Hello, I thought this might be ok to post, but please remove if it doesn’t fit.
I had a session with a new therapist. I feel incapable of expressing anger. I disassociate instead of feeling. It causes higher anxiety bc I am armoring up to keep the stress inside and not learning to release the tension. Even though I am dismissing it-it’s still there. And because I never got to feel it, I can’t let go of it.
We are going to work on finding my power, which includes feeling anger, and that will help me set boundaries.
This aligns with goals I am using witchcraft to help me with such as self discipline, getting my power back, determination, manifestation, etc.
This week I will practice feeling anger 3 times. When I am angry I will imagine a powerful animal and emotionally channel that energy. I chose a bucking horse. I feel empowered by Horse magic and symbols. He said try journaling. I get a lot out of rituals where I write things out and burn the paper.
Any other tips? Spells, rituals, mediations, anything to try that helps you unlock what you are feeling?

2.9.2020
SUNDAY FEBRUARY 9TH, 2020
9:12PM EST - 9:50 PM EST
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DEDICATION: HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY KEVI FROM KEVITV
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THIS VOLUME IS DEDICATED TO SHAKEVIA KANIAJAH. MY 19 YEAR OLD NIECE. SHE TURNS 19 TOMORROW. I WANT TO PUBLISH THIS BOOK, ON HER 19TH BIRTHDAY. THIS PROJECT HAS BEEN PROOFREAD. THE PROOFREADING WAS AUDIO RECORDED. HELPS. I AM WRITING THIS PROJECT AND IT WILL HELP MILLIONS OF PEOPLE. I LOVE YOU KEVI. I WANT YOU TO BE ONE OF THEM. IT WOULD BE IRONIC IF YOUR UNCLE WROTE A PLAN, HELPING MILLIONS, AND YOU DIDN'T PARTICIPATE. WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS. I LOVE YOU. I THINK OF YOU WHEN I INVEST IN ASSETS. I HAD THE PRILIVEGE OF WATCHING YOU GROW UP. IF THEY ASKED ME WHAT I DID ALL DAY INSIDE OF MY MIND? THE ANSWER IS KARAOKE. SOMETIMES AT WORK I GET CAUGHT. ENGAGING IN KARAOKE. I TOOK YOUR ADVICE FROM FIVE YEARS AGO. I MAKE MYSELF LAUGH INSIDE OF MY HEAD ALL DAY NOW. IT IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL ARENA.
THIS BOOK IS AWESOME KEVI. I JUST FINISHED IT, TWO DAYS AGO. KEVI I LOVE YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I FINISHED THE BOOK, TWO DAYS OR THREE DAYS BEFORE YOUR 19TH BIRTHDAY. SO I JUST SAID I HAD ENOUGH TIME TO EDIT IT BY YOUR BIRTHDAY AND PUBLISH IT WITHIN THE HOUR. I LOVE YOU. I WISH I HAD ECONOMIC GOGGLES TO SEND YOU, SO YOU CAN SEE WHAT I SEE. IF YOU NEVER READ THIS OR APPLY IT AFTER READING, I APPLY IT FOR YOU. THERE ARE TWO TYPES OF LITERACY I KNOW OF. READING WORDS. READING PERCENTAGES. READING THE LETTER. READING THE DOLLAR. IT'S NOT ABOUT SALARY. IT'S EARNING POWER. YOU WON'T GET IT UNTIL YOU GET IT. FINANCIAL LITERACY. AT THE SAME TIME, AS YOU CAN SEE, I BACKED OFF. I LET YOU DO YOU. IT IS WHAT IT IS. I LOVE YOU KEVI. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAKEVIA KANIAJAH. I WROTE A BOOK. RIGHT BEFORE YOUR BIRTHDAY. HERE'S PART OF YOUR GIFT. I WILL STASH AWAY CRYPTO AND STOCKS FOR YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN. I PUBLISHED THIS BOOK ON YOUR 19TH BIRTHDAY. 46
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10:38PM EST -11:35PM EST
CHRISTMAS DAY 2019
WEDNESDAY DECEMBER 25TH, 2019
12.25.2019
PERSON OF NUMBERS
CANDARA FONT
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THE INTRODUCTION: HORRIBLE MINDSET
WHAT IS A PERSON OF NUMBERS? A PERSON OF LETTERS, IS THE TERM INSPIRING THE TITLE FOR THIS ONE. A MAN OF LETTERS IS ONE WHOM WRITES BOOKS POSSIBLY. SO, CONVERSELY, A MAN OF NUMBERS, THE PERSON OF NUMBERS, IS ONE WHOM POSSIBLY SPONSORS INVESTMENTS. LIFE IS ALL ABOUT INVESTMENTS. YES, WE TOOK IT THERE. HOW MANY GREAT INVESTMENTS CAN YOU MAKE FOR YOUR CHILDREN'S SAKE? YOUR GRANDCHILDREN CAN BE PAID. THEY SHOULD BE PAID. THEY ALSO NEED TO LEARN HOW TO GET IT ON THEIR OWN. THEY NEED TO PAY THEMSELVES. HOW DOES ONE WIN THE RAT RACE??? HOW DO YOU ESCAPE THE RAT RACE MATRIX? WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WHEN UNCLE SAM COMES SLAMMING FOR YOU? WE HAVE TO HAVE GREAT INVESTMENTS FOR OUR FUTURES, FOR OUR FUTURES TO BE LESS CONCERNING OF AN ISSUE TO US. THERE IS A MINDSET OF INVESTO-PHOBIA. HORRIBLE MINDSET, FOR THE RECORD. WHY BE AFRAID OF RETIREMENT? BREAKING THIS DOWN IN AN EQUATION, RETIREMENT IS SOMETHING HAPPENING YEARS FROM NOW. SO INVESTING IN TECHNOLOGY STOCKS WHILE YOUNG ALLOWS A PREFERRED RETIREMENT FUND TO LIVE ON AND FURTHER GROW. IF RETIREMENT IS LATER, THEN INVESTING IN EMERGING TECHNOLOGIES, WHICH WOULDN'T POP OFF FULLY UNTIL RETIREMENT AGE. WHAT WE WOULD HAVE WISHED IN OUR TWENTIES, SOMEONE TO SAY THESE THINGS TO US THEN? THE LEAST FRIGHTENING WAY OF LOOKING AT THE STOCKS ARE INDUSTRY BUCKETS.
THROW YOUR MONEY INTO THE RIGHT BUCKET, BUCKET PROFITS DOUBLE AND SPLIT. THIS ENTIRE PROJECT WILL DELVE INTO CONSORTED ECONOMIC STRATEGIES. MY WAY OF TELLING YOU I WOULD SWITCH THE CONCEPTS OFTEN SO YOU DON'T SQUIRM AS MUCH. I WILL GET NO BENEFIT IN THE AFTERLIFE FOR LYING TO YOU NOW MY FRIEND, I FEAR. I INTEND TO LEAVE HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS IN DOLLARS INVESTED IN THE STOCK MARKET, TO BE LEFT TO DIFFERENT PEOPLE. THESE PUBLICATIONS ARE MERE DIARIES OF WHAT WENT ON WHEN. WHEN IT IS ALL OBVIOUS, THESE PUBLICATIONS WILL BE GIVEN OUT AS CONVERSATION ENDERS. WE LOOK FORWARD TO DISPLAYING THE CONCEPTS FROM OUR MIND ON ECONOMIC BLISS. WE ALL WANT ECONOMIC BLISS. IF I COULD WRITE A LETTER TO MYSELF TEN YEARS AGO, ONE LONG LETTER TO 18YR OLD CHAD. HOWEVER I CAN NOT, I CAN ONLY WRITE LETTERS TO THE CHAD TEN YEARS FROM NOW AND I CAN WRITE LETTERS TO YOU. SO, THESE ARE MY LETTERS TO YOU, MY FRIEND.
LETTERS BUT NOTES. NOTES ON ECONOMIC STRATEGIZING. WHATEVER INVESTMENT ARENA I AM INVESTING IN MYSELF, I WILL INCLUDE NOTES ON THE EXPERIENCES. THESE PUBLICATIONS WILL INCLUDE TRADE ACCOUNT PICTURES. I WILL IMMEDIATELY RESTART YOUTUBING AGAIN, BUT AS A FOREX TRADER'S CHANNEL. I DEFINITELY HAVE TO SAY THANK YOU TO GOD FOR MY LIFE IN WHICH I LOVE SO DEARLY. I WANT THE PUBLICATIONS I WRITE IN MY THIRTIES, DURING THE 2020'S, TO REFLECT A CERTAIN GROWTH. A CERTAIN ECONOMIC GROWTH THE WRITING PHASES SHOW. ON THE CREATIVE SIDE, I WILL BE DELVING INTO COSMIC HORROR TO HONOR THE NEED TO VENT. I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR GIVING THIS PUBLICATION YOUR ATTENTION AND I LOOK FORWARD TO ENTERTAINING YOU WITH THE INFORMATION I WAS PRIVY TO.
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DECEMBER 29TH, 2019 11:25PMEST -12:05AM EST
DECEMBER 30TH,2019
(30TH BIRTHDAY)
LAST THIRTY MINUTES OF 30TH BIRTHDAY WRITING SESSION AUDIO RECORDED AS WELL. EVERY WRITING SESSION OF THIS PUBLICATION HAS BEEN AND WILL BE AUDIO RECORDED TO SPUR STEED SPEED..
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CHAPTER ONE: THIS IS JUST MY DIARY AND SO NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY
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INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS CALLED FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. MONEY IS ONLY SCARY WHEN YOU ARE NOT FINANCIALLY LEVERAGING. FINANCIAL LEVERAGING IS AKIN TO PUTTING YOUR MONEY TO WORK FOR YOU, FOR A CHANGE. YOU WANT TO PLAY THE GAME TO WIN. IT IS A GAME AND EVERYTHING GOES BACK IN THE BOX. BUILDING WEALTH IS ALL STRATEGY. WHAT PLAN CAN YOU COME UP WITH TO GET YOURSELF OUT OF THIS ECONOMIC MATRIX MY FRIEND? INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS SOMETHING YOU DO FOR YOU CHILDREN. INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS THE LEAST RISKY THING YOU CAN EVER DO WITH YOUR MONEY. MAINLY DUE TO THE FACT, NOT INVESTING YOUR MONEY LEAVES YOU LITTLE BUFFER. IF YOU DO NOT INVEST YOUR EARNINGS, THEN WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU BURNING YOUR EARNINGS ON? THE ELECTRICITY BILL IS A LIFE LONG BILL. THE MOBILE CELLULAR PHONE BILL IS A LIFE LONG BILL. EVERY BILL IS A LIFE LONG ONE. EVERY SINGLE BILL IS LIFE LONG.
SO, IF THE BILLS ARE NEVER GOING TO STOP, THEN ONLY PAYING THE BILLS WILL NEVER STOP YOU FROM HAVING TO PAY THE BILLS MAN. THE BEST I CAN DO IS TO LEAVE WITH YOU A COLLECTION OF THE MOST STRATEGIC THOUGHT PATTERNS I HAD AVAILABLE ECONOMICALLY. THIS IS AS SAID BEFORE, A DIARY OF WHAT IS TO COME AND HISTORICALLY AN INVESTMENT STRATEGY TO ENACT. STRATEGIES ARE TO BE ENACTED AND I AM DOCUMENTING THE STRATEGIES I AM EMPLOYING NOW AT THE BEGINNING OF MY THIRTIES. FOR THE LAST THREE YEARS, THE LAST THREE YEARS OF MY TWENTIES, I HAVE BEEN ENCAPSULATED MENTALLY WITH INVESTMENT PHILOSOPHY. ALL OF THOSE WRITINGS WILL BE INCLUDED IN THESE WRITINGS JUST BECAUSE THIS IS THE FULL PUBLICATION FOR THE INVESTMENT WRITING.
INVESTING STRATEGY IS A MINDSET. WARFARE IS A MINDSET. THE ECONOMIC WARFARE CALLS FOR STRATEGY. ECONOMIC STRATEGY WILL FREE YOU FROM THE ECONOMIC WARFARE, CAUSING ECONOMIC SLAVERY. WE ARE ENSLAVED TO THE DOLLAR AND WHAT DID YOU EVER DO TO THE DOLLAR FOR IT TO ENSLAVE YOUR GRASS? THE DOLLAR LITERALLY ENSLAVES YOUR GRASS. ZEY CALL IT PROPERTY TAX. IT'S YOUR MONEY AND SADLY YOUR FORTUNE IS IN YOUR HANDS RIGHT NOW. NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, I JUST MIGHT NOT BE ABLE, TO HELP YOU AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT I SAY OR DO. SO, IF YOU ARE AN OPEN MIND, WE ARE HERE TO HELP YOU PURCHASE YOUR ECONOMIC FREEDOM. ECONOMIC FREEDOM MUST BE PURCHASED MY FRIEND.
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1:43AM EST - 2:30AM EST
NEW YEAR'S DAY 2020
JANUARY 1ST, 2020
1.1.2020
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CAPRICORN SEASON EH? (COMIC BOOK GUY VOICE) (SIMPSONS)
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CHAPTER TWO: Z'WORLDS
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MOST PEOPLE WHO LEARN WHAT I AM RESEARCHING, WILL NOT TELL YOU ANYTHING ABOUT IT, AT ALL, EVER. MOST PEOPLE, I HOWEVER, SHALL SPILL MY GUTS FOR FREE UNTIL THE AFTERMATH. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD FOR THIS LIFE AND THESE GIFTS AND SO I MUST SHARE THEM WITH Z'WORLD. SO HERE WE GO. HERE'S HOW I REALLY FEEL ABOUT FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. WHAT IS INVESTING? INVESTING IS, TO US, FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. IN WHAT MANNER ARE YOU FINANCIALLY LEVERAGING IS THE QUESTION TO ASK MY DEAR FRIEND? YES!
(PERSONAL MANDATE) YOU SHOULD, AS IN I, INVEST 80% OF YOUR PROFITS FROM INVESTMENTS, INTO OTHER INVESTMENTS. INVESTING, FINANCIAL LEVERAGING, IS HOW YOU ARE GOING TO RETIRE YOURSELF AND YOUR FAMILY. YOUR LOVED ONES WILL FINANCIALLY BENEFIT FROM YOUR SUCCESS BECAUSE YOU ARE GOING TO ENJOY RETIRING THEM, ECONOMICALLY, BUYING THEIR FREEDOM PAPERS. YOU'RE ACTUALLY GIVING THEM THEIR FREEDOM PAPERS SO THEY CAN PURCHASE THEIR FREEDOM THEIR SELVES. THIS IS WHY I AM NOT EVER AFRAID ANYMORE, OF LEVERAGING THE DOLLAR.
THE DOLLAR, IS A DEFLATING TIRE. I SHALL LEVERAGE, THE DEFLATING TIRE, THUS HAVING A TEE-PEE HUT FULL OF TIRES BEING LEVERAGED. I DIDN'T DEFLATE SAID TIRE, THE GAME WAS RIGGED. RIGGED OR NOT WE WON. WE WON. WHO WON? WE WON. WHO IS WE? WE. YOU. ME. WE. I'M TAKING YOU WITH ME. IF IT'S IN YOUR DESTINY TO SEE THE WHITE RABBIT. HERE IS THE WHITE RABBIT. HERE IS THE WHITE RABBIT, TO ESCAPING THE ECONOMICAL MATRIX. MONOPOLY IS A BOARD GAME, CLEARLY. AT THE END OF THE GAME, NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU ACQUIRE, IT ALL GOES BACK IN THE BOX.
IF IT ALL GOES BACK IN THE BOX, YOU MUST ACQUIRE, THEN DISTRIBUTE. BEFORE DISTRIBUTING, YOU SHOULD INITIALLY CONSIDER EXPANSION. AFTER EXPANSION, ALLOW THE LEVERAGED FINANCES TO REVOLVE AND AGE. "SHOULD" IS SUCH A STRONG WORD. I HATE USING THE WORD "SHOULD". I SHOULD, STOP USING THE WORD "SHOULD". THIS IS AN INVESTMENT VEHICLE SO, "SHOULD", IS A WORD USED IN THE REALM OF PROJECTION AND SPECULATION. IF YOU FEAR SPECULATION, WHY DO YOU HAVE EXES?
ALL I WANT FROM YOU, IS AN EARLY RETIREMENT. ALL I WANT OF YOU, IS FOR YOU TO RETIRE AS SOON AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN. ALL I WANT FOR YOU, IS YOUR NEST EGG. I WANT YOU, OUT OF THE ECONOMICAL MATRIX. THERE'S NO NEED FOR YOU HERE. HONESTLY, YOU SERVICES ARE ACTUALLY, REQUIRED ELSEWHERE. ELSEWHERE YOU SHOULD GO, FOR MEANS AFFORDING RETIREMENT. THEY SAY AUTOMATION MEANS PEOPLE LOSE JOBS. THEY WERE NEVER SUPPOSED TO ALWAYS NEED A JOB TO PAY THEIR BILLS IN THE FIRST PLACE. OTHERWISE THAT'S THE WORST CASE. THIS IS THE NEW DECADE AND FRIEND, THERE ARE M O R E L E G A L WAYS TO SKIN THE EVICTION NOTICE OFF THE DOOR. THE CAT IS THE RENT. SKINNING IS A MENTAL PROCESS.
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1.1.2020
JANUARY 1ST, 2020
NEW YEAR'S DAY 2020
11:55PM EST - 12:18AM EST
12:18AM EST - 12:33AM EST (EDITING TIME)
12.2.2020
JANUARY 2ND, 2020
FROM SYRACUSE, NEW YORK
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CHAPTER THREE: AS OF YET, UNBORN
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I JUST TURNED THIRTY YEARS OLD LAST SUNDAY, DURING NEW YEAR'S WEEKEND. SO WITH ME BEING THIRTY NOW, THE MAIN THING I THINK ABOUT IS MY FUTURE. THANKFULLY FOR ME, DURING MY TWENTIES, I HAVE BEEN PUTTING IN STRONG THOUGHTS AND CONCENTRATED ACTIONS/EFFORTS INTO REALIZING AND ACTUALIZING THE YOUNG ADULT AND CHILDHOOD DREAMS I CARESSED WITHIN. SO WITH THIS, AT THIRTY, I ONLY THINK ABOUT BUILDING MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO IS WHAT WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE MYSELF. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE MY ENTIRE FAMILY. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO LEAVE AN INHERITANCE FOR ALL OF MY SEVEN NIECES AND NEPHEWS. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO LEAVE AN INHERITANCE FOR MY OWN CHILDREN, AS OF YET, UNBORN.
MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO FUND THE BUSINESS PARTNERSHIPS I HAVE IN THE WORKS WITH BUSINESS PARTNERS AND MY BUSINESS MENTOR. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO SETTLE DOWN AND START A FAMILY OF MY OWN. AN INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL HELP ME GROW MY BRAND AND EXPAND THE BRANDS I GROW FROM SCRATCH. AN INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANY OTHER PHYSICAL TASK ON THIS EARTH, FOR ME INDIVIDUALLY, FOR THE INVESTMENTS WILL ALLOW ME TO PROVIDE FOR THE WIFE AND CHILDREN I TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR. I AM NOT ONE TO JUMP INTO SITUATIONS I KNOW I CAN NOT HANDLE MYSELF IN. IF A CHILD COSTS TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY THOUSAND DOLLARS, ONE QUARTER OF A MILLION DOLLARS, I MUST GET MY EARNING POWER UP TO THE MILLION DOLLAR LEVEL, SO I CAN AFFORD TO SIMULTANEOUSLY FINANCE THE GROWTH OF FOUR CHILDREN.
LET'S SAY I HAD FOUR CHILDREN, AND AN EARNING POWER OF ONE MILLION DOLLARS PER SEASON. THAT WOULD BE FOUR MILLION DOLLARS PER YEAR. THAT'S ONE MILLION DOLLARS PER SEASON TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE CHILD'S LIFE, EACH CHILD. THE REMAINING INCOME FROM THE EARNING POWER MUST GO INTO VARIOUS DIVERSE INVESTMENT VEHICLES FOR THE CHILDREN. THE FUTURE OF THE FAMILY RAISING ME UP TO PREVIOUS POINTS, IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO ME BEFORE HAVING CHILDREN OF MY OWN. I SET A PERSONAL GOAL FOR MYSELF; TO NOT CREATE A FAMILY OF MY OWN, UNTIL I HAVE FULLY FINANCED THE FAMILY I ORGINATED FROM. WITH THIS GOAL FINISHED, WHENEVER I DO IN FACT FINISH IT, I WILL BEGIN PUTTING AWAY INVESTMENTS FOR MY FUTURE CHILDREN.
I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MYSELF. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MY FUTURE CHILDREN. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MY FAMILY OF ORIGIN. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR ALL BUSINESS PARTNERS AND THE MENTOR. THIS WOULD MEAN, I WOULD HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS SET UP FOR THE PEOPLE I CHERISH. THE INVESTMENTS IN MY OWN INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS, I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH THEM, IF I AM STILL ALIVE WHEN THEY BLOSSOM. THEY WOULD ONLY BE IN MY ACCOUNT, SO I WOULD HAVE ACCESS TO A STASH OF STOCKS, CRYPTO, AND INVESTMENTS, I COULD LIQUIDATE MYSELF, DURING MY LIFETIME. THOSE INVESTMENTS WILL OF COURSE, BE IN MY WILL AS WELL. I WILL ONLY HAVE A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF MONEY INVESTED IN MY PERSONAL ACCOUNTS. THE AMOUNT MAY STILL IN FACT BE STAGGERING BUT NEVERTHELESS, IT WILL PAIL IN COMPARISON, TO THE ACCOUNTS LEFT IN MY WILL FOR MY LOVED ONES. I INTEND TO HAVE MY LOVED ONES AS WELL, SIGN UP FOR THE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS, SO I CAN BUILD THEIR ACCOUNTS FOR THEM WITH MY CAPITAL.
I REALLY JUST CARE ABOUT MAKING SURE THAT I DID IN FACT LOOK OUT FOR ALL OF THOSE WHOM I LOVED SO DEARLY. PERFECT SEGUE. WE ARE NOT INVESTING OUR EARNED INCOME FOR OURSELVES, PRIMARILY. WE ARE INVESTING OUR EARNED INCOME, FOR THE SAKE OF OUR FAMILIES AND LOVED ONES. NOTHING MATTERED TO US MORE, THAN THOSE WE LOVE. WE ALL LOVE A PRE-SELECTED GROUP OF PEOPLE, MOSTLY COMPRISED OF FAMILY AND FRIENDS. ANY CHILDREN WE HAVE QUICKLY BECOME LOVED ONES, IMMEDIATELY. IT IS THEM, WE ARE TO KEEP IN MIND, WHEN WE CONSIDER BUILDING INVESTMENT PORTFOLIOS. MY ULTIMATE GOAL, THE DEFINITE CHIEF AIM, OF THESE CREATIVE ENDEAVORS, WOULD BE TO HELP YOU RETIRE YOURSELF, AND YOUR FAMILIES, AS QUICKLY AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE. EARLY RETIREMENT IS ONE OF THE MOST HUMANE ACTIONS, A HUMAN BEING CAN PERFORM. THERE IS NOTHING MORE IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE, THAN YOUR PERSONAL RETIREMENT, AND YOUR CHILDREN'S INHERITANCE. I AIM TO HELP YOU ACHIEVE WHATEVER GOALS YOU HAVE PREVIOUSLY SET FOR YOURSELF. I AIM TO HELP YOU IN ACHIEVING THE PERSONAL GOALS, YOU HAVE YET TO SET FOR YOURSELF. THE MAIN THING YOU HAVE TO DO, PERSONALLY, IS TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, AND TO BELIEVE WITHIN YOURSELF, IT IS IN FACT POSSIBLE. IF YOU DO NOT SEE YOUR GOALS, AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE, AS A HUMAN BEING, YOU SHOULD BE UTTERLY ASHAMED OF YOURSELF. COMMA.
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2:08AM EST - 3:08AM EST
SATURDAY JANUARY 4TH, 2020
1.4.2020
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CHAPTER FOUR: PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY
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WE ARE STARTING THIS PROJECT OFF, CONCEPT WISE PER CHAPTER, GRADUALLY. BUT WHAT IF WE THREW YOU, IN THE DEPTH POOL? HERE WE GO. YOU ARE NOW IN THE POOL. HOLDING COMPANIES. INVESTING CAPITAL, FOR COMPANIES, IN EXCHANGE FOR DIVIDENDS FROM SHARES. SHARE WEAR. WEAR SHARE. DIVIDENDS FROM WHERE? HOLDING SHARES FROM COMPANIES, IS PUTTING YOUR MONEY INTO A BUCKET. FIRST YOU NEED A BUCKET LIST. IN THIS UNIVERSE, YOU PUT YOUR MONEY IN THE RIGHT BUCKET, AT THE RIGHT PROFIT MARGIN TIME FRAME, THE MONEY DOUBLES FOR DECADES. A GOOD THREE DECADES THE MONEY WILL DOUBLE. SOMETIMES I FEEL THE EMERGING MARKETS, AS A PART OF DESTINY.
IN MY TWENTIES, I WAS OF A CONSUMER'S MIND VS. FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. AT THIS POINT, I ONLY WANT TO BUY FOOD AND CLOTHING WITH EARNED INCOME FROM WORK. I DID NOT KNOW CERTAIN KEYWORDS TO SHAKE THE FEAR. HOLDING SHARES IN EMERGING MARKETS. MARKETS IN HEAVY DEVELOPMENT. MARKETS POISED TO ERUPT WITHIN A DECADE. MY THIRTIES, I REALIZE NOW, GIVES ME, ONE MORE CHANCE AT PURE YOUTH. ADDING TO THIS DECADE, THE APPLICATION OF EVERYTHING LEARNED, DURING THE RESEARCH IN MY TWENTIES. I AM USING THE TOBACCO MONEY, BAD HABIT MONEY, TO BUY SHARES. ONE WAY OF FUNDING. FIRST WAY OF FUNDING. ANOTHER WAY OF FUNDING IS THRU EARNED INCOME. ANOTHER WAY IS THRU RETURN ON PREVIOUS INVESTMENTS.
THE BUCKET LIST OF EMERGING MARKETS IS THE LIST OF PREVIOUS INVESTMENTS. MARKET CAPITALIZATION IS THE PERCENTAGE OF THE MARKET, THE COMPANY ADHERES TO. HOW MUCH MONEY FROM THE MARKET, DOES THIS COMPANY OR INDUSTRY OWN? IT IS A GAME NAMED "PROFIT MARGINS VS. PRICE LEVELS". WHEN A COMPANY GOES PUBLIC ON THE STOCK MARKET, THE INITIAL PRICE AT THE OPEN ON IT'S FIRST DAY IS THE IPO. THE INITIAL PUBLIC OPEN, THE FIRST PRICE LEVEL AND PROFIT MARGIN. YOU ARE PLAYING, PROFIT MARGIN PRICE LEVEL. WE ARE IN THE TECHNOLOGICAL ERA. TECHNOLOGY STOCKS, WHAT KIND OF TECHNOLOGY STOCKS?
EMERGING TECHNOLOGIES. DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES. DISRUPTIVE INDUSTRIES, EMERGING INDUSTRIES, THE NEW REVOLUTIONS AND AGES. THEY CAN BE A PART OF YOUR RETIREMENT FUND MAN. THESE KEYWORDS ARE TIMELESS. THE STOCKS FOR THIS TIME PERIOD, THIS AGE OR REVOLUTION, IS TIME SENSITIVE. THEREFORE, THIS PUBLICATION WILL INEVITABLY SERVE AS A DAMMIT I SAW IT COMING. ON PAPER. ON PAPER, THE STOCK BUCKET LIST, IS THE FUTURE. YOU ARE LITERALLY INVESTING IN THE FUTURE INDUSTRIES OF THE FUTURE, IN THE PRESENT. IN THE PRESENT, YOU MUST REMEMBER, THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT. THERE ARE NANO FLIES IN THE HOOD. INVEST IN NANO FLIES, GET OUT OF THE HOOD. THE GHETTO DOESN'T NEED US. WE NEEDED THE GHETTO TO BRING US HERE. NOW, IT IS TIME. TIME FLIES QUICKLY. WOULD YOU SAY?
WE CALL IT "NBC ART". NANO TECHNOLOGY. BIO METRICS. CRYPTO, CYBER NETICS, CYBER SECURITY, ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE, ROBOTICS, TRANS HUMAN INDUSTRIES, PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY. COGNITIVE AND NEURO SCIENCE, BIO SCIENCE, ENTERPRISING SOFTWARE. SOON WE WILL GO TO THE LIST OF 100 DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES. WAS THIS SWIM, THIS CHAPTER, DEEP ENOUGH FOR DEPTH?
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6:30PM EST - 7:10PM EST
1.4.2020
SATURDAY JANUARY 4TH 2020
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CHAPTER FIVE: PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY CONTINUED
HOLDING STOCKS WILL BE MY NEST EGG. WE MUST UTILIZE THE TECHNOLOGICAL INNOVATIONS OF OUR DAYS, IN OUR LIVES, FOR THE BETTER OPPORTUNITIES OUT THERE, AWAITING OUR HEIRS. I AM NOTHING MORE THAN A STUDENT. I WILL NEVER BE ANYTHING MORE THAN A GRAND STUDENT. I LEARN WHAT I MUST APPLY. I MUST APPLY WHAT I'VE LEARNED. WHAT IS AN ASSET CLASS? THAT'S WHAT I WOULD ASK ALEXA. HEY SIRI. HEY GOOGLE. OK GOOGLE. WE ARE ENTERING THE ALEXA AGE. THE ALEXA REVOLUTION HAS TAKEN PLACE SEAMLESSLY. IT APPEARS AS IF MORE PEOPLE ADORE HER THAN NOT. CAN ALEXA TESTIFY IN COURT?
THERE'S A NEW TYPE OF ASSET. THE DIGITAL ASSET. WHEN WOULD THE DIGITAL ASSET APPEAR? IN THE AFTER THE. AFTER THE DIGITAL REVOLUTION, THE DIGITAL ASSET APPEARS, IN THE DIGITAL AGE. WE HAVE BEEN IN THE DIGITAL AGE, I FEEL MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. I WAS BORN DURING THE DIGITAL REVOLUTION. MILLENNIAL. I SAW THE WORLD DIGITIZE. IT WAS BEAUTIFUL. I HAD NO IDEA. I HAD NO IDEA I WOULD STUDY THOSE TIME PERIODS. DIGITAL ASSETS, DIGITAL CURRENCY. DIGITAL CURRENCY UNITS. DCUS. HOLDING DCUS ARE THE START OF THE STOCK PORTFOLIO.
THE FUNNY. THE FUNNY THING ABOUT THE FIAT AMERICAN DOLLAR, IS INFLATION. THE PURCHASING POWER IS LESS THAN THE DOLLAR IT IS POSING AS. DIGITAL CURRENCY HOWEVER, EVENTUALLY EXCEEDS ONE DOLLAR IN VALUE, PER UNIT. SO, WHILE YOU ARE FIGURING OUT WHICH INDUSTRIES AND COMPANIES TO INVEST IN, YOU ARE HOLDING THE STOCK FUNDS, IN A DIGITAL ASSET PORTFOLIO. AS THE DIGITAL CURRENCY UNITS ENHANCE PRICE LEVELS, YOU CAN NOW AFFORD MORE SHARES. OUR GOAL HERE, FOR YOU ALL, IS TO PROVIDE AS GREAT A SERVICE AS POSSIBLE. BEING PUBLISHED, I HAVE TO SPILL THE GUTS.
DIGITAL CURRENCY ISN'T INFLATED. IF YOU CAN MANAGE TO UTILIZE THE TECHNOLOGICAL ADVANCES DURING YOUR LIFETIME, YOU SHOULD INVEST IN THEM. RISE WITH THE EMERGING MARKETS MY FRIEND. THE EMERGING INDUSTRIES COULD UTILIZE YOUR CAPITAL IN THEIR ENDEAVORS. THEY WOULD BE EVER SO GRACIOUS TO YOU. YOU'D PROBABLY GET DIVIDENDS. YOU COULD SHARE THOSE SHARES. YOU COULD LEAVE THOSE SHARES, TO YOUR CHILDREN, OR THEIR CHILDREN. IN ESSENCE, I AM ACTUALLY PUBLISHING A TREASURE MAP. IT'S FAIRLY ODD. SHOUT OUT TO MY PARENTS. SHOUT OUT TO THE "EBONY TREASURE MAP". THE BITS OF THE BOOK I WAS ABLE TO FINISH DURING AGE TWENTY WAS GREAT TO AND FOR ME.
WHEN YOU GO SHOPPING FOR GROCERIES AND YOU ARE LOOKING FOR CEREAL, WHERE DO YOU GO? THE CEREAL ISLE. YOU SHOP FOR STOCKS, BASED ON THE ISLE. THE EMERGING ISLES. THE ISLES EVERYONE IS NOT ON. WHEN YOU FINALLY FIND THE CEREAL, IN THE CEREAL ISLE, YOU'RE ON THE RIGHT ISLE. GET EVERY BOX YOU CAN AFFORD. THERE'S A MILLION DOLLAR PRIZE IN THOSE BOXES. NOT IN ALL OF THEM, MAYBE, BUT NOT ALWAYS ALL OF THEM. THERE ARE BILLIONS OF PRIZES IN CERTAIN CEREAL BRANDS. PURCHASE THE RIGHT CEREAL, LEAVE AN INHERITANCE. I FEEL LIKE, THE BEST WAY TO MAKE A BILLION DOLLARS, IS TO PROMISE TO GOD YOU'LL GIVE HALF OF IT AWAY TO OTHER PEOPLE. THAT'S HOW I DID IT. NO ONE KNOWS YOUR FUTURE NET WORTH, THEY MOSTLY TREAT YOU BASED ON YOUR CURRENT NET WORTH. THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT FOR ALL OF US. LOOK AT WHAT I AM WRITING AND WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING AT. INTERNALIZING. I WANT YOU TO HAVE THE ECONOMIC POWERS I WIELD. IT'S A CIRCUS AND A JUNGLE OUT HERE. THE CIRCUS IS INSIDE OF THE JUNGLE. STAY OUT OF THE CIRCUS, TO GET OUT OF THE JUNGLE.
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SUNDAY JANUARY 5TH, 2020
1.5.2020
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CHAPTER SIX: HOLDING
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HOLDING STOCKS IS FOR BUILDING ECONOMIC POWER. IF YOU CAN MANAGE TO BUILD YOUR ECONOMIC POWER, BEFORE THE STOCKS SURGE, YOU CAN BUY AS MANY STOCKS AS YOU WANT TO. NOT ONLY SHOULD YOU BUY STOCKS, YOU NEED TO BUY STOCKS. WE EMPHATICALLY IMPLORE YOU. STRAIGHT UP, YOU'RE NOT HOLDING STOCKS FOR ME. I WON'T SEE A DOLLAR. YOU KNOW IT. THERE'S NO WAY. YOU ARE HOLDING PORTFOLIOS, FOR YOUR CHILDREN'S INHERITANCE. RIGHT?
WE ARE HERE TO HELP YOU RETIRE. BUY AS MANY STOCKS IN THE EMERGING MARKETS AND DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES, AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN. YOU WILL RETIRE SOON. I AM A VERY SPIRIT FILLED INDIVIDUAL. I HAVE MY OWN WAVE. WE ARE IN A NEW WAVE. THIS WAVE IS NOT OF MY DOING. I CAN SEE THE WAVE EMERGING ON THE RISE. WITH ECONOMICAL SURFBOARD IN HAND, AFTER LETTING YOU KNOW WHAT THIS WAVE IS CAPABLE OF DOING FOR US, I BID YOU FAREWELL. WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS. I WAS ACTIVELY PURSUING ECONOMIC FREEDOM, THIS IS ALL THAT MATTERED ABOUT ME. I PUBLISHED THE NOTES AND STRATEGY AND THEN I BID YOU FAREWELL.
POSTERITY. FIND OUT ABOUT AS MANY DIFFERENT, LEGITIMATE, WAYS TO LEVERAGE FINANCES. LIMIT YOUR CONSUMPTION EXPENSES, AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. INVEST YOUR BAD HABIT MONEY, INTO THE STOCK MARKET. THOSE WORDS CAUSE FEAR. THIS PUBLICATION, HELPS TO SERVE THE NOTION, FEAR ITSELF IS THE ONLY THING TO FEAR. FDR. I CAN EARN BILLIONS FOR MYSELF AND MY FAMILY. MY CHILDREN. MY BUSINESS PARTNERS. MY MENTOR. EVEN THERE IT IS STILL MUCH FURTHER TO GO. HELP WISE. SERVICE TO OTHERS. SO THIS PUBLICATION, DOES IT'S OWN DAMAGE. DAMAGE TO WHAT, I'M NOT GOING THERE WITH YOU. I JUST WANT TO HELP AS MANY PEOPLE RETIRE AS EARLY AS POSSIBLE.
I FEEL IT DEEP WITHIN MY HEART. ONCE YOU CROSS OVER, YOU TAKE NOTHING WITH YOU. I CAN EARN BILLIONS OF DOLLARS. MONEY CAN BE PUT IN MY CASKET, I STILL DIDN'T TAKE IT. IT'S ALL ABOUT DISTRIBUTION. THE ACCOUNTS I SET UP WILL ONLY HAVE WHAT I NEED IN THEM AND THE REST WILL BE DISTRIBUTED. STOCKS AND ALL DIGITAL ASSETS, UNTIL WE COMPLETE THE LIST. FOR NOW, THE FIRST MILLIONS EARNED, GO INTO HOLDING PORTFOLIOS OF ALL KINDS. STARTING WITH THE STOCKS AND CRYPTO CURRENCIES, HEADING TOWARDS COMMERCIAL AND RESIDENTIAL REAL ESTATE. FLIIPPING HOUSE EQUITIES, TAX LIENS, JOINT VENTURES. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN THE BIG DREAMER. NOW I MUST ACT THEM OUT. DAY BY DAY, IMPLEMENT MORE STRATEGIC HABITS INTO THE SPARE TIME I HAVE.
AT THIRTY, THIS IS GENERALLY WHEN ONE WOULD DELVE INTO FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. I BARELY MADE IT. THE THREE YEAR PREPARATION STUDIES CURVED THE BEND AHEAD. AT THIRTY, AT THIS POINT, I AM FINANCIALLY NEUTRAL, MY DECISIONS BROUGHT ME HERE, TO THIRTY AND NEUTRAL. MY DECISIONS FROM HERE ON OUT, WILL DETERMINE THE LIFE'S SAKE. I BARELY MADE IT. THREE YEARS FROM NOW, WILL BE TEN YEARS FROM THE FIRST ASSET PURCHASED. THE DIGITAL ASSET, THE FIRST EVER. I HAVE WAY MORE STUDYING TO DO. I MUST INCREASE THE STUDYING, AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. ASAP. AMAP. THE APPLICATION OF WHAT IS STUDIED MUST BE ALL THE THRITIES ARE ABOUT. IF YOU LIVE TO SEE FORTY, THIRTY FIVE FOR YOU. CHILDREN. I HAVE FIVE YEARS TO CREATE THE DREAM SCAPE I WANT FOR MY LIFE SITUATION AND LIFE, BEFORE HAVING A CHILD INSERTED INTO IT BY MY OWN GLANDS. AT MY OWN GLANDS. I WANT TO BE A STAY AT HOME DAD. WE MAKE MONEY FROM HOME OVER HERE BABY.
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SATURDAY JANUARY 11TH, 2020
1.11.2020
6:38PM EST - 7:00PM EST
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CHAPTER SEVEN: ANY RETURN ON YOUR INVESTMENTS

