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Things have gotten out of hand and I’m marking 1-3 packages missing per rout. I’m completely stopped doing “unable to delivers”. Usually return the packages to the warehouse right after the shift. Has anyone been deactivated for doing this? I’ve marked probably 20 packages as missing last week. Lmao

Hi all, I posted here a couple months ago about my situation, which you can read about here if you’re interested: https://www.reddit.com/raisedbynarcissists/comments/106dd65/at_a_crossroads_in_relationship_with_my_parents/
Quick TL;DR Summary: Both my parents started distancing themselves from me/stopped calling while I was going through a difficult time in my life. My mom sent me an email & wanted me to share with her, but she was also critical & unhelpful. I reacted defensively & also told her I didn’t feel I was getting the emotional support I needed. I later apologized, but got no response & the silent treatment continued for several months until I called them out/confronted them & said this was not ok. My mom responded to me with defensiveness, gaslighting, projection, denial, personal attacks/criticism, the works.
So after this, I got another email from my mom before I could respond saying that she was tired of us hurting each other & didn’t want this to continue. She showed an interest in making amends, but I have a feeling my dad had a hand in getting her to send that (he's always been the peacemaker). It was more than I had ever gotten from her though and part of me just wanted to accept that & move on because it was (& still is) a painful situation. But I still hadn’t responded to her previous email & still had a lot of feelings about it. Plus, she also wrote that I had said some hurtful things & then she had to do the same thing (which to me implies that I made her react the way she did as if she is not in control of her actions.) And there was no apology.
I replied & said that I wanted the same thing, but didn’t want to rug sweep. I told her that what she said to me was unacceptable & that is not how you communicate w/ someone you are supposed to love. Basically, I stood up to her and defended myself. I was very firm & confident sounding (which is not exactly how I feel internally & is something she’s not used to with me.) I laid out boundaries & said that if she speaks to me that way again (in a way that causes me pain or emotional distress), I would need to step back & get some distance. At the same time, I still expressed a desire to resolve things. I did not hear from her again after this.
After a while, I wrote to my dad & just told him how I was feeling & that I hoped we could maintain our relationship no matter what happens, but hopefully things could also be resolved with my mom. (He had continued to email & text me here & there.) He said he wanted the same thing & to speak to me again, but it’s been months now & we still haven’t spoken. I just get emails every now & then updating me about whatever is happening & random chitchat. It feels strange & sad to still be communicating w/ him only in this way, but I think I still prefer it to not communicating at all. I've always had a good relationship w/ my dad & while his distancing has been surprising & painful, I still can't be angry w/ him. I'm just more confused & wishing I understood more. I have been able to deal with periods of estrangement w/ my mom in the past, but now that my dad is involved & kind of going along w/ her this time, it's much more difficult & I feel so alone.
So at this point, I don’t even really know what to feel. My mom was prepared to reconcile with me until I sent my email. Sometimes I feel proud of myself for writing it and think it's crazy that my mom's ego could be so fragile. I also feel sad & angry that she has apparently given up on me & doesn’t feel it’s worth it to try & work things out. Then there are times I question if I am to blame & feel guilty. I wonder if I handled things the right way or if I was too harsh or unreasonable. I think if I tried to reach out to her again though, I’d feel so foolish because she's obviously making choices (they both are.)
The thing that I think stumps me the most is whether my mother is purposefully cruel & tries to hurt me intentionally, or if she is just a damaged, immature, flawed human who has bad instincts and may feel regret & remorse, but is either too proud or just doesn’t know what to say to me. When someone just doesn’t respond, you think all kinds of things. I also struggle with depression & sometimes I think my mom may be keeping her distance because she doesn’t want to upset me. I know many people here are very adamant in how they feel about their parents, but I have many feelings that can change day to day. It’s very confusing & it makes it very hard to just move on.
I feel like if I knew what her reaction to my email was, I would feel more confident in how to proceed. Did it make her upset & make her break down and cry? Did she get angry & curse me and swear to never speak to me again? Did she go so far as to tell my dad she did not want him to speak to me or have a relationship with me and did she even threaten him? (I truly don’t think my mom would do this, but who knows?). I would like to get some answers from my dad, but I don’t know if he would feel obligated to share whatever I say with my mom. I think he may feel uncomfortable keeping things from her. But am I just supposed to stay in this state of limbo forever? I would just like to know where I stand.
Thanks to anyone who read all of this & if you have any advice or suggestions, I’m open to hearing them!

