listening.
I identify the port that I’m looking for and a cylindrical plug extends from the heel of my hand.
I jam it into the port and a moment later a computerized voice plays that my helmet is able to translate as saying “New Commander recognized.”
I look to the creature who’s command I just usurped for his reaction.
Confused is my guess…
I drag it to the bowward window and hold its head so it can see what’s about to happen.
“Computer; Target all Galactic Union ships in range!” I command.
Over the translated pleading and begging of the giraffe thing who seems now to realise his situation, I am able to discern the computer saying “Commander; that has been flagged as an action that bears significant tactical disadvan…”
“Override! Target all GU ships!!!” I interrupt.
“All ships targeted, Commander.” announces the computer, its tone neutral, while the thing that’s horn I’m holding frantically and futilely attempts to countermand me.
“FIRE!!!” I scream.
The xeno shields (the only thing that allows them to stand up to our barrages) are all concentrated forward, so their flanks are entirely exposed to their own flagship.
The thing weeps as space is illuminated with the burning ships of its comrades.
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My durasteel claws gouge marks into the stones beneath my feet as I watch my marks walking, 100ft below me.
Though they are heavily guarded, none of their guards are armed.
Carrying weapons on the xeno capital world is strictly against their laws.
An advantage of operating outside the law is that I can carry weapons!
‘The Terran representative to the xeno parliament and the half sister of the arch traitor will be nice little feathers in my cap!’ I think to myself, as I leap from the edge.
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Dramatis Personae

Since the very start of Ocean Blvd's announcement and its news dissemination, I found it obvious that Ms. Grant is throwing a negative joke towards all kinds of listeners—It's hilarious, and it's genius.
Beginning with the dawn of her career, she has been either disliked, misunderstood, or her music has been blindingly enjoyed by those there for the sound, or the general concepts/material references. "I know, I know, I know that you hate me."
I was at a listening party, and I found that her joke was solidified with it. Everyone was there because she's Lana Del Rey, and this album is 'iconic' as she opens up her self. They were talking over the music. Nobody was listening to her lyricism. It was for 'the vibe.'
The breast picture she put out was done as such for the artistic concept that is appreciation of her body. I felt as if she were testing those who saw it, and she was proven correct with comments such as, "Mother slayed again. She is so hot."
The dislike for the Judah Interlude further erases the semblace of people understanding what she is for in her themes. Smart.
Do you judge her music for being of a different sound than you want? Do you sexualize her beauty, or criticize her form? Do you not appreciate her poetry? Do you outright hate her? She has come for you with this record.
She has put all of her selves and all of her facets into a single amalgamation. Ocean Blvd is her, as a tunnel, facing how she is seen, and how it affects the ways in which she sees herself. She is incredibly intelligent, and her humor is undeniable. She's incredibly philosophical and conceptual. She is opposing her 'persona' and mixing topics that fit each other in their own contradictions, until the piece is almost its own person.
Edit — This is an incredibly simple statement that can be worded better.

Can we sue for it back?
My mom has been charging me “rent” each month saying it was to pay for my food and water bill. I assumed this money was being put in my parents joint account and then would be used to help pay the monthly bills. She asked for me to give it to her in cash, each month.
Turns out, she was pocketing the money the whole time and my dad never saw a penny of it. Not a single penny was spent on food or water. It wasn’t rent, it was a donation to my mom. My dad was still footing the entire food and water bill. He had no idea my mom was asking for rent from me. I thought he knew.
She just divorced him and ran off with all that money she’s been collecting from me. Thousands and thousands of dollars (probably more than 2k actually) that she robbed from me that I was under the impression was going toward my food and water. I thought I was being a responsible young adult paying my dues to live at home.
She lied to us...