1:37AM EST - 2:27AM EST
TUESDAY FEBRUARY 4TH, 2020
2.4.2020
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CHAPTER TWENTY ONE: DOLLARS IN CAPITAL
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ON THE RIDE HOME A FEW HOURS AGO, I HAD A TERM COME TO ME, "FINANCIAL CONVERSION". THE "FC". TO FINANCIALLY CONVERT, IS TO HAVE A PLAN. TO FINANCIALLY CONVERT, IS TO HAVE A PRODUCT, SERVICE, OR INSTRUMENT. THE FINANCIAL CONVERSION WINS THE GAME. I'VE NEVER BEEN INTO BANKS WHEN IT COMES TO MY OWN MONEY. AT THE SAME TIME, SAVING MONEY WAS AN ISSUE FOR ME. I DIDN'T HAVE A REAL PLAN FOR SAVING. WE NEEDED A SAVINGS PLAN. NOW, WE CAN SEE, WHAT WE ARE DOING IS SAVING OUR CURRENCY IN OTHER CURRENCIES. WE ARE CONVERTING CURRENCY TO SECURITIES AND INSTRUMENTS. WE THROW OUR CURRENCY IN THE EQUITY MARKETS. THE MONEY MARKETS. WE SAVE OUR CURRENCY IN BONDS. BONDS OF ALL KINDS. BONDS OF ALL KINDS FOR OUR DIAPERS AND STROLLERS. I'VE NEVER PURCHASED A DIAPER IN MY LIFE. WE ARE FINANCIALLY CONVERTING THE DOLLARS INTO INTEREST BEARING VEHICLES. AT THIRTY YEARS OLD, IT IS ALL ABOUT INTEREST. WHAT INTERESTS ME? WHAT AM I INTERESTED IN? I AM INTERESTED IN EARNING INTEREST ON MY MONEY. EARNING INTEREST, INTERESTS ME. I FIND INTEREST ON COLLATERAL, INTERESTING. INTERESTING. AGAIN.
I WANT YOU TO BE AS WEALTHY AS I AM WHEN IT'S ALL OVER. ACQUISITION, DISTRIBUTION. DISTRIBUTE IMMEDIATELY, WHAT WAS JUST ACQUIRED. I HAVE THREE TO FIVE PEOPLE, READY TO BE SENT FUNDS FOR THEIR E-TRADE, ROBINHOOD, AND FREEWALLET ACCOUNTS. WHAT THIS MEANS IS, ONE HUNDRED DOLLARS TO EACH PERSON AT A TIME. EACH PERSON PURCHASES THE SAME STOCKS, IN DIFFERENT ORDERS. IN TOTAL, MY EARNINGS WILL GET HUNDREDS OF SHARES AT A TIME, IN DIFFERENT ACCOUNTS, ALONG WITH MINE. SO WHEN I LOOK AT MY OWN HOLDING ACCOUNTS, I'D HAVE TO REMEMBER I ACTUALLY HOLD WAY MORE. THE MAIN REASON YOU HAVE EVERYTHING DISTRIBUTED, IS TO MAKE SURE YOU KNOW YOUR LOVED ONES ARE GOOD FOREVER. YOU PURCHASED HOWEVER MANY SHARES IN TOTAL IN LIFE AS YOU WERE MEANT TO. IT WAS NECESSARY AND SO IT BECAME THE ULTIMATE GAME. I GAVE UP MY PERSONAL LIFE MY ENTIRE TWENTIES. I ISOLATED MYSELF ENOUGH TO UNLOCK MYSELF, TO MYSELF. ANYWAY, I NEED THE MAJORITY OF MY HOLDINGS ATTACHED TO BENEFICIARIES. THE PEOPLE I SEND MONEY TO FOR E-TRADE ARE BENEFICIARIES AS WELL. I WANT IT SET UP LIKE THAT RATHER THAN HAVING A LONG WILL. I WANT TO DROP MY FUNDS IN OTHER'S ACCOUNTS AND THAT IS MY WILL GIFT TO THEM WHEN I'M GONE. UNTIL THEN, WE USE THE MONEY FOR JOINT BUSINESS OPPORTUNITY.
NOW I CAN SEE THE SAVING OF MONEY AS VERY TRULY FUN. I AM OF ZEITGEIST ADDENDUM. AT 18. FRACTIONAL RESERVE SYSTEM ISN'T A NEW TERM TO ME AT ALL. I AM SAVING MY MONEY IN THE STOCK MARKET. I AM SAVING MONEY IN DIGITAL CURRENCY. I AM SAVING MY MONEY IN SAVINGS BONDS. BEARER BONDS. MUTUAL BONDS FUNDS. MUNICIPAL BONDS. CORPORATE BONDS. ZERO-COUPON BOND. SAVINGS. I WAS PERSONALLY WONDERING, WHO THE WINTER SOLSTICE WOULD BE. I WONDERED IF THE WINTER SOLSTICE WAS BIGGER THAN THE SUMMER'S. 2018 SUMMER SOLSTICE WAS A BIG GUY, BUT NEW. I WAS WONDERING WHY THEY DID THAT TO HIM AT THE VERY BEGINNING"? SINCE HE DIED RIPPLE NEVER CAME BACK UP. I SAY THAT TO SAY I STILL DIDN'T SEE THE WINTER SOLSTICE MARK OFF COMING. R.I.P. KOBE BRYANT. KOBE BRYANT DIED ONE MONTH AFTER THE 2019 WINTER SOLSTICE. AT THE VERY BEGINNING OF THE SECOND CAREER HE WAS PURSUING. IN THE MIDDLE OF A LEGAL DISPUTE WITH A PHARMA COMPANY OVER THE COPYRIGHT NAME OWNERSHIP OF "THE BLACK MAMBA".
AS LONG AS I CONTINUE TO THROW MONEY EVERY WEEK INTO MY STOCK AND CRYPTO HOLDINGS, I MEET MY GOAL. AS LONG AS I CONTINUE TO THROW MONEY EVERY WEEK INTO OTHER'S STOCK AND CRYPTO HOLDINGS, WE MEET OUR GOALS. I MEET ANOTHER ONE OF MY GOALS AS WELL. IT IS MY GOAL TO BE THAT GUY. I WAS THAT GUY. WHO WAS THAT GUY? THAT GUY WAS CHAD. THE WATCHLIST GROWS LONGER. YOU HAVE THE WATCHLIST HERE. I WILL UPDATE THE PRICES ON NEW PAPER IN HERE, RIGHT BEFORE IT'S DONE, EVERY VOLUME. THUS A TIME TABLE OF THE WATCHLIST. VOLUME TWO IS FOUR SESSIONS AWAY. FOUR WRITING SESSION HOURS AWAY. SOON WE WILL START AN AUDIO VERSION IMPROMPTU. FOR EVERY COMPANY ON THE WATCHLIST, WE NEED THE COMPETING COMPANY NAMES. FOR EVERY INDUSTRY, WE NEED RELATED INDUSTRIES. MANY OF OUR INDUSTRIES ON THE LIST ARE RELATED, WEIRDLY. NOW THERE'S THIS ENTHUSIASM TOWARDS SAVING. I VALUED SPENDING OVER SAVING, WHEN I WAS COMPLETELY FINANCIALLY ILLITERATE. NOW I AM CLOSER TO FINANCIAL LITERACY AT LEAST AND I AM DISGUSTED WITH THE THOUGHT OF AVID CONSUMPTION OF ANYTHING BUT STOCKS. FORGIVE ME. THROWING IN THREE HUNDRED UNITS OF CURRENCY INTO INVESTMENTS WEEKLY. TEN THOUSAND YEARLY INVESTED. SAVED IN DIFFERENT FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS. PREP REDUCES RISK SO ANY WHO FEARS THE RISK ALSO FEARS THE PREPARATION. I AM PREPARED YET STILL PREPARING TO BE INVOLVED IN MORE PREPARATION.
THIS AFTERNOON, RIGHT BEFORE THE RIDE PICKED ME UP FOR WORK, I PLACED A BUY LIMIT FOR RVBR ON E-TRADE. THAT MEANS AFTER SETTING THE LIMIT TO UNDER WHAT THE PRICE WAS, I REALIZED THE ORDER WOULDN'T TRIGGER. THE AMOUNT OF SHARES IN RVBR I WOULD GET FOR $90 IS 9,000. FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS IN RVBR RIGHT NOW IS RIGHT UNDER 50,000 SHARES. EEL. DISGUSTING. I'M GOING TO DO THAT. SPLIT THE FIRST $500 BETWEEN ANYONE ELSE INVOLVED. IT'S NOT A LOT OF PEOPLE. A FEW PEOPLE, ARE COMING WITH ME TO AN EARLY RETIREMENT AND A BILLION DOLLAR NEST EGG. INHERITANCES THROWN AROUND. THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT WILL HAVE THEIR PORTFOLIOS, HOW I HAVE MINE. I WILL BE DUPLICATING THE PORTFOLIO. FUNDING THE DUPLICATION OF THE PORTFOLIO. CREATING BILLIONS OF DOLLARS IN CAPITAL FOR ALL INVOLVED.
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TUESDAY FEBRUARY 4TH, 2020
2.4.2020
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CHAPTER TWENTY TWO: WELL I GUESS I JUST CAN'T CALL IT THEN
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I AM BACK IN THE GROOVE WITH MY WRITING. I AM BACK TO PRODUCING ONE PUBLICATION VOLUME PER MONTH. I AM WRITING NEW MATERIAL. I AM WRITING IN A NEW GENRE. THE NON FICTION GENRE. SOMEHOW I AM ADDING ENOUGH CREATIVITY TO THIS, PROJECT AS THE UNDERTAKING. I AM UNDERTAKING THIS PROJECT. I AM PLANNING TO INCLUDE AS MUCH CREATIVITY AND VERSATILITY AS POSSIBLE, INTO THIS PIECE OF ART WORK. THIS IS A CREATIVE WORK OF ART. I AM A CREATIVE. I AM AN ARTIST. I REPRESENT THE ARTIST. MY CREATIVE PORTFOLIO WAS CREATED SOLELY TO PROVE MY ARTISTRY TO MYSELF. I HAVE PROVED MY ARTISTRY TO MYSELF YEARS AGO. I AM DAVID CRICHTON CERTIFIED. NOW WE ARE VANESSA STALLONE CERTIFIED. VANESSA STALLONE AND DAVID CRICHTON ARE TWO DIFFERENT PORTFOLIOS. DAVID CRICHTON WAS CREATED BY 25 YEAR OLD CHAD XZAVIERFILMS. VANESSA STALLONE IS FOR VANESSA HONEY MALONE. I INTRODUCED THE PEN NAME IN 2017 AT 27. AT 30, IN 2020, VANESSA STALLONE IS THE PEN NAME. DAVID CRICHTON WON'T BE ON THE COVER AS AUTHOR, ONLY SUBJECT. VANESSA STALLONE WILL WRITE BOOKS ABOUT DAVID CRICHTON'S PORTFOLIO. VANESSA STALLONE REPRESENTS THE MIND OF THIRTY YEAR OLD CHAD. HERE IS THE CHADFILMS TIMELINE.
12 YEARS OLD IN MIAMI FLORIDA, FIRST SHORT FILM. 6 OR 12 MINS. TOOK TWELVE HOURS TO FILM. ONE DECADE LATER. VALENTINE'S DAY 2012. ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF KEVITV AND SEEXZAVIERFILMS YOUTUBE. 2012 OCTOBER 23RD, VANESSA MALONE WAS MURDERED AT AGE 18. I REACHED MY YOUTUBE GOAL OF 50 VIDEOS. TOOK SIX MONTHS. SIX MONTHS BEFORE THE YOUTUBE CHANNEL AND CAMERA, I WAS WRITING SCRIPTS FOR THE FIRST TIME. "IN YOUR DREAMS" IS THE MAIN ONE I REMEMBER AND STILL HAVE. I PUBLISHED A FEW BOOKS, TWO MAYBE THREE BETWEEN 18-20. WHEN I FIRST REALIZED THIS IS WHAT I WANTED TO PURSUE AS A CAREER, MY PASSION. THREE YEARS LATER, 2015, DAVID CRICHTON PORTFOLIO IS STARTED. "THE PHONE GIRL" "CFK" AND "CLEVERLAND AND CLEVER FIELD" WERE WRITTEN. "CLEVERLAND" IS THE FIRST 2016 PUBLICATION. "THE PRINCE WHO KNEW TOO MUCH" BOTH PARTS, WERE THE LAST PUBLISHED PROJECTS IN 2016. YOU PUBLISHED EVERYTHING WRITTEN FROM 2015 AND PUBLISHED YOUR FIRST NOVEL NOT RHYMING. THE PREVIOUS STATED NOVELS WERE VERSE NOVELS. 600 PAGES OF RHYME. TWICE. VOLUME THREE OF THE ULTIMATE CRICHTON COLLECTION CONTAINS THE FIRST PROSE. I DID FIND WRITING FROM 2010-2015 AND I ADDED IT IN THE VOLUMES OF TWO AND THREE.
THAT'S A QUICK, ONE PARAGRAPH RUN DOWN OF MY CREATIVE ENDEAVORS IN MY TWENTIES. NOW SINCE I HAVE EXPLORED ALL OF THE DIFFERENT PASSIONS I'VE DISCOVERED FROM WITHIN, DURING MY TWENTIES, I CAN NOW REALIZE I HAVE TO FUND THOSE ENDEAVORS MYSELF. THIS IS WHY I AM DELVING INTO THE FINANCIAL WORLD OF INVESTMENTS, SO HEAD FIRST. I WANT TO GIVE A SPECIAL THANK YOU TO GOD. I WANT TO GIVE GOD ALL OF THE GLORY. I USED THE LONELINESS TO SPARK AN ECONOMICAL REVOLUTION OF MY VERY OWN, POSSIBLY. SINCE I KNOW I MUST LEAVE THE ACQUIRED BILLIONS DISTRIBUTED. HOW MANY FUTURE BILLIONAIRES CAN THE PLAN BE DISTRIBUTED TO? WITH THE PUBLICATION ALONE, FOR PEOPLE I MAY NEVER MEET AND THUS BE ABLE TO HELP THEM IN PERSON ON PURPOSE. SO NOW, ON PURPOSE, I AM HERE FOR YOU. IF I WASN'T A NOBODY THEY MIGHT TRY TO KILL ME SO I AM VERY GLAD TO STILL BE A NOBODY. I'M ACTUALLY SOMEBODY VERY SPECIAL. R.I.P. TO FLIGHT KOBE.
WITH THE ROBINHOOD WATCHLIST INCREASED IN SIZE, THE E-TRADE WATCHLIST MUST BE INCREASED WITH THE SAME SYMBOLS AS WELL AS SYMBOLS NOT FOUND ON ROBINHOOD. WITH THE WATCHLIST BEING AIMED TO CONTAIN ONE HUNDRED COMPANIES, YOU AIM TO THROW IN $100 INTO EACH COMPANY, EACH TIME AROUND, IN EACH ACCOUNT, FOR EACH PERSON YOU ARE WORKING ALONGSIDE WITH. THIS MEANS YOU WILL NOT ONLY HAVE STOCK IN NANO TECHNOLOGY, YOU WILL HAVE VARIOUS COMPANY STOCK FROM WITHIN THE NANO TECHNOLOGY SECTOR AS A WHOLE. WE DIDN'T INVEST IN ONE NANO TECHNOLOGY COMPANY FOR SOME RANDOM REASON. THE ONLY REASON THE COMPANY IS ON OUR WATCHLIST, IS DUE TO THE FACT IT IS IN FACT, A NANO TECHNOLOGY COMPANY. IT IS THE ENTIRE SECTOR WE ARE LOOKING AT. BY LOOKING AT THE ENTIRE SECTOR AS A WHOLE, YOU ARE NOW IN OBSERVATION OF THE RANGE OF THE PRICES IN THE NANO TECHNOLOGY SECTOR OF THE STOCK MARKET. SO YOU CAN SAY, "HEY THE LOWEST NANO COMPANY IS THREE PENNIES AND THE HIGHEST $300". NOW YOU KNOW THE NANO TECHNOLOGY SECTOR IS NOW AT THREE PENNIES TO THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS.
I AM LAUNCHING A SCIENCE EXPERIMENT. THIS PUBLICATION IS MY DOCUMENTATION OF THE SCIENCE PROJECT. THIS SCIENCE PROJECT IS PERTAINING TO CHAD SCIENCE AND CHAD MATH. THIS IS THE PRODUCTION DIARY OF THE SCIENCE PROJECT. THE VARIABLES, THE CONTROLS, THE HYPOTHESIS, THE STATEMENT, THE EXPERIMENT. MAKE AN OBSERVATION. ASK A QUESTION. FORM A HYPOTHESIS, OR TESTABLE EXPLANATION. MAKE A PREDICTION BASED ON THE HYPOTHESIS. TEST THE PREDICTION. USE THE RESULTS IN MAKING NEW HYPOTHESES OR PREDICTIONS. THE SCIENTIFIC METHOD. THANK YOU GOOGLE. ONE HUNDRED YEARS AGO, $110 WAS WORTH $1500 PLUS. ONE HUNDRED YEARS FROM FIFTH TEEN YEARS FROM NOW, 2035, 1935 WOULD HAVE SEEN $110 AS REALLY $2000. THAT'S CALLED INFLATION HOME BOY. THE FEDERAL RESERVE ACT WAS SIGNED DURING CHRISTMAS HOLIDAY, WHEN THE SENATE WAS ON LEAVE. THE GOLD STANDARD HAS BEEN GONE FOR 100 YEARS, SINCE 2013. THE 100 YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF WHAT PRESIDENT WILSON DID TO FIAT CURRENCY, POSSIBLY CREATING FIAT CURRENCY. I MAY DEDICATE A VOLUME OF THIS SERIES TO THE HISTORY OF ALL CURRENCY AND AMERICAN FIAT CURRENCY, TO BETTER GRIP THE REALITY OF WHY I AM SAYING WHAT I AM SAYING.
CERTAIN THINGS I DON'T WANT TO SAY RIGHT NOW, I WILL PUT THEM IN THEIR OWN CHAPTER OR VOLUME GOD WILLING. TRUST ME WHEN I SAY, THE UN INVESTED AMERICAN DOLLAR WILL ALWAYS BE THE BIGGEST LAUGH YOU HAVE TO GIVE. OR TO SHARE. I'M STARTING TO THINK MORE AND MORE NOW ABOUT THE STOCK WATCHLIST FOR IT IS GROWING SO LONG. IN THESE EMERGING MARKETS IS WHERE THE WATCHLIST ORIGINATES FROM. THE WATCHLIST FULL OF EMERGING MARKETS. WE ARE WATCHING THE UNFOLDING OF TECH HISTORY. AT THIS POINT, THE DIRECT HOMEWORK ASSIGNMENT FOR THE STOCK HOLDING, IS TO FIND MORE COMPANIES IN THE INDUSTRY. INVEST $100 IN EACH COMPANY, IN YOUR PORTFOLIO AND FOR YOUR LOVED ONES AND BUSINESS PARTNERS. REALLY CAPITALIZE ON YOUR INSIGHT. YOU MIGHT JUST MAKE ALL OF THE BILLIONS YOU WERE WANTING TO INVEST IN THE U.C.A. THE UNITED CITIZENS OF AMERICA. VARSITY SAYS I CAN'T CALL IT THAT.
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3:37AM EST - 4:38AM EST
FEBRUARY 5TH, 2020
2.5.2020
CANADIAN MOLSON TIMES TWO.
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CHAPTER TWENTY THREE: TON TRAY
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THIS PROJECT IS TWO CHAPTERS FROM COMPLETION. VOLUME ONE, "THE PERSON OF NUMBERS." A PERSON OF NUMBERS. HOPEFULLY ONE DAY YOU WILL BE THE PERSON OF NUMBERS. IT IS ALL UP TO YOU HOWEVER. I DID MY PART. DID YOU SEE IT? DO YOU SEE IT? ARE YOU SEEING IT? AND ARE YOU SEEING IT FOR WHAT IT IS WORTH? IF YOU ARE, YOU ARE GOING TO BE WEALTHY. FILTHY STINKING WEALTHY, YOU ARE GOING TO SEE YOURSELF AS. I AM YOUR BEST FRIEND. WHEN THEY ASK YOU, WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND, CHAD XZAVIER BUFFETT FILMS. BUFFET FILMS. I MAY NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH OF AN IMPACT I MADE. THAT DOESN'T MATTER. I SMOKED BEFORE ALMOST EVERY PAGE, AND GOT IT DONE. I LIVED A BORING ROUTINE BY OTHER'S STANDARDS. THE LIFE I AM CREATING FOR MYSELF, IS STAGGERING. STAGGERING AMOUNTS OF CURRENCY. I AM THE SPIRIT, ON THE MISSION. I FIGHT ON GOD'S ARMY. IF I DIE ON BATTLEFIELD SPIRIT WARFARE, THEN I WILL GO HOME. I FELT OUT OF PLACE HERE. I FELT MEANT TO BE HERE. I WAS OUT OF PLACE. I WAS NOT HOWEVER, OUT OF SYNC.
I HAVE THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS. TWO HUNDRED CAN GO INTO INVESTING IN STOCKS AND CRYPTO. MEDICAL HEALTH COMPANIES. IS INFORMATION LIKE THIS, NOT SO COMPILED? VOLUME ONE IS ALMOST OVER. I LOOK FORWARD TO STARTING VOLUME TWO. I AM GRATEFUL I AM UNKNOWN. I AM GRATEFUL, I AM A NOBODY IN THE MEDIA. FAME IS ONLY USEFUL AFTER LIFE. DURING LIFE, PRIVACY. SECRECY. SERENITY. PEACE. BLISS. ANONYMITY. LIVE YOUR LIFE DOING SOMETHING WORTHWHILE AS QUIETLY AS POSSIBLE. DOCUMENT IT ALL. I WANTED TO MAKE FILMS RIGHT? I HAVE 4000 GBS OF RAW FOOTAGE. I CAN MAKE MY FIRST FILMS WITH THIS. I MUST DO THIS. I AM THIRTY. I STARTED AT 20. 21 I HAD A CAMERA. I APPRECIATE GOD FOR EVERY MOMENT. I DIDN'T SPEND MY LIFE PURSUING SEX. I PRAY GOD WILL BLESS ME WITH WHAT I AM AFTER. MY MOTIVATIONS ARE PAINFUL. I'M ACTUALLY MOTIVATED BY A DEEP AND UNRELENTING SENSE OF JUST NOT FEEL APPRECIATED. THUS I STRIVE FOR ENOUGH TO WARRANT APPRECIATION. I HEAR GREAT THINGS. I FEEL GREAT PAIN. HATE TO MENTION IT. IT IS SAFE TO SAY.
THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS MUST GET INVESTED INTO SECURITIES AND INSTRUMENTS. THE SCIENTIFIC METHOD CALLS FOR OBSERVATION. I OBSERVE EMERGING MARKET TRENDS IN THE NASDAQ. WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT THE NASDAQ? I ONLY KNOW THREE THINGS ABOUT THE NASDAQ. THE PRICES GO UP. THE PRICES GO DOWN. IF YOU WENT IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, YOU GET PAID. THAT'S ONLY INCLUDING TRADING. HOLDING IS EASIER MONEY AND LONGER MONEY LONGER TERM. TRADING IS LONG TERM MONEY IN MONTHS. WHEN MASTERED. HAVEN'T MASTERED IT YET, WON'T SPEAK TOO MUCH OF IT. FOR YOU, YOUR FORT MUST BE BUILT IN YOUR HOLDINGS. YOU MUST HOLD YOUR WAY TO A MILLION DOLLARS. I DO NOT HAVE A MILLION DOLLARS. LISTEN. THE MILLION IS THE STEPPING STONE. THE STEPPING STONE TO TEN BILLION DOLLARS. I AM INSANE. I DO NOT HAVE REMORSE ON MY INVESTMENTS. I INVEST WITH NO SHAME. I INVEST FOR MY OWN SAKE. I INVEST FOR MY OWN PEACE OF MIND. PEACE OF MIND IS SACRED TO ME. PERIOD. THREE PERIODS. ONE SEASON. NAH. I WAS SENT HERE ON A MISSION. THIS IS WHAT DROVE ME. IN RETROSPECT.
THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS. TWO HUNDRED INVESTED. SENDING IT TO EITHER MY ACCOUNTS, OR OTHER'S ACCOUNTS. BOTH ACTUALLY. REALLY DETERMINING THE OTHER PERSON'S OR PEOPLE'S ACCOUNTS WHOM WILL GET THE FUNDS THIS ROUND. BY INVESTING HUNDREDS OF DOLLARS PER WEEK INTO THE STOCK MARKET, IN EMERGING INDUSTRIES, THE POTENTIAL OF EARNING MILLIONS IN A DECADE IS TOO REACHABLE ACTUALLY. HERE'S A SCARY QUESTION FOR A SQUARE TO ASK. WHEN I SAY SQUARE, I MEAN UNIT. DOES INVESTING IN TEN OR MORE FUTURE ONE HUNDRED AND TEN BILLION DOLLAR INDUSTRIES, CLASSIFY ME AS THE NEW ELITE? IF I EVER BRING THE PAPARAZZI MY WAY, I AM PLAYING STUPID. EVEN IF THEY HAD THIS PUBLICATION, AT THAT MOMENT. PLAIN STUPID. LAUGHS. I WRITE SCRIPTS. I JUST WANTED TO MAKE MOVIES. SYRACUSE HAS A FILM FESTIVAL IN OCTOBER. ENOUGH TIME, MORE THAN, TO GET A ONE HOUR DOCUMENTARY READY. THIRTY YEAR OLD CHAD FILMS MUST GO BACK ON YOUTUBE. EDITING UNRELEASED FOOTAGE. FILMING NEW FOOTAGE AND EDITING INVESTING VIDEOS.
I KEEP ATTEMPTING TO EXPLAIN THE THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS SITUATION. I HAVE TWO HUNDRED DOLLARS. THE DOLLARS ARE READY TO BE INVESTED. I AM GOING TO EXPLOIT MY OWN INSIGHT. MY BROTHER JUSTIN TOLD ME I NEEDED TO EXPLOIT MYSELF. NOW I WILL EXPLOIT MY OWN INSIGHT, INTO THE WORLD OF FINANCIAL INSTRUMENTS. I WILL LEAVE MYSELF, STRANDED, IN THE WORLD OF INVESTMENTS. IT WILL BE UP TO MERIT IF I MAKE IT OUT ALIVE. I THINK ABOUT BUYING BONDS FOR QQ, QUAN AND MALIAH. ATIYANNA. I'VE ONLY SEEN YOU ONCE. YOU'LL NEVER REMEMBER THAT. I COULD SEE FROM YOUR FACE, YOU RECOGNIZED I LOOKED LIKE YOUR DAD. I COULD SEE I LOOKED FAMILIAR YET YOU HAVE NEVER SAW ME BEFORE THEN. I'M JUST GRATEFUL I WAS BORN AND SURVIVED BIRTH. I AM GRATEFUL I SURVIVED CHILDHOOD. I AM GRATEFUL I SURVIVED YOUNG ADULTHOOD. I AM GRATEFUL I SURVIVED ADULT HOOD. I AM GRATEFUL I LIVED TO BE 80 PLUS YEARS OLD. JUST WISHING THOUGHTS HERE PEOPLE. THIS IS NOT A FIVE PARAGRAPH ESSAY. THIS IS FIVE PARAGRAPHS HOWEVER. FIVE PARAGRAPHS, OF ME, TELLING YOU, FINANCIAL LITERACY IS HOW YOU GET PAID. IF YOU ARE PAID, THEN YOU ARE LAID. UNDER THE SHADE. DOUBLE IN TON TAY. AYE.
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2.6.2020
2:45AM EST - 2:36AM EST
THURSDAY FEBRUARY 6TH, 2020
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CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR: RED CAT WINE
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THREE MORE SESSIONS LEFT AS OF NOW. STILL WONDERING WHAT TO TITLE THE SAGA. THIS VOLUME IS VOLUME ONE. VOLUME ONE IS THE PERSON OF NUMBERS. MAYBE EVERY VOLUME WILL HAVE A VERSE NOVEL SUCCEEDING IT. "WHILE AMERICA SLEPT", MAY BE THE SAGA TITLE. "WHY AMERICA SLEPT", MAY BE THE SAGA TITLE. WE ARE NOT YET SURE WHAT VOLUME TWO WILL COME OUT AS. VOLUME ONE IS NOT YET COMPLETE. ALMOST. HOW WAS IT? HOW IS VOLUME ONE OF WHY OR WHILE AMERICA SLEPT? ALLOW ME TO DISSERTATE WHY, I HAVE THOSE TWO OPTIONS MENTALLY HIGHLIGHTED. "WHY ENGLAND SLEPT", IS A PUBLICATION PUBLISHED BY JOHN F. KENNEDY SR. IN 1940. "WHY ENGLAND SLEPT" IS A REFERENCE TO WINSTON CHURCHILL'S PUBLICATION. "WHILE ENGLAND SLEPT" WAS PUBLISHED IN 1938. IF I TITLE THE SAGA "WHILE ENGLAND SLEPT", IT IS THE SECOND REFERENCE TO THE ORIGINAL. "WHY AMERICA SLEPT", WOULD BE THE FIRST REFERENCE TO THE ORIGINAL.
INDENTATION. NEXT VOLUME I MAY RHYME. EVERY OTHER VOLUME MAY BE A VERSE NOVEL. BOTH TITLES WILL BE REFERENCED THRU OUT THIS SAGA. BOTH TITLES WILL HAVE THEIR OWN VOLUME REFERENCED. WE AIM TO SHOW THE CREATIVE VERSATILITY IN THIS SAGA. THIS SAGA WILL SHOW TWO CONCEPTS. I WRITE. I CAN WRITE ECONOMIC STRATEGY. HOLY BUSINESS. MAYBE BUSINESS IS PERSONAL. DO NOT PERSONS ENGAGE IN BUSINESS? OR IS BUSINESS JUST WARFARE? IF BUSINESS IS JUST WARFARE, CONDUCT FINANCIAL LEVERAGING PRIVATELY AND AVOID ALL CASUALTIES. GET PAID. THEN GET LAID IN THE SHADE. AS IN LAYING DOWN IN THE SHADE. LITERALLY. MAKING A BILLION DOLLARS WAS NOT EASY. IT WAS FUN FOR IT WASN'T AN EASY TASK. YET I AM THE MAD MAN. WHAT REALLY MAKES IT FUN, IS MAKING IT EASIER FOR YOU. I MADE BILLIONS. FOR I EARNED IT. I PUT IN MY WHOLE LIFE. I RISKED EVERYTHING. NOW I LAUGH SO HARD, IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY. IT'S HILARIOUS. HYSTERICAL. A HOOT. ALONG WITH THE RIOT. ZEY CALL IT, PROPERTY TAX. I AM WRITING A BOOK RIGHT NOW. ALMOST DONE. WITH VOLUME ONE. "THE PERSON OF NUMBERS". I AM ANTICIPATING ORDERING COPIES. I TOLD MRS. MARGE, YESTERDAY AT WORK, I WILL SIGN HER A COPY OF THIS, I GIVE TO HER AS A SAMPLE. I HAVE NO LIFE. I ONLY HAVE THE LIFE OF MY DREAMS. NOW MAKE LIFE DREAMY, FOR AS MANY OTHERS, AS MANY OTHER PEOPLE AS POSSIBLE.
INDENTATION. CONDUCT THE HELPING HAND CHALLENGE, WITH YOUR STOCK PICKS AND PORTFOLIOS. CREATE INVESTMENT PORTFOLIOS, JUST FOR THE HELPING HAND TRAVEL DOCUMENTARIES. YOU TRAVEL THE WORLD, HELPING OTHER'S FINANCIALLY, DOCUMENTING IT ALL ON VIDEO AND AUDIO. STASH THE FOOTAGE AWAY. PLAY AS SMART AS YOU CAN. FOR YOU MUST SURVIVE LONG ENOUGH TO IMPACT REALITY'S FABRIC. OR IMPACT THE FABRICATION, WITH TRUTH. IF YOU GIVE UP YOUR AMBITIONS FOR PLEASURE, FOR YOUR FANTASY WORLD ACQUISITION, YOU LOSE NOTHING. SO GO GAIN EVERYTHING. EVERY-THING? EVERY-THING!
INDENTATION\. PARDON ME, PRESIDENT FORD. DEAR MR. GERALD, WE MADE A CAVE FULL OF BOOTY WITH THE MARKET IN CONJUNCTION. OH YEA. KOOL-AID NEVER TASTED BETTER. RAMEN NOODLES NEVER FELT SO RIGHT. WE COULD EAT LOBSTER. BUT MAYBE LOBSTER IS JUST THE SEA ROACH. OOPS. OOPSEY DAISY. IF I LIGHT THE FIRE TO THE ECONOMICAL REVOLUTION, KEEP THE FIRE LIT. THE FIRE RISES. I GAVE MY LIFE TO RISE THE FIRE. I CAN LIVE WITH THAT. LIVED FOR IT. IZZY. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD. I GIVE GOD ALL OF THE GLORY. I AM A SOLDIER IN GOD'S ARMY. MAY BE FUTURE GENERAL. FOR NOW I GIVE MY LIFE TO SPECIFIC DESTINY. I MAY NEVER SEE IT. I STILL SLEEP WELL AT NIGHT AND DAY. I CHERISHED MY LIFE. CHERISH YOURS MORE. MORE. MUCH MORE. USE YOUR GIFTS TO ENHANCE THE SPECTRUM OF INTENTIONAL ACTION WITHIN THE REALM. I AM GOING TO PRICE THIS BOOK AT $100. NO ONE WHO READS IT, WILL COMPLAIN THEN. ANYONE WHO READS IT FOR FREE, WILL FEEL OBLIGED. THEY SHOULDN'T. THEY WOULD ACTUALLY KIND OF BE ONE HUNDRED DOLLARS DOWN, IN THE PERFECT WORLD.
2.6.2020
THURSDAY FEBRUARY 6TH, 2020
4:33AM EST - 5:15 AM EST
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INDENTATION.
I LOOK FORWARD TO VOLUME TWO.
I WRITE ONE LINE AT A TIME.
I ENJOY LIFE.
I PRAY TO GOD I MAKE HIM PROUD.
I MADE SURE MY FAMILY WAS BETTER THAN BETTER THAN GOOD.
GENERATIONALLY.
I WAS THE RICH UNCLE.
THE FILTHY WEALTHY UNCLE.
THE UNCLE THEY NEVER CALLED UNCLE.
I WAS ALWAYS JUST CHAD.
JUSS CHIZZI.
THIS CHAPTER IS WRITTEN AS A POEM WOULD BE. NOW I WRITE POEMS AS PROSE PARAGRAPHS ARE. YOU WOULDN'T KNOW IT WAS RHYMING, UNTIL YOU REALIZED IT WAS RHYMING. THIS IS THE NON FICTION GENRE. ONE GENRE.
BUY THE STOCK.
DISTRIBUTE IT.
BUY OTHER STOCKS.
DISTRIBUTE THEM.
STOCKS IN CERTAIN INDUSTRIES. COMPETING STOCKS IN THE SAME INDUSTRY.
LOVE THYSELF.
PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY.
FROM NOW ON, WE CALL IT P.T. OK? OK. COOL. GOT IT. WE HAVE EQUAL STANDING.
WE EQUALLY STAND.
XMEN THREE.
WHEN I FIRST HEARD OF P.T., I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT REALLY WAS. STILL DON'T FULLY. THIS IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE, OF WHAT THE FUTURE LOOKS LIKE. THE FUTURE IS.
THE FUTURE IS UNFORESEEN BY MOST.
WHOEVER SEES THE FUTURE COMING, ENJOYS REWARDS.
"STEVE JOBS", THE FILM IS ON NETFLIX. "STEVE JOBS". I LOVE IT. I WILL WATCH IT TONIGHT GOD WILLING I REMEMBER.
I AM CHADFILMS.
I AM CHAD HARRIS.
CHAD XZAVIER HARRIS.
CHAD XZAVIER HARRIS, FILMS.
CHAD XZAVIER, FILMS.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TIME I WAS BORN.
IF IT IS CLOSE TO 12:29 PM OR AM, I WOULD LOVE THAT.
GOODNIGHTS.
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2:29 AM EST - 3:17AM EST
2.7.2020
FRIDAY FEBRUARY 7TH, 2020
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THIS IS THE LAST CHAPTER OF THE VOLUME. "THE PERSON OF NUMBERS" IS VOLUME ONE OF "WHY AMERICA SLEPT". VOLUME TWO, I'M NOT SURE OF THE TITLE YET. IT WILL BE A VERSE COLLECTION. "THE PERSON OF NUMBERS VERSED". THE RHYMING VERSION. GO FROM THERE. I LOOK FORWARD TO ORDERING COPIES OF THIS PUBLISHED WORK OF NON FICTION. CAN THIS VOLUME BE CONSIDERED AT LEAST THE INTRODUCTION TO AN ECONOMIC MANIFEST? IF SO, WE GO INTO VOLUME TWO, IN GOOD STANDING. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD I MADE IT THIS FAR IN LIFE AND IN THE BOOK.
INDENTATION. I JUST SENT $100 TO ISAIAH. I SENT $100 TO JASON. I ASKED THEM TO PURCHASE RIPPLE XRP ON COINBASE. I ASKED THEM TO ENGAGE AN E-TRADE TRANSFER FOR $100 AND I WILL SEND THE MONEY TO THEM BY THE TIME IT CLEARS. THIS WAY, WE CAN HOLD THE CRYPTO INSTANTLY, WHILE THE FUNDS GROW AVAILABLE ON E-TRADE. THESE STOCKS, IN THESE INDUSTRIES, MUST BE PURCHASED IN HEAVY AMOUNTS TOTAL. THIS WILL BRING IN CRYPTO MONEY. THE CRYPTO CURRENCY, MUST BE PURCHASED IN HEAVY AMOUNTS AS WELL. CRYPTO CURRENCY MARKET CAP FOR TRADING IS OVER $3 TRILLION PER DAY. EQUAL TO THE FOREIGN CURRENCY TRADING. NNVC. NANO VERICIDES. $9 LAST TIME WE CHECKED, IT WAS THERE IN PRICE. NAOV. NANO VIBRONIX. $2.80. LAST TIME A NANO TECH COMPANY ON OUR WATCHLIST WAS $2, IT WAS NNVC. NNVC IS NOW RANGING FROM $8 TO $18. WOW. DAM. HOOVER. MY BROTHER JUSTIN IS SIGNING UP FOR AN E-TRADE. FINALLY. WAY TO GO BRO. THANK YOU. NAMASTE. NOW I CAN SEND YOU MONEY TO PURCHASE COMPANY STOCK PUBLICLY, IN THE EMERGING TECHNOLOGIES OF THE NEXT TWO CENTURIES.
INDENTATION. EVERY GENERATION WILL GET THIS CHANCE. UP TO THREE TIMES NATURALLY. WITH GUIDANCE, MAYBE FIVE TO SIX TIMES. USE THIS PUBLICATION AS A TOOL FOR THE YOUNG LOVED ONES IN YOUR LIFE, TO BOOST THEIR ECONOMIC ACQUIT AS EARLY AS POSSIBLE. THEN THEY CAN DO THIS BEFORE THE AGE OF EIGHTEEN. IF NOT, BETWEEN 20-25 YEARS OLD. GET THEM STARTED AT SEVEN AND IT'S OVER. WE NEED TO TEACH OUR CHILDREN HOW TO PAY OUR BILLS. THEN THEY CAN PAY THEIR OWN. I WILL WRITE VOLUMES IN THIS SERIES AIMED AT THE YOUTH. THIS IS ONLY VOLUME ONE. WE WILL SAY COMPLEX SAYINGS. WE WILL SAY KINDERGARTEN TALK. THE OFFICIAL 2020 "VANESSA STALLONE" DEBUT IS DONE. YOURLISTEN SEARCH ENGINE. THE WHITE RABBIT MANIFESTO. THE ONLY BOOK WRITTEN IN NEW YORK, THE FIRST FOUR MONTHS BEFORE GOING BACK TO GEORGIA FOR SIX MONTHS. ON FRIDAY AUGUST 10TH, 2018, THE NIGHT I MOVED BACK TO NEW YORK FROM GEORGIA, I GAVE KEVI THE HAND WRITTEN NOTEBOOK. TOMORROW IS KEVI'S 19TH BIRTHDAY. MY OLDEST NIECE. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVI. I LOVE YOU. I GAVE THE NOTEBOOK TO KEVI TV. KEVI. I NEVER TYPED THE NOTEBOOK. FIRST THING I DID IN GEORGIA, AFTER RETURNING FROM NEW YORK ON VALENTINE'S DAY WAS TO RECORD THE NOTEBOOK. I WOULD HAVE TO TRANSCRIBE THE AUDIO.
INDENTATION. I AM REALLY EXCITED. I GET TO SHOOT FOR ANOTHER VARIETY OF WRITING IN THIS COLLECTION. THERE WILL BE FICTIONAL VOLUMES IN THIS SERIES. ACTUALLY, THE NON FICTION ASPECT, IS IN ITSELF ANOTHER GENRE WE EXPLORED. WE DID NOT WANT TO EXPLORE NON FICTION. WHEN ECONOMICS, POLITICS, AND/ OR HUMANITARIANISM GREW IMPERATIVE TO US AT 25. FULLY IMPERATIVE. IN FIVE YEARS I HAVE SELF PUBLISHED 600 PAGE VOLUMES. THREE TIMES. FORGIVE ME FOR THE NUMEROLOGY BEHIND THE STATS. IN HINDSIGHT I WOULD HAVE FARED WELL GOING FOR THE 777. I JUST WANT TO REFLECT A MOMENT THAT MY 1800 PAGES INCIDENTALLY REFERENCES SOME REAL BULLSH. I'M HURT BY THIS. I NEED 700 PAGES. WHAT IS THAT IN THE "HARRY POTTER UNIVERSE"? "GOBLET OF FIRE". WRITING ECONOMIC PROSE THE SIZE OF "THE GOBLET OF FIRE". I AM JUST GRATEFUL AND EXCITED ABOUT COMPLETING THIS 700 PAGE PROJECT. THREE PAGES PER DAY IS 1000 PAGES ANNUALLY. I RECORD THREE HOURS IN AUDIO PER DAY, MOST DAYS.
I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR READING VOLUME ONE. VOLUME TWO, THE INTRODUCTORY CHAPTER, IS THE NEXT SESSION.
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2.9.2020
SUNDAY FEBRUARY 9TH, 2020
9:12PM EST - 9:50 PM EST
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DEDICATION: HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY KEVI FROM KEVITV

