So, I was inspired this year to pick up Mage 20th and actually try running Mage. Prior to this I had actually played in an Ascension game of some stripe, but I was the new guy at the tail end of a campaign so a lot didn't sink in. And then new lines launched, and I played some Awakening.
But I definitely didn't want *that* setting for this campaign.
But that has left me trying to figure out how Mage works based on Mage 20... (so that I can, for example, help my players understand what they can and can't do) and it's not easy.
So. Thanks to my plot (they've encountered something that falls squarely into the Extra-Dimensional Entity bucket that is supernaturally infectious/corrupting), one of my players asked me about using their Dimensional Science 3 to protect against that.
Now, logically, Dimensional Science seems like the right Sphere to provide some kind of defensive countermeasures against an EDE wearing you like a glove. (It's not even like it's Spirit, where one can argue the main point is to use spirits to do stuff; as I understand it, the Void Engineer philosophy revolves around combatting EDEs, not making friends with them)
"How Do You Do That" lays out things like Wards and Minor Wards and whatnot, but they all have pre-requisites from other Spheres (Prime, Correspondence, Life, sometimes Matter). So that's mostly a long list of mechanical effects the PC definitely cannot do. (they do have Data, but not 4/4)
(no, I'm not actually running a Technocracy Agents game, the PC in question is just a very materialistic Virtual Adept, but frankly there's been at least one NPC who was outright surprised to discover this PC wasn't actually a Void Engineer)
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So. With Data 3 and Dimensional Science 3, what can you do about about an EDE (or, more accurately, many such EDEs) that infects, corrupts, and assimilates people?
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Apart from shoot it. I mean "what can you do to not get infected yourself". Although if people have any ideas on gadgets/plans I could pass on, go for it. They could use the help, they're not very confident about what they can do.

--Cut to Gabriel House all the elite members of the city are here--
Gabriel: Having all this money is so boring I wish we actually had a sense of thrill in our life
Tomoe: I agree but what should we do
Bob Roth: Why don't we bet on humans like they do on horse
The Elites: That sounds awsome, why don't you go on
Bob Roth: We make them play a bunch of south korean childrens games but here is the catch losing means your death and the 1 winner gets a huge lump of money not like it will pay for the depression caused by competing
Gabriel: Excellent we shall all begin funding this
The elites all love the idea and are ready to pitch in
--Atlantic Ocean, we see a new artificial island build and a helicopter landing Gabriel steps outside of the helicopter--
Gabriel: So Tomoe how is the construction so far
Tomoe: We are near completion, thanks to my tech we were able to build the entire island in a matter of days
Gabriel: We will have to make sure our kids never find out about this make sure that Kagami's needs are satisfied and ill deal with Adrien
Nathalie: Gabriel are you sure this is a good ide
Gabriel: Shut your mouth before you end up partipating too
Nathalie reluctantly agrees she realises she either has to obey Gabriel or she will be forced to join
--La Defense Paris, We see Adrien and Marinette together--
Adrien: Since my dad is currently working in Morroco he isn't here to stop our love
Marinette: Why don't you try escape
Adrien: I could but I don't have the money to
Marinette: Isn't your dad a trillionaire
Adrien: He is but he will just freeze my bank account if he realised i left and I will have no money, i just wish i could get the funds to escape
Marinette: Sometimes I wish I had more money especially considering that your dad thinks I am beneath him
We see one of Gabriel's secret recruiters spying on them he ends up going up to them
Recruiter: So I've overheard your conversation and I couldn't help but feel bad for you two. I will give you the chance to get a massive prize of 100 billion euros if you beat my game here both of you here is my number
The recruiter hands over a number to both Adrien and Marinette which they will then use to call the man
Adrien: This seems fishy, dont you think?
Marinette: I agree but if we want to be together do we really have a choice?
Adrien: Yeah, we will call them
--Chloe's house--
Chloe: Ugggh thus Dupain Chang is really getting on my nerves I just want to get rid of her
Sabrina: You guys are insane
Lila: Chloe we get got to wait until we get the cards in our favour
Chloe: But when is that going to happen either now or nev...
Before Chloe can finish she notices a piece of paper with writing on it and three card Lila picks it up and reads it
Lila: If you want the chance to win 100 billion euros call the number on your individual cards, Chloe this is perfect with 100 billion euros we will easily make Marinette's life a living Hell
Chloe: Lets call them
Chloe, Lila and Sabrina all call them
--Effiel Tower, Felix and Kagami are together eating ice cream--
Felix: Don't you sometimes wish that you ran away
Kagami: I could only dream of such a luxury, if my mother finds she will trap me in a cell for the rest of my life and since my credit card would be frozen, I am stuck in Paris.
Felix: Thats rough maybe i can he..
before i can finish the recruiter comes to the two
Recruiter: So I've overheard your conversation and I couldn't help but feel bad for you. I will give you the chance to get a massive prize of 100 billion euros if you beat my game here Kagami Tsungi here is my number.
Felix gets a flash back the whole time he was spying on Gabriel he knew about everything from the begging
Felix: Can i join too
Recruiter: Certainly you are lucky this is my last card
After the recruiter leaves Felix tells Kagami the truth
Felix: What ever you do stay at home do not call them
Kagami: Why not
Felix: This is just a death game hosted by Paris's elites including my uncle and your mother
Kagami: Then why are you joining
Felix: Marinette and Adrien have joined as well they are in danger I have to protect them at all costs and ultimately stop my uncle the head man of the game
Kagami: Can I come?
Felix: Kagami I am telling you to not come of the sake of your safety dont worry about me as long as I have the peacock miraculous I will be safe
--We cut into a split with the 7 of them call calling the number on the card--
--Kagami's house--
Kagami thinking: I know this is dangerous and Felix told me not to come but I cannot stay home, if nothing is done i might never get to see Marinette, Adrien or Felix ever. I will meet them and go.
--Gabriels house--
Gabriel: Nathalie we did it we secured 500 competitors to go to the island and compete
Nathalie: Gabriel you are completely out of your mind you need to stop this right now
Gabriel: Nathalie I have a gun do you want me to use it on you
Gabriel's phone rings its the recruiter
Recruiter: Gabriel one of the competitors was caught trying tell the police we may need to find a replacement
Gabriel: I've already found one
Gabriel hangs up the phone
Gabriel: Change of plans Nathalie
Gabriel uses a special gun on nathalie to make her fall asleep the guards then drag her into a van with Adrien also inside of it both of the asleep the vans. We cut to Marinette, Felix, Kagami, Lila, Chloe and Sabrina also getting kidnapped before we realise there isn't just 1 van but 100, transporting people from Paris, London, New York, Tokyo and Rome to the games.
--Atlantic Island, we cut to several planes landing there from different cities before cutting to Adrien waking up in a massive room full of bunk beds the rest follow soon--
Adrien: What is this place?
He tries to transform but realises his ring is gone we then see Nathalie getting sent a message on a special alliance ring which tells her that if she tells the truth to anyone she will be killed before she can try to. We also see that everyone has a special alliance ring modified in a way so their communication through the rings is entirley controlled. Adrien sees Nathalie, Felix, Kagami, Marinette, Chloe, Lila and Sabrina
Adrien in a shocked voice: Marinette, Felix, Kagami, Chloe, Lila, Sabrina, Nathalie what are you doing here
--Control room--
Gabriel: Tomoe although we have failed to keep our children away our plan is still in motion and maybe this will make it a little more fun.
--Cut to black end of part 1--