Had to take out my phone to check something urgently after I was done pissing but wasn't able to wash my hands just yet because I was still in the bathroom stall. How dirty is that, really? I always make sure to wash my hands and with soap afterwards... but I can't help but to feel like the thing I've touched before washing my hands is dirty because of me touching my genitals and every time I touch the said thing and touch something else, it just makes it all dirty.
If it was at home, it'd be a lot easier for obvious reasons... but since the public bathroom didn't have any towels and I didn't have any wet wipes to wipe my phone down, I just felt like I made everything I touched dirty because I have to use my phone to get my shit done.
Surely, it really isn't gonna easily contaminate everything right? Surely, touching the stuff you feel like you've contaminated isn't as dirty (from one's own perception) as the actual stuff you initially touched right? It's not like I was touching my junk and then touching something else... but just touching my phone then touching something else.

Please I want the scream theme for my island

Friend of mine went nuts..12 grams dried. Tore up his room and broke his bed. Tried to run out of his house into the snow and ice covered streets, restrained by his younger brother, who called a friend for help. It took them both to keep him from destroying the house. The brother punched him in the face, thinking he could knock him out, but the "berserker" rampage continued from 10:42pm into the wee hours. He pissed his pants, puked into his hands and sucked it back into his mouth and swallowed it! Today he came over, both knees swollen, one sprained ankle, one black eye, bruised ribs. He said he experienced some form of ego death, cycles of heaven and hell, and everything in between. His brother reported seeing convulsions, as reported by Paul Stamets on the JRE. He was very lucky his brother was home. He hadn't anticipated needing a sitter, or two. He said never again.

Once upon a time, there was a tall, nerd, and not-much attractive guy pero pwede na who woke up one morning, looked at the sky, and thought, "Well, this sucks." He knew there was only one solution - to turn to the all-knowing oracle of modern dating: PH fucking R4Friends.
With his trusty cup of coffee in hand, he set out to find someone who shared his thirst for knowledge, someone who could keep up with his nerdy quirks, and someone who he could eventually take on 'friendly' dates (whatever that means). He wasn't in a rush to jump into anything too serious too soon, but he knew that someday, he wanted to find someone he could build a meaningful and caring relationship with.
So if you're a fellow lover of coffee, learning, and all things nerdy, this tall drink of water might just be the partner in crime you've been looking for. Dating at times feel like a job hunt doesn't it? So I thought it’d be fun to write it in a mock format just like a resume! LOL

About me

An old soul as older people I spoke with would say, into business and investments, frustrated law student, can drive a fucking 10 wheeler truck, no ex issues or sabit, can provide a certificate of no relationship (kahit wala naman nun haha).

• I'm 5'10", medium built if that matters, resides in quezon city
  
• I'm an INTJ, Aries, if you’re into MBTI and believes in horoscope.
  
• Loves to read self-help books as I love to learn and motivate myself along the way.
  
• I'm the kind of person who doesn't follow the herd blindly, even if it means standing alone in a field of conformity. My principles are like a compass, always pointing me in the right direction, even if it's not the most popular route. In short, I'm not afraid to swim against the current, as long as it's in line with my beliefs.
  
• You could say that my communication style is like a triple-layered cake: serious, meaningful, and sprinkled with a healthy dose of humor. Sure, I may come off as awkward at times, but that's just my way of keeping things interesting. After all, who wants a bland and flavorless conversation when you can have a deliciously complex one? So, if you're looking for someone who can engage in a thoughtful discussion, crack a few jokes, and still leave you with something to ponder, then look no further.
  