2.9.2020
SUNDAY FEBRUARY 9TH, 2020
9:12PM EST - 9:50 PM EST
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DEDICATION: HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY KEVI FROM KEVITV
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THIS VOLUME IS DEDICATED TO SHAKEVIA KANIAJAH. MY 19 YEAR OLD NIECE. SHE TURNS 19 TOMORROW. I WANT TO PUBLISH THIS BOOK, ON HER 19TH BIRTHDAY. THIS PROJECT HAS BEEN PROOFREAD. THE PROOFREADING WAS AUDIO RECORDED. HELPS. I AM WRITING THIS PROJECT AND IT WILL HELP MILLIONS OF PEOPLE. I LOVE YOU KEVI. I WANT YOU TO BE ONE OF THEM. IT WOULD BE IRONIC IF YOUR UNCLE WROTE A PLAN, HELPING MILLIONS, AND YOU DIDN'T PARTICIPATE. WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS. I LOVE YOU. I THINK OF YOU WHEN I INVEST IN ASSETS. I HAD THE PRILIVEGE OF WATCHING YOU GROW UP. IF THEY ASKED ME WHAT I DID ALL DAY INSIDE OF MY MIND? THE ANSWER IS KARAOKE. SOMETIMES AT WORK I GET CAUGHT. ENGAGING IN KARAOKE. I TOOK YOUR ADVICE FROM FIVE YEARS AGO. I MAKE MYSELF LAUGH INSIDE OF MY HEAD ALL DAY NOW. IT IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL ARENA.
THIS BOOK IS AWESOME KEVI. I JUST FINISHED IT, TWO DAYS AGO. KEVI I LOVE YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I FINISHED THE BOOK, TWO DAYS OR THREE DAYS BEFORE YOUR 19TH BIRTHDAY. SO I JUST SAID I HAD ENOUGH TIME TO EDIT IT BY YOUR BIRTHDAY AND PUBLISH IT WITHIN THE HOUR. I LOVE YOU. I WISH I HAD ECONOMIC GOGGLES TO SEND YOU, SO YOU CAN SEE WHAT I SEE. IF YOU NEVER READ THIS OR APPLY IT AFTER READING, I APPLY IT FOR YOU. THERE ARE TWO TYPES OF LITERACY I KNOW OF. READING WORDS. READING PERCENTAGES. READING THE LETTER. READING THE DOLLAR. IT'S NOT ABOUT SALARY. IT'S EARNING POWER. YOU WON'T GET IT UNTIL YOU GET IT. FINANCIAL LITERACY. AT THE SAME TIME, AS YOU CAN SEE, I BACKED OFF. I LET YOU DO YOU. IT IS WHAT IT IS. I LOVE YOU KEVI. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAKEVIA KANIAJAH. I WROTE A BOOK. RIGHT BEFORE YOUR BIRTHDAY. HERE'S PART OF YOUR GIFT. I WILL STASH AWAY CRYPTO AND STOCKS FOR YOU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN. I PUBLISHED THIS BOOK ON YOUR 19TH BIRTHDAY. 46
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10:38PM EST -11:35PM EST
CHRISTMAS DAY 2019
WEDNESDAY DECEMBER 25TH, 2019
12.25.2019
PERSON OF NUMBERS
CANDARA FONT
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THE INTRODUCTION: HORRIBLE MINDSET
WHAT IS A PERSON OF NUMBERS? A PERSON OF LETTERS, IS THE TERM INSPIRING THE TITLE FOR THIS ONE. A MAN OF LETTERS IS ONE WHOM WRITES BOOKS POSSIBLY. SO, CONVERSELY, A MAN OF NUMBERS, THE PERSON OF NUMBERS, IS ONE WHOM POSSIBLY SPONSORS INVESTMENTS. LIFE IS ALL ABOUT INVESTMENTS. YES, WE TOOK IT THERE. HOW MANY GREAT INVESTMENTS CAN YOU MAKE FOR YOUR CHILDREN'S SAKE? YOUR GRANDCHILDREN CAN BE PAID. THEY SHOULD BE PAID. THEY ALSO NEED TO LEARN HOW TO GET IT ON THEIR OWN. THEY NEED TO PAY THEMSELVES. HOW DOES ONE WIN THE RAT RACE??? HOW DO YOU ESCAPE THE RAT RACE MATRIX? WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WHEN UNCLE SAM COMES SLAMMING FOR YOU? WE HAVE TO HAVE GREAT INVESTMENTS FOR OUR FUTURES, FOR OUR FUTURES TO BE LESS CONCERNING OF AN ISSUE TO US. THERE IS A MINDSET OF INVESTO-PHOBIA. HORRIBLE MINDSET, FOR THE RECORD. WHY BE AFRAID OF RETIREMENT? BREAKING THIS DOWN IN AN EQUATION, RETIREMENT IS SOMETHING HAPPENING YEARS FROM NOW. SO INVESTING IN TECHNOLOGY STOCKS WHILE YOUNG ALLOWS A PREFERRED RETIREMENT FUND TO LIVE ON AND FURTHER GROW. IF RETIREMENT IS LATER, THEN INVESTING IN EMERGING TECHNOLOGIES, WHICH WOULDN'T POP OFF FULLY UNTIL RETIREMENT AGE. WHAT WE WOULD HAVE WISHED IN OUR TWENTIES, SOMEONE TO SAY THESE THINGS TO US THEN? THE LEAST FRIGHTENING WAY OF LOOKING AT THE STOCKS ARE INDUSTRY BUCKETS.
THROW YOUR MONEY INTO THE RIGHT BUCKET, BUCKET PROFITS DOUBLE AND SPLIT. THIS ENTIRE PROJECT WILL DELVE INTO CONSORTED ECONOMIC STRATEGIES. MY WAY OF TELLING YOU I WOULD SWITCH THE CONCEPTS OFTEN SO YOU DON'T SQUIRM AS MUCH. I WILL GET NO BENEFIT IN THE AFTERLIFE FOR LYING TO YOU NOW MY FRIEND, I FEAR. I INTEND TO LEAVE HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS IN DOLLARS INVESTED IN THE STOCK MARKET, TO BE LEFT TO DIFFERENT PEOPLE. THESE PUBLICATIONS ARE MERE DIARIES OF WHAT WENT ON WHEN. WHEN IT IS ALL OBVIOUS, THESE PUBLICATIONS WILL BE GIVEN OUT AS CONVERSATION ENDERS. WE LOOK FORWARD TO DISPLAYING THE CONCEPTS FROM OUR MIND ON ECONOMIC BLISS. WE ALL WANT ECONOMIC BLISS. IF I COULD WRITE A LETTER TO MYSELF TEN YEARS AGO, ONE LONG LETTER TO 18YR OLD CHAD. HOWEVER I CAN NOT, I CAN ONLY WRITE LETTERS TO THE CHAD TEN YEARS FROM NOW AND I CAN WRITE LETTERS TO YOU. SO, THESE ARE MY LETTERS TO YOU, MY FRIEND.
LETTERS BUT NOTES. NOTES ON ECONOMIC STRATEGIZING. WHATEVER INVESTMENT ARENA I AM INVESTING IN MYSELF, I WILL INCLUDE NOTES ON THE EXPERIENCES. THESE PUBLICATIONS WILL INCLUDE TRADE ACCOUNT PICTURES. I WILL IMMEDIATELY RESTART YOUTUBING AGAIN, BUT AS A FOREX TRADER'S CHANNEL. I DEFINITELY HAVE TO SAY THANK YOU TO GOD FOR MY LIFE IN WHICH I LOVE SO DEARLY. I WANT THE PUBLICATIONS I WRITE IN MY THIRTIES, DURING THE 2020'S, TO REFLECT A CERTAIN GROWTH. A CERTAIN ECONOMIC GROWTH THE WRITING PHASES SHOW. ON THE CREATIVE SIDE, I WILL BE DELVING INTO COSMIC HORROR TO HONOR THE NEED TO VENT. I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR GIVING THIS PUBLICATION YOUR ATTENTION AND I LOOK FORWARD TO ENTERTAINING YOU WITH THE INFORMATION I WAS PRIVY TO.
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DECEMBER 29TH, 2019 11:25PMEST -12:05AM EST
DECEMBER 30TH,2019
(30TH BIRTHDAY)
LAST THIRTY MINUTES OF 30TH BIRTHDAY WRITING SESSION AUDIO RECORDED AS WELL. EVERY WRITING SESSION OF THIS PUBLICATION HAS BEEN AND WILL BE AUDIO RECORDED TO SPUR STEED SPEED..
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CHAPTER ONE: THIS IS JUST MY DIARY AND SO NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY
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INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS CALLED FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. MONEY IS ONLY SCARY WHEN YOU ARE NOT FINANCIALLY LEVERAGING. FINANCIAL LEVERAGING IS AKIN TO PUTTING YOUR MONEY TO WORK FOR YOU, FOR A CHANGE. YOU WANT TO PLAY THE GAME TO WIN. IT IS A GAME AND EVERYTHING GOES BACK IN THE BOX. BUILDING WEALTH IS ALL STRATEGY. WHAT PLAN CAN YOU COME UP WITH TO GET YOURSELF OUT OF THIS ECONOMIC MATRIX MY FRIEND? INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS SOMETHING YOU DO FOR YOU CHILDREN. INVESTING YOUR MONEY IS THE LEAST RISKY THING YOU CAN EVER DO WITH YOUR MONEY. MAINLY DUE TO THE FACT, NOT INVESTING YOUR MONEY LEAVES YOU LITTLE BUFFER. IF YOU DO NOT INVEST YOUR EARNINGS, THEN WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU BURNING YOUR EARNINGS ON? THE ELECTRICITY BILL IS A LIFE LONG BILL. THE MOBILE CELLULAR PHONE BILL IS A LIFE LONG BILL. EVERY BILL IS A LIFE LONG ONE. EVERY SINGLE BILL IS LIFE LONG.
SO, IF THE BILLS ARE NEVER GOING TO STOP, THEN ONLY PAYING THE BILLS WILL NEVER STOP YOU FROM HAVING TO PAY THE BILLS MAN. THE BEST I CAN DO IS TO LEAVE WITH YOU A COLLECTION OF THE MOST STRATEGIC THOUGHT PATTERNS I HAD AVAILABLE ECONOMICALLY. THIS IS AS SAID BEFORE, A DIARY OF WHAT IS TO COME AND HISTORICALLY AN INVESTMENT STRATEGY TO ENACT. STRATEGIES ARE TO BE ENACTED AND I AM DOCUMENTING THE STRATEGIES I AM EMPLOYING NOW AT THE BEGINNING OF MY THIRTIES. FOR THE LAST THREE YEARS, THE LAST THREE YEARS OF MY TWENTIES, I HAVE BEEN ENCAPSULATED MENTALLY WITH INVESTMENT PHILOSOPHY. ALL OF THOSE WRITINGS WILL BE INCLUDED IN THESE WRITINGS JUST BECAUSE THIS IS THE FULL PUBLICATION FOR THE INVESTMENT WRITING.
INVESTING STRATEGY IS A MINDSET. WARFARE IS A MINDSET. THE ECONOMIC WARFARE CALLS FOR STRATEGY. ECONOMIC STRATEGY WILL FREE YOU FROM THE ECONOMIC WARFARE, CAUSING ECONOMIC SLAVERY. WE ARE ENSLAVED TO THE DOLLAR AND WHAT DID YOU EVER DO TO THE DOLLAR FOR IT TO ENSLAVE YOUR GRASS? THE DOLLAR LITERALLY ENSLAVES YOUR GRASS. ZEY CALL IT PROPERTY TAX. IT'S YOUR MONEY AND SADLY YOUR FORTUNE IS IN YOUR HANDS RIGHT NOW. NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY, I JUST MIGHT NOT BE ABLE, TO HELP YOU AT ALL NO MATTER WHAT I SAY OR DO. SO, IF YOU ARE AN OPEN MIND, WE ARE HERE TO HELP YOU PURCHASE YOUR ECONOMIC FREEDOM. ECONOMIC FREEDOM MUST BE PURCHASED MY FRIEND.
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1:43AM EST - 2:30AM EST
NEW YEAR'S DAY 2020
JANUARY 1ST, 2020
1.1.2020
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CHAPTER TWO: Z'WORLDS
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MOST PEOPLE WHO LEARN WHAT I AM RESEARCHING, WILL NOT TELL YOU ANYTHING ABOUT IT, AT ALL, EVER. MOST PEOPLE, I HOWEVER, SHALL SPILL MY GUTS FOR FREE UNTIL THE AFTERMATH. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD FOR THIS LIFE AND THESE GIFTS AND SO I MUST SHARE THEM WITH Z'WORLD. SO HERE WE GO. HERE'S HOW I REALLY FEEL ABOUT FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. WHAT IS INVESTING? INVESTING IS, TO US, FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. IN WHAT MANNER ARE YOU FINANCIALLY LEVERAGING IS THE QUESTION TO ASK MY DEAR FRIEND? YES!
(PERSONAL MANDATE) YOU SHOULD, AS IN I, INVEST 80% OF YOUR PROFITS FROM INVESTMENTS, INTO OTHER INVESTMENTS. INVESTING, FINANCIAL LEVERAGING, IS HOW YOU ARE GOING TO RETIRE YOURSELF AND YOUR FAMILY. YOUR LOVED ONES WILL FINANCIALLY BENEFIT FROM YOUR SUCCESS BECAUSE YOU ARE GOING TO ENJOY RETIRING THEM, ECONOMICALLY, BUYING THEIR FREEDOM PAPERS. YOU'RE ACTUALLY GIVING THEM THEIR FREEDOM PAPERS SO THEY CAN PURCHASE THEIR FREEDOM THEIR SELVES. THIS IS WHY I AM NOT EVER AFRAID ANYMORE, OF LEVERAGING THE DOLLAR.
THE DOLLAR, IS A DEFLATING TIRE. I SHALL LEVERAGE, THE DEFLATING TIRE, THUS HAVING A TEE-PEE HUT FULL OF TIRES BEING LEVERAGED. I DIDN'T DEFLATE SAID TIRE, THE GAME WAS RIGGED. RIGGED OR NOT WE WON. WE WON. WHO WON? WE WON. WHO IS WE? WE. YOU. ME. WE. I'M TAKING YOU WITH ME. IF IT'S IN YOUR DESTINY TO SEE THE WHITE RABBIT. HERE IS THE WHITE RABBIT. HERE IS THE WHITE RABBIT, TO ESCAPING THE ECONOMICAL MATRIX. MONOPOLY IS A BOARD GAME, CLEARLY. AT THE END OF THE GAME, NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU ACQUIRE, IT ALL GOES BACK IN THE BOX.
IF IT ALL GOES BACK IN THE BOX, YOU MUST ACQUIRE, THEN DISTRIBUTE. BEFORE DISTRIBUTING, YOU SHOULD INITIALLY CONSIDER EXPANSION. AFTER EXPANSION, ALLOW THE LEVERAGED FINANCES TO REVOLVE AND AGE. "SHOULD" IS SUCH A STRONG WORD. I HATE USING THE WORD "SHOULD". I SHOULD, STOP USING THE WORD "SHOULD". THIS IS AN INVESTMENT VEHICLE SO, "SHOULD", IS A WORD USED IN THE REALM OF PROJECTION AND SPECULATION. IF YOU FEAR SPECULATION, WHY DO YOU HAVE EXES?
ALL I WANT FROM YOU, IS AN EARLY RETIREMENT. ALL I WANT OF YOU, IS FOR YOU TO RETIRE AS SOON AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN. ALL I WANT FOR YOU, IS YOUR NEST EGG. I WANT YOU, OUT OF THE ECONOMICAL MATRIX. THERE'S NO NEED FOR YOU HERE. HONESTLY, YOU SERVICES ARE ACTUALLY, REQUIRED ELSEWHERE. ELSEWHERE YOU SHOULD GO, FOR MEANS AFFORDING RETIREMENT. THEY SAY AUTOMATION MEANS PEOPLE LOSE JOBS. THEY WERE NEVER SUPPOSED TO ALWAYS NEED A JOB TO PAY THEIR BILLS IN THE FIRST PLACE. OTHERWISE THAT'S THE WORST CASE. THIS IS THE NEW DECADE AND FRIEND, THERE ARE M O R E L E G A L WAYS TO SKIN THE EVICTION NOTICE OFF THE DOOR. THE CAT IS THE RENT. SKINNING IS A MENTAL PROCESS.
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1.1.2020
JANUARY 1ST, 2020
NEW YEAR'S DAY 2020
11:55PM EST - 12:18AM EST
12:18AM EST - 12:33AM EST (EDITING TIME)
12.2.2020
JANUARY 2ND, 2020
FROM SYRACUSE, NEW YORK
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I JUST TURNED THIRTY YEARS OLD LAST SUNDAY, DURING NEW YEAR'S WEEKEND. SO WITH ME BEING THIRTY NOW, THE MAIN THING I THINK ABOUT IS MY FUTURE. THANKFULLY FOR ME, DURING MY TWENTIES, I HAVE BEEN PUTTING IN STRONG THOUGHTS AND CONCENTRATED ACTIONS/EFFORTS INTO REALIZING AND ACTUALIZING THE YOUNG ADULT AND CHILDHOOD DREAMS I CARESSED WITHIN. SO WITH THIS, AT THIRTY, I ONLY THINK ABOUT BUILDING MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO IS WHAT WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE MYSELF. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE MY ENTIRE FAMILY. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO LEAVE AN INHERITANCE FOR ALL OF MY SEVEN NIECES AND NEPHEWS. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO LEAVE AN INHERITANCE FOR MY OWN CHILDREN, AS OF YET, UNBORN.
MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO FUND THE BUSINESS PARTNERSHIPS I HAVE IN THE WORKS WITH BUSINESS PARTNERS AND MY BUSINESS MENTOR. MY INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL ALLOW ME TO SETTLE DOWN AND START A FAMILY OF MY OWN. AN INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO WILL HELP ME GROW MY BRAND AND EXPAND THE BRANDS I GROW FROM SCRATCH. AN INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANY OTHER PHYSICAL TASK ON THIS EARTH, FOR ME INDIVIDUALLY, FOR THE INVESTMENTS WILL ALLOW ME TO PROVIDE FOR THE WIFE AND CHILDREN I TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR. I AM NOT ONE TO JUMP INTO SITUATIONS I KNOW I CAN NOT HANDLE MYSELF IN. IF A CHILD COSTS TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY THOUSAND DOLLARS, ONE QUARTER OF A MILLION DOLLARS, I MUST GET MY EARNING POWER UP TO THE MILLION DOLLAR LEVEL, SO I CAN AFFORD TO SIMULTANEOUSLY FINANCE THE GROWTH OF FOUR CHILDREN.
LET'S SAY I HAD FOUR CHILDREN, AND AN EARNING POWER OF ONE MILLION DOLLARS PER SEASON. THAT WOULD BE FOUR MILLION DOLLARS PER YEAR. THAT'S ONE MILLION DOLLARS PER SEASON TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE CHILD'S LIFE, EACH CHILD. THE REMAINING INCOME FROM THE EARNING POWER MUST GO INTO VARIOUS DIVERSE INVESTMENT VEHICLES FOR THE CHILDREN. THE FUTURE OF THE FAMILY RAISING ME UP TO PREVIOUS POINTS, IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO ME BEFORE HAVING CHILDREN OF MY OWN. I SET A PERSONAL GOAL FOR MYSELF; TO NOT CREATE A FAMILY OF MY OWN, UNTIL I HAVE FULLY FINANCED THE FAMILY I ORGINATED FROM. WITH THIS GOAL FINISHED, WHENEVER I DO IN FACT FINISH IT, I WILL BEGIN PUTTING AWAY INVESTMENTS FOR MY FUTURE CHILDREN.
I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MYSELF. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MY FUTURE CHILDREN. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR MY FAMILY OF ORIGIN. I WILL HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS FOR ALL BUSINESS PARTNERS AND THE MENTOR. THIS WOULD MEAN, I WOULD HAVE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS SET UP FOR THE PEOPLE I CHERISH. THE INVESTMENTS IN MY OWN INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS, I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH THEM, IF I AM STILL ALIVE WHEN THEY BLOSSOM. THEY WOULD ONLY BE IN MY ACCOUNT, SO I WOULD HAVE ACCESS TO A STASH OF STOCKS, CRYPTO, AND INVESTMENTS, I COULD LIQUIDATE MYSELF, DURING MY LIFETIME. THOSE INVESTMENTS WILL OF COURSE, BE IN MY WILL AS WELL. I WILL ONLY HAVE A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF MONEY INVESTED IN MY PERSONAL ACCOUNTS. THE AMOUNT MAY STILL IN FACT BE STAGGERING BUT NEVERTHELESS, IT WILL PAIL IN COMPARISON, TO THE ACCOUNTS LEFT IN MY WILL FOR MY LOVED ONES. I INTEND TO HAVE MY LOVED ONES AS WELL, SIGN UP FOR THE INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS, SO I CAN BUILD THEIR ACCOUNTS FOR THEM WITH MY CAPITAL.
I REALLY JUST CARE ABOUT MAKING SURE THAT I DID IN FACT LOOK OUT FOR ALL OF THOSE WHOM I LOVED SO DEARLY. PERFECT SEGUE. WE ARE NOT INVESTING OUR EARNED INCOME FOR OURSELVES, PRIMARILY. WE ARE INVESTING OUR EARNED INCOME, FOR THE SAKE OF OUR FAMILIES AND LOVED ONES. NOTHING MATTERED TO US MORE, THAN THOSE WE LOVE. WE ALL LOVE A PRE-SELECTED GROUP OF PEOPLE, MOSTLY COMPRISED OF FAMILY AND FRIENDS. ANY CHILDREN WE HAVE QUICKLY BECOME LOVED ONES, IMMEDIATELY. IT IS THEM, WE ARE TO KEEP IN MIND, WHEN WE CONSIDER BUILDING INVESTMENT PORTFOLIOS. MY ULTIMATE GOAL, THE DEFINITE CHIEF AIM, OF THESE CREATIVE ENDEAVORS, WOULD BE TO HELP YOU RETIRE YOURSELF, AND YOUR FAMILIES, AS QUICKLY AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE. EARLY RETIREMENT IS ONE OF THE MOST HUMANE ACTIONS, A HUMAN BEING CAN PERFORM. THERE IS NOTHING MORE IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE, THAN YOUR PERSONAL RETIREMENT, AND YOUR CHILDREN'S INHERITANCE. I AIM TO HELP YOU ACHIEVE WHATEVER GOALS YOU HAVE PREVIOUSLY SET FOR YOURSELF. I AIM TO HELP YOU IN ACHIEVING THE PERSONAL GOALS, YOU HAVE YET TO SET FOR YOURSELF. THE MAIN THING YOU HAVE TO DO, PERSONALLY, IS TO BELIEVE IN YOURSELF, AND TO BELIEVE WITHIN YOURSELF, IT IS IN FACT POSSIBLE. IF YOU DO NOT SEE YOUR GOALS, AS HUMANLY POSSIBLE, AS A HUMAN BEING, YOU SHOULD BE UTTERLY ASHAMED OF YOURSELF. COMMA.
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2:08AM EST - 3:08AM EST
SATURDAY JANUARY 4TH, 2020
1.4.2020
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CHAPTER FOUR: PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY
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WE ARE STARTING THIS PROJECT OFF, CONCEPT WISE PER CHAPTER, GRADUALLY. BUT WHAT IF WE THREW YOU, IN THE DEPTH POOL? HERE WE GO. YOU ARE NOW IN THE POOL. HOLDING COMPANIES. INVESTING CAPITAL, FOR COMPANIES, IN EXCHANGE FOR DIVIDENDS FROM SHARES. SHARE WEAR. WEAR SHARE. DIVIDENDS FROM WHERE? HOLDING SHARES FROM COMPANIES, IS PUTTING YOUR MONEY INTO A BUCKET. FIRST YOU NEED A BUCKET LIST. IN THIS UNIVERSE, YOU PUT YOUR MONEY IN THE RIGHT BUCKET, AT THE RIGHT PROFIT MARGIN TIME FRAME, THE MONEY DOUBLES FOR DECADES. A GOOD THREE DECADES THE MONEY WILL DOUBLE. SOMETIMES I FEEL THE EMERGING MARKETS, AS A PART OF DESTINY.