I live in the UK. She lives in the US. We still haven't met in person yet - if all goes to plan we should finally be truly face to face for the first time next month.
But we've known each other and been friends for an entire decade now. Three years ago I realised I had caught feelings for her. I confessed, and she told me she felt the same way about me. Our relationship, for how unconventional it is, honestly feels like the perfect fairytale I always assumed I'd never get to have.
The only thing is, we're both autistic. We're both traumatised. The employment rates for people like us are... not encouraging, to say the least. And believe me, I've tried. I've tried and I've tried and I've tried. But I can't hold anything down. I'm not lazy, I promise. I just keep messing up. I never last and I keep being let go, "for [my] own benefit" they always say. That I'm naive to the point of being a danger to myself. That I'm outright crazy. That I'm useless. That you haven't done anything wrong sweetie, we just don't feel equipped to give you the kind of help you need. You deserve somewhere better.
They treat me like an emotionally unstable toddler, or a teenager having a tantrum. I'm 27.
No one really knows me, treats me like a real person. She does. She knows me better than I do, helps me to identify emotions in me when I can't even recognise them. I genuinely would have killed myself long ago if I didn't have her, and I will if I lose her now.
Her family was and will continue to be incredibly abusive. She has never had a reason to stay in the US besides the fact that she has no choice. Her own employment situation is similar to mine. She can handle human life outside so much better than I can, but because of her upbringing, her PTSD and our petty social miscommunications, she gets so much criticism from her peers, colleagues and employers, constantly. They don't try to understand her. They say she has no excuse. But her mistakes are always so petty, so easy to fix in my eyes. But I know how it is, because it's what always happens to me.
So I have no income. Hers is unstable, and entirely dependent on how others view her. I'm pathetic and she deserves someone who can give her a real home and safety. She needs someone with money, a job, a house. She doesn't want those things. She wants me, and for me to be happy. She says SHE wants to protect ME from this world. That she dreams of living together, here where I live, and continuing to work and struggle so that at least I don't have to.
Money is a horrific and selfish object. She's the only thing besides my pets and my (pointless) hobbies that keeps me tethered to this planet I've really never belonged to. I need her, and she needs me. But I get a roof over my head. I get parents who won't kick me out. She gets to be alone, and constantly move from place to place just to make ends meet a little longer.
She's spending so much money to get to be here for a few days. Money I know she'll need if she loses her current job. The way they speak to her, I feel like it's only a matter of time. I want to see her so badly, to finally hold her. But I want to tell her to cancel everything, to get the money back, to just stay safe.
We're both so tired. Just so utterly exhausted with trying to live and being punished for being ourselves. We've never hurt anyone. We're all each other has.
I would give her the world were I able. But I can barely give her one week's vacation from her pain, before she has to go back there, and for all we know never come back. She deserves everything after the life she's had, and I can provide all of nothing. She chose me, but she shouldn't have. I'm useless. I can't help her. I can't save either of us.

My group of 2 years is coming to a close next session. I want to give them a great ending but med school test season is upon me and my creative energy is being diverted elsewhere at the moment. Reddit DMs help me sharpen my gameplan!
The party (Level 13) found the sword, and decided to work with Bel and Garguath to overthrow Zariel and return the city of Elturel.
Last session, the party joined a major blood war battle under Elturel with Zariel at its head, and decided to sabotage the devil advance in order to keep Zariel occupied. They have been less interested in converting zariel back to an angel so they are just working to undermine/eliminate her
In game the party decided to split up (against my better wishes) so I am going to run the session from two perspectives:
Lulu, Warlock+sword of Zariel, Halfling rogue are in flight towards the companion with the adamantine rods. I'm going to have them face an erinyes protecting the companion, unlocking it will free the planetar who will tell them they need to break the chains in order to save the city. The party doesn't know how to break the chains, so throughout the process of the fight I was planning on having the warlock's blood fall on one of the chains and Kroek'toek is going to immediately change course and chomp through the chain. My hope is they will start to work on breaking the chains, an effort Yeenoghu (now close to the city due to the sabotage on the devil front) will try to block.
In the meantime, an ent druid, ranger + hellhound pet, and barbarian are heading towards zariel in a bid to distract her, they are currently locked in a battle with two Hezrous and Lucille. I'm planning on garguath showing up to help pave the way towards Zariel. Who's going to ring of fire around them and try to turn the barbarian (who signed a contract) against the party with promises of a life of carnage. As this fight progresses I'm hoping the group will reconvene and the warlock can have an opportunity to prevent a TPK with the sword. Kostchtchie is also free so he can come distract zariel in a pinch.
I think I have the barebones of a great session, but any specific events or obstacles to put along the way that would be exciting and take away from a long combat slog?