DECEMBER 29TH, 2019 11:25PMEST -12:05AM EST
DECEMBER 30TH,2019
(30TH BIRTHDAY)
LAST THIRTY MINUTES OF 30TH BIRTHDAY WRITING SESSION AUDIO RECORDED AS WELL. EVERY WRITING SESSION OF THIS PUBLICATION HAS BEEN AND WILL BE AUDIO RECORDED TO SPUR STEED SPEED..
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CHAPTER ONE: THIS IS JUST MY DIARY AND SO NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY
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INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS CALLED FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. MONEY IS ONLY SCARY WHEN YOU ARE NOT FINANCIALLY LEVERAGING. FINANCIAL LEVERAGING IS AKIN TO PUTTING YOUR MONEY TO WORK FOR YOU, FOR A CHANGE. YOU WANT TO PLAY THE GAME TO WIN. IT IS A GAME AND EVERYTHING GOES BACK IN THE BOX. BUILDING WEALTH IS ALL STRATEGY. WHAT PLAN CAN YOU COME UP WITH TO GET YOURSELF OUT OF THIS ECONOMIC MATRIX MY FRIEND? INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS SOMETHING YOU DO FOR YOU CHILDREN. INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS THE LEAST RISKY THING YOU CAN EVER DO WITH YOUR MONEY. MAINLY DUE TO THE FACT, NOT INVESTING YOUR MONEY LEAVES YOU LITTLE BUFFER. IF YOU DO NOT INVEST YOUR EARNINGS, THEN WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU BURNING YOUR EARNINGS ON? THE ELECTRICITY BILL IS A LIFE LONG BILL. THE MOBILE CELLULAR PHONE BILL IS A LIFE LONG BILL. EVERY BILL IS A LIFE LONG ONE. EVERY SINGLE BILL IS LIFE LONG.
SO, IF THE BILLS ARE NEVER GOING TO STOP, THEN ONLY PAYING THE BILLS WILL NEVER STOP YOU FROM HAVING TO PAY THE BILLS MAN. THE BEST I CAN DO IS TO LEAVE WITH YOU A COLLECTION OF THE MOST STRATEGIC THOUGHT PATTERNS I HAD AVAILABLE ECONOMICALLY. THIS IS AS SAID BEFORE, A DIARY OF WHAT IS TO COME AND HISTORICALLY AN INVESTMENT STRATEGY TO ENACT. STRATEGIES ARE TO BE ENACTED AND I AM DOCUMENTING THE STRATEGIES I AM EMPLOYING NOW AT THE BEGINNING OF MY THIRTIES. FOR THE LAST THREE YEARS, THE LAST THREE YEARS OF MY TWENTIES, I HAVE BEEN ENCAPSULATED MENTALLY WITH INVESTMENT PHILOSOPHY. ALL OF THOSE WRITINGS WILL BE INCLUDED IN THESE WRITINGS JUST BECAUSE THIS IS THE FULL PUBLICATION FOR THE INVESTMENT WRITING.
INVESTING STRATEGY IS A MINDSET. WARFARE IS A MINDSET. THE ECONOMIC WARFARE CALLS FOR STRATEGY. ECONOMIC STRATEGY WILL FREE YOU FROM THE ECONOMIC WARFARE, CAUSING ECONOMIC SLAVERY. WE ARE ENSLAVED TO THE DOLLAR AND WHAT DID YOU EVER DO TO THE DOLLAR FOR IT TO ENSLAVE YOUR GRASS? THE DOLLAR LITERALLY ENSLAVES YOUR GRASS. ZEY CALL IT PROPERTY TAX. IT'S YOUR MONEY AND SADLY YOUR FORTUNE IS IN YOUR HANDS RIGHT NOW. NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, I JUST MIGHT NOT BE ABLE, TO HELP YOU AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT I SAY OR DO. SO, IF YOU ARE AN OPEN MIND, WE ARE HERE TO HELP YOU PURCHASE YOUR ECONOMIC FREEDOM. ECONOMIC FREEDOM MUST BE PURCHASED MY FRIEND.
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1:43AM EST - 2:30AM EST
NEW YEAR'S DAY 2020
JANUARY 1ST, 2020
1.1.2020
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(WHOA)
CAPRICORN SEASON EH? (COMIC BOOK GUY VOICE) (SIMPSONS)
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CHAPTER TWO: Z'WORLDS
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MOST PEOPLE WHO LEARN WHAT I AM RESEARCHING, WILL NOT TELL YOU ANYTHING ABOUT IT, AT ALL, EVER. MOST PEOPLE, I HOWEVER, SHALL SPILL MY GUTS FOR FREE UNTIL THE AFTERMATH. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD FOR THIS LIFE AND THESE GIFTS AND SO I MUST SHARE THEM WITH Z'WORLD. SO HERE WE GO. HERE'S HOW I REALLY FEEL ABOUT FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. WHAT IS INVESTING? INVESTING IS, TO US, FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. IN WHAT MANNER ARE YOU FINANCIALLY LEVERAGING IS THE QUESTION TO ASK MY DEAR FRIEND? YES!
(PERSONAL MANDATE) YOU SHOULD, AS IN I, INVEST 80% OF YOUR PROFITS FROM INVESTMENTS, INTO OTHER INVESTMENTS. INVESTING, FINANCIAL LEVERAGING, IS HOW YOU ARE GOING TO RETIRE YOURSELF AND YOUR FAMILY. YOUR LOVED ONES WILL FINANCIALLY BENEFIT FROM YOUR SUCCESS BECAUSE YOU ARE GOING TO ENJOY RETIRING THEM, ECONOMICALLY, BUYING THEIR FREEDOM PAPERS. YOU'RE ACTUALLY GIVING THEM THEIR FREEDOM PAPERS SO THEY CAN PURCHASE THEIR FREEDOM THEIR SELVES. THIS IS WHY I AM NOT EVER AFRAID ANYMORE, OF LEVERAGING THE DOLLAR.
THE DOLLAR, IS A DEFLATING TIRE. I SHALL LEVERAGE, THE DEFLATING TIRE, THUS HAVING A TEE-PEE HUT FULL OF TIRES BEING LEVERAGED. I DIDN'T DEFLATE SAID TIRE, THE GAME WAS RIGGED. RIGGED OR NOT WE WON. WE WON. WHO WON? WE WON. WHO IS WE? WE. YOU. ME. WE. I'M TAKING YOU WITH ME. IF IT'S IN YOUR DESTINY TO SEE THE WHITE RABBIT. HERE IS THE WHITE RABBIT. HERE IS THE WHITE RABBIT, TO ESCAPING THE ECONOMICAL MATRIX. MONOPOLY IS A BOARD GAME, CLEARLY. AT THE END OF THE GAME, NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU ACQUIRE, IT ALL GOES BACK IN THE BOX.
IF IT ALL GOES BACK IN THE BOX, YOU MUST ACQUIRE, THEN DISTRIBUTE. BEFORE DISTRIBUTING, YOU SHOULD INITIALLY CONSIDER EXPANSION. AFTER EXPANSION, ALLOW THE LEVERAGED FINANCES TO REVOLVE AND AGE. "SHOULD" IS SUCH A STRONG WORD. I HATE USING THE WORD "SHOULD". I SHOULD, STOP USING THE WORD "SHOULD". THIS IS AN INVESTMENT VEHICLE SO, "SHOULD", IS A WORD USED IN THE REALM OF PROJECTION AND SPECULATION. IF YOU FEAR SPECULATION, WHY DO YOU HAVE EXES?
ALL I WANT FROM YOU, IS AN EARLY RETIREMENT. ALL I WANT OF YOU, IS FOR YOU TO RETIRE AS SOON AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN. ALL I WANT FOR YOU, IS YOUR NEST EGG. I WANT YOU, OUT OF THE ECONOMICAL MATRIX. THERE'S NO NEED FOR YOU HERE. HONESTLY, YOU SERVICES ARE ACTUALLY, REQUIRED ELSEWHERE. ELSEWHERE YOU SHOULD GO, FOR MEANS AFFORDING RETIREMENT. THEY SAY AUTOMATION MEANS PEOPLE LOSE JOBS. THEY WERE NEVER SUPPOSED TO ALWAYS NEED A JOB TO PAY THEIR BILLS IN THE FIRST PLACE. OTHERWISE THAT'S THE WORST CASE. THIS IS THE NEW DECADE AND FRIEND, THERE ARE M O R E L E G A L WAYS TO SKIN THE EVICTION NOTICE OFF THE DOOR. THE CAT IS THE RENT. SKINNING IS A MENTAL PROCESS.
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1.1.2020
JANUARY 1ST, 2020
NEW YEAR'S DAY 2020
11:55PM EST - 12:18AM EST
12:18AM EST - 12:33AM EST (EDITING TIME)
12.2.2020
JANUARY 2ND, 2020
FROM SYRACUSE, NEW YORK
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CHAPTER THREE: AS OF YET, UNBORN
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I JUST TURNED THIRTY YEARS OLD LAST SUNDAY, DURING NEW YEAR'S WEEKEND. SO WITH ME BEING THIRTY NOW, THE MAIN THING I THINK ABOUT IS MY FUTURE. THANKFULLY FOR ME, DURING MY TWENTIES, I HAVE BEEN PUTTING IN STRONG THOUGHTS AND CONCENTRATED ACTIONS/EFFORTS INTO REALIZING AND ACTUALIZING THE YOUNG ADULT AND CHILDHOOD DREAMS I CARESSED WITHIN. SO WITH THIS, AT THIRTY, I ONLY THINK ABOUT BUILDING MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO IS WHAT WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE MYSELF. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE MY ENTIRE FAMILY. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO LEAVE AN INHERITANCE FOR ALL OF MY SEVEN NIECES AND NEPHEWS. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO LEAVE AN INHERITANCE FOR MY OWN CHILDREN, AS OF YET, UNBORN.
MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO FUND THE BUSINESS PARTNERSHIPS I HAVE IN THE WORKS WITH BUSINESS PARTNERS AND MY BUSINESS MENTOR. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO SETTLE DOWN AND START A FAMILY OF MY OWN. AN INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL HELP ME GROW MY BRAND AND EXPAND THE BRANDS I GROW FROM SCRATCH. AN INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANY OTHER PHYSICAL TASK ON THIS EARTH, FOR ME INDIVIDUALLY, FOR THE INVESTMENTS WILL ALLOW ME TO PROVIDE FOR THE WIFE AND CHILDREN I TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR. I AM NOT ONE TO JUMP INTO SITUATIONS I KNOW I CAN NOT HANDLE MYSELF IN. IF A CHILD COSTS TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY THOUSAND DOLLARS, ONE QUARTER OF A MILLION DOLLARS, I MUST GET MY EARNING POWER UP TO THE MILLION DOLLAR LEVEL, SO I CAN AFFORD TO SIMULTANEOUSLY FINANCE THE GROWTH OF FOUR CHILDREN.
LET'S SAY I HAD FOUR CHILDREN, AND AN EARNING POWER OF ONE MILLION DOLLARS PER SEASON. THAT WOULD BE FOUR MILLION DOLLARS PER YEAR. THAT'S ONE MILLION DOLLARS PER SEASON TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE CHILD'S LIFE, EACH CHILD. THE REMAINING INCOME FROM THE EARNING POWER MUST GO INTO VARIOUS DIVERSE INVESTMENT VEHICLES FOR THE CHILDREN. THE FUTURE OF THE FAMILY RAISING ME UP TO PREVIOUS POINTS, IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO ME BEFORE HAVING CHILDREN OF MY OWN. I SET A PERSONAL GOAL FOR MYSELF; TO NOT CREATE A FAMILY OF MY OWN, UNTIL I HAVE FULLY FINANCED THE FAMILY I ORGINATED FROM. WITH THIS GOAL FINISHED, WHENEVER I DO IN FACT FINISH IT, I WILL BEGIN PUTTING AWAY INVESTMENTS FOR MY FUTURE CHILDREN.
I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MYSELF. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MY FUTURE CHILDREN. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MY FAMILY OF ORIGIN. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR ALL BUSINESS PARTNERS AND THE MENTOR. THIS WOULD MEAN, I WOULD HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS SET UP FOR THE PEOPLE I CHERISH. THE INVESTMENTS IN MY OWN INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS, I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH THEM, IF I AM STILL ALIVE WHEN THEY BLOSSOM. THEY WOULD ONLY BE IN MY ACCOUNT, SO I WOULD HAVE ACCESS TO A STASH OF STOCKS, CRYPTO, AND INVESTMENTS, I COULD LIQUIDATE MYSELF, DURING MY LIFETIME. THOSE INVESTMENTS WILL OF COURSE, BE IN MY WILL AS WELL. I WILL ONLY HAVE A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF MONEY INVESTED IN MY PERSONAL ACCOUNTS. THE AMOUNT MAY STILL IN FACT BE STAGGERING BUT NEVERTHELESS, IT WILL PAIL IN COMPARISON, TO THE ACCOUNTS LEFT IN MY WILL FOR MY LOVED ONES. I INTEND TO HAVE MY LOVED ONES AS WELL, SIGN UP FOR THE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS, SO I CAN BUILD THEIR ACCOUNTS FOR THEM WITH MY CAPITAL.
I REALLY JUST CARE ABOUT MAKING SURE THAT I DID IN FACT LOOK OUT FOR ALL OF THOSE WHOM I LOVED SO DEARLY. PERFECT SEGUE. WE ARE NOT INVESTING OUR EARNED INCOME FOR OURSELVES, PRIMARILY. WE ARE INVESTING OUR EARNED INCOME, FOR THE SAKE OF OUR FAMILIES AND LOVED ONES. NOTHING MATTERED TO US MORE, THAN THOSE WE LOVE. WE ALL LOVE A PRE-SELECTED GROUP OF PEOPLE, MOSTLY COMPRISED OF FAMILY AND FRIENDS. ANY CHILDREN WE HAVE QUICKLY BECOME LOVED ONES, IMMEDIATELY. IT IS THEM, WE ARE TO KEEP IN MIND, WHEN WE CONSIDER BUILDING INVESTMENT PORTFOLIOS. MY ULTIMATE GOAL, THE DEFINITE CHIEF AIM, OF THESE CREATIVE ENDEAVORS, WOULD BE TO HELP YOU RETIRE YOURSELF, AND YOUR FAMILIES, AS QUICKLY AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE. EARLY RETIREMENT IS ONE OF THE MOST HUMANE ACTIONS, A HUMAN BEING CAN PERFORM. THERE IS NOTHING MORE IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE, THAN YOUR PERSONAL RETIREMENT, AND YOUR CHILDREN'S INHERITANCE. I AIM TO HELP YOU ACHIEVE WHATEVER GOALS YOU HAVE PREVIOUSLY SET FOR YOURSELF. I AIM TO HELP YOU IN ACHIEVING THE PERSONAL GOALS, YOU HAVE YET TO SET FOR YOURSELF. THE MAIN THING YOU HAVE TO DO, PERSONALLY, IS TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, AND TO BELIEVE WITHIN YOURSELF, IT IS IN FACT POSSIBLE. IF YOU DO NOT SEE YOUR GOALS, AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE, AS A HUMAN BEING, YOU SHOULD BE UTTERLY ASHAMED OF YOURSELF. COMMA.