IN MY TWENTIES, I WAS OF A CONSUMER'S MIND VS. FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. AT THIS POINT, I ONLY WANT TO BUY FOOD AND CLOTHING WITH EARNED INCOME FROM WORK. I DID NOT KNOW CERTAIN KEYWORDS TO SHAKE THE FEAR. HOLDING SHARES IN EMERGING MARKETS. MARKETS IN HEAVY DEVELOPMENT. MARKETS POISED TO ERUPT WITHIN A DECADE. MY THIRTIES, I REALIZE NOW, GIVES ME, ONE MORE CHANCE AT PURE YOUTH. ADDING TO THIS DECADE, THE APPLICATION OF EVERYTHING LEARNED, DURING THE RESEARCH IN MY TWENTIES. I AM USING THE TOBACCO MONEY, BAD HABIT MONEY, TO BUY SHARES. ONE WAY OF FUNDING. FIRST WAY OF FUNDING. ANOTHER WAY OF FUNDING IS THRU EARNED INCOME. ANOTHER WAY IS THRU RETURN ON PREVIOUS INVESTMENTS.
THE BUCKET LIST OF EMERGING MARKETS IS THE LIST OF PREVIOUS INVESTMENTS. MARKET CAPITALIZATION IS THE PERCENTAGE OF THE MARKET, THE COMPANY ADHERES TO. HOW MUCH MONEY FROM THE MARKET, DOES THIS COMPANY OR INDUSTRY OWN? IT IS A GAME NAMED "PROFIT MARGINS VS. PRICE LEVELS". WHEN A COMPANY GOES PUBLIC ON THE STOCK MARKET, THE INITIAL PRICE AT THE OPEN ON IT'S FIRST DAY IS THE IPO. THE INITIAL PUBLIC OPEN, THE FIRST PRICE LEVEL AND PROFIT MARGIN. YOU ARE PLAYING, PROFIT MARGIN PRICE LEVEL. WE ARE IN THE TECHNOLOGICAL ERA. TECHNOLOGY STOCKS, WHAT KIND OF TECHNOLOGY STOCKS?
EMERGING TECHNOLOGIES. DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES. DISRUPTIVE INDUSTRIES, EMERGING INDUSTRIES, THE NEW REVOLUTIONS AND AGES. THEY CAN BE A PART OF YOUR RETIREMENT FUND MAN. THESE KEYWORDS ARE TIMELESS. THE STOCKS FOR THIS TIME PERIOD, THIS AGE OR REVOLUTION, IS TIME SENSITIVE. THEREFORE, THIS PUBLICATION WILL INEVITABLY SERVE AS A DAMMIT I SAW IT COMING. ON PAPER. ON PAPER, THE STOCK BUCKET LIST, IS THE FUTURE. YOU ARE LITERALLY INVESTING IN THE FUTURE INDUSTRIES OF THE FUTURE, IN THE PRESENT. IN THE PRESENT, YOU MUST REMEMBER, THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT. THERE ARE NANO FLIES IN THE HOOD. INVEST IN NANO FLIES, GET OUT OF THE HOOD. THE GHETTO DOESN'T NEED US. WE NEEDED THE GHETTO TO BRING US HERE. NOW, IT IS TIME. TIME FLIES QUICKLY. WOULD YOU SAY?
WE CALL IT "NBC ART". NANO TECHNOLOGY. BIO METRICS. CRYPTO, CYBER NETICS, CYBER SECURITY, ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE, ROBOTICS, TRANS HUMAN INDUSTRIES, PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY. COGNITIVE AND NEURO SCIENCE, BIO SCIENCE, ENTERPRISING SOFTWARE. SOON WE WILL GO TO THE LIST OF 100 DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES. WAS THIS SWIM, THIS CHAPTER, DEEP ENOUGH FOR DEPTH?
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6:30PM EST - 7:10PM EST
1.4.2020
SATURDAY JANUARY 4TH 2020
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CHAPTER FIVE: PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY CONTINUED
HOLDING STOCKS WILL BE MY NEST EGG. WE MUST UTILIZE THE TECHNOLOGICAL INNOVATIONS OF OUR DAYS, IN OUR LIVES, FOR THE BETTER OPPORTUNITIES OUT THERE, AWAITING OUR HEIRS. I AM NOTHING MORE THAN A STUDENT. I WILL NEVER BE ANYTHING MORE THAN A GRAND STUDENT. I LEARN WHAT I MUST APPLY. I MUST APPLY WHAT I'VE LEARNED. WHAT IS AN ASSET CLASS? THAT'S WHAT I WOULD ASK ALEXA. HEY SIRI. HEY GOOGLE. OK GOOGLE. WE ARE ENTERING THE ALEXA AGE. THE ALEXA REVOLUTION HAS TAKEN PLACE SEAMLESSLY. IT APPEARS AS IF MORE PEOPLE ADORE HER THAN NOT. CAN ALEXA TESTIFY IN COURT?
THERE'S A NEW TYPE OF ASSET. THE DIGITAL ASSET. WHEN WOULD THE DIGITAL ASSET APPEAR? IN THE AFTER THE. AFTER THE DIGITAL REVOLUTION, THE DIGITAL ASSET APPEARS, IN THE DIGITAL AGE. WE HAVE BEEN IN THE DIGITAL AGE, I FEEL MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. I WAS BORN DURING THE DIGITAL REVOLUTION. MILLENNIAL. I SAW THE WORLD DIGITIZE. IT WAS BEAUTIFUL. I HAD NO IDEA. I HAD NO IDEA I WOULD STUDY THOSE TIME PERIODS. DIGITAL ASSETS, DIGITAL CURRENCY. DIGITAL CURRENCY UNITS. DCUS. HOLDING DCUS ARE THE START OF THE STOCK PORTFOLIO.
THE FUNNY. THE FUNNY THING ABOUT THE FIAT AMERICAN DOLLAR, IS INFLATION. THE PURCHASING POWER IS LESS THAN THE DOLLAR IT IS POSING AS. DIGITAL CURRENCY HOWEVER, EVENTUALLY EXCEEDS ONE DOLLAR IN VALUE, PER UNIT. SO, WHILE YOU ARE FIGURING OUT WHICH INDUSTRIES AND COMPANIES TO INVEST IN, YOU ARE HOLDING THE STOCK FUNDS, IN A DIGITAL ASSET PORTFOLIO. AS THE DIGITAL CURRENCY UNITS ENHANCE PRICE LEVELS, YOU CAN NOW AFFORD MORE SHARES. OUR GOAL HERE, FOR YOU ALL, IS TO PROVIDE AS GREAT A SERVICE AS POSSIBLE. BEING PUBLISHED, I HAVE TO SPILL THE GUTS.
DIGITAL CURRENCY ISN'T INFLATED. IF YOU CAN MANAGE TO UTILIZE THE TECHNOLOGICAL ADVANCES DURING YOUR LIFETIME, YOU SHOULD INVEST IN THEM. RISE WITH THE EMERGING MARKETS MY FRIEND. THE EMERGING INDUSTRIES COULD UTILIZE YOUR CAPITAL IN THEIR ENDEAVORS. THEY WOULD BE EVER SO GRACIOUS TO YOU. YOU'D PROBABLY GET DIVIDENDS. YOU COULD SHARE THOSE SHARES. YOU COULD LEAVE THOSE SHARES, TO YOUR CHILDREN, OR THEIR CHILDREN. IN ESSENCE, I AM ACTUALLY PUBLISHING A TREASURE MAP. IT'S FAIRLY ODD. SHOUT OUT TO MY PARENTS. SHOUT OUT TO THE "EBONY TREASURE MAP". THE BITS OF THE BOOK I WAS ABLE TO FINISH DURING AGE TWENTY WAS GREAT TO AND FOR ME.
WHEN YOU GO SHOPPING FOR GROCERIES AND YOU ARE LOOKING FOR CEREAL, WHERE DO YOU GO? THE CEREAL ISLE. YOU SHOP FOR STOCKS, BASED ON THE ISLE. THE EMERGING ISLES. THE ISLES EVERYONE IS NOT ON. WHEN YOU FINALLY FIND THE CEREAL, IN THE CEREAL ISLE, YOU'RE ON THE RIGHT ISLE. GET EVERY BOX YOU CAN AFFORD. THERE'S A MILLION DOLLAR PRIZE IN THOSE BOXES. NOT IN ALL OF THEM, MAYBE, BUT NOT ALWAYS ALL OF THEM. THERE ARE BILLIONS OF PRIZES IN CERTAIN CEREAL BRANDS. PURCHASE THE RIGHT CEREAL, LEAVE AN INHERITANCE. I FEEL LIKE, THE BEST WAY TO MAKE A BILLION DOLLARS, IS TO PROMISE TO GOD YOU'LL GIVE HALF OF IT AWAY TO OTHER PEOPLE. THAT'S HOW I DID IT. NO ONE KNOWS YOUR FUTURE NET WORTH, THEY MOSTLY TREAT YOU BASED ON YOUR CURRENT NET WORTH. THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT FOR ALL OF US. LOOK AT WHAT I AM WRITING AND WHAT YOU'RE LOOKING AT. INTERNALIZING. I WANT YOU TO HAVE THE ECONOMIC POWERS I WIELD. IT'S A CIRCUS AND A JUNGLE OUT HERE. THE CIRCUS IS INSIDE OF THE JUNGLE. STAY OUT OF THE CIRCUS, TO GET OUT OF THE JUNGLE.
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7:05PM EST - 8:05PM EST
SUNDAY JANUARY 5TH, 2020
1.5.2020
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CHAPTER SIX: HOLDING
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HOLDING STOCKS IS FOR BUILDING ECONOMIC POWER. IF YOU CAN MANAGE TO BUILD YOUR ECONOMIC POWER, BEFORE THE STOCKS SURGE, YOU CAN BUY AS MANY STOCKS AS YOU WANT TO. NOT ONLY SHOULD YOU BUY STOCKS, YOU NEED TO BUY STOCKS. WE EMPHATICALLY IMPLORE YOU. STRAIGHT UP, YOU'RE NOT HOLDING STOCKS FOR ME. I WON'T SEE A DOLLAR. YOU KNOW IT. THERE'S NO WAY. YOU ARE HOLDING PORTFOLIOS, FOR YOUR CHILDREN'S INHERITANCE. RIGHT?
WE ARE HERE TO HELP YOU RETIRE. BUY AS MANY STOCKS IN THE EMERGING MARKETS AND DISRUPTIVE TECHNOLOGIES, AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN. YOU WILL RETIRE SOON. I AM A VERY SPIRIT FILLED INDIVIDUAL. I HAVE MY OWN WAVE. WE ARE IN A NEW WAVE. THIS WAVE IS NOT OF MY DOING. I CAN SEE THE WAVE EMERGING ON THE RISE. WITH ECONOMICAL SURFBOARD IN HAND, AFTER LETTING YOU KNOW WHAT THIS WAVE IS CAPABLE OF DOING FOR US, I BID YOU FAREWELL. WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS. I WAS ACTIVELY PURSUING ECONOMIC FREEDOM, THIS IS ALL THAT MATTERED ABOUT ME. I PUBLISHED THE NOTES AND STRATEGY AND THEN I BID YOU FAREWELL.
POSTERITY. FIND OUT ABOUT AS MANY DIFFERENT, LEGITIMATE, WAYS TO LEVERAGE FINANCES. LIMIT YOUR CONSUMPTION EXPENSES, AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. INVEST YOUR BAD HABIT MONEY, INTO THE STOCK MARKET. THOSE WORDS CAUSE FEAR. THIS PUBLICATION, HELPS TO SERVE THE NOTION, FEAR ITSELF IS THE ONLY THING TO FEAR. FDR. I CAN EARN BILLIONS FOR MYSELF AND MY FAMILY. MY CHILDREN. MY BUSINESS PARTNERS. MY MENTOR. EVEN THERE IT IS STILL MUCH FURTHER TO GO. HELP WISE. SERVICE TO OTHERS. SO THIS PUBLICATION, DOES IT'S OWN DAMAGE. DAMAGE TO WHAT, I'M NOT GOING THERE WITH YOU. I JUST WANT TO HELP AS MANY PEOPLE RETIRE AS EARLY AS POSSIBLE.
I FEEL IT DEEP WITHIN MY HEART. ONCE YOU CROSS OVER, YOU TAKE NOTHING WITH YOU. I CAN EARN BILLIONS OF DOLLARS. MONEY CAN BE PUT IN MY CASKET, I STILL DIDN'T TAKE IT. IT'S ALL ABOUT DISTRIBUTION. THE ACCOUNTS I SET UP WILL ONLY HAVE WHAT I NEED IN THEM AND THE REST WILL BE DISTRIBUTED. STOCKS AND ALL DIGITAL ASSETS, UNTIL WE COMPLETE THE LIST. FOR NOW, THE FIRST MILLIONS EARNED, GO INTO HOLDING PORTFOLIOS OF ALL KINDS. STARTING WITH THE STOCKS AND CRYPTO CURRENCIES, HEADING TOWARDS COMMERCIAL AND RESIDENTIAL REAL ESTATE. FLIIPPING HOUSE EQUITIES, TAX LIENS, JOINT VENTURES. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN THE BIG DREAMER. NOW I MUST ACT THEM OUT. DAY BY DAY, IMPLEMENT MORE STRATEGIC HABITS INTO THE SPARE TIME I HAVE.
AT THIRTY, THIS IS GENERALLY WHEN ONE WOULD DELVE INTO FINANCIAL LEVERAGING. I BARELY MADE IT. THE THREE YEAR PREPARATION STUDIES CURVED THE BEND AHEAD. AT THIRTY, AT THIS POINT, I AM FINANCIALLY NEUTRAL, MY DECISIONS BROUGHT ME HERE, TO THIRTY AND NEUTRAL. MY DECISIONS FROM HERE ON OUT, WILL DETERMINE THE LIFE'S SAKE. I BARELY MADE IT. THREE YEARS FROM NOW, WILL BE TEN YEARS FROM THE FIRST ASSET PURCHASED. THE DIGITAL ASSET, THE FIRST EVER. I HAVE WAY MORE STUDYING TO DO. I MUST INCREASE THE STUDYING, AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. ASAP. AMAP. THE APPLICATION OF WHAT IS STUDIED MUST BE ALL THE THRITIES ARE ABOUT. IF YOU LIVE TO SEE FORTY, THIRTY FIVE FOR YOU. CHILDREN. I HAVE FIVE YEARS TO CREATE THE DREAM SCAPE I WANT FOR MY LIFE SITUATION AND LIFE, BEFORE HAVING A CHILD INSERTED INTO IT BY MY OWN GLANDS. AT MY OWN GLANDS. I WANT TO BE A STAY AT HOME DAD. WE MAKE MONEY FROM HOME OVER HERE BABY.
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SATURDAY JANUARY 11TH, 2020
1.11.2020
6:38PM EST - 7:00PM EST
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CHAPTER SEVEN: ANY RETURN ON YOUR INVESTMENTS
ANY RETURNS ON YOUR INVESTMENTS, MUST SEE THE TAXES FOR IT PAID. IF YOU RETAIN THE PROFITS INSIDE OF MORE INVESTMENTS, OR THE SAME INVESTMENT, YOU DON'T GET TAXED UNTIL YOUR CAPITAL IS DONE GAINING. INVESTING IS IN YOUR BEST INTEREST. INVESTING FOR YOUR BLOOD, IS IN YOUR BEST INTEREST. HOLDING STOCKS IS HOW YOU WILL RETIRE SOON. WITHIN THE DECADE, OF READING THIS MANIFESTO. IF YOU CAN SOMEHOW MANAGE TO ENACT THE STRATEGY, AS MUCH AS I WANTED TO DO, YOU MY FRIEND SHALL RULE YOUR OWN WORLD. RULING YOUR OWN WORLD, IS NOT BEYOND YOUR REACH. HOWEVER, OUR REACH, SHOULD ALWAYS EXCEED OUR GRASP.
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CHAPTER SEVEN SESSION TWO:
1.12.2020
SUNDAY DECEMBER 12TH, 2020
1:42AM EST - 2:54AM EST = 1HR 2M
AT THIRTY YEARS OLD, I AM TERRIFIED OF THE RAMIFICATIONS OF NOT HOLDING STOCKS. OH BOY, I MUST REMEMBER, I WILL BE FORTY, WITH GOD'S GRACES, GOD WILLING, SO I MUST CONTINUE SETTING UP MY LIFE. IN MY TWENTIES, I WAS PURSUING THE ARTISTIC PORTFOLIO. FILMMAKER AND NOVELIST. WHAT NO ONE I KNEW TOLD ME, WAS WHAT I NOW TELL PEOPLE OF, IN REGARDS TO TECH STOCKS. AT THIS POINT, WE GET A DEEP SENSE OF RELIEF, KNOWING WE ARE INVESTING OUR BLACK AND MILD MONEY INTO TECH STOCKS, INCLUDING CRYPTO.
DOING WHAT I AM DOING NOW, WITH INVESTING, IN MY TWENTIES, WOULD HAVE FUNDED CXF AND DXC BY NOW. THAT'S THE REALIZATION OF THE TWENTIES. MY TWENTIES. IN THE 2010s. IN MY THIRTIES, I MUST INVEST AS MUCH AS I CAN INTO MY HOLDINGS. LEARNING TO TRADE, WAS TO FURTHER THE HOLDING ABILITIES. NOW, I HAVE TO TAKE PROFIT FROM THE TRADING. WHEN THE MONEY DOUBLES, PULL IT OFF AND PLACE IT IN THE CURRENCY'S RESPECTIVE WALLET. THEN SEND THE CURRENCY OUT TO HOLD AS CRYPTO, OR TO PURCHASE STOCKS AND REAL ESTATE.
WITH THIS SAID, I MANAGE TO GET THE TRADING RIGHT, THE PROFITS WILL JUST FLOW INTO THE HOLDINGS. THE EARNED INCOME FROM ACTIVE INCOME, WORKING JOBS, WILL GO INTO BILLS AND STOCKS AND CRYPTO. THE BETTER THE TRADING GOES, THE MORE STOCKS CAN BE PURCHASED IN OTHER'S ACCOUNTS. FOR OTHERS. FOR NOW, PURCHASE THEM IN YOUR ACCOUNTS, WITH YOUR MONEY. THE TRADING PROFITS WILL CREATE A MONEY MAKING MACHINE, FROM, TWO MONEY MAKING MACHINES.
EVEN WITHOUT THE TRADING, THE HOLDING PROFIT RETURNS WILL BE MILLIONS. PURCHASING SPECIFIC INDUSTRY STOCKS, OVER THE NEXT DECADE, MY THIRTIES, WILL BRING IN A BILLION, I CAN SEE THAT. TRADING AND HOLDING FROM THE TRADING, FOR TEN YEARS, ON TOP OF HOLDING FROM SLAVE WAGES, WILL DEFINITELY SEE IT FIT FOR BILLIONS. GET THE TRADING, NOW YOU'RE STILL WORKING SLAVE WAGES, BUT THROWING THE HALF OR FULL CHECK INTO THE HOLDINGS. THE TRADING PROFITS NOW PAY FOR THE BILLS, HOWEVER, THE REST OF THE PROFITS GO INTO THE HOLDINGS. THIS IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT. TRADING IS HARSH TO LEARN FOR YOU ARE CONQUERING YOURSELF, NOT THE MARKET.
YOU WILL LEARN TO CONQUER THE MARKET, AFTER CONQUERING YOURSELF. THIS IS WHAT I AM LEARNING, DOING IT. I MYSELF AM TRADING. I MUST TRADE AGAINST MYSELF. WHEN I TRADE AGAINST MYSELF, I AM ACTUALLY ACCOUNTING FOR THE POSSIBILITY, IN WHICH I MAY BE WRONG. THE OTHER FIFTY PERCENT. CAST BOTH LINES.
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1.12.2020
SUNDAY JANUARY 12TH, 2020
5:47PM EST - 6:27PM EST
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CHAPTER EIGHT: THE FOREX MARKET
THE FOREX MARKET JUST OPENED 49 MINUTES AGO, EASTERN TIME. TIME FLIES, THIS IS WHY HOLDING STOCKS, IS WELL JUSTIFIED. IF TIME FLIES SO SWIFTLY, INVESTING CAPITAL INTO THE EMERGING MARKETS OF THE FUTURE, TIME AND CHANCE WILL SEE TO IT YET AGAIN, THE DOT COM BOOM. THE NANOTECHNOLOGY BOOM IS ON ARRIVAL. THE BIOMETRICS BOOM IS ON IT'S WAY. THE CYBER SECURITY BOOM IS EN ROUTE. THE ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE BOOM IS AT YOUR FRONT DOOR, RIGHT NOW. THE ROBOTICS BOOM COULD BE YOUR BEST FRIEND.
WHY NOT LEAVE INHERITANCES, TO YOUR FAMILY AND CHILDREN? WHY NOT? WHY NOT YOU? WHAT DOES THE FUTURE LOOK LIKE? WHAT SAY YOU? EVER HEARD OF CASSANDRA? ALL I CAN DO IS INVEST MY HARD EARNED MONEY, AS CAPITAL, INTO THE MERGING EMERGING MARKETS. THE SECRET LEARNED DURING MY TWENTIES. TOOK ME A DECADE TO FIGURE THIS OUT. I NOW HAVE AN ENTIRELY NEW DECADE, TO APPLY IT, THUS CATCHING UP. IF I AM TRADING FOREIGN CURRENCY, TO HOLD STOCKS AND CRYPTO, TAKE PROFIT IS THE NAME OF THE TRADING GAME.
I AM TRADING AND HOLDING. I AM TRADING IN ORDER TO HOLD MORE. I AM HOLDING, IN ORDER TO TRADE MORE. THE TRADING AND THE HOLDING, GO TOGETHER, HAND IN HAND. WHEN THE TRADING PROFITS, PULL THE PROFITS, FROM THE ACCOUNT. PUSH THE PROFITS INTO THE WALLET PIT. ALLOW THE WALLET PIT TO STACK TO SURFACE LEVEL. SEND THE WALLET PIT, TO USD AND XRP WALLETS. BTC WALLETS AS WELL PERIOD. THIS METHOD IN STRATEGY, WILL PROVE TO REIGN SUPREME OVER MY ECONOMICAL TAKEOVER OF MY DAY TO DAY ROUTINE.
BY PULLING OFF THE PROFITS FROM THE FOREIGN CURRENCY TRADING, INTO THE STOCK AND CRYPTO HOLDING PORTFOLIOS, THE HOLDING PORTFOLIO'S GROWTH SHOWS THE VALIDITY OF THE TRADING STRATEGY. THE PURPOSE OF THE TRADING, OVERALL, IS TO USE THE PROFITS, FOR OTHER INVESTMENTS. STOCK HOLDINGS ARE THE FIRST INVESTMENTS. FROM THERE REAL ESTATE. THE FILM PRODUCTION COMPANY. THE PUBLICATION MARKETING COMPANY. MEDIA PROMOTIONS COMPANY. ALL OF THE COMPANIES I HAVE EVER WANTED TO START, I WILL START THESE COMPANIES, TO KEEP ME COMPANY, WHEN THERE SEEMS TO BE NO ONE THERE TO ACCOMPANY ME, IN CREATING THESE COMPANIES.
WHETHER I SUCCEED OR FAIL, ULTIMATELY, THIS LONELINESS MAY NEVER LEAVE ME. THE BURDEN I PERSONALLY DEAL WITH. SO DESPITE THIS, I WRITE THIS. I WRITE THIS AS A DECLARATION OF WAR TO THE FINANCIALLY ILLITERATE PAST VERSIONS OF MY OWN MINDSET. I AM GOING TO RULE MY OWN WORLD, AND YOU DEAR STRANGER HAVE FOUND YOURSELF WITH THE DIARY OF A MAD MAN. THE DREAMS I HAD IN MY TWENTIES, FOR MY OWN FUTURE, WERE MY OWN. I KNEW THEY WOULD BE LIFELONG PURSUITS. MEANING I WOULD HAVE TO SPEND MY LIFE PURSUING THEM. WHAT I DIDN'T REALIZE, IS THAT WOULD CREATE SUCH A LONELY LIFE. IF THE ONLY WAY TO SEE THE DREAM THRU, IS TO PURSUE, A LONELY LIFE INDEED.
WHEN EVERYONE ELSE WANTS TO SOCIALIZE, YOU MAY NOT HAVE THE TIME. EVENTUALLY YOUR DISTANCE WILL RESULT IN WHATEVER IT RESULTS IN AND YOU MAY FIND YOURSELF, PONDERING ON THE EFFECTS OF YOUR PURSUITS. I WANTED A FAMILY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. LIKE MOST PEOPLE, I DESIRED CHILDREN AND A WIFE OF MY OWN. MY OWN PERSONAL EXPERIENCES GROWING UP SHOWED ME THE IMPORTANCE OF HAVING CUSTODY OF MY CHILD. I DON'T HAVE TO HAVE SOLE CUSTODY BUT SHE CAN'T EITHER. MY MOTHER ALWAYS TOLD ME. I REMEMBER WHAT MY MOTHER TOLD ME. AGAINST ALL ODDS.
MY MOTHER BECAME A GRANDPARENT, WHEN I WAS IN 6TH GRADE. I HAVE BEEN AN UNCLE, SINCE I WAS TWELVE. I HAVE SEEN BABY MOTHER DRAMA, TO A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL, BEFORE PUBERTY. NOT TO MENTION, GROWING UP IN A SINGLE PARENT HOME SINCE AGE 7. SO MY OWN PERSONAL FANTASY OF THE FAMILY LIFE THAT MENDS THE WOUNDS OF WHAT I PERSONALLY DEALT WITH. THE WRITING WAS ALWAYS SEEN AS A GIFT FOR ME TO LEAN ON WHEN IN PAIN. I SAW PAIN. I WROTE IT ALL DOWN. I SAW VISIONS, I WROTE THEM ALL DOWN. I WANT FINANCIAL CONTROL OVER MY OWN ECONOMIC STANDING AS A PERSON.
BEFORE I HAVE CHILDREN, I WANTED MY EARNING POWER TO SUIT MY PREFERENCE. I DON'T ARGUE OVER MONEY. I NEVER WANT TO PUT MYSELF IN A POSITION WHERE I AM. I WANT TO PAY MY BILLS HALF A YEAR IN ADVANCE AT MINIMUM. THIS WILL ALLOW ME TO INVEST. THESE TWO ACTIONS, WILL ALLOW ME TO RETIRE AS SOON AS I CAN. THIS ACTION WILL ALLOW ME TO FUND THE MEDIA EMPIRE I BUILT IN INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY, DURING MY TWENTIES. THIS ACTION WILL ALLOW ME TO STUDY POLITICS AND ECONOMICS, AFTER FILM SCHOOL. I CAN BEGIN TO THINK OF SETTLING DOWN WITH WIFE AND CHILDREN, THEN. I HAVE FIVE YEARS LEFT REALISTICALLY, TO GET THESE ACCOMPLISHMENTS, ACCOMPLISHED.
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TUESDAY JANUARY 14TH, 2020
1.14.2020
3:24AM EST - 3:51AM EST
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CHAPTER NINE: FINANCIALS