TRIGGERS, and i have ALL POSSIBLE TRIGGERS . . . . . . . . . . . . . Its my mom. I don't know what is her illness but she shows no emotions. Its so painful. I shoe emotions but she is just blank and I feel so lonely and hurt. I am in foreign country. I am 33. She is 65 I think.
I provoked her yesterday to make her sad because when I told her how sad I am amd so, she was blank. Then I provoked her and said things to hurt,I asked are you hurt? She said yes a little. Then i continued asking and after 10min she said she is a little bit more hurt. Then I started to say more hurtful things and then asked again same thing, but then I told her what she caused in my life, and how I hate her and so on she started to cry for brief 15srconds and it started like she was faking it. I haven't heard her cry fir years. She is ok with everything and nothing hurys her, she is Ice Queen. Anyway I was convinced she was mocking me because it sounds like that such a weird cry. Its like her emotions when she says anything about them, they are vague, they are general, short, diminished in words, she never shows emotions and I hurt badly.
My whole life is shit because of her. Trust me. She made bad choises, she didn't protect me when I was 5, she didn't teach me about emotions, she didn't allow me to study art, when I got suicidal she took me to emergency (I was 21). They gave false diagnosis, were horrible and gave me pills that made me stand up in the middke of class because of anxiety .
She was always protective of me but in a kind way, so I never questioned her decisions. She was attached to me because she Divorced my father andy brother didn't like her. I was attached to her because her son sexualy disturbed me when I was 5, and he was sadistic, and continued to insult me through years. She was too emotionally distant to do anything. I got bullied in school and after she transferred to another, I was with grandma after school, and I really liked that, in school I had friends, I was happy, We did art, I loved grandma. I was happy for 1 and half. Then she changed my school again because it was too difficult to travel with me everyday to grandma, and it wasn't that far. What i resent is how lost she was, how she never went to therapy or read a book, or looked into herself, how she didn't care of children because she was emotionally totally distant and non equipped. Then I got bullied, lost, it was shit, my life was shit and destroyed by her decisions and It got worse and worse. It took me years to understand what is going on. I was convinced she was right, I thought she knows best, I just need to endure and try harder. Thats hiw she said. But it never did. I went into abusive relationships, started to dissociate, was depressed, anxious, miserable, forced myself to study a lot. I suffered so much for a long time and she always really loves me but is sick i think. She cant stop meddling a d giving advices. I am and was so angry at her. I realised that late in life and in kung fu classes I was kicking boxing bag so much imagining it was her. I attacked her 2x later in last 2 years. I got diagnosed autistic last year with complex PTSD. I had anxiety and major depression disorded and possibly borderline personality disorder before. I moved to another country 4 years ago. I can't tell you how difficult it was. I was in another abusive relationship and I was in women shelter 2x, I was homeless. Everything I did, I was failure and People treated me like I am monster. Dissociation helped me to survive but its hard. I am lonely I have no family in foreign country. 53 days ago my fiancé broke up until we heal because we self hirt by hitting our head. He couldn't stand it and and wants to go to therapy and me to. Its not healthy to be together when we are so si k because we hurt each other. We had beautiful moments. He made me believe in my career dream. He made me fight fir disability rights. He showed me that I am valuable he gave love with all his heart. He was first man who was kind, loving and accepting in bed. He just loves ne. We had a lot of probles aside and started to sort of abuse each other, he has adhd and was wanting for 5 months to get medication. Then 5 more for appropriate one. And its seems it has negative affect. It changes him. I am also on medication that makes me irritable but nothing else helped so this is obly thing that gets me out of bed and keeps me alive. I have noone to call when I am sad. My mom can't show emotions. I miss him like part of me is gone. I started therapy for nervous system called Safe and sound protocol recently as introduction before starting EDMR. I am waiting for CPT for a year because system has less doctors and a lot of ill people. Meanwhile I found CPT myself and need to wait for it month ago. All therapy costs aaa lot. EDMR costs too. I have scoliosis, and 3 protruded discs, I have shoulder syndrome. I take gabapentin for pain. I went to physio therapy but it is not helping me because i cant make myself do exercises. I met person who dies massages and more inusivw approach. I am taking a lot of moves to heal but uncertain if it will help. I do all alone dezpite being chronically tired. I want to do music and animation it heals but because of depression, executive dysfunction i can't find time to do duoties and have time for art. I am at the end of rope. I am waiting for therapies surving. I have no hope that it will help. I feel so hopeless abd too f up. I found council to help now but its difficult I have noone close to me. I am eother angry to forget how I miss him. Or I go yoga to relax but then I cry. Its ok then but I call mom and she can't help. I feel guilty to block her. I Don't know if he will heal and when, and same for me. Its making me depressed and anxious. I am tired of surviving. I am tired.