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2:08AM EST - 3:08AM EST
SATURDAY JANUARY 4TH, 2020
1.4.2020
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CHAPTER FOUR: PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY
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WE ARE STARTING THIS PROJECT OFF, CONCEPT WISE PER CHAPTER, GRADUALLY. BUT WHAT IF WE THREW YOU, IN THE DEPTH POOL? HERE WE GO. YOU ARE NOW IN THE POOL. HOLDING COMPANIES. INVESTING CAPITAL, FOR COMPANIES, IN EXCHANGE FOR DIVIDENDS FROM SHARES. SHARE WEAR. WEAR SHARE. DIVIDENDS FROM WHERE? HOLDING SHARES FROM COMPANIES, IS PUTTING YOUR MONEY INTO A BUCKET. FIRST YOU NEED A BUCKET LIST. IN THIS UNIVERSE, YOU PUT YOUR MONEY IN THE RIGHT BUCKET, AT THE RIGHT PROFIT MARGIN TIME FRAME, THE MONEY DOUBLES FOR DECADES. A GOOD THREE DECADES THE MONEY WILL DOUBLE. SOMETIMES I FEEL THE EMERGING MARKETS, AS A PART OF DESTINY.
IN MY TWENTIES, I WAS OF A CONSUMER'S MIND VS. FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. AT THIS POINT, I ONLY WANT TO BUY FOOD AND CLOTHING WITH EARNED INCOME FROM WORK. I DID NOT KNOW CERTAIN KEYWORDS TO SHAKE THE FEAR. HOLDING SHARES IN EMERGING MARKETS. MARKETS IN HEAVY DEVELOPMENT. MARKETS POISED TO ERUPT WITHIN A DECADE. MY THIRTIES, I REALIZE NOW, GIVES ME, ONE MORE CHANCE AT PURE YOUTH. ADDING TO THIS DECADE, THE APPLICATION OF EVERYTHING LEARNED, DURING THE RESEARCH IN MY TWENTIES. I AM USING THE TOBACCO MONEY, BAD HABIT MONEY, TO BUY SHARES. ONE WAY OF FUNDING. FIRST WAY OF FUNDING. ANOTHER WAY OF FUNDING IS THRU EARNED INCOME. ANOTHER WAY IS THRU RETURN ON PREVIOUS INVESTMENTS.
THE BUCKET LIST OF EMERGING MARKETS IS THE LIST OF PREVIOUS INVESTMENTS. MARKET CAPITALIZATION IS THE PERCENTAGE OF THE MARKET, THE COMPANY ADHERES TO. HOW MUCH MONEY FROM THE MARKET, DOES THIS COMPANY OR INDUSTRY OWN? IT IS A GAME NAMED "PROFIT MARGINS VS. PRICE LEVELS". WHEN A COMPANY GOES PUBLIC ON THE STOCK MARKET, THE INITIAL PRICE AT THE OPEN ON IT'S FIRST DAY IS THE IPO. THE INITIAL PUBLIC OPEN, THE FIRST PRICE LEVEL AND PROFIT MARGIN. YOU ARE PLAYING, PROFIT MARGIN PRICE LEVEL. WE ARE IN THE TECHNOLOGICAL ERA. TECHNOLOGY STOCKS, WHAT KIND OF TECHNOLOGY STOCKS?
EMERGING TECHNOLOGIES. DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES. DISRUPTIVE INDUSTRIES, EMERGING INDUSTRIES, THE NEW REVOLUTIONS AND AGES. THEY CAN BE A PART OF YOUR RETIREMENT FUND MAN. THESE KEYWORDS ARE TIMELESS. THE STOCKS FOR THIS TIME PERIOD, THIS AGE OR REVOLUTION, IS TIME SENSITIVE. THEREFORE, THIS PUBLICATION WILL INEVITABLY SERVE AS A DAMMIT I SAW IT COMING. ON PAPER. ON PAPER, THE STOCK BUCKET LIST, IS THE FUTURE. YOU ARE LITERALLY INVESTING IN THE FUTURE INDUSTRIES OF THE FUTURE, IN THE PRESENT. IN THE PRESENT, YOU MUST REMEMBER, THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT. THERE ARE NANO FLIES IN THE HOOD. INVEST IN NANO FLIES, GET OUT OF THE HOOD. THE GHETTO DOESN'T NEED US. WE NEEDED THE GHETTO TO BRING US HERE. NOW, IT IS TIME. TIME FLIES QUICKLY. WOULD YOU SAY?
WE CALL IT "NBC ART". NANO TECHNOLOGY. BIO METRICS. CRYPTO, CYBER NETICS, CYBER SECURITY, ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE, ROBOTICS, TRANS HUMAN INDUSTRIES, PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY. COGNITIVE AND NEURO SCIENCE, BIO SCIENCE, ENTERPRISING SOFTWARE. SOON WE WILL GO TO THE LIST OF 100 DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES. WAS THIS SWIM, THIS CHAPTER, DEEP ENOUGH FOR DEPTH?
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6:30PM EST - 7:10PM EST
1.4.2020
SATURDAY JANUARY 4TH 2020
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CHAPTER FIVE: PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY CONTINUED
HOLDING STOCKS WILL BE MY NEST EGG. WE MUST UTILIZE THE TECHNOLOGICAL INNOVATIONS OF OUR DAYS, IN OUR LIVES, FOR THE BETTER OPPORTUNITIES OUT THERE, AWAITING OUR HEIRS. I AM NOTHING MORE THAN A STUDENT. I WILL NEVER BE ANYTHING MORE THAN A GRAND STUDENT. I LEARN WHAT I MUST APPLY. I MUST APPLY WHAT I'VE LEARNED. WHAT IS AN ASSET CLASS? THAT'S WHAT I WOULD ASK ALEXA. HEY SIRI. HEY GOOGLE. OK GOOGLE. WE ARE ENTERING THE ALEXA AGE. THE ALEXA REVOLUTION HAS TAKEN PLACE SEAMLESSLY. IT APPEARS AS IF MORE PEOPLE ADORE HER THAN NOT. CAN ALEXA TESTIFY IN COURT?
THERE'S A NEW TYPE OF ASSET. THE DIGITAL ASSET. WHEN WOULD THE DIGITAL ASSET APPEAR? IN THE AFTER THE. AFTER THE DIGITAL REVOLUTION, THE DIGITAL ASSET APPEARS, IN THE DIGITAL AGE. WE HAVE BEEN IN THE DIGITAL AGE, I FEEL MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. I WAS BORN DURING THE DIGITAL REVOLUTION. MILLENNIAL. I SAW THE WORLD DIGITIZE. IT WAS BEAUTIFUL. I HAD NO IDEA. I HAD NO IDEA I WOULD STUDY THOSE TIME PERIODS. DIGITAL ASSETS, DIGITAL CURRENCY. DIGITAL CURRENCY UNITS. DCUS. HOLDING DCUS ARE THE START OF THE STOCK PORTFOLIO.
THE FUNNY. THE FUNNY THING ABOUT THE FIAT AMERICAN DOLLAR, IS INFLATION. THE PURCHASING POWER IS LESS THAN THE DOLLAR IT IS POSING AS. DIGITAL CURRENCY HOWEVER, EVENTUALLY EXCEEDS ONE DOLLAR IN VALUE, PER UNIT. SO, WHILE YOU ARE FIGURING OUT WHICH INDUSTRIES AND COMPANIES TO INVEST IN, YOU ARE HOLDING THE STOCK FUNDS, IN A DIGITAL ASSET PORTFOLIO. AS THE DIGITAL CURRENCY UNITS ENHANCE PRICE LEVELS, YOU CAN NOW AFFORD MORE SHARES. OUR GOAL HERE, FOR YOU ALL, IS TO PROVIDE AS GREAT A SERVICE AS POSSIBLE. BEING PUBLISHED, I HAVE TO SPILL THE GUTS.
DIGITAL CURRENCY ISN'T INFLATED. IF YOU CAN MANAGE TO UTILIZE THE TECHNOLOGICAL ADVANCES DURING YOUR LIFETIME, YOU SHOULD INVEST IN THEM. RISE WITH THE EMERGING MARKETS MY FRIEND. THE EMERGING INDUSTRIES COULD UTILIZE YOUR CAPITAL IN THEIR ENDEAVORS. THEY WOULD BE EVER SO GRACIOUS TO YOU. YOU'D PROBABLY GET DIVIDENDS. YOU COULD SHARE THOSE SHARES. YOU COULD LEAVE THOSE SHARES, TO YOUR CHILDREN, OR THEIR CHILDREN. IN ESSENCE, I AM ACTUALLY PUBLISHING A TREASURE MAP. IT'S FAIRLY ODD. SHOUT OUT TO MY PARENTS. SHOUT OUT TO THE "EBONY TREASURE MAP". THE BITS OF THE BOOK I WAS ABLE TO FINISH DURING AGE TWENTY WAS GREAT TO AND FOR ME.
WHEN YOU GO SHOPPING FOR GROCERIES AND YOU ARE LOOKING FOR CEREAL, WHERE DO YOU GO? THE CEREAL ISLE. YOU SHOP FOR STOCKS, BASED ON THE ISLE. THE EMERGING ISLES. THE ISLES EVERYONE IS NOT ON. WHEN YOU FINALLY FIND THE CEREAL, IN THE CEREAL ISLE, YOU'RE ON THE RIGHT ISLE. GET EVERY BOX YOU CAN AFFORD. THERE'S A MILLION DOLLAR PRIZE IN THOSE BOXES. NOT IN ALL OF THEM, MAYBE, BUT NOT ALWAYS ALL OF THEM. THERE ARE BILLIONS OF PRIZES IN CERTAIN CEREAL BRANDS. PURCHASE THE RIGHT CEREAL, LEAVE AN INHERITANCE. I FEEL LIKE, THE BEST WAY TO MAKE A BILLION DOLLARS, IS TO PROMISE TO GOD YOU'LL GIVE HALF OF IT AWAY TO OTHER PEOPLE. THAT'S HOW I DID IT. NO ONE KNOWS YOUR FUTURE NET WORTH, THEY MOSTLY TREAT YOU BASED ON YOUR CURRENT NET WORTH. THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT FOR ALL OF US. LOOK AT WHAT I AM WRITING AND WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING AT. INTERNALIZING. I WANT YOU TO HAVE THE ECONOMIC POWERS I WIELD. IT'S A CIRCUS AND A JUNGLE OUT HERE. THE CIRCUS IS INSIDE OF THE JUNGLE. STAY OUT OF THE CIRCUS, TO GET OUT OF THE JUNGLE.
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7:05PM EST - 8:05PM EST
SUNDAY JANUARY 5TH, 2020
1.5.2020
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CHAPTER SIX: HOLDING
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HOLDING STOCKS IS FOR BUILDING ECONOMIC POWER. IF YOU CAN MANAGE TO BUILD YOUR ECONOMIC POWER, BEFORE THE STOCKS SURGE, YOU CAN BUY AS MANY STOCKS AS YOU WANT TO. NOT ONLY SHOULD YOU BUY STOCKS, YOU NEED TO BUY STOCKS. WE EMPHATICALLY IMPLORE YOU. STRAIGHT UP, YOU'RE NOT HOLDING STOCKS FOR ME. I WON'T SEE A DOLLAR. YOU KNOW IT. THERE'S NO WAY. YOU ARE HOLDING PORTFOLIOS, FOR YOUR CHILDREN'S INHERITANCE. RIGHT?
WE ARE HERE TO HELP YOU RETIRE. BUY AS MANY STOCKS IN THE EMERGING MARKETS AND DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES, AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN. YOU WILL RETIRE SOON. I AM A VERY SPIRIT FILLED INDIVIDUAL. I HAVE MY OWN WAVE. WE ARE IN A NEW WAVE. THIS WAVE IS NOT OF MY DOING. I CAN SEE THE WAVE EMERGING ON THE RISE. WITH ECONOMICAL SURFBOARD IN HAND, AFTER LETTING YOU KNOW WHAT THIS WAVE IS CAPABLE OF DOING FOR US, I BID YOU FAREWELL. WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS. I WAS ACTIVELY PURSUING ECONOMIC FREEDOM, THIS IS ALL THAT MATTERED ABOUT ME. I PUBLISHED THE NOTES AND STRATEGY AND THEN I BID YOU FAREWELL.
POSTERITY. FIND OUT ABOUT AS MANY DIFFERENT, LEGITIMATE, WAYS TO LEVERAGE FINANCES. LIMIT YOUR CONSUMPTION EXPENSES, AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. INVEST YOUR BAD HABIT MONEY, INTO THE STOCK MARKET. THOSE WORDS CAUSE FEAR. THIS PUBLICATION, HELPS TO SERVE THE NOTION, FEAR ITSELF IS THE ONLY THING TO FEAR. FDR. I CAN EARN BILLIONS FOR MYSELF AND MY FAMILY. MY CHILDREN. MY BUSINESS PARTNERS. MY MENTOR. EVEN THERE IT IS STILL MUCH FURTHER TO GO. HELP WISE. SERVICE TO OTHERS. SO THIS PUBLICATION, DOES IT'S OWN DAMAGE. DAMAGE TO WHAT, I'M NOT GOING THERE WITH YOU. I JUST WANT TO HELP AS MANY PEOPLE RETIRE AS EARLY AS POSSIBLE.
I FEEL IT DEEP WITHIN MY HEART. ONCE YOU CROSS OVER, YOU TAKE NOTHING WITH YOU. I CAN EARN BILLIONS OF DOLLARS. MONEY CAN BE PUT IN MY CASKET, I STILL DIDN'T TAKE IT. IT'S ALL ABOUT DISTRIBUTION. THE ACCOUNTS I SET UP WILL ONLY HAVE WHAT I NEED IN THEM AND THE REST WILL BE DISTRIBUTED. STOCKS AND ALL DIGITAL ASSETS, UNTIL WE COMPLETE THE LIST. FOR NOW, THE FIRST MILLIONS EARNED, GO INTO HOLDING PORTFOLIOS OF ALL KINDS. STARTING WITH THE STOCKS AND CRYPTO CURRENCIES, HEADING TOWARDS COMMERCIAL AND RESIDENTIAL REAL ESTATE. FLIIPPING HOUSE EQUITIES, TAX LIENS, JOINT VENTURES. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN THE BIG DREAMER. NOW I MUST ACT THEM OUT. DAY BY DAY, IMPLEMENT MORE STRATEGIC HABITS INTO THE SPARE TIME I HAVE.
AT THIRTY, THIS IS GENERALLY WHEN ONE WOULD DELVE INTO FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. I BARELY MADE IT. THE THREE YEAR PREPARATION STUDIES CURVED THE BEND AHEAD. AT THIRTY, AT THIS POINT, I AM FINANCIALLY NEUTRAL, MY DECISIONS BROUGHT ME HERE, TO THIRTY AND NEUTRAL. MY DECISIONS FROM HERE ON OUT, WILL DETERMINE THE LIFE'S SAKE. I BARELY MADE IT. THREE YEARS FROM NOW, WILL BE TEN YEARS FROM THE FIRST ASSET PURCHASED. THE DIGITAL ASSET, THE FIRST EVER. I HAVE WAY MORE STUDYING TO DO. I MUST INCREASE THE STUDYING, AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. ASAP. AMAP. THE APPLICATION OF WHAT IS STUDIED MUST BE ALL THE THRITIES ARE ABOUT. IF YOU LIVE TO SEE FORTY, THIRTY FIVE FOR YOU. CHILDREN. I HAVE FIVE YEARS TO CREATE THE DREAM SCAPE I WANT FOR MY LIFE SITUATION AND LIFE, BEFORE HAVING A CHILD INSERTED INTO IT BY MY OWN GLANDS. AT MY OWN GLANDS. I WANT TO BE A STAY AT HOME DAD. WE MAKE MONEY FROM HOME OVER HERE BABY.
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SATURDAY JANUARY 11TH, 2020
1.11.2020
6:38PM EST - 7:00PM EST
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CHAPTER SEVEN: ANY RETURN ON YOUR INVESTMENTS