Build to Full Gear
After the events of All Out, MJF and CM Punk waste 0 time getting reacquainted. On the Dynamite after All Out, MJF announces his partnership with the Firm. He refers to the team as backup in the rare event he needs it. Punk interrupts the festivities to call MJF a little bitch who doesn’t know how to wrestle. This infuriates MJF as Punk lays insults on the Poker Chip holder. MJF throws back his own but finds himself struggling to combat the fact CM Punk has beat him. Punk eventually walks away but when he turns MJF jumps him by smacking him with the Poker Chip. He then viciously punches Punk while yelling “You're nothing but a useless old bastard trying to relive the glory days. He busts Punk open while The Firm fends off security from breaking up the assault.
After this brutal display of viciousness from MJF, CM Punk is sidelined with an injury as MJF continues to gloat about what he did to “Old Man Punk”. On social media Punk tweets about his want to come back but the doctors are not clearing him. This happens for 3 weeks until MJF pushes his luck. On the last episode of Dynamite in September he verbally berates Punk. He says he should be ashamed of himself because he had it all and let it all go away because of his own ego. MJF mocks Punk by saying “BooHoo, I don’t get to the Main Event, Vince’s pride and joy. I’ll never be the next Steve Austin. Well I guess I’ll go home and sit with my UGLY ASS DOG” With that MJF is jumped by someone who has jumped the barricade and that person is C.M Punk. Punk fights off Firm members while he attempts to attack a fleeing MJF. Finally, W. Morrisey is able to toss Punk out of the ring, while MJF escapes. This leads to MJF and Punk staring at each other through the ropes with nothing but the Firm and the ring separating them.
After this faithful September day, Punk seems to have tasted blood. He repeatedly jumps MJF backstage and in the ring resulting in brawls always broken up by the Firm. At one point Punk is interviewed and asked “Punk, why do you put yourself through this” Punk responds with “I understand holding this championship makes a lot of people hate me, I know that now I have more enemies than before, but this is a sacrifice, the target is on my back, the burden is on me, to guide AEW, to help, to truly help it, that's the only reason I came here, hell I don't even care about my relevancy, but I care about the people in the crowd, and the young on the back who are now dreaming the same dreams as me, i care about this business, what I'm doing is putting myself in the line of fire, everything, so this sport can live, you guys can enjoy, and the ones at the back can freely dream. I’m doing this so a cocky bastard can’t destroy everything that has been built.
In the final weeks of Dynamite MJF nicknames Punk “AEW’s John”. The two continue to brawl week after week with neither Punk showing zero quit despite The Firm isolating him. Week after week The Firm get the better of Punk after learning his ways and methods from his previous attacks. And week after week the fans expect Punk to be saved but thanks to all of the bridges he has burnt in the past no one helps him. On the Go-home show Stokely Hathoway, meets with MJF and infers that his group deserve a thank you. MJF never gives them that thank you. Meanwhile Punk looks like a shell of himself thanks to the weeks of abuse thrown his way.
Full Gear
CM Punk(C) vs MJF for the AEW World Heavyweight Championship
As soon as Punk enters the ring MJF jumps on him and slows the pace down. MJF dominates the beginnings of the match but Punk refuses to give up. Punk is able to weather the early attacks from MJF and the match becomes a back and forth affair. Towards the end of the match Punk’s body gives up on him. He struggles to stand and fight back while MJF continues the devastating attack. Punk gains a bit of separation as the ref checks his wellbeing. As this happens Stokley walks down the ramp and throws up two fingers. When he does Ethan Page low blows MJF as Morrissey Big Boots him. This allows Punk to pin Max. 1.2.3. However after seeing how he won he is ashamed of himself.
Fallout
After the Full Gear match that garners world wide praise, MJF is nowhere to be found. Rumors swirl about contract renegotiations but no one knows. Meanwhile MJF likes tweets from Roman Reigns and Paul Heyman.
Also Swerve in Our Glory retains the titles.