TRIGGERS . . . . . . . . . . . . . Its my mom. I don't know what is her illness but she shows no emotions. Its so painful. I shoe emotions but she is just blank and I feel so lonely and hurt. I am in foreign country. I am 33. She is 65 I think.
I provoked her yesterday to make her sad because when I told her how sad I am amd so, she was blank. Then I provoked her and said things to hurt,I asked are you hurt? She said yes a little. Then i continued asking and after 10min she said she is a little bit more hurt. Then I started to say more hurtful things and then asked again same thing, but then I told her what she caused in my life, and how I hate her and so on she started to cry for brief 15srconds and it started like she was faking it. I haven't heard her cry fir years. She is ok with everything and nothing hurys her, she is Ice Queen. Anyway I was convinced she was mocking me because it sounds like that such a weird cry. Its like her emotions when she says anything about them, they are vague, they are general, short, diminished in words, she never shows emotions and I hurt badly.
My whole life is shit because of her. Trust me. She made bad choises, she didn't protect me when I was 5, she didn't teach me about emotions, she didn't allow me to study art, when I got suicidal she took me to emergency (I was 21). They gave false diagnosis, were horrible and gave me pills that made me stand up in the middke of class because of anxiety .
She was always protective of me but in a kind way, so I never questioned her decisions. She was attached to me because she Divorced my father andy brother didn't like her. I was attached to her because her son sexualy disturbed me when I was 5, and he was sadistic, and continued to insult me through years. She was too emotionally distant to do anything. I got bullied in school and after she transferred to another, I was with grandma after school, and I really liked that, in school I had friends, I was happy, We did art, I loved grandma. I was happy for 1 and half. Then she changed my school again because it was too difficult to travel with me everyday to grandma, and it wasn't that far. What i resent is how lost she was, how she never went to therapy or read a book, or looked into herself, how she didn't care of children because she was emotionally totally distant and non equipped. Then I got bullied, lost, it was shit, my life was shit and destroyed by her decisions and It got worse and worse. It took me years to understand what is going on. I was convinced she was right, I thought she knows best, I just need to endure and try harder. Thats hiw she said. But it never did. I went into abusive relationships, started to dissociate, was depressed, anxious, miserable, forced myself to study a lot. I suffered so much for a long time and she always really loves me but is sick i think. She cant stop meddling a d giving advices. I am and was so angry at her. I realised that late in life and in kung fu classes I was kicking boxing bag so much imagining it was her. I attacked her 2x later in last 2 years. I got diagnosed autistic last year with complex PTSD. I had anxiety and major depression disorded and possibly borderline personality disorder before. I moved to another country 4 years ago. I can't tell you how difficult it was. I was in another abusive relationship and I was in women shelter 2x, I was homeless. Everything I did, I was failure and People treated me like I am monster. Dissociation helped me to survive but its hard. I am lonely I have no family in foreign country. 53 days ago my fiancé broke up until we heal because we self hirt by hitting our head. He couldn't stand it and and wants to go to therapy and me to. Its not healthy to be together when we are so si k because we hurt each other. We had beautiful moments. He made me believe in my career dream. He made me fight fir disability rights. He showed me that I am valuable he gave love with all his heart. He was first man who was kind, loving and accepting in bed. He just loves ne. We had a lot of probles aside and started to sort of abuse each other, he has adhd and was wanting for 5 months to get medication. Then 5 more for appropriate one. And its seems it has negative affect. It changes him. I am also on medication that makes me irritable but nothing else helped so this is obly thing that gets me out of bed and keeps me alive. I have noone to call when I am sad. My mom can't show emotions. I miss him like part of me is gone. I started therapy for nervous system called Safe and sound protocol recently as introduction before starting EDMR. I am waiting for CPT for a year because system has less doctors and a lot of ill people. Meanwhile I found CPT myself and need to wait for it month ago. All therapy costs aaa lot. EDMR costs too. I have scoliosis, and 3 protruded discs, I have shoulder syndrome. I take gabapentin for pain. I went to physio therapy but it is not helping me because i cant make myself do exercises. I met person who dies massages and more inusivw approach. I am taking a lot of moves to heal but uncertain if it will help. I do all alone dezpite being chronically tired. I want to do music and animation it heals but because of depression, executive dysfunction i can't find time to do duoties and have time for art. I am at the end of rope. I am waiting for therapies surving. I have no hope that it will help. I feel so hopeless abd too f up. I found council to help now but its difficult I have noone close to me. I am eother angry to forget how I miss him. Or I go yoga to relax but then I cry. Its ok then but I call mom and she can't help. I feel guilty to block her. I Don't know if he will heal and when, and same for me. Its making me depressed and anxious. I am tired of surviving. I am tired.