ANY RETURNS ON YOUR INVESTMENTS, MUST SEE THE TAXES FOR IT PAID. IF YOU RETAIN THE PROFITS INSIDE OF MORE INVESTMENTS, OR THE SAME INVESTMENT, YOU DON'T GET TAXED UNTIL YOUR CAPITAL IS DONE GAINING. INVESTING IS IN YOUR BEST INTEREST. INVESTING FOR YOUR BLOOD, IS IN YOUR BEST INTEREST. HOLDING STOCKS IS HOW YOU WILL RETIRE SOON. WITHIN THE DECADE, OF READING THIS MANIFESTO. IF YOU CAN SOMEHOW MANAGE TO ENACT THE STRATEGY, AS MUCH AS I WANTED TO DO, YOU MY FRIEND SHALL RULE YOUR OWN WORLD. RULING YOUR OWN WORLD, IS NOT BEYOND YOUR REACH. HOWEVER, OUR REACH, SHOULD ALWAYS EXCEED OUR GRASP.
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CHAPTER SEVEN SESSION TWO:
1.12.2020
SUNDAY DECEMBER 12TH, 2020
1:42AM EST - 2:54AM EST = 1HR 2M
AT THIRTY YEARS OLD, I AM TERRIFIED OF THE RAMIFICATIONS OF NOT HOLDING STOCKS. OH BOY, I MUST REMEMBER, I WILL BE FORTY, WITH GOD'S GRACES, GOD WILLING, SO I MUST CONTINUE SETTING UP MY LIFE. IN MY TWENTIES, I WAS PURSUING THE ARTISTIC PORTFOLIO. FILMMAKER AND NOVELIST. WHAT NO ONE I KNEW TOLD ME, WAS WHAT I NOW TELL PEOPLE OF, IN REGARDS TO TECH STOCKS. AT THIS POINT, WE GET A DEEP SENSE OF RELIEF, KNOWING WE ARE INVESTING OUR BLACK AND MILD MONEY INTO TECH STOCKS, INCLUDING CRYPTO.
DOING WHAT I AM DOING NOW, WITH INVESTING, IN MY TWENTIES, WOULD HAVE FUNDED CXF AND DXC BY NOW. THAT'S THE REALIZATION OF THE TWENTIES. MY TWENTIES. IN THE 2010s. IN MY THIRTIES, I MUST INVEST AS MUCH AS I CAN INTO MY HOLDINGS. LEARNING TO TRADE, WAS TO FURTHER THE HOLDING ABILITIES. NOW, I HAVE TO TAKE PROFIT FROM THE TRADING. WHEN THE MONEY DOUBLES, PULL IT OFF AND PLACE IT IN THE CURRENCY'S RESPECTIVE WALLET. THEN SEND THE CURRENCY OUT TO HOLD AS CRYPTO, OR TO PURCHASE STOCKS AND REAL ESTATE.
WITH THIS SAID, I MANAGE TO GET THE TRADING RIGHT, THE PROFITS WILL JUST FLOW INTO THE HOLDINGS. THE EARNED INCOME FROM ACTIVE INCOME, WORKING JOBS, WILL GO INTO BILLS AND STOCKS AND CRYPTO. THE BETTER THE TRADING GOES, THE MORE STOCKS CAN BE PURCHASED IN OTHER'S ACCOUNTS. FOR OTHERS. FOR NOW, PURCHASE THEM IN YOUR ACCOUNTS, WITH YOUR MONEY. THE TRADING PROFITS WILL CREATE A MONEY MAKING MACHINE, FROM, TWO MONEY MAKING MACHINES.
EVEN WITHOUT THE TRADING, THE HOLDING PROFIT RETURNS WILL BE MILLIONS. PURCHASING SPECIFIC INDUSTRY STOCKS, OVER THE NEXT DECADE, MY THIRTIES, WILL BRING IN A BILLION, I CAN SEE THAT. TRADING AND HOLDING FROM THE TRADING, FOR TEN YEARS, ON TOP OF HOLDING FROM SLAVE WAGES, WILL DEFINITELY SEE IT FIT FOR BILLIONS. GET THE TRADING, NOW YOU'RE STILL WORKING SLAVE WAGES, BUT THROWING THE HALF OR FULL CHECK INTO THE HOLDINGS. THE TRADING PROFITS NOW PAY FOR THE BILLS, HOWEVER, THE REST OF THE PROFITS GO INTO THE HOLDINGS. THIS IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT. TRADING IS HARSH TO LEARN FOR YOU ARE CONQUERING YOURSELF, NOT THE MARKET.
YOU WILL LEARN TO CONQUER THE MARKET, AFTER CONQUERING YOURSELF. THIS IS WHAT I AM LEARNING, DOING IT. I MYSELF AM TRADING. I MUST TRADE AGAINST MYSELF. WHEN I TRADE AGAINST MYSELF, I AM ACTUALLY ACCOUNTING FOR THE POSSIBILITY, IN WHICH I MAY BE WRONG. THE OTHER FIFTY PERCENT. CAST BOTH LINES.
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1.12.2020
SUNDAY JANUARY 12TH, 2020
5:47PM EST - 6:27PM EST
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CHAPTER EIGHT: THE FOREX MARKET
THE FOREX MARKET JUST OPENED 49 MINUTES AGO, EASTERN TIME. TIME FLIES, THIS IS WHY HOLDING STOCKS, IS WELL JUSTIFIED. IF TIME FLIES SO SWIFTLY, INVESTING CAPITAL INTO THE EMERGING MARKETS OF THE FUTURE, TIME AND CHANCE WILL SEE TO IT YET AGAIN, THE DOT COM BOOM. THE NANOTECHNOLOGY BOOM IS ON ARRIVAL. THE BIOMETRICS BOOM IS ON IT'S WAY. THE CYBER SECURITY BOOM IS EN ROUTE. THE ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE BOOM IS AT YOUR FRONT DOOR, RIGHT NOW. THE ROBOTICS BOOM COULD BE YOUR BEST FRIEND.
WHY NOT LEAVE INHERITANCES, TO YOUR FAMILY AND CHILDREN? WHY NOT? WHY NOT YOU? WHAT DOES THE FUTURE LOOK LIKE? WHAT SAY YOU? EVER HEARD OF CASSANDRA? ALL I CAN DO IS INVEST MY HARD EARNED MONEY, AS CAPITAL, INTO THE MERGING EMERGING MARKETS. THE SECRET LEARNED DURING MY TWENTIES. TOOK ME A DECADE TO FIGURE THIS OUT. I NOW HAVE AN ENTIRELY NEW DECADE, TO APPLY IT, THUS CATCHING UP. IF I AM TRADING FOREIGN CURRENCY, TO HOLD STOCKS AND CRYPTO, TAKE PROFIT IS THE NAME OF THE TRADING GAME.
I AM TRADING AND HOLDING. I AM TRADING IN ORDER TO HOLD MORE. I AM HOLDING, IN ORDER TO TRADE MORE. THE TRADING AND THE HOLDING, GO TOGETHER, HAND IN HAND. WHEN THE TRADING PROFITS, PULL THE PROFITS, FROM THE ACCOUNT. PUSH THE PROFITS INTO THE WALLET PIT. ALLOW THE WALLET PIT TO STACK TO SURFACE LEVEL. SEND THE WALLET PIT, TO USD AND XRP WALLETS. BTC WALLETS AS WELL PERIOD. THIS METHOD IN STRATEGY, WILL PROVE TO REIGN SUPREME OVER MY ECONOMICAL TAKEOVER OF MY DAY TO DAY ROUTINE.
BY PULLING OFF THE PROFITS FROM THE FOREIGN CURRENCY TRADING, INTO THE STOCK AND CRYPTO HOLDING PORTFOLIOS, THE HOLDING PORTFOLIO'S GROWTH SHOWS THE VALIDITY OF THE TRADING STRATEGY. THE PURPOSE OF THE TRADING, OVERALL, IS TO USE THE PROFITS, FOR OTHER INVESTMENTS. STOCK HOLDINGS ARE THE FIRST INVESTMENTS. FROM THERE REAL ESTATE. THE FILM PRODUCTION COMPANY. THE PUBLICATION MARKETING COMPANY. MEDIA PROMOTIONS COMPANY. ALL OF THE COMPANIES I HAVE EVER WANTED TO START, I WILL START THESE COMPANIES, TO KEEP ME COMPANY, WHEN THERE SEEMS TO BE NO ONE THERE TO ACCOMPANY ME, IN CREATING THESE COMPANIES.
WHETHER I SUCCEED OR FAIL, ULTIMATELY, THIS LONELINESS MAY NEVER LEAVE ME. THE BURDEN I PERSONALLY DEAL WITH. SO DESPITE THIS, I WRITE THIS. I WRITE THIS AS A DECLARATION OF WAR TO THE FINANCIALLY ILLITERATE PAST VERSIONS OF MY OWN MINDSET. I AM GOING TO RULE MY OWN WORLD, AND YOU DEAR STRANGER HAVE FOUND YOURSELF WITH THE DIARY OF A MAD MAN. THE DREAMS I HAD IN MY TWENTIES, FOR MY OWN FUTURE, WERE MY OWN. I KNEW THEY WOULD BE LIFELONG PURSUITS. MEANING I WOULD HAVE TO SPEND MY LIFE PURSUING THEM. WHAT I DIDN'T REALIZE, IS THAT WOULD CREATE SUCH A LONELY LIFE. IF THE ONLY WAY TO SEE THE DREAM THRU, IS TO PURSUE, A LONELY LIFE INDEED.
WHEN EVERYONE ELSE WANTS TO SOCIALIZE, YOU MAY NOT HAVE THE TIME. EVENTUALLY YOUR DISTANCE WILL RESULT IN WHATEVER IT RESULTS IN AND YOU MAY FIND YOURSELF, PONDERING ON THE EFFECTS OF YOUR PURSUITS. I WANTED A FAMILY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. LIKE MOST PEOPLE, I DESIRED CHILDREN AND A WIFE OF MY OWN. MY OWN PERSONAL EXPERIENCES GROWING UP SHOWED ME THE IMPORTANCE OF HAVING CUSTODY OF MY CHILD. I DON'T HAVE TO HAVE SOLE CUSTODY BUT SHE CAN'T EITHER. MY MOTHER ALWAYS TOLD ME. I REMEMBER WHAT MY MOTHER TOLD ME. AGAINST ALL ODDS.
MY MOTHER BECAME A GRANDPARENT, WHEN I WAS IN 6TH GRADE. I HAVE BEEN AN UNCLE, SINCE I WAS TWELVE. I HAVE SEEN BABY MOTHER DRAMA, TO A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL, BEFORE PUBERTY. NOT TO MENTION, GROWING UP IN A SINGLE PARENT HOME SINCE AGE 7. SO MY OWN PERSONAL FANTASY OF THE FAMILY LIFE THAT MENDS THE WOUNDS OF WHAT I PERSONALLY DEALT WITH. THE WRITING WAS ALWAYS SEEN AS A GIFT FOR ME TO LEAN ON WHEN IN PAIN. I SAW PAIN. I WROTE IT ALL DOWN. I SAW VISIONS, I WROTE THEM ALL DOWN. I WANT FINANCIAL CONTROL OVER MY OWN ECONOMIC STANDING AS A PERSON.
BEFORE I HAVE CHILDREN, I WANTED MY EARNING POWER TO SUIT MY PREFERENCE. I DON'T ARGUE OVER MONEY. I NEVER WANT TO PUT MYSELF IN A POSITION WHERE I AM. I WANT TO PAY MY BILLS HALF A YEAR IN ADVANCE AT MINIMUM. THIS WILL ALLOW ME TO INVEST. THESE TWO ACTIONS, WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE AS SOON AS I CAN. THIS ACTION WILL ALLOW ME TO FUND THE MEDIA EMPIRE I BUILT IN INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY, DURING MY TWENTIES. THIS ACTION WILL ALLOW ME TO STUDY POLITICS AND ECONOMICS, AFTER FILM SCHOOL. I CAN BEGIN TO THINK OF SETTLING DOWN WITH WIFE AND CHILDREN, THEN. I HAVE FIVE YEARS LEFT REALISTICALLY, TO GET THESE ACCOMPLISHMENTS, ACCOMPLISHED.
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TUESDAY JANUARY 14TH, 2020
1.14.2020
3:24AM EST - 3:51AM EST
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CHAPTER NINE: FINANCIALS
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FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS AND FINANCIAL SECURITIES. THESE TACTICS ARE HOW WE ARE GOING TO RETIRE, AS EARLY AS POSSIBLE. WITHIN THE NEXT DECADE, WE WILL RETIRE, FOR WE WILL BE INVESTING OUR HARD EARNED FIAT CURRENCY, IN AS MANY FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS AND SECURITIES AS POSSIBLE. WHAT ARE THE LIST OF FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS? WHAT DOES THE LIST OF FINANCIAL SECURITIES CONTAIN? WHICH ONE SOUNDS MORE LIKE THE MONEY MAKER? FINANCIAL SECURITIES, OR FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS? WHICH FINANCIAL VEHICLES, DO YOU FANCY? DO YOU PREFER BONDS OVER STOCKS? BOMBS OVER BAGHDAD. DO YOU PREFER STOCKS OVER BONDS? DO YOU FAVOR HOLDING STOCKS OVER HOLDING CURRENCIES? WHAT ABOUT DIGITAL ASSETS? THERE HAVE NEVER BEEN DIGITAL ASSETS BEFORE.
I TURNED THIRTY, TWO WEEKS AGO. FOR THE NEXT TEN YEARS, THE REST OF MY LIFE AS WELL, I WANT TO, I WILL, INVEST HEAVILY IN MY NEST EGG. AFTER THE NEST EGG, COMES THE INHERITANCE FOR THE CHILDREN, AND YOUR BIRTH FAMILY. AFTER THIS COMES THE MONEY FOR THE HUMANITARIANISM. WE ARE GRATEFUL TO GOD WE ARE IN THIS POSITION, WE MUST GIVE BACK WHAT WE OWE THE COSMOS. WHAT ARE THE DIFFERENT TYPES OF BONDS? WE MUST INVEST IN THEM ALL. THE ENTIRE LIST OF FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS, AND SECURITIES, WE MUST INVEST IN THEM ALL. FOR THE NEXT DECADE, WE MUST INVEST IN THE INSTRUMENTAL SECURITIES.
AS LONG AS WE START THIS, AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, WE WILL HAVE A GRADUAL AND CONSISTENT FLOW OF INVESTMENT CAPITAL, TRAVERSING, THRU THE WORLD OF INVESTMENTS. STOCKS, BONDS, FOREIGN CURRENCIES, DIGITAL CURRENCIES, ANY OTHER INSTRUMENTAL SECURITIES, WE WILL SECURE AS INSTRUMENTS. AT AGE EIGHT TEEN, WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PURCHASING BONDS, FOR OURSELVES. PERIOD. WHAT IF WE FOCUSED ON OUR NEST EGGS IN OUR THIRTIES? RETIRING AT FORTY IS GREAT. WE COULD'VE RETIRED AT THIRTY SO WHAT DID I GAIN, BY NOT TRAINING THE BRAIN?
I DON'T BELIEVE IN GIRLFRIENDS. IF I AM NOT READY TO GET MARRIED, THEN FOR WHAT AM I DATING? IF I KNOW WHAT I AM LOOKING FOR IN A WIFE, THERE'S NO NEED TO DATE. FIND IT AND THAT'S A WRAP. GIRLFRIENDS, HAVE NO BENEFIT. THERE ARE NO BENEFITS FROM HAVING A GIRLFRIEND. GEORGE FROM AFRICA TAUGHT ME THIS. CAPRICORN GEORGE FROM AFRICA. GEORGE ISN'T HIS REAL NAME. SHAFER. WITH WIFE, THERE ARE BENEFITS. WITH GIRLFRIENDS, THERE ARE NO BENEFITS. I BELIEVE IN AN ECONOMIC FORTRESS. A FORTRESS IS TO BE TIGHT. THE FORTRESS IS TO BE SECURE. SECURE YOUR INVESTMENTS. SECURE THE BAG. IS THE BAG SECURE?
ONCE THE EARNING POWER IS AT A MILLION DOLLARS, FROM TRADING CURRENCY, I WILL HAVE A BABY OF MY VERY OWN. IT WILL BE A BEAUTIFUL SIGHT, IF I AM EVER TO SEE SUCH A VISION. I WOULD LOVE TO TEACH MY CHILD, WHAT I HAVE LEARNED OF ECONOMICS AND FINANCIAL LITERACY, AMONG ST EVERY OTHER SUBJECT. I WAS TERRIFIED OF NOT HAVING ECONOMIC CONTROL OVER MY OWN REALITY, WITH A CHILD OF MY OWN. I WITHDREW FROM SEX ALL TOGETHER. ALTOGETHER? NOT ONLY DO I AIM TO TEACH MY CHILDREN ECONOMIC STRATEGY, I AIM TO LEAVE THEM WHAT I HAVE PUT ASIDE FOR THEM. THEY CAN GIVE MY FORTUNE TO THEIR KIDS, AND MAKE THEIR OWN. OR THEY CAN MAKE THEIR OWN AND LEAVE IT FOR THEIR CHILDREN.
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1:32AM EST - 2:08AM EST
1.15.2020
WEDNESDAY JANUARY 15TH, 2020
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CHAPTER TEN: MARKRAY CORPORATION