I (30f) know I can say this and know I'm heard. I fucking hate this. Some days seem so manageable and others seem intolerable. I had a horrible childhood growing up. I won't go into detail, as I know in this group I'm preaching to the choir, but I was raised in a strict Christian household, my father(deceased) molested me for years as a young child (6-8ish). My mother was physically, verbally, and emotionally abusive.
The last 3 weeks have been absolute hell. I had most of my spine fused together when I was 14, so my back isn't in the best condition. I had to drive myself to the ER on feb 28th because a pinched nerve in my neck was in agony. One CT later I'm told some of the screws in my spine are migrating and dangerously close to my aorta and thecal sac. Er doc literally told me if I trip and land wrong the screw could puncture my aorta and I can bleed out. I was able to see a neurologist that Friday, and thank god it was bad, but not that bad, and they sent me for an MRI the next Monday. I got something called MRI vertigo. Then I get home from that and our oldest dog had died. We expected it, her second round of cancer, but still. I leave from that to go to work (HS soccer coach) and after practice on the way to get dinner before my next practice this 16 yo girl tbones my van with 2 of my 3 kids on it, totaling the van. Luckily our injuries were minor, but we were supposed to leave on this big road spring break trip to Florida (20 hour drive) that Sunday, and now we have no car and $2500 invested in a trip we didn't know if we could take. Honestly at this point no one felt like going. And I had been numb to everything since receiving the bad news at the hospital. We deal with the insurance, find a car in time somehow, and we're able to go on our trip. We were going to a music festival, but also my husband's family is from there. 18 years married and the tension with my mother in law finally got so bad a huge fight happened between her and my husband and I'm now thinking we will go NC with her. She is a Christian, but I don't think it would be overexaggerating to call her a zealot. She sees evil in everything! We went and saw puss and boots thinking surely a kids movie is fine, and wrong, she made the whole thing miserable because she thought it was way too violent. The vacation wasn't a complete loss, but it wasn't great, and for how much money we spent it just seemed like such a fucking waste. We got back at 12:30 am on the Monday after spring break and I have to be up at 6:30 to go straight back into school and to soccer season, which is insanity. Finally today, sitting in the waiting room of a doctors office, I had the same thought I've been having for weeks, which is I'm really suprised this hasn't hit yet. And that made it hit, in a room full of people. I managed to hold it in, aside from a few small breakdowns when I was alone (seriously think crying while using the bathroom). And I was at the appointment between soccer games because our school was hosting a soccer tournament. I finally, finally get home (gone from 6:30 am to 7:30 pm), manage to greet my family somewhat reasonably, then I went to my room and as soon as the door closed I fucking broke. Every emotion I haven't felt for the last several weeks keep hitting and everytime I think I'm done I remember something else and 20 more emotions flatten me. I want to scream, but know I will be heard and I don't want that audience. I was better numb. Now I can't quit crying, it's been over an hour, and now I'm fucking exhausted. Physically mentally emotionally drained. I know my husband and is in the house worried. My kids are thinking moms crazy is showing again. And all this in a ton of pain because my body fucking sucks.
Tldr: I disassociated due to several bad things happening in quick succession, medical issues, car wreck, dog died, big family fight. Everything caught up with me today and now I'm a sobbing mess and it's exhausting! Does anyone else get exhausted after a bad manic episode?