• I'm what you might call a clean freak with a creative streak. As someone who's a bit OC (okay, maybe more than a bit), I can't stand to see a messy or cluttered home. But don't worry, I'm not the type to wait around for someone else to do the dirty work. I take pride in noticing when something needs to be done and taking care of it without being asked - it's like a satisfying little victory every time. And when it comes to interior design and home decor, I'm practically a pro. I'm always on the hunt for the latest and greatest tools and gadgets to keep things looking fresh and stylish. So if you're looking for someone to spruce up your space and keep things sparkling clean, I'm your go-to guy.
  
• I'm not in the business of putting people down - unless we're talking about the volume on the stereo (badum-tss!). But seriously, I believe in treating others with kindness and respect, even when it's not the easiest thing to do. After all, life is hard enough without having to deal with someone else's negativity. So let's lift each other up instead of tearing each other down, shall we?
  
• I set feasible goals and actively pursue them.
  

Here's a list of my favorites:

Movies/Series	Music	Places	Activities	Books
Godfather	Radiohead	Paris (not yet)	Cycling	The Daily Stoic by Ryan Holiday
Sherlock	Eraserheads	Coffee Shops	Painting	How to Win Friends & Influence People
Castaway	Chicago	Cebu	Roadtrips	Meditations by Marcus Aurelius
Forrest Gump	Ebe Dancel	Japan	Diving	Start with Why by Simon Sinek
Homeland	Urbandub	Rome (not yet)	Piano	Atomic Habits by James Clear
Before Sunset	Frederic Chopin	Canada	Travelling	How to think like a Roman Emperor
The Office	Eminem	New York (not yet)	Cooking	Letters from Stoic
Big Bang Theory	Dr. Dre	Maldives (not yet)	Film & Photography	48 Laws of Power
Breaking Bad	Elton John	Marrakesh (not yet)	Badminton	The Intelligent Investor

Pros:

• Responsible (Good credit score, no debts, no criminal records, and self-reliant)
  
• Curious type of person, who's ready to listen and craves to learn a lot of things
  
• Doesn't do drugs and is not a heavy drinkealcoholic.
  
• Respects your views and accept healthy criticism.
  
• Actually appreciating the things you'll do for me, and showing it. If you cooked a big dinner, saying thank you is nice. Doing the dishes and cleaning the kitchen is even nicer, and in my opinion, should be the norm. The cook doesn't clean. If someone does something for me, I'll show them that their effort was appreciated instead of just accepting their generosity and then running off back to whatever I'm doing.
  
• Accepts responsibility for one's own actions and does not try to blame everything or everyone else.
  
• Doesn’t play online and computer games
  

My preference:

• Someone who has a strong passion for accurate and comprehensive learning, maintains a normal BMI, and is beautiful and easy on the eyes - I believe that beauty comes in all shapes and sizes (no offense intended towards plus-size women!).
  
• High standards for what she wants and is not afraid to communicate it.
  
• Craves knowledge too. Love and isn't afraid to try new things
  
• Passionate and proud about something they've been working on/have done/are planning to do
  
• Confident about what they want but isn't in-your-face about it.
  

Let's take a break from stressing over the mundane and focus on the important stuff - like what will make us happy for the rest of our lives! Share your thoughts on how we can achieve that and let's get this happiness train moving! Oh, and if you're curious let’s exchange photos first!