My boyfriend and I fought, and we stopped speaking for a split second. During our split, my ex contacted me.
My ex has been in and out of my life, trying to get me back since we broke up due to his cheating. We broke up 9 months ago and he’s still contacting me. I talked to him to vent my frustration, and he advised me. I didn’t tell him EVERYTHING I was going through but small parts. My boyfriend finally returned, still mad at me, and I told him about the ex, which made him more furious than before. He thought that my ex had always been in the picture the whole time. My ex was in the picture when I started dating, and I didn’t hesitate to cut off my ex for him. Still, my boyfriend made the whole relationship about him.
Back to the split, my boyfriend started believing that I was meeting up with my ex and having sex. We got into so many fights over nothing, and in every argument, he brought up my ex. He told me several times that I should go back to my ex. Other times I wouldn’t text my boyfriend for days because I wanted him to initiate first, but he got the wrong idea. So when I did text him to see if he was ok, he would tell me that he knew that I had been texting my ex and would let me and my ex be back together and for me to leave him alone. He said it one day last month, and the next day my boyfriend called me to come over. That day I told him I had spoken with my ex for three hours before I came over, and he said he knew what I was doing. We were really on the phone for two and a half hours. That was the longest he and I ever talked, and we talked about absolutely nothing.
The relationship progressed, and my boyfriend still brought up my ex nonstop and thought I was sleeping with him. Then he eventually finally let me go like he said he would. I have been working on getting him back, but it’s obvious he’s moved on for good this time.
Our relationship was already going down over other things, but my ex boosted the downfall.