Here I am, answering the questions that no-one asked!
I thought it would be interesting to post the results of a scan I did of all the flac files I've downloaded from bandcamp. Bandcamp posts minimum requirements for uploads:

Your audio files must be at least 16-bit, 44.1 kHz lossless files (WAV, AIFF, or FLAC), in stereo (no mono- or multi-channel audio). Do not upsample from MP3s. Please re-export the file from your music editing software in a lossless format like WAV, AIFF, or FLAC.

Here are the results from a scan from my collection:

 2 FLAC audio bitstream data, 16 bit, mono, 44.1 kHz 3 FLAC audio bitstream data, 16 bit, mono, 48 kHz 2578 FLAC audio bitstream data, 16 bit, stereo, 44.1 kHz 201 FLAC audio bitstream data, 16 bit, stereo, 48 kHz 3 FLAC audio bitstream data, 16 bit, stereo, 96 kHz 774 FLAC audio bitstream data, 24 bit, stereo, 44.1 kHz 383 FLAC audio bitstream data, 24 bit, stereo, 48 kHz 10 FLAC audio bitstream data, 24 bit, stereo, 88.2 kHz 79 FLAC audio bitstream data, 24 bit, stereo, 96 kHz 2 FLAC audio bitstream data, 24 bit, stereo, 176.4 kHz 12 FLAC audio bitstream data, 24 bit, stereo, 192 kHz 

As you can see, a few files are mono, and a fair number are 24 bit and/or higher sampling frequency than 44.1 kHz.
11 of the 12 24/192 and the two 24/176.4 come from one particular artist, who's 2 release I own are a whopping 1.6 GB for 14 tracks over ~ 1 hour.

Hello guys,
I'm an Arabic native and I'm excited to share this blog since it is something I've wanted to do for a long while, it is a simple Arabic (MSA) blog with short posts on various topics, by the end I will include either a vocabulary list or an English translation.
I will try to post weekly, so far I have 3 posts, one is an introduction, the second is sharing a resource for a documentry channel, the third is the story of a famous woman from Arabic folklore.
Please check them out, tell me your personal experience, whethey they are too easy or too difficult, personally I think they are a bit on the advanced side so I'll try to write simpler ones in the future.
Also give me opinion on Tashkeel, would you rather I include it for all the words or not, the vocabulary list and the English translation...etc
And if you have any requests or suggestions for new topics don't hestitate to share them.
Thank you, and hopefuly I'm allowed to self-promote here.
Here is the link: https://arabicwritings.substack.com/

I just graduated from robotics and automation a few months ago. I noticed there are a lot of titles for similar jobs. My questions are... 1. Are AT, CT, MT, and ST all interchangeable? (Automation, controls, maintenance, service) 2. If not what's the difference? 3. What's the best entry title to go into with out travel?
I'm sure this has been asked before but i couldn't find much details. Don't mean to waste time but hank you for your time much appreciated.

Like the title, please drop your brace recommendations. I’ve tried everything 😢. I have CT in both my arms, going on 3 years now. I’ve tried steroids, 2 takes of PT & acupuncture. All 3 helped but it was a temporary relief. I have elbow braces, wrist braces, compression sleeves. My problem is trying to put the brace on both arms, I live alone so it’s like once I get comfortable with one arm, the other one starts up. I will say it’s been comforting finding this community, sometimes it feels like you’re the only one going through it. Like my family thinks I’m faking it & I have to type for a living, so my employer isn’t the happiest with me right now. Even if I’m able to work a full 8 hours, I’m in pain immediately after, like the worst kind. I’m also a writer, so I’m trying to avoid the surgery because my brothers ex gf said her mom had the surgery and now she’s in worse pain than ever before and unable to work. So yeah, this is my long drawn out way of saying help a sister out. What are you using?

Edit: Title forgot the word "hear each other,"
Someone I know has a weekly local sports event they broadcast, they have 4 announcers, and the goal is to have them all be able to hear each other equally, but then also have a copy of each speaker funnel into a single cable such that it could be plugged into a PC as an microphone source for OBS to stream it live.
I have 4 of these Logitech Pro Headsets, each has a 1/8th inch connection and an extra cable to plug in via USB as well. The announcers sit next to each other.
I've tried software solution and it works fine, but we have 3 hour livestreams and the computer locks up every once and a while so we want to try and find a hardware solution.
Now something like this Zoom PodTrak P8 Podcast Recorder looked appealing, but it's $400 and we're trying to find a way to come in significantly cheaper than that.
I've tried a 4 channel headphone amplifier, connected to a mixer I borrowed from work and couldn't hear anything, the idea was to get a proof of concept before buying a ~4 channel mixer for this project.
Any ideas on what I can do to make this work?

Pirates @ Tigers - Fri, Mar 24

Game Status: Game Over: Tied - Score: 6-6

Links & Info

• MLB Gameday
• Game Graphs
• Savant Gamefeed

	Pirates Batters	AB	R	H	RBI	BB	K	LOB	AVG	OBP	SLG
1	Hayes - 3B	4	1	3	2	0	0	0	.353	.371	.794
	Maggi - 3B	1	0	0	0	0	1	1	.400	.464	.840
2	Reynolds, B - CF	4	1	1	0	0	0	3	.209	.277	.419
	Ordonez - 1B	1	0	0	1	0	0	0	.000	.000	.000
3	Joe - RF	4	1	2	2	0	2	0	.263	.317	.447
	Owings - SS	1	0	0	0	0	1	1	.250	.417	.429
4	Santana - 1B	2	0	0	0	2	1	1	.143	.286	.229
	2-Sanchez, L - CF	1	0	0	0	0	0	1	.154	.154	.385
5	Choi - DH	4	0	2	0	0	2	2	.290	.303	.484
6	Castro, R - SS	3	0	0	0	1	1	2	.224	.255	.367
	Palacios, J - RF	0	0	0	0	0	0	0	.000	.000	.000
7	Andújar - LF	3	0	0	0	0	0	2	.189	.244	.351
	a-Smith-Njigba - LF	1	0	0	0	0	0	0	.316	.409	.526
8	Heineman - C	4	1	1	0	0	1	2	.095	.174	.143
9	Mathias - 2B	3	0	2	1	0	1	0	.269	.424	.308
	1-Bae - 2B	1	2	1	0	0	0	0	.270	.325	.297
	Totals	37	6	12	6	3	10	15

Pirates
a-Grounded out for Andújar in the 8th. 1-Ran for Mathias in the 7th. 2-Ran for Santana in the 7th.
BATTING: 2B: Reynolds, B (3, Rodriguez, Ed); Heineman (1, Rodriguez, Ed); Choi (3, Rodriguez, Ed). HR: Joe (1, 1st inning off Rodriguez, Ed, 1 on, 1 out); Hayes (4, 7th inning off Brieske, 1 on, 0 out). TB: Bae; Choi 3; Hayes 6; Heineman 2; Joe 5; Mathias 2; Reynolds, B 2. RBI: Hayes 2 (9); Joe 2 (3); Mathias (5); Ordonez (1). Runners left in scoring position, 2 out: Heineman; Castro, R; Sanchez, L. GIDP: Reynolds, B 2. Team RISP: 3-for-10. Team LOB: 7.
FIELDING: DP: (Castro, R-Mathias-Santana).

	Tigers Batters	AB	R	H	RBI	BB	K	LOB	AVG	OBP	SLG
1	Carpenter, K - LF	4	2	3	0	0	0	2	.327	.346	.592
	Meadows, P - LF	1	1	1	0	0	0	0	.333	.400	.750
2	Maton, N - 3B	2	2	2	1	2	0	0	.326	.404	.696
	Palacios - 3B	1	0	0	0	0	0	1	.267	.333	.433
3	Báez, J - SS	4	0	1	2	0	1	4	.182	.176	.242
	Graham - SS	1	0	0	0	0	1	1	.000	.500	.000
4	Meadows, A - RF	4	0	1	1	0	0	3	.255	.321	.340
	Davis, B - RF	1	0	1	1	0	0	0	.269	.387	.385
5	Torkelson - 1B	4	0	1	1	0	1	2	.278	.328	.389
	Holton, J - 1B	1	0	0	0	0	1	1	.500	.556	.500
6	Cabrera, M - DH	3	0	2	0	0	0	2	.250	.286	.450
	1-Campos - DH	2	0	0	0	0	1	0	.125	.125	.125
7	Baddoo - CF	2	0	1	0	1	0	2	.239	.314	.478
	Hernández - 2B	2	0	1	0	0	0	0	.262	.354	.429
8	Haase - C	4	0	0	0	0	1	5	.262	.273	.524
	2-Papierski - C	0	0	0	0	1	0	0	.263	.391	.526
9	Schoop, J - 3B	3	1	1	0	0	1	4	.217	.280	.304
	Davis, Jo - CF	2	0	0	0	0	2	2	.146	.255	.171
	Totals	41	6	15	6	4	9	29

Tigers
1-Ran for Cabrera, M in the 5th. 2-Ran for Haase in the 7th.
BATTING: 2B: Meadows, A (4, Contreras); Meadows, P (3, Perdomo, A). HR: Maton, N (5, 6th inning off Stephenson, R, 0 on, 0 out). TB: Baddoo; Báez, J; Cabrera, M 2; Carpenter, K 3; Davis, B; Hernández; Maton, N 5; Meadows, A 2; Meadows, P 2; Schoop, J; Torkelson. RBI: Báez, J 2 (5); Davis, B (6); Maton, N (8); Meadows, A (8); Torkelson (6). 2-out RBI: Davis, B. Runners left in scoring position, 2 out: Meadows, A; Baddoo; Schoop, J; Torkelson; Carpenter, K; Holton, J. GIDP: Báez, J. Team RISP: 5-for-20. Team LOB: 12.
FIELDING: PB: Papierski (1). DP: 2 (Báez, J-Maton, N-Torkelson; Rodriguez, Ed-Maton, N-Torkelson).