Let me explain, out of all the characters in the game, I always felt like the BL cast fit better with Edelgard than with Dimitri. Simply changing their homes to being within the Empire would improve Edelgard's support. (- Dedue, because Dimitri does need a calm 2nd hand)
Sylvain relates to Edelgard in the sense that he despises the crest system. For CF, it's easy to see how he would jump to her side, and his flirting can be used to balance out Hubert. His backstory only fuels a connection to her. He would be better than Ferdinand in the sense that he would be more satisfied to have his father stripped of his title. Or feel it was more justified. (At least I assume)
Mercedes is from the empire I believe, and she seems happy to join up with her brother again. She believes in the church, though her devotion to her classroom (BE in this case) she wouldn't want to fight for the kingdom. Linhardt isn't interested in the war (he hates blood) making me think he'd rather not start a war. He'd be more likely to try and fight the war than help start it.
Ashe. If his father had been part of the empire, he would be on Edelgard's side and his adopted brother's execution will turn him against the church. He would side with both his ruler and defeat who he believes is the reason Lonato is dead. He'd replace Caspar, who also doesn't want to start a war.
Bernadetta is sweet, but she doesn't quite fit the fierce Edelgard. You could say that's the point, but in CF the cast I feel needs to be more serious and cutthroat. Ingrid would be better here, her down to earth personality could actually work with Hubert's, for the two could work together on war efforts. She'd be a more reliable military leader than Bernadetta, and in the War at Gronder I feel she would be willing to die for her cause.
Okay. Next we have Dorothea. If the opera company had been in the Kingdom, I don't see any reason that Dorothea would really join Edelgard. She has supports with her, so it seems her emotional connection to everyone leads her to fight at all. I don't think Annette has any reason to be with the kingdom other than her dad. . .though she could feel spite towards the kingdom or church for her father leaving her. I know it doesn't go in well, but Annette's intellect could improve the hunt and help locate TWSITD.
Petra and Felix I feel can't be switched. Felix's backstory is too intertwined with Dimitri's for either to be complete. Brigid is too far from the Kingdom to be properly connected as well. Petra would feel off with the BL cast I'll admit. Her and Ashe already share similarities however, along with Ingrid's dedication to her homeland, Annette's urge to learn, Sylvain's need to improve international relations, and maybe Mercedes's kindness could all mold to adapt to her.
Anyway I was having a conversation with a friend and I wanted to share my opinion on why the CF cast should be more serious with how they're facing the war. Overall just most of the BEs don't feel like they'd want a war to start a war at all. I may be wrong though.

There’s something so classic and timeless about estate jewelry in West Lebanon, NH. Right from its one-of-a-kind look and feel to its rich history and tradition that makes it unique and special for your big day.
While modern rings are popular, a lot of couples are investing in vintage rings as they are rare and distinctive and there is only one of them. This type of jewelry is hand-cut and handcrafted and so no two pieces look the same. Here are some popular vintage pieces you will love.
Cluster or halo diamond rings
Cluster or halo custom jewelry in West Lebanon, NH is ideal for brides looking for something romantic, feminine, and timeless. While cluster diamonds offer a range of gemstones that appear as a single center stone, halo rings have a single center stone surrounded by diamonds.
If diamonds aren’t your style you can add pink or yellow diamonds, sapphires, or rubies to create a stunning appeal.
Three-stone rings
Three-stone wedding bands in West Lebanon, NH offer a sentimental and elegant feel. Each of these gemstones represents the past, present and future and you can add in any gemstones or birthstones that resonate with you.
While all three stones are the same size, you can add a diamond, sapphire, amethyst, or even something simple and classic.
The Bottom Line
When you choose a vintage piece you are picking something that’s already in existence instead of creating something new from scratch and this makes your piece eco-friendly. This makes it great for eco-conscious couples looking to upcycle their jewelry.
Since most of these pieces were created to be one-of-a-kind, you won’t see the same ring or style or anyone else’s finger and this makes it a truly unique piece to have and treasure forever.