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TL;DR: I'm in my mid thirties and I have never been in a relationship with anyone before. I don't know if I could ever be and, if so, if there's likely to be more problems than usual.
Have you been or are with someone who has never been in a relationship before? Does this actually ever happen? Can it work?
I'm in my 30s and can count on one hand the number of dates I've been on. I don't even need a whole hand. I've never been in a relationship and no one has ever liked me in that way. I'm wondering if I would still have a chance to enter into a committed relationship at all. Reading real testimonies from either side of the relationship would help me get an idea of how atypical this is. And it would be helpful to read people's experience of any extra problems. Ones that come with a partner having their first serious relationship when both of you are this far a long in life.
Apologies if this is an annoying sort of post. I should probably just accept my lot and carry on. But the more I try to, the more desperate I get to ask this sort of question to people. Reddit seemed like the best way of asking a lot of people.
Thanks so much!

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7:31PM EST - 8:21PM EST
1.26.2020
JANUARY 26TH, 2020
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CHAPTER FIFTHTEEN: A HEADACHE
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I START THE HOLDINGS PORTFOLIO THIS UPCOMING WEEK. TOMORROW IS MONDAY RIGHT? E-TRADE TAKES 5 DAYS TO TRANSFER THE EXTERNAL ACCOUNT DEPOSITS INTO THE HOLDING OR TRADING ACCOUNT. HERE IS THE SCENARIO. THIS IS THE INVESTMENT DIARY, OF ALL INVESTMENT DIARIES MY GOOD FRIEND. $240 IS THE INITIAL INVESTMENT. $45 GOES TO JASON FOR HIS E-TRADE HOLDINGS PORTFOLIO. I WILL SEND HIM MORE NEXT TIME. $75 GOES TO JASON TO SEND XRP TO MY CRYPTO WALLET. I WILL CONVERT THOSE COINS TO OTHER ALTERNATIVE COINS. ALT COINS. $25 GOES TO THE E-TRADE ACCOUNT FEE FOR NOT HAVING THE $9 DEPOSIT AVAILABLE ON THE 5TH DAY OF THE TRANSFER. $125 MUST GO ON THE E-TRADE ACCOUNT. I WILL PURCHASE $100 IN STOCKS. I WILL SPLIT THE PURCHASE BETWEEN TWO COMPANIES. SMART METRIC AND RVBR MARK RAY.
EVERY $10 SPENT ON SMME, SMART METRIC, IS 1250 SHARES, AT THE PRICE LEVEL OF ONE PENNY. RVBR CONTAINS THREE DIFFERENT STOCK SYMBOLS, WITHIN THE ONE COMPANY. MARK RAY OWNS KFGL. GANS IS A KFGL SUBSIDIARY. THE PRICE LEVEL OF THREE PENNIES FOR RVBR NOW IS ONE PENNY PER CONTAINED SYMBOL. $30 IN RVBR NOW IS 3333.3333 SHARES. THE TOP TWO STOCK PICKS, ARE BETWEEN ONE AND THREE PENNIES. I HAVEN'T SEARCHED FOR RVBR COMPETITION YET. SMME WAS FOUND WHEN I SEARCHED FOR NXT ID COMPLETION. LOL. SMILEY FACE. WE'VE BEEN IMPLEMENTING THESE STRATEGIES FOR YEARS, NOW WE ARE GETTING DEAD SERIOUS ABOUT THIS CONCEPT. THIS IS A PHILOSOPHY.
$50 IN SMME COMPANY STOCK ALONE, IS 1250 TIMES FIVE. 6250 SHARES IN SMME FROM A $50 INVESTMENT. YOU WOULD WANT TO ALSO THEN PURCHASE NXT ID SHARES. 100 SHARES FOR $50. THEN YOU REALIZE THE DIFFERENCE THE PRICE LEVELS AND PROFIT MARGINS ARE BETWEEN TWO DIFFERENT COMPANIES, IN THE SAME INDUSTRY. IF SMME AND NXT ID ARE BOTH IN THE BIOMETRICS INDUSTRY, IT IS FAIR TO SAY, NXT ID IS FARING CONSIDERABLY BETTER OFF THAN SMME. I HAVE FAITH IN THE BIOMETRICS DIVISON. I HAVE FAITH IN THE SPIRIT OF COMPETITION WITHIN THE INDUSTRY. I HAVE FAITH IN GOD. I HAVE FAITH IN MYSELF. I AM A MAN OF FAITH. I'M NOT AFRAID OF THE STOCK MARKET. I'M NOT AFRAID OF THE FOREIGN CURRENCY EXCHANGE MARKET. I AM AFRAID OF NOT PARTICIPATING.
I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED ON THE RECENT AND FUTURE DEVELOPMENTS OF THE HOLDING PORTFOLIO, WE ARE BUILDING FOR OURSELVES. I WILL HAVE MY MOTHER SIGN UP FOR AN E-TRADE ACCOUNT SO I CAN BUILD THE FAMILY'S HOLDING PORTFOLIO. I MUST ACCEPT, ONCE THEY ACQUIRE IT, THEY WILL SELL OFF SHARES AT THEIR DISCRETION. I MAY HAVE TO HAVE A BACKUP ACCOUNT FOR THEM SOMEWHERE, MAYBE WITH MALIK. MAYBE I WILL SEND MALIK MONEY TO PURCHASE MY STOCK PICKS. HE CAN SPLIT THAT MONEY BETWEEN THREE PEOPLE. JUSTIN, KEVI, DANTE. THAT'S WHEN THE FAMILY REALIZES I LEFT BEHIND MULTIPLE ACCOUNTS WITH THE WEALTH PRE-DISTRIBUTED TO ACCOUNT FOR ANY FALLACY ON ANYONE'S BEHALF. INCLUDING THE POTENTIAL FALLACY, OF NOT ACCOUNTING FOR ANY POTENTIAL FALLACY, ON MY BEHALF.
I JUST SOLVED THAT ISSUE, OF HAVING ANOTHER HOLDING ACCOUNT STASHED AWAY FOR MY FAMILY. MY COUSIN MALIK SMITH. I CAN SEND FUNDS TO HIS E-TRADE FOR PURCHASING THE SAME SHARES FOR MY BIRTH FAMILY. I HAVE TO LEAVE THE SLATE CLEAN ON MY ACCOUNT TO BE LEFT TO MY CHILD OR MY MENTOR. MY FAMILY HOWEVER AND MY FRIENDS WILL HAVE THEIR HOLDING ACCOUNTS BEEFED UP TO WHERE MINE ARE. THEY WILL ALL JUST BE DUPLICATE ACCOUNTS. WHEN THE TRADING TAKES OFF, THE DEPOSITS FOR STOCKS WILL INCREASE TRIUMPHANTLY. THEN I CAN PAY OFF THE $4000 LOAN DARRELL KEELE AND GEORGE C. WORD TOOK OUT ON MY DELTA COMMUNITY CREDIT UNION ACCOUNT, WHEN I MOVED TO SYRACUSE, NEW YORK IN AUGUST OF 2018.
WHAT'S $4000 TO A BILLIONAIRE? THIS IS WHY I STAY TO MYSELF AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. I'M OF A STRANGER CALIBER THAN MOST I ENCOUNTER. THEY ARE SAFER AROUND ME, THAN I AM AROUND THEM. I DO HAVE TO HAVE A BENEFICIARY FOR MY INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS. I WANT IT TO BE MY CHILD AND THEIR MOTHER. FOR THAT I NEED ONE MORE ACCOUNT TO BUILD UP FOR MY MENTOR. THEN EVERYONE IS GOOD. UNTIL I DO HAVE A CHILD, THE BENEFICIARY WOULD HAVE TO BE MY MENTOR UNTIL I HAVE A CHILD. YOU SEE THE THOUGHTS I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT? KEEPING THE ACCOUNT BENEFICIARY SLATE CLEAR FOR FUTURE CHILDREN YET STILL HAVING SOMEONE TO BENEFIT FROM IT. YET STILL HAVING THAT SAME AMOUNT LEFT TO THEM ONCE YOU DO HAVE CHILDREN. THAT'S A HEAD ACHE.
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3:12AM EST - 3:55AM EST
1.29.2020
JANUARY 29TH, 2020
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CHAPTER SEVENTEEN: THE MAMBA MENTALITY
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TODAY IS THE ONE MONTH TIME STAMP OF MY 30TH BIRTHDAY. I AM GRATEFUL, I STARTED MY HOLDING PORTFOLIO ONCE AGAIN. I STARTED THE CRYPTO HOLDING PORTFOLIOS IN THE SUMMER OF 2017. THREE YEARS AGO. THREE YEARS BEFORE THEN, I PURCHASED THREE BITCOINS AT $88 DOLLARS A PIECE. 3. IN 2013. I WAS 23. GOD IS GOOD ALL OF THE TIME. I PUT $225 ON MY ONLINE BANK CARD AT RITE AID. I PAID THE $5 FEE TO UPLOAD THE CARD BALANCE. I SENT JASON $100. I PAID THE PAYPAL FEE. $3.20. I PAID THE $25 FEE ON MY E-TRADE. I TRANSFERRED $122 ON THE E-TRADE. $97 WILL HIT THE HOLDING ACCOUNT. $48 WILL GO TO SMME. SMART METRICS. SMART METRICS IS THE BIOMETRICS COMPETITOR OF NEXT ID. NXT ID. 39 PENNIES NXT ID IS. ONE PENNY IS THE COST OF SMART METRIC STOCK. IN 2017, THE WINTER OF, SMME WAS 45 PENNIES. HALF OF NXT ID. I BIO MAY HAVE BEEN TEN PENNIES THEN AND EVEN WHEN I PURCHASED $10 WORTH IN STOCK, IN THE SUMMER OF 2018, ON ROBINHOOD FROM NEW YORK.
I ASKED JASON TO PURCHASE $25 WORTH OF SMME STOCK. I ASKED JASON TO SPEND THE OTHER $25 OF THE FIRST $50, ON RVBR, AT THREE PENNIES PER SHARE. 1600 SHARES OF SMME IN MY OWN ACCOUNT. HALF OF THOSE SHARES ARE IN JASON'S ACCOUNT. HALF THE $48 ON RVBR. 2500 SHARES, 4800 SHARES. 5000 SHARES. FLOATING THRU VARIOUS ACCOUNTS FROM NOW ON. MANIACALLY PURCHASING SHARES IN EMERGING MARKETS, ON THE MOST DIABOLICAL OF LEVELS. THE OTHER $50 WAS ASKED OF JASON TO DEPOSIT IT INTO HIS ROBINHOOD. WE ASKED JASON TO PURCHASE DOGECOIN WITH THE $50. WE CALCULATED THE DOGECOIN AMOUNT AT 20,500. THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING. I PRAY TO GOD I SEE THIS THRU. I AM TERRIFIED. I FEEL AN OVERWHELMING SENSE OF DESTINY ALL AROUND ME. I CAN NOT HELP BUT TO REMAIN FOCUSED AND DISCERNING.
I WILL CONTINUE TO INVEST IN THE STOCK MARKET. I HAVE SO MANY INDUSTRIES TO INCLUDE INTO THE PORTFOLIO. THE DIFFERENT COMPANIES IN THOSE INDUSTRIES, AVAILABLE ON E-TRADE AND ROBINHOOD, AND ANY OTHER PLATFORM I FIND. AFTER MANY ROUNDS OF DOING THIS, THE MOST URGENT ASPECT OF THE INVESTMENT WORLD I'M DELVING INTO TO BUILD MY FAMILY AN EMPIRE. I WILL GET THE ONLINE BANK ACCOUNT ALLOWING ME TO PUT MONEY INTO SAVINGS BONDS, ANY OTHER BONDS, AND CERTIFICATES OF DEPOSIT. THIS IS HOW I WILL STORE THE VAST OF THE MONEY I HAVE EARNED FROM WORK. I WILL GET ANOTHER ONLINE BANK, FOR A SAVINGS ONLY AND DON'T EVER HOLD THE CARD. ONLY TO PUT MORE ON THERE. THIS IS ALL UNTIL THE FOREX TRADING PAYS OFF. THEN IT'S TENS OF THOUSANDS OF SHARES PER WEEK. HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF ALTCOINS PER WEEK. TENS OF THOUSANDS OF DIGITAL UNITS OF FINANCIAL MEASURE. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ECONOMICAL PLEASURE?
I DO. I DO. I DO. DO I REALLY? I REALLY DO. COME TO THINK OF IT, I TRULY DO. JASON PURCHASED A NANO TECH COMPANY NNVC AT $2. NANO VERICIDES. HE SAYS I TOLD HIM ABOUT IT. HE LISTENED. I DID. GUESS I SHOULD BUY IT TO HOLD NOW. OF COURSE I MUST. IT WENT UP FROM $2 TO $8. IT JUST CAME DOWN FROM $18. TIMES TEN JASON'S INVESTMENT. NASTY. HE ONLY BOUGHT A FEW SHARES. HE STILL LISTENED THOUGH. HE PROFITED. HE DIDN'T CASH OUT. E-TRADE ALLOWS YOU TO EXECUTE A SELL TRADE INITIALLY. NOT AS IN SELLING YOUR HOLDINGS. BUY TO HOLD IN ONE TRADE. SELL TO TRADE UNTIL YOU BUY THEN TO HOLD MORE. WHEN THE STOCKS ARE HOLDING, DOUBLE OVER ONCE OR MORE TIMES, EXECUTE AN ORIGINAL SELL TRADE ON E-TRADE AGAINST IT. THEN USE THE PROFIT TO ENTER INTO THE BUY AT A LOWER PRICE. OR SPEND OTHER FUNDS TO BUY TO HOLD AT THE LOWER PRICES, WHILE YOU SEE HOW LOW DOES SHE GO.