TRIGGERS . . . . . . . . . . . . . Its my mom. I don't know what is her illness but she shows no emotions. Its so painful. I shoe emotions but she is just blank and I feel so lonely and hurt. I am in foreign country. I am 33. She is 65 I think.
I provoked her yesterday to make her sad because when I told her how sad I am amd so, she was blank. Then I provoked her and said things to hurt,I asked are you hurt? She said yes a little. Then i continued asking and after 10min she said she is a little bit more hurt. Then I started to say more hurtful things and then asked again same thing, but then I told her what she caused in my life, and how I hate her and so on she started to cry for brief 15srconds and it started like she was faking it. I haven't heard her cry fir years. She is ok with everything and nothing hurys her, she is Ice Queen. Anyway I was convinced she was mocking me because it sounds like that such a weird cry. Its like her emotions when she says anything about them, they are vague, they are general, short, diminished in words, she never shows emotions and I hurt badly.
My whole life is shit because of her. Trust me. She made bad choises, she didn't protect me when I was 5, she didn't teach me about emotions, she didn't allow me to study art, when I got suicidal she took me to emergency (I was 21). They gave false diagnosis, were horrible and gave me pills that made me stand up in the middke of class because of anxiety .
She was always protective of me but in a kind way, so I never questioned her decisions. She was attached to me because she Divorced my father andy brother didn't like her. I was attached to her because her son sexualy disturbed me when I was 5, and he was sadistic, and continued to insult me through years. She was too emotionally distant to do anything. I got bullied in school and after she transferred to another, I was with grandma after school, and I really liked that, in school I had friends, I was happy, We did art, I loved grandma. I was happy for 1 and half. Then she changed my school again because it was too difficult to travel with me everyday to grandma, and it wasn't that far. What i resent is how lost she was, how she never went to therapy or read a book, or looked into herself, how she didn't care of children because she was emotionally totally distant and non equipped. Then I got bullied, lost, it was shit, my life was shit and destroyed by her decisions and It got worse and worse. It took me years to understand what is going on. I was convinced she was right, I thought she knows best, I just need to endure and try harder. Thats hiw she said. But it never did. I went into abusive relationships, started to dissociate, was depressed, anxious, miserable, forced myself to study a lot. I suffered so much for a long time and she always really loves me but is sick i think. She cant stop meddling a d giving advices. I am and was so angry at her. I realised that late in life and in kung fu classes I was kicking boxing bag so much imagining it was her. I attacked her 2x later in last 2 years. I got diagnosed autistic last year with complex PTSD. I had anxiety and major depression disorded and possibly borderline personality disorder before. I moved to another country 4 years ago. I can't tell you how difficult it was. I was in another abusive relationship and I was in women shelter 2x, I was homeless. Everything I did, I was failure and People treated me like I am monster. Dissociation helped me to survive but its hard. I am lonely I have no family in foreign country. 53 days ago my fiancé broke up until we heal because we self hirt by hitting our head. He couldn't stand it and and wants to go to therapy and me to. Its not healthy to be together when we are so si k because we hurt each other. We had beautiful moments. He made me believe in my career dream. He made me fight fir disability rights. He showed me that I am valuable he gave love with all his heart. He was first man who was kind, loving and accepting in bed. He just loves ne. We had a lot of probles aside and started to sort of abuse each other, he has adhd and was wanting for 5 months to get medication. Then 5 more for appropriate one. And its seems it has negative affect. It changes him. I am also on medication that makes me irritable but nothing else helped so this is obly thing that gets me out of bed and keeps me alive. I have noone to call when I am sad. My mom can't show emotions. I miss him like part of me is gone. I started therapy for nervous system called Safe and sound protocol recently as introduction before starting EDMR. I am waiting for CPT for a year because system has less doctors and a lot of ill people. Meanwhile I found CPT myself and need to wait for it month ago. All therapy costs aaa lot. EDMR costs too. I have scoliosis, and 3 protruded discs, I have shoulder syndrome. I take gabapentin for pain. I went to physio therapy but it is not helping me because i cant make myself do exercises. I met person who dies massages and more inusivw approach. I am taking a lot of moves to heal but uncertain if it will help. I do all alone dezpite being chronically tired. I want to do music and animation it heals but because of depression, executive dysfunction i can't find time to do duoties and have time for art. I am at the end of rope. I am waiting for therapies surving. I have no hope that it will help. I feel so hopeless abd too f up. I found council to help now but its difficult I have noone close to me. I am eother angry to forget how I miss him. Or I go yoga to relax but then I cry. Its ok then but I call mom and she can't help. I feel guilty to block her. I Don't know if he will heal and when, and same for me. Its making me depressed and anxious. I am tired of surviving. I am tired.

TRIGGERS . . . . . . . . . . . . . Its my mom. I don't know what is her illness but she shows no emotions. Its so painful. I shoe emotions but she is just blank and I feel so lonely and hurt. I am in foreign country. I am 33. She is 65 I think.
I provoked her yesterday to make her sad because when I told her how sad I am amd so, she was blank. Then I provoked her and said things to hurt,I asked are you hurt? She said yes a little. Then i continued asking and after 10min she said she is a little bit more hurt. Then I started to say more hurtful things and then asked again same thing, but then I told her what she caused in my life, and how I hate her and so on she started to cry for brief 15srconds and it started like she was faking it. I haven't heard her cry fir years. She is ok with everything and nothing hurys her, she is Ice Queen. Anyway I was convinced she was mocking me because it sounds like that such a weird cry. Its like her emotions when she says anything about them, they are vague, they are general, short, diminished in words, she never shows emotions and I hurt badly.
My whole life is shit because of her. Trust me. She made bad choises, she didn't protect me when I was 5, she didn't teach me about emotions, she didn't allow me to study art, when I got suicidal she took me to emergency (I was 21). They gave false diagnosis, were horrible and gave me pills that made me stand up in the middke of class because of anxiety .
She was always protective of me but in a kind way, so I never questioned her decisions. She was attached to me because she Divorced my father andy brother didn't like her. I was attached to her because her son sexualy disturbed me when I was 5, and he was sadistic, and continued to insult me through years. She was too emotionally distant to do anything. I got bullied in school and after she transferred to another, I was with grandma after school, and I really liked that, in school I had friends, I was happy, We did art, I loved grandma. I was happy for 1 and half. Then she changed my school again because it was too difficult to travel with me everyday to grandma, and it wasn't that far. What i resent is how lost she was, how she never went to therapy or read a book, or looked into herself, how she didn't care of children because she was emotionally totally distant and non equipped. Then I got bullied, lost, it was shit, my life was shit and destroyed by her decisions and It got worse and worse. It took me years to understand what is going on. I was convinced she was right, I thought she knows best, I just need to endure and try harder. Thats hiw she said. But it never did. I went into abusive relationships, started to dissociate, was depressed, anxious, miserable, forced myself to study a lot. I suffered so much for a long time and she always really loves me but is sick i think. She cant stop meddling a d giving advices. I am and was so angry at her. I realised that late in life and in kung fu classes I was kicking boxing bag so much imagining it was her. I attacked her 2x later in last 2 years. I got diagnosed autistic last year with complex PTSD. I had anxiety and major depression disorded and possibly borderline personality disorder before. I moved to another country 4 years ago. I can't tell you how difficult it was. I was in another abusive relationship and I was in women shelter 2x, I was homeless. Everything I did, I was failure and People treated me like I am monster. Dissociation helped me to survive but its hard. I am lonely I have no family in foreign country. 53 days ago my fiancé broke up until we heal because we self hirt by hitting our head. He couldn't stand it and and wants to go to therapy and me to. Its not healthy to be together when we are so si k because we hurt each other. We had beautiful moments. He made me believe in my career dream. He made me fight fir disability rights. He showed me that I am valuable he gave love with all his heart. He was first man who was kind, loving and accepting in bed. He just loves ne. We had a lot of probles aside and started to sort of abuse each other, he has adhd and was wanting for 5 months to get medication. Then 5 more for appropriate one. And its seems it has negative affect. It changes him. I am also on medication that makes me irritable but nothing else helped so this is obly thing that gets me out of bed and keeps me alive. I have noone to call when I am sad. My mom can't show emotions. I miss him like part of me is gone. I started therapy for nervous system called Safe and sound protocol recently as introduction before starting EDMR. I am waiting for CPT for a year because system has less doctors and a lot of ill people. Meanwhile I found CPT myself and need to wait for it month ago. All therapy costs aaa lot. EDMR costs too. I have scoliosis, and 3 protruded discs, I have shoulder syndrome. I take gabapentin for pain. I went to physio therapy but it is not helping me because i cant make myself do exercises. I met person who dies massages and more inusivw approach. I am taking a lot of moves to heal but uncertain if it will help. I do all alone dezpite being chronically tired. I want to do music and animation it heals but because of depression, executive dysfunction i can't find time to do duoties and have time for art. I am at the end of rope. I am waiting for therapies surving. I have no hope that it will help. I feel so hopeless abd too f up. I found council to help now but its difficult I have noone close to me. I am eother angry to forget how I miss him. Or I go yoga to relax but then I cry. Its ok then but I call mom and she can't help. I feel guilty to block her. I Don't know if he will heal and when, and same for me. Its making me depressed and anxious. I am tired of surviving. I am tired.