‘Canceled’ radical feminists and the Catholic Church: These unlikely allies believe women are female By Mary Farrow
This article is the first part of a two-part series on the Church, gender-critical feminists, and transgender ideology. Part two will be published on Feb. 12.
Mary Kate Fain doesn't agree with the Catholic Church about anything. Or, nearly anything, at least. But she does agree with the Catholic take on gender and identity. And that's cost her. A lot.
Last July, Fain wrote a piece critiquing non-binary gender identities. She questioned why so many of her female friends felt the need to shed their identities as women and to instead identify as "non-binary" - neither male nor female.
Fain published the piece on Medium, an online social publishing platform.
Not long after the article published, Fain was fired from her job as a software engineer. She claims her viewpoints are the reason she was let go.
"I guess one of my coworkers complained about the article and I was fired. And since then it just started the slew of cancellation," Fain told CNA.
"I was canceled from conferences, and canceled for multiple groups that I was a volunteer in, et cetera. And it just really highlighted to me that they all wanted to shut me up, but what it proved was that there really is a need for a place for women to be able to say this."
Since her firing, Fain, a millennial and freelance writer living just outside of Houston, founded 4W, an online publication that publishes articles analyzing radical feminist issues such as gender, male violence, sex positivity, and the portrayal of women in media. She is also co-founder of the feminist social media platform Spinster.xyz, and a volunteer with the Women's Human Rights Campaign.
And she is just one of many "canceled" women.
Why women are being "canceled"
Fain, along with several other women writers, intellectuals, and activists, have been "canceled" for their conviction that women are adult human females, whose sex-based rights, such as the right to female-only spaces like bathrooms or sports teams or therapy groups, deserve protection.
This view is no longer seen as politically correct by some tastemakers and gatekeepers, because it is "trans-exclusionary" - to hold this view means to hold that a man cannot "become" a woman because he identifies as one, and vice versa.
"...this is not something that you're supposed to say," Fain said. "We're supposed to just blindly accept what anyone says about their own identity, without any critical analysis, without any feminist analysis even. We're supposed to ignore that sex-based oppression exists and just admit, 'Oh yes, we are what we say we are and that defines our reality.'"
"But I think for any feminist, any real feminist, we know that that just simply isn't true," she added.
"Our sex does define certain aspects of our reality, and people are not allowed to say that in today's day and age."
Many women who hold this view refer to themselves as radical feminists, trans-exclusionary radical feminists or gender critical feminists, or even "canceled women."
"Cancel culture" is a relatively new term, used to describe the phenomenon that happens when someone, usually a famous person or one with some kind of platform, experiences a kind of shunning, harassment, or social banishment for doing or saying something with which a lot of people disagree.
Being "canceled" can take many forms: being trolled or doxxed on social media, being banned from Twitter or other platforms, or finding that events featuring the canceled person are quickly, well, canceled.
In January, an event entitled "Evening with Canceled Women" was canceled by the New York Public Library, where the event was to be hosted.
The canceled event was organized by Women's Liberation Front (WoLF), a group that advocates for the "rights, privacy and safety of women and girls, by which we mean human females," Kara Dansky, a board member with WoLF, told CNA.
"We were being told over the course of a week that the contract was being processed (for the event), and then the day before the deposit was due, we were told that we could not proceed with the event and we were not given a reason," Dansky said.
The event would have included the voices of women "who have, in one way or another, been silenced or canceled as a result of their outspoken views on behalf of women and girls," she added.
For example, the event would have featured Canadian feminist Megan Murphy, an advocate against pornography and prostitution whose insistence that women are female got her banned from Twitter, Dansky said.
It would also have included Posie Parker, a UK feminist known "for her insistence that the word woman means adult human female, which is simply the dictionary definition of the word," Dansky said. Parker has also been banned from Twitter for her views.
The event also would have featured Linda Bellows, a Briton "who speaks on behalf of lesbian rights. And she has been told that it is transphobic to insist that lesbians are women who are attracted to women," Dansky said.
These canceled women join a slew of others, with particularly high numbers in the UK, where the 2004 Gender Recognition Act lets adults register their gender as something other than the biological sex with which they were born.
Common ground with the Catholic Church
While trans-exclusionary radical feminist women typically hold many views with which the Catholic Church disagrees, such as approval of abortion and gay marriage, they share common ground in the belief that women are female and men are male - and they are born that way.