AS I CONTINUE TO STUDY THE WORLD OF INVESTING AND ECONOMICS, I CAN DO SO KNOWING I AM CATCHING UP WITH MY OWN AMBITION, AND REALIZING THE VISION. I AM BRINGING AS MANY OTHERS TO THE WATERING HOLE WHOM AS IS CAN STOMACH SUCH THOUGHTS. MOST PEOPLE CAN NOT STOMACH THE THOUGHT OF THE POSSIBILITY OF RETIRING EARLY. DOUBT COMES FROM HAVING NO PLAN AT ALL. IT IS DOUBT FOR GOOD REASON. I'M REALLY GRATEFUL I GET TO BE THIS GUY. I AM YOUR SECRET BEST FRIEND. TELL THE WORLD ABOUT ME. I LOVED YOU. I WANTED FOR YOU, THE EARLIEST RETIREMENT POSSIBLE. RETIREMENT AS IN, YOU RETIRE HAVING A BOSS. FIRE YOUR BOSS. BOSS YOURSELF AROUND. NOW YOU ARE RETIRED. DUH. DOISKI.
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3:16 AM EST - 4;17AM EST
1.30.2020
FRIDAY JANUARY 30TH, 2020
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CHAPTER EIGHT-TEEN: KOBE BRYANT OF THE STOCK MARKET
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THE WHOLE KOBE BRYANT TRAGEDY HAS ME SHOOK. I AM SHAKEN. I FEEL LIKE, IT DOESN'T MATTER IF I AM TIRED OR HAVE A FEW HOURS TO GET TO BED TO GET ENOUGH REST FOR OVERTIME, SIX DAYS PER WEEK. I MUST FINISH THIS VOLUME AS FAST AS POSSIBLE. I MUST START THE NEXT VOLUMES AS QUICKLY AS I CAN. THE FIRST MONTH OF THE YEAR IS OVER. THE NEXT MONTH IS THE SHORTEST OF THE YEAR. I WANTED 25 SESSIONS IN EACH VOLUME. TODAY WOULD BE SESSION FIVE OF VOLUME TWO. I MUST PUSH MYSELF TO CATCH UP. THREE SESSIONS PER DAY OF ANYTHING, IS ONE THOUSAND SESSIONS YEARLY. I M GRATEFUL TO GOD I AM STILL ALIVE. I AM EVEN MORE GRATEFUL TO GOD, MY LOVED ONES AND OUR LOVED ONES ARE STILL ALIVE.
I WANT TO LEAVE BEHIND AN INHERITANCE TO MY FAMILY. THE FACT, KOBE'S DAUGHTER GIANNA, AND OTHER KIDS WERE KILLED IN THE CRASH, MAKES ME WAY LESS ANXIOUS TO HAVE CHILDREN. BY THE TIME YOU FINISH READING OR LISTENING TO THIS FULL TEXT, IT MAY BE APPARENT WHAT MY FEARS ARE. MY FEAR, WHAT IF I WAS IN DANGER DUE TO HOW I USE MY INTELLIGENCE, ENERGETIC INPUT/OUTPUT, AND INFLUENCE AS A SPIRIT? THERE ARE CERTAIN THOUGHTS I HAVE THAT I DON'T NECESSARILY WANT TO INCLUDE IN THIS PROJECT, SO I WILL INCLUDE CERTAIN THOUGHTS THAT MAY GIVE INSIGHT INTO WHY I'M THINKING HOW I'M THINKING. I HAD TO ADOPT A LIFESTYLE ALLOWING SPACE TO GROW AND TO BE ABLE TO INVEST MY EARNINGS, FOCUS, AND TIME, INTERFERENCE FREE. CLEAR SIGNALS.
THE MAMBA MENTALITY, BEFORE I LEARNED OF IT IN 2018 OR 2019, I WAS EN ROUTE TO IT ALREADY. WHEN I DID WATCH THE DIFFERENT VIDEOS ABOUT THE MENTALITY, I WAS ALREADY DOING IT. IT WAS CONFIRMATION AND VALIDATION, TO CONTINUE IN MY FORM OF WORK ETHIC. I WOULD WATCH THE VIDEOS BEFORE AND AFTER WORK. I WOULD WATCH THE VIDEOS BEFORE AND AFTER THE WRITING AND RECORDING SESSIONS. I AM DEEPLY HURT BY THE NATURE OF KOBE'S PASSING AND HOW IT ALL PLAYED OUT. I HAVE WITHDREW FROM CERTAIN SOCIAL ACTIVITIES, INCLUDING DATING. I AM THIRTY, I HAVE NEVER GOTTEN A PERSON PREGNANT. ONE DAY THERE WILL TECHNOLOGY TO GIVE MEN ABILITY TO BIRTH A CHILD. GROSS. NET. BUT STILL GROSS. EEL. DISGUSTING. WE SHOULD STILL INVEST IN THE TECHNOLOGY. I DO NOT AGREE WITH SUCH TECHNOLOGY. YET AND STILL, BUSINESS NEVER PERSONAL DAWGA (TOMMY FORD VOICE).
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DID I MENTION E-TRADE CHARGES $7 PER TRANSACTION? SO ONLY $50 OR $100 E-TRADE DEPOSITS AT A TIME. NOT REALLY. ONLY $100 PER TRANSACTION AT A TIME, MINIMUM. WE HAVE OUR ECONOMIC MISSILE OF PRODUCTION, AIMED SQUARELY IN THE SIGHTS OF THE EMERGING MARKETS. THE TECHNOLOGY SECTOR, WAS SOMETHING THE PREVIOUS GENERATIONS DID NOT INVEST IN THESE COMPANIES. PERSONALLY, AS A MILLENNIAL, I AM ALREADY ASHAMED OF THE PIECES OF THE RECENT TECHNOLOGY SECTOR, I MISSED INVESTING IN AT THOSE TIMES THEY EMERGED. I WILL MAKE UP FOR THIS, IN MY THIRTIES. I HAVE JUST TURNED THIRTY, ONE MONTH AGO. THE ENTIRE MONTH, FLEW BY. MONTH TWO HAS BEGUN. THIS IS MONTH TWO'S FIRST WRITING SESSION RECORDING.
WHAT WE ARE SAYING IS THAT WE ARE MAKING SURE, WE INVEST IN THE TECHNOLOGY SECTORS EVERY MONTH. THE MONTH'S HAPPEN TO HAVE BEEN FLYING BY FOR DECADES. ENSURING THUS PROFITS ARE RETURNING ON INVESTMENT. THE ONLY WAY TO WIN THE CHAMPIONSHIP, IS WITH THE MAMBA MENTALITY. FROM HERE ON OUT, WE REFER TO THE INVESTIOPATHOLOGY, AS THE MAMBA MENTALITY WHEN APPLIED TO FINANCIAL LITERACY AND LEVERAGING. PROPERLY LEVERAGING THE DOLLAR AS THE BLACK MAMBA WOULD IN SUCH AN INDUSTRY. SO NOW I CAN TRANSLATE IT TO THESE TERMS. HERE IS MY BLACK MAMBA IN THE STOCK MARKET IMPRESSION.
YOU HAVE TO PURCHASE STOCKS RIGHT NOW. YOU'RE GETTING OLDER. YOU MUST SECURE YOUR FINANCIAL LEGACY. YOU MUST FINALLY BUILD AND FUND THE EMPIRES YOU SET OUT TO SET UP. YOU DEDICATED YOUR TWENTIES DECADE, BEFORE THE TWENTY TWENTIES. YOUR THIRTIES ARE ALL ABOUT STOCKS. THIS IS YOUR SECOND CAREER. THESE NEXT TEN YEARS, YOU BUILD YOUR INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO, THE SAME WAY YOU BUILT YOUR CREATIVE ARTISTRY PORTFOLIO. WHY YOU WRITE THIS, IS FOR THOSE YOUNGER TO APPLY THIS SOONER. DON'T LISTEN TO THOSE WITHOUT STOCKS, ABOUT STOCKS. I WILL HAVE MORE SHARES TOTAL THAN ANYONE YOU KNOW. I'LL PROVE IT. THAT IS WHY I OFFER WHATEVER I OFFER. I FELT THE PAIN OF THE FATE OF ANYONE FINANCIALLY ILLITERATE. THE MORE FINANCIALLY LITERATE I GROW, I HURT MORE AND MORE FOR THOSE WHO HAVEN'T. WHY SHOULD I BE SO LUCKY? LUCKY ENOUGH TO DO MY BEST TO HELP. IF YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE IN THE ROOM WHO CAN READ, IN A CROWDED ROOM, WHERE EVERYONE HAD LETTERS TO BE READ, BUY YOUR OWN BOTTLE. BYOB.
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I AIM TO HAVE A RIDICULOUS AMOUNT OF SHARES, BOTH DOMESTIC AND FOREIGN, OF COMPANIES OF THE EMERGING INDUSTRY VARIETY. I LIVE 1000 MILES AWAY FROM ANY FAMILY I'VE LIVED AROUND BEFORE. I AM SINGLE. I WAS SINGLE WHEN I MOVED TO SYRACUSE, NEW YORK. I HAVE BEEN SINGLE SINCE I HAVE BEEN HERE, SINCE AUGUST OF 2018. ONE YEAR AND A HALF. THE ENTIRE TIME I HAVE BEEN TRADING FOREIGN CURRENCY, MINUS THE FIRST TWO MONTHS OF THE FIRST SEASON, FIRST QUARTER, IN NEW YORK. TRADING CURRENCY DURING THE NEW YORK SESSION, FROM SYRACUSE, NEW YORK. I APPRECIATE THE INSIGHT GOD HAS GIVEN ME, SO MUCH, I MUST HELP YOU THE BEST WAY I KNOW HOW. I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO GIVE OUT LOANS. I AM NOT NEXO WALLET. IF YOU WANT A LOAN, YOU SHOULD PURCHASE YOUR ALT COINS TODAY.
USE YOUR ALT COINS AS COLLATERAL, FOR THE NEXO WALLET OFFERED CRYPTO LOAN. THERE IS A NEW KIND OF LOAN EMERGING FROM THE FINANCIAL WATERS OF HISTORY'S TIDE. ALL OF MY MONEY IS GOING TO BE FOREVER TIDE UP IN INVESTMENTS. TIED UP. PEOPLE WON'T BE LOANING MONEY FROM ME. I'M NOT A BANK. I DON'T LIKE BANKS. I RESPECT THE TONTINE. NEITHER HERE NOR THERE. SO WHERE IS IT? ABSOLUTELY NOWHERE. THIS MAY END UP THE MOST CINEMATIC INVESTMENT STRATEGY PUBLICATION EVER. EVER. EVER. I WATCHED A STOCK I HAD ON MY WATCHLIST, GO FROM $2 TO $18. IT IS NOW AT $12 FROM $8 AFTER THE SELL OFF STABILIZATION. JASON PURCHASED A FEW SHARES. MAYBE HE WISHES HE HAD PURCHASED MORE. IT MAKES PERFECT SENSE ON E-TRADE TO ENTER SELL TRADES ON THE SAME SYMBOLS YOU ARE HOLDING IN YOUR HOLDING PORTFOLIO. TRADE SELL THE STOCKS YOU ARE HOLDING WHEN THEY DOUBLE MANY TIMES OVER, AS IN THIS SCENARIO.
NOW I HAVE TO THINK WITH NO EMOTION. I MUST GET IN ON THE STOCK. NANO VERICIDES. NNVC ON THE NASDAQ. I WATCHED NNVC, ELEVATE FROM $3 BELOW THE PENNY STOCK CATEGORY, TO BEING $7 OVER A PENNY STOCK AFTER ALMOST DOUBLING THAT PRICE OF $12. IS $8 THE NEXT SUPPORT LEVEL? WILL IT EVER GO BACK TO $8? I BELIEVE SO. THE MARKET PROJECTION IS FOR ANOTHER THREE TO FIVE YEARS. SO WHAT IS THE BEST SOLUTION BOTH WAYS, CONSIDERING ALL FACTORS CONSIDERED. FIRST FACTOR? THE FIRST FACTOR IS WHAT IF IT GOES BACK DOWN AFTER YOU BUY TO HOLD AT THIS PRICE TOM? USE YOUR TRADING INSTINCT TO SELL TRADE IT AT $12. YOU CHECKED THE TRADING VIEW TECHNICAL ANALYSIS OSCILLATORS. SELL AT $12 IT SAYS. THIS WOULD MEAN YOU PROFIT OFF OF THE STABILIZATION OF THE MASSIVE SELL OFF MANIFESTING LAST WEEK. THIS ALLOWS YOU TO GET IN AT A BETTER PRICE LEVEL, WHILE IT DROPS AS LOW AS YOU MAY WANT IT TO DROP, WHEN CONSIDERING THE LONG TERM PURCHASING OF THE SHARES IN QUESTION, MARK.
NOW WHEN IT SAYS TO BUY ON THE TRADING VIEW CHART, I WILL BUY TO HOLD. HERE'S THE KICKER. CONSIDERING THE OTHER FACTOR, OF $12 BEING THE NEW SUPPORT LEVEL, EVEN THOUGH NOT TOO LIKELY NOW, WE WILL PURCHASE $100 IN SHARES NNVC. GRAB TEN SHARES WHILE YOU SELL TRADE. THEN BUY MORE SHARES. KEEP BUYING SHARES IN REVERSE LEVELS AS IT TANKS BACK TO JASON'S PRICE OR AT THE ONE DOLLAR NEAR PENNY STOCK LEVEL. THERE ARE MANY WAYS THIS STOCK COULD GO. ANTICIPATE THEM ALL THEN ACT IMMEDIATELY. WHY DID JASON'S STOCK IN NNVC GO UP? WE ARE LOOKING IN THE PROPER LONGITUDE LATITUDE. OUR DEGREES OF SEPARATION, ARE THREE FEET FROM DIGITAL GOLD. INTRODUCING THE BLACK MAMBA MENTALITY, INTO THE FINANCIAL SECTORS, TECH SECTORS, OH YEAH. HISTORY IN THE MAKING WE ARE ALL WATCHING. I CAN SEE THE HISTORY COMING. I CAN SEE THE FUTURE COMING. IT IS EMERGING RIGHT BEFORE OUR VERY EYES. THE UNIVERSE AND THE COSMOS HAVE ALLOTTED ME, THE PRIVILEGE OF A LIFE OF ANONYMITY. NO ONE KNOWS ME. NO ONE KNOWS WHAT I'VE BEEN UP TO. I LEFT BEHIND A BOMB. WHEN IT BLOWS UP THEY WILL THEN KNOW MY NAME. THIS PUBLICATION COULD GIVE RISE TO MANY NEW GENERATIONAL WEALTH CREATORS. GENERATIONAL WEALTH IS STATED AS $20 MILLION.
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1:34AM EST - 2:34AM EST
2.2.2020
FEBRUARY 2ND, 2020
SUPERBOWL DAY
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CHAPTER NINE-TEEN: REVERBUR
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JASON HAS A FIDELITY ACCOUNT. JASON STARTED A SECOND