TRIGGERS . . . . . . . . . . . . . Its my mom. I don't know what is her illness but she shows no emotions. Its so painful. I shoe emotions but she is just blank and I feel so lonely and hurt. I am in foreign country. I am 33. She is 65 I think.
I provoked her yesterday to make her sad because when I told her how sad I am amd so, she was blank. Then I provoked her and said things to hurt,I asked are you hurt? She said yes a little. Then i continued asking and after 10min she said she is a little bit more hurt. Then I started to say more hurtful things and then asked again same thing, but then I told her what she caused in my life, and how I hate her and so on she started to cry for brief 15srconds and it started like she was faking it. I haven't heard her cry fir years. She is ok with everything and nothing hurys her, she is Ice Queen. Anyway I was convinced she was mocking me because it sounds like that such a weird cry. Its like her emotions when she says anything about them, they are vague, they are general, short, diminished in words, she never shows emotions and I hurt badly.
My whole life is shit because of her. Trust me. She made bad choises, she didn't protect me when I was 5, she didn't teach me about emotions, she didn't allow me to study art, when I got suicidal she took me to emergency (I was 21). They gave false diagnosis, were horrible and gave me pills that made me stand up in the middke of class because of anxiety .
She was always protective of me but in a kind way, so I never questioned her decisions. She was attached to me because she Divorced my father andy brother didn't like her. I was attached to her because her son sexualy disturbed me when I was 5, and he was sadistic, and continued to insult me through years. She was too emotionally distant to do anything. I got bullied in school and after she transferred to another, I was with grandma after school, and I really liked that, in school I had friends, I was happy, We did art, I loved grandma. I was happy for 1 and half. Then she changed my school again because it was too difficult to travel with me everyday to grandma, and it wasn't that far. What i resent is how lost she was, how she never went to therapy or read a book, or looked into herself, how she didn't care of children because she was emotionally totally distant and non equipped. Then I got bullied, lost, it was shit, my life was shit and destroyed by her decisions and It got worse and worse. It took me years to understand what is going on. I was convinced she was right, I thought she knows best, I just need to endure and try harder. Thats hiw she said. But it never did. I went into abusive relationships, started to dissociate, was depressed, anxious, miserable, forced myself to study a lot. I suffered so much for a long time and she always really loves me but is sick i think. She cant stop meddling a d giving advices. I am and was so angry at her. I realised that late in life and in kung fu classes I was kicking boxing bag so much imagining it was her. I attacked her 2x later in last 2 years. I got diagnosed autistic last year with complex PTSD. I had anxiety and major depression disorded and possibly borderline personality disorder before. I moved to another country 4 years ago. I can't tell you how difficult it was. I was in another abusive relationship and I was in women shelter 2x, I was homeless. Everything I did, I was failure and People treated me like I am monster. Dissociation helped me to survive but its hard. I am lonely I have no family in foreign country. 53 days ago my fiancé broke up until we heal because we self hirt by hitting our head. He couldn't stand it and and wants to go to therapy and me to. Its not healthy to be together when we are so si k because we hurt each other. We had beautiful moments. He made me believe in my career dream. He made me fight fir disability rights. He showed me that I am valuable he gave love with all his heart. He was first man who was kind, loving and accepting in bed. He just loves ne. We had a lot of probles aside and started to sort of abuse each other, he has adhd and was wanting for 5 months to get medication. Then 5 more for appropriate one. And its seems it has negative affect. It changes him. I am also on medication that makes me irritable but nothing else helped so this is obly thing that gets me out of bed and keeps me alive. I have noone to call when I am sad. My mom can't show emotions. I miss him like part of me is gone. I started therapy for nervous system called Safe and sound protocol recently as introduction before starting EDMR. I am waiting for CPT for a year because system has less doctors and a lot of ill people. Meanwhile I found CPT myself and need to wait for it month ago. All therapy costs aaa lot. EDMR costs too. I have scoliosis, and 3 protruded discs, I have shoulder syndrome. I take gabapentin for pain. I went to physio therapy but it is not helping me because i cant make myself do exercises. I met person who dies massages and more inusivw approach. I am taking a lot of moves to heal but uncertain if it will help. I do all alone dezpite being chronically tired. I want to do music and animation it heals but because of depression, executive dysfunction i can't find time to do duoties and have time for art. I am at the end of rope. I am waiting for therapies surving. I have no hope that it will help. I feel so hopeless abd too f up. I found council to help now but its difficult I have noone close to me. I am eother angry to forget how I miss him. Or I go yoga to relax but then I cry. Its ok then but I call mom and she can't help. I feel guilty to block her. I Don't know if he will heal and when, and same for me. Its making me depressed and anxious. I am tired of surviving. I am tired.