"It has been a tremendous plus to have radical feminists speaking out so strongly about the reality of sexual difference and against the new tyranny of gender," Mary Rice Hasson, the Kate O'Beirne Fellow in Catholic Studies at the Ethics and Public Policy Center in Washington, D.C. and director of the Catholic Women's Forum, told CNA.
"Although we disagree about many things – most significantly about abortion-– we agree on some important truths about women," she said, such as opposing violence and exploitation against women, as well as "the importance of acknowledging the reality of sexual difference and the dangers of the transgender agenda."
"Specifically, we agree that sexual difference is real, that males and females are different in significant ways, and that a person's sex cannot change," Hasson said.
"The Church's vision of the human person differs radically from gender ideology," Hasson noted. "Christian anthropology teaches that the person is a unity of body and soul, that we are created male or female, forever."
"Gender ideology, in contrast, imagines the person as a bundle of assorted dimensions," she said, such as gender identity, gender expression, sexual orientation, and biological sex, none of which "needs to align – the person is self-determining. God is really not in the driver's seat."
Fain said she agrees that gender identity, "this idea that we have an internal sense of being male, female or neither, and that this has any effect on our material reality, is nonsense."
Dansky, whose group's primary goals are to fight violence against and exploitation of women in rape, sexual and domestic assault, and pornography and prostitution, said that her work is made nearly impossible in the context of broad social disagreement about what makes someone a woman in the first place.
"It's very difficult to solve all of those problems when we're not permitted to name the category of women," she said.
"It's very interesting to me that when our society talks about domestic violence and rape and sexual assault, and we talk about the rampant rates of these crimes being perpetrated against women and girls, everybody knows what the words 'women' and 'girls' mean."
In light of increasing acceptance of transgender ideology, the Vatican's Congregation for Catholic Education's issued a document entitled "Male and Female He Created Them" last June, explaining the Church's teaching on transgender issues and encouraging dialogue with those experiencing gender dysphoria.
The document cited the need to reaffirm "the metaphysical roots of sexual difference" to help refute "attempts to negate the male-female duality of human nature, from which the family is generated."
Such a negation "erases the vision of human beings as the fruit of an act of creation" and "creates the idea of the human person as a sort of abstraction who 'chooses for himself what his nature is to be.'"
Theories of gender, whether moderate or radical, agree that "one's gender ends up being viewed as more important than being of male or female sex," according to the document, which also reflects on the role of gender theory in education and speaks of a "crisis" in any alliance between the school and the family.
"Although ideologically-driven approaches to the delicate questions around gender proclaim their respect for diversity, they actually run the risk of viewing such differences as static realities and end up leaving them isolated and disconnected from each other," it said.
The document called for dialogue, and the protection of human and family rights. It also decried unjust discrimination and noted points of unity among people with different perspectives on gender ideology.
"Key allies"
Looking for concrete examples of common ground, Fain told CNA that she thinks that protecting the freedom of speech of those who oppose transgenderism will be one of the most important things that radical feminists and Christians can work together for.
"(W)e need to deal with this freedom of speech issue that's happening and cancel culture, which is making most people terrified to speak out on the issue," she said.
Fain noted that when she wrote the controversial article that got her fired, she had anticipated the backlash and had been saving for months to protect herself from the blow. She recognized that most people cannot afford to lose their jobs for speaking up on this issue.
"Most people can't, and especially women who are already at a financial disadvantage are more likely to be caring for kids," she said.
"And people are terrified to speak out on this issue because of the serious economic consequences that are happening."
"And although I have many issues with the right in general, I will say that I think religious freedom and freedom of speech do go hand in hand," Faid added.
"And so the Church's work on that is probably relevant here."
Hasson identified women like Fain as "key allies" in the fight against transgenderism going forward, and said she looks forward to working with them despite differences on other issues.
"Radical feminists have been fearless in speaking the truth about sexual difference - over social media, at universities, and in public hearings. They have refused to be silenced - even after being ridiculed, 'de-platformed' at public universities, or having their Twitter accounts shut down," Hasson said.
"We differ greatly about abortion and our views of men, but I am hopeful that our work together and personal regard for each other will open up some opportunities in the future for discussions about those areas where we disagree. But for now, I'm grateful for their commitment to speak the truth, even at great personal cost."