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First Break Up List
>> personal interests and hobbies mismatch, it sucks for me to still be making plans on my own, the crossover between our interests does not need to be 100% but some bleed would be great
>> apartment with pinky/pinky and the whole pinky thing needs to be discussed it’s off putting
>> remember when I mentioned routine and habits, I struggle with change, wasn’t happy about breaking routine, not your fault
Second Break Up Reasons
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1. These actually very closely align to above.
2. Personal Interests

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1. She was very much a homebody and didn’t enjoy being social.

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1. We did align here but she lack goals
2. She had goals which focused around school but nothing in her personal life, there were no hobbies or interests she spent time pursing.
3. Our activities together were pretty standard in terms of relationships and thing you do around town. We did museums, shows, dancing, etc. During our days together we sometimes didn’t see eye to eye on how to spend our time together

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1. Our date nights were always great but followed the same routine. Community events and dinner at a new restaurants.
2. Up until I had gotten her the bike I always felt like I was forcing her to join me hiking, go the trails, be outside. She always participated and had a great time.

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1. Prior to meeting I had built a routine around biking and switching to a low pace low energy lifestyle really upset me.
2. Christmas, Love, and 1 year

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1. The pressure around Christmas play a good part into my reasoning for ending things. In retrospect, this shouldn’t have been the case. At the beginning of the Month she provided me with 25 Christmas gifts in a basket. I didn’t know how to react to this, I hadn’t had a normal Christmas in years.
   
2. It dawned on me that I always wanted the two of us to go biking together, and I always felt she could really use a bike to improve her own well-being. So I got her the bike
   
3. As Christmas grew closer and I was trying to find a bike and give her a great gift I began to question why I was doing this. Part of me felt like I had to because we were in a relationship and the other part was internalizing our entire relationship, was she the right one? I am putting in all this effort and is it worth it? Will she even like the bike? She’s never expressed interest in it
   
4. In addition to Christmas, around that time everything about her changed, I very easily tell she was in love with me but afraid to tell me. This put even more pressure on making sure the Christmas gift. I also knew in 2 months we’d have a one year anniversary.
   
5. All of December I was so focused on the pressure of the relationship, making plans to be with her for Christmas, I began to disconnect from the relationship. It felt like things were moving really fast or were about to move very fast.
   
6. I ended up convincing myself I wasn’t happy. I had put on weight, I was becoming slightly aggravated with work…but because she always talked about the negative parts of her job. I felt like I was constantly splitting my weekends between what I wanted to do and what we wanted to do. I had worked so hard to be the person I was when we met and during our time together I lost that person. I knew that person had to change to accommodate her but I didn’t like the way it changed
   
7. For Christmas I toyed with the idea of gifting her a key to my apartment, the idea being that I really wanted to move things forward with her, that I did love her, that I did want to change my life to better accommodate her.
   
8. Did I love her though? I think so. I was scared that she was scared of telling me how she really felt about me. It made me nervous that there was something wrong in our relationship and the way we communicated.
   
9. The Christmas Trip to Chicago
   

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1. During Christmas she opted to take a last minute two day trip to Chicago with her male friend Pinky. Her good friend that I think is in love with her.
2. The trip took place two days before Christmas during the really bad snowstorm. We had plans to be together for the holiday and go camping
3. Her flight was delayed and she couldn’t come back until the 28th or 29th.
4. I was devastated over this, I had finally come around to Christmas and was looking forward to have someone to spend the holiday with and it didn’t happen. This killed my entire Christmas mood and really made me question everything about us.
5. She knew the storm was coming and before leaving knew there was a risk of missing Christmas but continued anyways. I don’t have an issue with pinky in the regards that she would cheat on me, but I really struggled to understand this relationship between the two of them.

Why the break-up

1. She has so much potential to be this amazing woman and she doesn’t even try. I know she has school and work…

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1. I had wish for awhile that the feeling of guilt spending time doing my own things would go away. May the would have if I had know on weekend mornings she was doing her own thing, spending time on herself instead of sleeping or watching crime shows.
2. She has some trauma around relationships in the past and this was a recurring conversation in our relationship. She made it very clear this was her first serious relationship where she felt safe and secure. This was the first relationship where she felt like her needs were being discussed and met. I eventually convinced her to get help with this which she did.
   
3. I became weary after she began seeking mental help. I was self conscious about her finding out about my insecurities and those being identified by her therapist as reasons why we shouldn’t be together.
   
4. I was open with her about everything in my life
   
5. I didn’t even know if she was talking about our relationship
   
6. She had the worst teeth, just needs to get those things cleaned.
   
7. She has self image issues, while I always fault she was beautiful and extremely unique, she never really tried to work out with me or address these issues.
   
8. We did try working out together once but it never stuck with her, this goes back to offering her a key to my apartment.
   
9. My Life was beginning to split into two:
   

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1. Our time together
2. What I wanted for myself

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1. There was certainly overlap, and while people say you shouldn’t have similar interests as your partner, why is that? I would loved if she was a more active person, if she would have insisted on getting a bike to go out with me, if she had more often entertained ideas for our time together that leaned more toward what I wanted to do
2. Financial life - I want a house, I want to keep doing triathlons, I have big bike plans over the next few years. I wasn’t really read to give up any of this, while there was no financial strain brought on by the relationship, relationship do required that you spend money and I sometimes felt like a dinner out could have been better used to finance a plane ticket or tri entry fee.
3. I spent a lot of time each week trying to justify and how to explain to her that I was going to be gone half the day, on the two days a week we stayed together.
   
4. She never cared.
   
5. Moving in together
   
6. I was so scared of this conversation. She needs to move out of her moms ASAP
   
7. She considered moving in with her male best friend who I think is in love with her.
   
8. She had a dog that wouldn’t fit in with my apartment.
   
9. She often hinted at having this conversation
   
10. During our breakup I mentioned this and she did say it was way too early for that discussion.
    

Is part of a relationship supporting someone while they figure who they are and what they want in life?
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1. She had no idea what she wanted out of life, she very much had just begun to figure herself out. I am the one that forced her to do this.
2. She had a lot of self confidence and image issues that stemmed from family and past relationships she hadn’t begun to understand
3. The conversation at Christmas about anxiety over having no plans or nothing to do for two weeks?
4. Did I over think the pinky relationship?
5. Relationship with her ex, Jordan

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1. They met every Tuesday for dinner at a local food truck event
2. She described their relationship as being a “situationship” they moved in together because they were dating at the same time they were both kick out of their homes
3. This is when she got the dog
4. She mentioned he treated her extremely poorly
5. When we got into her car his name was always on the “quick contacts” screen, but these contacts had never changed from our first date to the end of the relationship
6. I never really tried to understand this relationship, the Tuesday dinner thing is something that has always happened, she’s been cheated on in the past, I never once felt she cheated on me with him, but I never understood why she hung on to this relationship. I assumed it was always a fall back plan?
7. This guy was also invited to the graduation party.

The graduation party
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1. She invited her work friends and myself, pinky, and Jordan. Again I just didn’t get this, especially since it was close family only

Physical Relationship
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1. I have never connected physically and emotionally with someone like I did Michaela. During our discussion around our sex life we had a slight mis-match I was a few times a week person she was an everyday person but I learned to adjust.
2. The sex was amazing, again, I have never connected with someone like her before.
3. I’ve never felt the way kissing someone like I did with her
4. I was always unhappy of her weight. At first I thought it was because of my hated of bigger people, but it really came down to me not liking that she hated it but didn’t do anything about.

Nags about the relationship:
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1. Not a risk taker
2. I wish she was someone that would do everything with me, and we just didn’t have strong enough interest in each others interests for this to happen.
3. Girl, you spend so much time watching tru crime shows, shut it off and learn about yourself
4. Quit your job, its toxic as fuck, hang out with your work friends less
5. Find a hobby, your significant other can’t be your entire life. Part of the reason we spent time figuring out what to do is because you don’t have any interests. Part of my guilt in the relationship was spending time doing my things while you were left at my apartment by yourself….watching tv
6. Get a teeth cleaning, fuck.
7. You’re beautiful and a head turner, embrace it, stop thinking so poorly of yourself.

After writing this out:
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1. I think I ended things because of my fear of commitment
2. I did love her, I spent a lot effort convincing myself otherwise
3. The pressure I put on myself regarding this relationship in December was unfair to both of us. She was being an amazing partner I was being selfish and looking for ways to not face these moments in our relationship
4. I don’t understand how to support someone and when it is correct to support someone in a relationship and what support needs to be sorted out on their own
5. I hope we cross paths again in the future, I think she’s going to end up being and even better match for me.
6. I realize that I was upset with her for not beginning to understand herself, and while she was certainly working toward it was in a manner different than what I did for myself to gain confidence and happiness in life.
7. During our time together she did very little to care for herself, she was a very caring person for others, but never put time into her.
8. I was love with the woman she could be....She isn't that woman now.
9. I wrote this after the mom letter, and I realize she made me extremely insecure about the relationship I had with my mother. She and her mother have a terrible relationship, almost verbally abusive in a way but she maintains a relationship with her. I was certainly afraid of her figuring out this could be an issue in our relationship or her therapist some how indicating this is a red flag

My long wait and doubts have come to an end. This is a band that I'm a bit skeptical about their live performances. I have to say, I got into Arctic Monkeys after the release of their sixth album in 2018, well you can say I'm a new fan. My first impression of their live video was their sound that was kinda raw and not smoothly mixed. But my love for their live performance constantly grows from time to time. However, my bias about the band's gig was always skeptical.
I try not to expect anything from their newest set because we all know how they set their theme now (vintage oldie lounge music, how they rearranged 505 and Four Out Of Five, etc.). But when I first saw the stage, I was blown away by all their gear and equipment. It's like I’m staring at some kind of museum. All the synths and mics and amps and on and on, everything is rare vintage stuff. The show was one hour late because Jamie's guitar didn't work. So I spent an hour watching AM's technician work their ass off. Imagine you have to maintain a thousand years old equipment and make it work even though it's ready to break anytime. I don't blame them.
Was the performance like what I had in mind? Well, it kinda is lol. I mean their stage performance was absolutely great, no doubt. Seeing Alex being cool af in the fresh was unbelievable! But the sound was very muddy, especially at the beginning of the show. It keeps getting better but is still muddy. I can barely hear Jamie's guitar. Maybe it's because of the problem that occurred before the show starts, idk. I think the main problem is the show feels very slack. The obvious one was the Four Out Of Five and 505 rearrangements. Like, why do you change them man? It was boring tbh. Alex also often sings lay back (he did it for the entire song on Cornerstone). And there’s this breakdown-type stuff that they like to do. It's like slowing things down mid song or something like that. I mean when it works, it works. As they did it on Crying Lightning solo, that one was dope af! But other than that, it's just a little bit too much imo.
Enough of the bad, let's talk about the good! Pretty Visitors.... hands down one of the best AM's songs to play live! Everything just went red and then boom, here comes the breakdown. That thing rocks the shit out of me! (It's when Alex did the bowling thing. He looks so silly but yet so cool at the same time haha). Rock songs on AM (Do I Wanna Know, Arabella, R U Mine) was spot on. Fuzzy, testy, and heavy sounding. Couldn't expect more! All of The Car (Sculptures, I Ain't, Body Paint, Mirrorball) were amazing! Especially Body Paint, man that's another one of my favourites from this show. The extended outro was so overwhelming. They just went all in on this song!
The band might've stuck a little bit too much of their oldie theme. But overall, they were still great! So if you like them, go buy the tickets! Just wanna write something to remind myself and share my opinion about the show. Hopes you like it :)