This is a memory that has been seared into my brain and I do not think that I could forget it even if I wanted to. This happened many years ago and I have a rather shite long term memory so the fact it sticks is telling.
Growing up my father was very protective of me and always made sure I knew what to do in case I was ever held at gunpoint or someone tried to abduct me. He had me in Tai Kwon Do classes and watched me like a hawk until I got a little older. I was around thirteen years old when this event happened and had stopped worrying about being abducted because in my mind, "Nobody abducts teenage boys."
At the time we lived in a small border town with most of the inhabitants being retirees and soldiers from the base. The crime rate was low and the town was very quiet and peaceful which also helped to aide my assurance that nothing would ever happen to me. It was just before Halloween and my mother had left town to go back to our home state and left my dad with the instructions to buy me a Halloween costume.
On this Saturday we were relaxing around the house as we normally did when my mother left, likely watching movies or television or playing video games too loud with no one to complain about the noise. We eventually got hungry and left for Arby's for lunch before heading to Spirit Halloween to costume shop. At this point in my life I had lived a relatively quiet life aside from some racist encounters and minor bullying so I was used to the lack of conflict.
Upon entering Arby's I immediately noticed an older man with tanned skin. His hair was salt and pepper and thinning at the top. His face was clean shaven and he had sort of generic brown eyes. His presence was off putting immediately as he stared deeply at me never once looking away. His stare was intense and made me very uncomfortable, my first assumption was that he was a racist and was upset over us being there.
We set our stuff down at a table with the old man still glaring at me. My father and brother got up to fill their drinks and left me alone at the table. His eyes did not move from me when they left and stayed permanently affixed to me. I knew at this point it likely was not a race thing and my stomach churned at the thought of being oggled by a pedophile. He never once ate while watching me and just sat silently at his table by himself, I do not even recall food being in front of him. I was horried. Lunch was miserable and completely ruined by this man and I was too frightened to say anything to my dad.
We left for Spirit and I asked them if they noticed anything off or weird about the man in the restaurant with us. Neither of them had noticed anything off about him so I neglected to press further. The entire time while shopping for a costume I could not stop thinking about being in Arby's and ended up just picking out a mask that I had a passing interest in.
The memory plagued my mind for the remainder of the day and had ruined my night too. My bedroom was on the second floor of the house but the paranoia was deeply set. I closed my window for fear of him somehow having followed us and crawling into my room while I slept. That entire week I had a rather miserable time trying to sleep, lying awake in bed thinking about the dark feeling that that man put off. It would not be for years until I was able to sleep with my window open again all from this one encounter.

I have a question on behalf of a situation a friend of mine is in. The state they are located in is OK. I've tried to look up some of the laws of the state, but not coming up with anything super clear - so hoping people here can guide me in the right direction.
My friend and her now former partner live together and have been for 3 years. The relationship ended last month. The house belongs to my friend's former partner, and there is no lease/formal rental agreement between my friend and her former partner. My friend's name isn't on anything relating to the house. Because they were dating, the partner insisted on paying the mortgage as normal and did not ever ask for rent from my friend.
The relationship ended abruptly (the partner cheated on my friend) and has left my friend in a situation where they are trying to work as much as possible to save money to leave. Of course, that takes time, since my friend's life was flipped upside down overnight. However, the former cheating partner keeps badgering my friend on when they will be leaving. Is my friend at all protected from getting kicked out? Again, my friend has lived in this residence for over 3 years in the state of OK, and currently doesn't have their name on anything housing related and was never asked/required to pay rent.

Hiya,
I’ve got 2x higher power early entry tickets for Barcelona 5/27 to sell.
We thought we could make it work but life has gotten financially tough in the last few months and we won’t be able to make the trip from London.
They’re e-tickets sent over email so I can send them immediately and happy to use PayPal goods & services to protect us both!
The tickets are £232 each (ticket cost + PayPal G&S fee) - will sell for face value as just want them to go to another fan 😊
Mods, I couldn’t find the ticket mega thread and the one I did find wasn’t allowing anymore comments so just posting on the feed.
Please DM me if you’re interested! Xx