Source https://www.catholicnewsagency.com/news/43530/canceled-radical-feminists-and-the-catholic-church-these-unlikely-allies-believe-women-are-female

I'm in SoCal and experienced high winds and rainfall. Today, I heard dripping inside the house and on investigation, I found that one of my windows was leaking from the head of the interior casing (apologies if this isn't the right name for it).
This is the first time I have encountered this issue since moving in ~2 years ago, and this window had not shown any prior problems. Here are some images of the issue: https://imgur.com/a/387EYJr. During the hardest part of the rain and wind, it leaked as shown, and stopped leaking after about 20-30 minutes.
On examination of the exterior, I noticed some cracked stucco above the window frame which may require sealing. Beneath that, there is a caulk line with a few small holes in it. It's possible that the wind and rain pushed water through those gaps and caused the leak. Inside, aside from the leak shown, the rest of the window and the area above the window/wall are dry.
After reading some previous threads, I read that similar issues could be related to the roof. I recently had a roofer replace a different section of the roof, and they didn't identify any problems in this area.
Possible next steps may involve re-caulking and patching or sealing the stucco above. I'm running a dehumidifier by the leak. Anything else I should consider or do?

So I'm a dude...
We typically don't get compliments from women (unless we're dating them or their our mothers).
But I went to a pharmacist earlier today to pick up some prescription medicine and as one of the clerks gestured me over I handed her my form.
But as she was serving me she just randomly looks up at me and tells me that I have such 'refreshing skin.'
I've never heard such an oddly specific compliment before. The worst I've had is when a first date started deconstructing my appearance right in front of me one time and listing off all the things she loved (my teeth, my ears etc.). But I digress...
As a dude, I have no idea what refreshing skin means. I assume it's good. But... I was admittedly confused.
So I laughed and said 'I have refreshing skin?...' hoping she might elaborate without it looking like I'm interrogating her but she just nodded and said "Yes, It's so refreshing."
She looked a little embarrassed so I didn't want to press her.
But as a clueless dude. What the bloody hell is 'refreshing' skin?... Lol. Makes my skin sound like some tropical ice tea flavor.
My advice to women would be: if you're going to compliment someone then just be normal about it. Don't go for these weird avant-garde type of compliments (you'll genuinely just confuse us).