Pirates Pitchers	IP	H	R	ER	BB	K	HR	P-S	ERA
Contreras	3.1	6	2	2	2	3	0	66-43	3.86
Hernandez, J	0.2	4	2	2	0	0	0	14-11	8.00
Bednar	0.2	1	0	0	1	1	0	25-16	7.36
Garcia, O	0.1	0	0	0	0	0	0	3-2	0.00
Stephenson, R	1.0	1	1	1	0	0	1	18-11	9.00
Moreta	1.0	1	0	0	0	2	0	15-9	1.04
Perdomo, A	1.0	2	1	1	0	2	0	17-12	8.31
Minaya	1.0	0	0	0	1	1	0	16-9	0.00
Totals	9.0	15	6	6	4	9	1

Tigers Pitchers	IP	H	R	ER	BB	K	HR	P-S	ERA
Rodriguez, Ed	5.1	9	3	3	1	6	1	85-58	1.47
Shreve (H, 2)	0.2	0	0	0	1	0	0	13-7	2.25
Brieske (BS, 1)	2.0	2	2	2	1	2	1	30-17	9.28
White (BS, 1)	1.0	1	1	0	0	2	0	17-11	1.80
Totals	9.0	12	6	5	3	10	2

Game Info
WP: Contreras; Bednar.
Pitches-strikes: Contreras 66-43; Hernandez, J 14-11; Bednar 25-16; Garcia, O 3-2; Stephenson, R 18-11; Moreta 15-9; Perdomo, A 17-12; Minaya 16-9; Rodriguez, Ed 85-58; Shreve 13-7; Brieske 30-17; White 17-11.
Groundouts-flyouts: Contreras 2-2; Hernandez, J 2-0; Bednar 1-0; Garcia, O 1-0; Stephenson, R 2-0; Moreta 1-0; Perdomo, A 1-0; Minaya 1-0; Rodriguez, Ed 3-4; Shreve 0-1; Brieske 2-0; White 2-0.
Batters faced: Contreras 17; Hernandez, J 6; Bednar 4; Garcia, O 1; Stephenson, R 4; Moreta 4; Perdomo, A 5; Minaya 4; Rodriguez, Ed 23; Shreve 3; Brieske 9; White 5.
Inherited runners-scored: Garcia, O 2-0; Shreve 1-0.
Umpires: HP: Roberto Ortiz. 1B: Emil Jimenez. 2B: Laz Diaz. 3B: Jerry Layne.
Weather: 85 degrees, Clear.
Wind: 10 mph, R To L.
First pitch: 6:07 PM.
T: 2:53.
Att: 5,113.
Venue: Publix Field at Joker Marchant Stadium.
March 24, 2023

Inning	Scoring Play	Score
Top 1	Connor Joe homers (1) on a fly ball to left field. Bryan Reynolds scores.	2-0 PIT
Top 2	Mark Mathias singles on a ground ball to center fielder Akil Baddoo. Tyler Heineman scores.	3-0 PIT
Bottom 3	Austin Meadows doubles (4) on a sharp line drive to right fielder Connor Joe. Kerry Carpenter scores. Nick Maton to 3rd.	3-1 PIT
Bottom 3	Spencer Torkelson singles on a sharp line drive to left fielder Miguel Andujar. Nick Maton scores. Austin Meadows to 3rd.	3-2 PIT
Bottom 4	Javier Baez singles on a ground ball to left fielder Miguel Andujar. Jonathan Schoop scores. Kerry Carpenter scores. Nick Maton to 2nd.	4-3 DET
Bottom 6	Nick Maton homers (5) on a fly ball to right center field.	5-3 DET
Top 7	Ke'Bryan Hayes homers (4) on a line drive to left field. Ji Hwan Bae scores.	5-5
Bottom 8	Brendon Davis singles on a line drive to right fielder Josh Palacios. Parker Meadows scores.	6-5 DET
Top 9	Ernny Ordonez reaches on a fielder's choice, fielded by third baseman Jermaine Palacios. Ji Hwan Bae scores.	6-6

Team	Highlight
PIT	Breaking down Roansy Contreras's pitches (00:00:08)
DET	Breaking down Eduardo Rodriguez's pitches (00:00:08)
DET	Eduardo Rodriguez's outing against the Pirates (00:00:23)

	1	2	3	4	5	6	7	8	9		R	H	E	LOB
Pirates	2	1	0	0	0	0	2	0	1		6	12	0	7
Tigers	0	0	2	2	0	1	0	1	0		6	15	0	12

Division Scoreboard

MIN 6 @ NYY 4 - Final
SF 0 @ KC 3 - Final
CWS 12 @ OAK 0 - Final
CHC 2 @ CLE 2 - Bottom 2, 0 Outs
Next Tigers Game: Sat, Mar 25, 06:07 PM EDT @ Blue Jays
^{Last Updated: 03/24/2023 09:33:04 PM EDT}

Pirates @ Tigers - Fri, Mar 24

Game Status: Game Over: Tied - Score: 6-6

Links & Info

• MLB Gameday
• Game Graphs
• Savant Gamefeed

	Pirates Batters	AB	R	H	RBI	BB	K	LOB	AVG	OBP	SLG
1	Hayes - 3B	4	1	3	2	0	0	0	.353	.371	.794
	Maggi - 3B	1	0	0	0	0	1	1	.400	.464	.840
2	Reynolds, B - CF	4	1	1	0	0	0	3	.209	.277	.419
	Ordonez - 1B	1	0	0	1	0	0	0	.000	.000	.000
3	Joe - RF	4	1	2	2	0	2	0	.263	.317	.447
	Owings - SS	1	0	0	0	0	1	1	.250	.417	.429
4	Santana - 1B	2	0	0	0	2	1	1	.143	.286	.229
	2-Sanchez, L - CF	1	0	0	0	0	0	1	.154	.154	.385
5	Choi - DH	4	0	2	0	0	2	2	.290	.303	.484
6	Castro, R - SS	3	0	0	0	1	1	2	.224	.255	.367
	Palacios, J - RF	0	0	0	0	0	0	0	.000	.000	.000
7	Andújar - LF	3	0	0	0	0	0	2	.189	.244	.351
	a-Smith-Njigba - LF	1	0	0	0	0	0	0	.316	.409	.526
8	Heineman - C	4	1	1	0	0	1	2	.095	.174	.143
9	Mathias - 2B	3	0	2	1	0	1	0	.269	.424	.308
	1-Bae - 2B	1	2	1	0	0	0	0	.270	.325	.297
	Totals	37	6	12	6	3	10	15

Pirates
a-Grounded out for Andújar in the 8th. 1-Ran for Mathias in the 7th. 2-Ran for Santana in the 7th.
BATTING: 2B: Reynolds, B (3, Rodriguez, Ed); Heineman (1, Rodriguez, Ed); Choi (3, Rodriguez, Ed). HR: Joe (1, 1st inning off Rodriguez, Ed, 1 on, 1 out); Hayes (4, 7th inning off Brieske, 1 on, 0 out). TB: Bae; Choi 3; Hayes 6; Heineman 2; Joe 5; Mathias 2; Reynolds, B 2. RBI: Hayes 2 (9); Joe 2 (3); Mathias (5); Ordonez (1). Runners left in scoring position, 2 out: Heineman; Castro, R; Sanchez, L. GIDP: Reynolds, B 2. Team RISP: 3-for-10. Team LOB: 7.
FIELDING: DP: (Castro, R-Mathias-Santana).

	Tigers Batters	AB	R	H	RBI	BB	K	LOB	AVG	OBP	SLG
1	Carpenter, K - LF	4	2	3	0	0	0	2	.327	.346	.592
	Meadows, P - LF	1	1	1	0	0	0	0	.333	.400	.750
2	Maton, N - 3B	2	2	2	1	2	0	0	.326	.404	.696
	Palacios - 3B	1	0	0	0	0	0	1	.267	.333	.433
3	Báez, J - SS	4	0	1	2	0	1	4	.182	.176	.242
	Graham - SS	1	0	0	0	0	1	1	.000	.500	.000
4	Meadows, A - RF	4	0	1	1	0	0	3	.255	.321	.340
	Davis, B - RF	1	0	1	1	0	0	0	.269	.387	.385
5	Torkelson - 1B	4	0	1	1	0	1	2	.278	.328	.389
	Holton, J - 1B	1	0	0	0	0	1	1	.500	.556	.500
6	Cabrera, M - DH	3	0	2	0	0	0	2	.250	.286	.450
	1-Campos - DH	2	0	0	0	0	1	0	.125	.125	.125
7	Baddoo - CF	2	0	1	0	1	0	2	.239	.314	.478
	Hernández - 2B	2	0	1	0	0	0	0	.262	.354	.429
8	Haase - C	4	0	0	0	0	1	5	.262	.273	.524
	2-Papierski - C	0	0	0	0	1	0	0	.263	.391	.526
9	Schoop, J - 3B	3	1	1	0	0	1	4	.217	.280	.304
	Davis, Jo - CF	2	0	0	0	0	2	2	.146	.255	.171
	Totals	41	6	15	6	4	9	29

Tigers
1-Ran for Cabrera, M in the 5th. 2-Ran for Haase in the 7th.
BATTING: 2B: Meadows, A (4, Contreras); Meadows, P (3, Perdomo, A). HR: Maton, N (5, 6th inning off Stephenson, R, 0 on, 0 out). TB: Baddoo; Báez, J; Cabrera, M 2; Carpenter, K 3; Davis, B; Hernández; Maton, N 5; Meadows, A 2; Meadows, P 2; Schoop, J; Torkelson. RBI: Báez, J 2 (5); Davis, B (6); Maton, N (8); Meadows, A (8); Torkelson (6). 2-out RBI: Davis, B. Runners left in scoring position, 2 out: Meadows, A; Baddoo; Schoop, J; Torkelson; Carpenter, K; Holton, J. GIDP: Báez, J. Team RISP: 5-for-20. Team LOB: 12.
FIELDING: PB: Papierski (1). DP: 2 (Báez, J-Maton, N-Torkelson; Rodriguez, Ed-Maton, N-Torkelson).

Pirates Pitchers	IP	H	R	ER	BB	K	HR	P-S	ERA
Contreras	3.1	6	2	2	2	3	0	66-43	3.86
Hernandez, J	0.2	4	2	2	0	0	0	14-11	8.00
Bednar	0.2	1	0	0	1	1	0	25-16	7.36
Garcia, O	0.1	0	0	0	0	0	0	3-2	0.00
Stephenson, R	1.0	1	1	1	0	0	1	18-11	9.00
Moreta	1.0	1	0	0	0	2	0	15-9	1.04
Perdomo, A	1.0	2	1	1	0	2	0	17-12	8.31
Minaya	1.0	0	0	0	1	1	0	16-9	0.00
Totals	9.0	15	6	6	4	9	1

Tigers Pitchers	IP	H	R	ER	BB	K	HR	P-S	ERA
Rodriguez, Ed	5.1	9	3	3	1	6	1	85-58	1.47
Shreve (H, 2)	0.2	0	0	0	1	0	0	13-7	2.25
Brieske (BS, 1)	2.0	2	2	2	1	2	1	30-17	9.28
White (BS, 1)	1.0	1	1	0	0	2	0	17-11	1.80
Totals	9.0	12	6	5	3	10	2

Game Info
WP: Contreras; Bednar.
Pitches-strikes: Contreras 66-43; Hernandez, J 14-11; Bednar 25-16; Garcia, O 3-2; Stephenson, R 18-11; Moreta 15-9; Perdomo, A 17-12; Minaya 16-9; Rodriguez, Ed 85-58; Shreve 13-7; Brieske 30-17; White 17-11.
Groundouts-flyouts: Contreras 2-2; Hernandez, J 2-0; Bednar 1-0; Garcia, O 1-0; Stephenson, R 2-0; Moreta 1-0; Perdomo, A 1-0; Minaya 1-0; Rodriguez, Ed 3-4; Shreve 0-1; Brieske 2-0; White 2-0.
Batters faced: Contreras 17; Hernandez, J 6; Bednar 4; Garcia, O 1; Stephenson, R 4; Moreta 4; Perdomo, A 5; Minaya 4; Rodriguez, Ed 23; Shreve 3; Brieske 9; White 5.
Inherited runners-scored: Garcia, O 2-0; Shreve 1-0.
Umpires: HP: Roberto Ortiz. 1B: Emil Jimenez. 2B: Laz Diaz. 3B: Jerry Layne.
Weather: 85 degrees, Clear.
Wind: 10 mph, R To L.
First pitch: 6:07 PM.
T: 2:53.
Att: 5,113.
Venue: Publix Field at Joker Marchant Stadium.
March 24, 2023

Inning	Scoring Play	Score
Top 1	Connor Joe homers (1) on a fly ball to left field. Bryan Reynolds scores.	2-0 PIT
Top 2	Mark Mathias singles on a ground ball to center fielder Akil Baddoo. Tyler Heineman scores.	3-0 PIT
Bottom 3	Austin Meadows doubles (4) on a sharp line drive to right fielder Connor Joe. Kerry Carpenter scores. Nick Maton to 3rd.	3-1 PIT
Bottom 3	Spencer Torkelson singles on a sharp line drive to left fielder Miguel Andujar. Nick Maton scores. Austin Meadows to 3rd.	3-2 PIT
Bottom 4	Javier Baez singles on a ground ball to left fielder Miguel Andujar. Jonathan Schoop scores. Kerry Carpenter scores. Nick Maton to 2nd.	4-3 DET
Bottom 6	Nick Maton homers (5) on a fly ball to right center field.	5-3 DET
Top 7	Ke'Bryan Hayes homers (4) on a line drive to left field. Ji Hwan Bae scores.	5-5
Bottom 8	Brendon Davis singles on a line drive to right fielder Josh Palacios. Parker Meadows scores.	6-5 DET
Top 9	Ernny Ordonez reaches on a fielder's choice, fielded by third baseman Jermaine Palacios. Ji Hwan Bae scores.	6-6

Team	Highlight
PIT	Breaking down Roansy Contreras's pitches (00:00:08)
DET	Breaking down Eduardo Rodriguez's pitches (00:00:08)
DET	Eduardo Rodriguez's outing against the Pirates (00:00:23)

	1	2	3	4	5	6	7	8	9		R	H	E	LOB
Pirates	2	1	0	0	0	0	2	0	1		6	12	0	7
Tigers	0	0	2	2	0	1	0	1	0		6	15	0	12

Division Scoreboard

TEX 3 @ CHC 5 - Final
MIL 6 @ LAD 6 - Final: Tied
CIN 7 @ AZ 4 - Final
COL 9 @ MIL 4 - Final
STL 7 @ WSH 1 - Final
CHC 2 @ CLE 2 - Bottom 2, 0 Outs
Next Pirates Game: Sat, Mar 25, 06:05 PM EDT vs. Orioles
^{Last Updated: 03/24/2023 09:32:55 PM EDT}

Sailesh sat listlessly watching the rain drops just lazily slapping the window pane he was next to. He'd just arrived from a flight not long ago. Not only could he still feel the strain the long flight had on his knees, he was yearning to perhaps, stretch them out. But an Asar in Kathmandu doesn't relent. The downpour was vicious, often making it difficult to have any fun time. Forget hiking, he'd be lucky to even get past the hotel without getting soaking wet. As he took another long swig of his cigarette, he contemplated the life choice that led him to the place he was currently. Surely, it'd mark a closure, perhaps seal the old wound. He'd relish this.
As his breath clashed with the pane, and fog slightly formed, he was interrupted by the host,"So brother, what will you be having today?". He impatiently waved him off, angry that the waiter had interrupted his train of thoughts. The waiter, rather meekly said,"So will you have anything else, sir? This is your 6th peg, Mother was wondering if you'd like anything else". Sailesh softly chuckled before replying "I'm waiting". As the waiter gave him a knowing nod, and gently faded away, he took another swig of the whiskey he was drinking. Cheap shit will always be cheap, in this shithole, he thought to himself. Still, anything to get that familiar burn down your throat, with the slight buzzy sensation in your temple. For the money he was tossing at it, he couldn't possibly complain. It would be that he dearly missed his scotch - his favorite poison. He rapped at the table impatiently, she hasn't changed a bit, had she? Always taking her sweet time. As he could make out the silhouette of a woman with a child through the foggy glass, he grew excited: "She came, she finally did!". Not only that realization made him jerk back from him day dreaming, he proceeded to straighten up, and pull his hair back. After taking a few moments to compose himself, he hailed the waiter silently to take away the glass and empty his ash tray. As the entrance door slowly opened, he could make out his once love of his life, slowly approaching him with a kid, his, presumably. Aakanshya was a woman of sophistication, and absolute grace. The moment she walked towards you, you'd feel a gentle breeze on your forehead, whilst the back of your throat dried out, and you just wanted to steal a gaze from her, as long as time allowed. Her full lips often made you aware that even despite not smiling, she had a soft, gentle curve that made her face anything but hard. Suffice to say, Sailesh felt a cocktail of emotions within him growling, as he looked at a woman he once loved over anything else.
As she sat down with the kid, Sailesh gently motioned towards her. After a brief eye contact, he felt as if they were pulled down, away from it. Perhaps he still had feelings for her. Perhaps he was here to find out why things happened, the way they did. Still, he could feel the pangs of that same constricting pain in his heart, as if someone, or something, held it. It took an effort breathing in. And thus, he started, "So Aaku...". Aaku gently smiled back, that same smile he now knew he yearned for more than 5 years. As she waved, the kid chimed in, "Is he the uncle you were talking about, mummy?". Aakanshya slowly nodded, then proceeded to speak, "Yes, Sailesh uncle here is my best childhood friend. We practically grew up together, just like you and Saakshi". "Eww, Momma grew up with a boy? That's so funny hahaha". "No Arya, uncle here was very good at tying my ribbons! Firstly, say hi to uncle, will you, dear?" Arya suddenly shouted, "Namastey Sailesh uncle!" in a manner that could only be described as being contagious. It was impossible not to have your heart melt right there and there, this some five odd years old brat, speaking in the cutest manner possible. Sailesh extended his hand "I'm Sailesh, how old are you?". Arya looked puzzled at the hand offered to her, promptly looking towards her mother for clues on what to do. As Aakanshya motioned Arya to shake his hand, Arya followed suit. Sailesh hasn't shook a hand that was more tender, warm in a while. As he dismissed her hand, he directed his gaze towards Aakanshya. "How long has it been, again?" he said, words slightly slurred. Perhaps the whiskey finally hit. As Aakanshya drew a long breath, Sailesh leaned back, reaching for his zippo. That's when he noticed her hard gazed, the same stone cold, disappointed pair of the most beautiful doe eyes one could imagine, staring through him. As he followed her gaze to Arya, it hit him that perhaps lighting a cigarette in front of a child, wasn't the best of decisions. Arya chortled,"Look momma, uncle smokes too, just like Daddy!". As Aakanshya frowned,"Momma are you about to shout at uncle?", with the most innocent of eyes. Sailesh bit his lips in a mixture of embarrassment, and restlessless. Yeah, fucking A man, fucking A, light a cig right in front of the kid.
"So how have you been?" Sailesh said, huffing after his own silliness. Aakanshya answered,"I'm doing great, Sailu, how are you doing?". "Doing fine. Company offered me a vacation plan, I rejected, caught the very first plane from Cali straight here so I could perhaps go visit old friends. But with this weather...", Sailesh chuckled. Aaku sighed, "Well, that's a nice change I suppose. You always were the overworker". As Sailesh motioned the waiter yet again, he asked Arya, bored, "So what will you have, Arya?" Arya took the menu, and immediately pointed at what she wanted : An icecream. Well, she was certainly her mother's child, this girl. Once the orders were placed, Sailesh spoke "So what are you doing these days?" Aakanshya slowly turned her head towards Arya, and said "Well, mostly taking care of Arya. Housework was much more difficult than I imagined", she smiled softly. "How long are you staying?" Sailesh sighed,"Hard to tell. I can return anytime, but I was looking to meet old faces here. Suffice to say that's nigh impossible at this weather. So I'm probably going to get holed up in a hotel till I get back home". "And how are your parents, how's Aunty doing?" "You know they're dead, Aaku. Why must you ask?" Aakashya's eyes widened,"When?". Sailesh bitterly replied,"It's been what, 2-3 years?" "I'm sorry, Sailesh, I didn't know that". Sailesh's lips curved ironically, as he smiled and retorted,"Well, it's none of your business anyway, so there". Before those words were barely out, he regretted saying it. "But I do care. And I'm sorry." Sailesh could see hints of tear well up in her eyes. "Sorry I wasn't there for Aunty and Uncle". Sailesh whipped back, "Well they'd not count on it, after all, you abandoned me". Aakanshya look at Sailesh, with a look of surprise, speechless. Arya, startled, looked at Aakanshya, "Mommy, are you crying? Are you about to have a fight with uncle, just like daddy?" Sailesh asked, opportunistically, "Do mommy and daddy get in fights often?" "Yes, daddy shouts at mommy, and mommy shuts the door and cries. It's really sad, you know -" Aakanshya interrupted Arya's monologue, and quietly motioned her to hush. So Sailesh went into brooding, before letting out his next question, "You're happy with him, aren't you?" He could feel Aakanshya visibly disturbed, silent. Perhaps blaming her from the get go wasn't the best of ideas. At the same moment, the orders were served, and that was the end of that. As mere small talked, veiled in pain were exchanged on both sides, Sailendra couldn't help but walk down back the memory lane.
It was that night, that had been their last. They had sneaked out of their friend's wedding together, got to his apartment, then started making love. Intimacy with her was a special time, he'd only been vulnerable with so many women. As they rolled over the bed, he had gotten up to look at the moon-lit fields across the window. He had sat down in the arm chair, contemplating the difficulties ahead in life. He was but merely deep in thought, when she had rolled over, glistening in sweat beads, whilst gently being caressed by the moonlight. That's when she'd said, "Sailu, we should get married, na?" He had but merely scoffed, looking at her saying, "Babe, I'm hitting the states next week, I won't be back for at least 4 years, you seriously think I'd be able to take care of myself, let alone you?!" Whilst running his fingers on her playfully, he'd find her smiling slightly, then turning over, pulling the blankets. And that was the exchange they had, before she abruptly called Sailesh a week after he landed on states, stating she was getting married soon. And him, in a foreign land, feeling utterly dejected, and betrayed. Why did she choose this banker, over him? What possibly could that bald jerk give her, that he couldn't?
As Sailesh was wading through the free fall of his thoughts, reality struck when Arya tugged at his jacket. "Uncle, will you come home? I'll show you my doll". Sailesh, frowning, shook his head. Suppose it was time to part ways. The visit had been extempore, after all. He had called her on messenger right as he landed, perhaps to make peace with himself. Though how exactly this meeting ended up making him any less disturbed than he already was: He wouldn't know. All he knew was the ship had sailed, and he was left out in the rain. As the bills were paid, and they stood in front of the restaurant under umbrellas, Sailesh said "Well, guess this is it then. Take care, alright?" As Aakanshya turned after nodding, he could have sworn he saw her back shake.
As he stood there, questioning himself, all the while lighting his cigarette, he couldn't help but kick himself for being an ass. Perhaps he went too hard on her. After all, she did come, didn't she? And yet, he was right there, in the same spot she left her, 6 years back. As the gentle pitter patters of droplets onto the puddle singed but meekly, he looked at the mother-daughter slowly walking away from her. He was but just there, looking at her, then her daughter, a spitting image of her, going away, engrossed in conversation. As he scratched his nape, he couldn't help but spot a familiar birthmark on little Arya. Something he had grown accustomed to, often bemoaned about for being unsightly. Then it dawned him, that perhaps, this would be the last time he'd see her, as he couldn't possibly face himself after today's charades.
Not after what just happened, not after what he said to her.