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Once upon a time, in the world of Roshar, there lived a remarkable cat named Luna. Unlike other cats, Luna had a unique power that made her special. She possessed the ability to absorb Stormlight, a powerful energy that flowed through the planet.
Luna's owner, a young scholar named Aiden, had found her on a deserted street on the outskirts of the city. The poor kitten was barely alive, and Aiden, being the compassionate person he was, took her in and nursed her back to health.
One day, while Luna was exploring the city, a storm blew in. The howling winds and blinding rain were so fierce that Luna stumbled and found herself lost in the storm. Just as she was about to give up hope, a strange force surged through her, and the Stormlight filled her to the brim. Suddenly she felt powerful and rejuvenated, and her senses sharpened.
With her newfound strength, Luna made her way back to Aiden's home, and he was amazed. He knew that Luna was something remarkable, and so he began to study her and her newfound powers. He discovered that when Luna absorbed Stormlight, she had the power to heal herself and others, and she could even make herself invisible to protect herself from danger.
As Luna continued to grow and excel, she and Aiden would often venture into the wilds of Roshar. Luna could sense when the storms were coming and would always absorb enough Stormlight to protect them both. They travelled around the world, discovering new wonders and guarding themselves against fierce enemies on their journey.
However, one fateful day, Aiden and Luna encountered the Voidbringers. The monsters from another realm were armed with sharp claws, razor-sharp teeth, and a lust for destruction. Aiden was injured in the battle, and Luna knew she had to act fast if she wanted to save her owner's life. She focused all her Stormlight powers on Aiden and healed him completely, leaving him feeling better than ever before.
With Aiden safe and the Voidbringers defeated, Luna continued to be a hero on her journey, spreading her healing powers and gratitude wherever she went. Luna knew she had found her true calling, and with her Stormlight powers, she knew she could make a difference in the world of Roshar.

I mean full atmosphere lively Friday evening and night with fun night life, big pregame with tons of tailgating and great food, huge beautiful stadium with loud fans and a friendly environment with great football can I get a top 5 good food gives each one a good boost

Especially to our local transgender population. The disinformation machine on and off social media platforms is churning overtime to encourage acts of stochastic terrorism, and there are numerous additional open calls for acts of terrorism which are less than stochastic. The fact that that shooting happened in Nashville, not here, does not matter. The fact that the shooter's identity is still under speculation does not matter. The fact that the cis population commits shootings at a rate 952x higher does not matter. The fact that over 90% of those 2860 mass shooters are cis het men does not matter. None of that matters because to them, facts don't matter. Their movement is a self-sustaining machine fed by hate alone.
This friday, coincidentally, is the Transgender Day of Visibility. There may be events taking place to celebrate. Be very careful to have a plan to escape, hide, or defend yourself in mind wherever you decide to go. Keep in mind that the Department of Homeland Security's advisory on the threat of right-wing domestic terrorism is still active. This word of caution comes from more than myself.
To the rest of the community extending beyond trans identities alone- it wouldn't hurt to exercise that same degree of caution. Their target is all of us. If someone is incensed to the level of adorning the title of domestic terrorist, they won't discriminate whom they choose to make a victim.
The DHS advisory itself has some info on spotting domestic terrorists and what you can do to protect yourself. It's an insultingly underwhelming answer to an overwhelming problem, but it's all we have. https://www.dhs.gov/ntas/advisory/national-terrorism-advisory-system-bulletin-november-30-2022
I care about all of you, and I hate that this is what we have to discuss in 2023. Do what you feel is best to keep your life intact- that includes your mental health. Each of your lives is precious. For our trans community this weekend, be visible in whatever way is meaningful to you and celebrate the accomplishments of those who broke down societal barriers and gender norms to achieve greatness and be their authentic selves. We, as a people, are not going anywhere. We will continue to exist and be visible. Don't let them snuff out your light before your time is done.

Let me start by saying, I hate this time of my life. I(27F) got married to my husband (34M) about two years ago. I’ve been a dumby and have taken him back on multiple occasions after he has cheated. One of the times, I pulled up to his house and caught a girl sleeping in his bed and somehow he convinced me that nothing happened and she was a friend. He has always been super verbally abusive (especially when drinking) and wasn’t physically abusive until recently. He hit me across the face for talking back when I found out that he was still messaging his baby mommas best friend.
Let me back track. In October 2022, we decided to take a friends trip to Florida during our one year anniversary week. It was my husband and I and two other couples. I started to have a inclination that he and one of the girls of the other couples had something going on. The way she looked at him, the giggles, ya know the things you don’t wanna see on a vacation that is supposed be about your anniversary. The night we got back home I decided to go through his phone and saw texts on how they planned on having sex in a few days. I took screen shots of his and hers conversations and decided to send it to our friends group chat(everyone who was on vacation) and kindly asked “so how long has this been going on?” when my husband woke up and saw that text he BEGGED me to unsend it. I was just asking…. Moving on, I also found out that he been sending money to his baby Mommas BEST FRIEND. Flirting with her, paying for her nails. I never got an anniversary gift, Christmas gift, nor a valentines gift from the man. I was absolutely crushed and my mental health has plummeted.
Months have gone by so I am where I am at now. Realizing, I’m to much of a ride or die person and also realizing how toxic this relationship has become but also created me to have toxic behaviors as a way of protecting myself. It took me so long to realize he never respected me and that part is what hurts the most. I needed a place to let this out. I want to still believe that I deserve respect, love, self love, and pure bliss from a person. Please, wish me luck on my journey to find that.

I'm curious what strategies people are using to maximize the life and minimize capacity losses for their batteries. The response I got from Rivian customer service was "ABC, always be charging." Keep charging to 70% as much as possible and minimize time at higher ends of the battery.
My concern is cycle charging. I never got a clear answer whether it's better to charge back to 70% each day to keep near the same SOC or whether it's best to use the battery a reasonable amount, say something like to 30% SOC and then charge back to 70%. My understanding of battery technology is that they will degrade over so many cycles, so my thinking is that I don't want to charge every day to minimize the cycle charging. Is that not a thing if it stays below 70%? Any informed EEs or longtime EV owners out there have any insights?
Much appreciated!