I've had some beautiful lower dose experiences that have helped me out quite a lot when I was feeling stressed and "stuck." I like lower doses because they let me think. Here's an easy guided trip method that I've found to be pretty reliable personally:
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Step 1: Play this song
(https://youtu.be/AsIjyJvhR9A)
Or (https://youtu.be/TY7T1qTJvOk) if you want something more grounded
• Headphones if you have them, but it's beautiful out loud as well
• Go ahead and put it on loop, don't wait to have to fool with it before the trip ends.
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Step 2: Take your dose
• I would recommend sticking to a lower dose. It's okay if you choose a dose that's too high for you to really "think" at first, but I would pick one that at least allows you to think after the peak in the comedown/afterglow time period. Something sub breakthrough.
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Step 3: Enjoy the trip
• You don't need to jump into the "thinking" part right away. Sometimes the peak makes it difficult think about worldly things even on lower doses haha. Also, allowing yourself to just enjoy the trip for a minute can really help you unwind and lower the inhibitions that make it hard for personal reflection. Enjoy the song, enjoy your visuals, they're both beautiful.
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Step 4: What worry is at the front of your mind?
• Whatever you think about most immediately, it doesn't have to be the most impactful thing in your life. Sometimes the little things can be your biggest stressors, without you even realizing it. It could be something a coworker said today that bothered you, or it could be something more impactful like big financial stresses. Whatever comes to mind first is likely one of your most frequently thought about stressors and thus one that impacts your mind the most.
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Step 5: Reflect on these questions
• Is this thing hurting you (physically or otherwise)? Could it hurt you in the future?
• How could you be happy in the event that this thing does negatively impact you? What are things you could enjoy despite the change in your situation? If you think there is truly no way to be happy with this thing, then remind yourself that you'll be able to move past it and be happy again someday. Think of the things that you might enjoy in your life once you move past it. This is the most important question. Once you realize you'll still be happy despite this thing, you'll be able to let go of the stress that this thing causes.
• What can you do to prevent this thing from hurting you or minimize its negative impact? What habits could you change, what action could you take? Make a plan to start doing what you need to do. When you do them, remind yourself how much happier you'll be because of doing this.
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Step 6: Repeat steps 4 and 5 until you feel it's a good time to stop.
• Sometimes this takes a while, but don't worry, it can be a very enjoyable experience.
• redose DMT as desired
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Step 7: Think about things you love now.
• Think about someone or something makes you happy. A hobby, a loved one, anything.
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Step 8 [optional]: Enjoy some entertainment.
• If you've had stressors weighing on your mind, then it's likely been a while since you've gotten to truly lay back and enjoy the moment. Do something you enjoy, now that you've dropped a lot of your stress it'll be much more enjoyable, and soothing to remember how enjoyable things can be when you have things a little more figured out.
• This helps with the "What action could you take?" question of step 5. It's a lot easier to get things done when you're able to remind yourself that it'll allow you to feel this feeling again. Knowing that you're doing your best to move in the right direction allows you to really let go when you have the chance to do so. You lose that "I need to be doing _____" feeling that holds you back.
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I would write these steps down if you choose to try them. You don't want to have to remember 8 different things on DMT and you don't want to have to operate your phone to read them either haha. Here they are for writing purposes:
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1: play the song
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2: take your dose
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3: enjoy the peak
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4: determine the worry at the front of your mind
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5: let go of your worry
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6: repeat 4 and 5 until feeling better
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7: think about something you love
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8: unwind with some entertainment
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I know thinking about stressors is intimidating, but you have to face difficult feelings head on. You can't push feelings away, you have to let them pass through.
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That's all. Sorry if this shit is cheesy, I'm pretty high haha. If anyone tries this let me know, I'm curious if it helps anyone else as much as it has helped me. Had some beautiful experiences.

Check out u/se05239 for his amazing fanart of Tarho!
Anyway, I hope you haven’t gotten too depressed.
Expect some intensity coming up.
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Memory Transcription Subject: Tarho, venlil civilian and former predator disease facility patient
Date[standardized human time]: November 7, 2136
Blank.
That’s the only thing describing my afterlife so far.
Bleak emptiness, without any meaning.
That is, until I opened my eyes to bright lights over my head.
At first, I was confused. Did I survive the fall? Did the drugs finally-
Wait.
I called them drugs, not medicine.
Did… did I finally regain control?
I bolted myself into an upright position. I was in a hospital room. Things still felt a little disproportional, probably because there was still a small amount of drugs in my system, but aside from that, it was just… a hospital room.
I felt myself over. My fleece felt… clean. I could no longer feel the sticky texture of mold and mildew coating me. I moved to my mouth. It seemed that all of my remaining teeth had been pulled, probably because they were too rotten to save. Thankfully, my gums didn’t seem to ache anymore.
I…
I’VE DONE IT! I FINALLY HAVE CONTROL OVER MY LIFE!
Morning time, time for medicine.
…
Oh no.
“You’re shtill here.” I said out loud. I took notice of the lisp caused by my missing teeth.
Of course I am, I live here.
“You… you aren’t alive. You’re jusht a trace mixchure of drugs shtill in my body.” I said out loud, hoping that volume would make it easier for me to banish the false identity.
So long as I am in your mind, I’m real, because reality is subjective.
I stared into space. What kind of philosophical bullshit was that supposed to be?
The kind that a healthy mind can come up with.
I became quite angry. I grabbed the nearest reflective surface, which turned out to be a glass of water. I drank the fresh water, savoring the taste, before starring at the barely visible face in the clear reflection of the glass.
The reflection’s eyes were clouded, and the fleece and mouth were still infected by mold and disease. It was most definitely him.
“Listhen here you little shit. Thish ish MY body, controlled by MY brain. YOU are jusht a stowaway in my life, keeping yourshelf alive with the ushe of dangerous chemicals. I shwear that when my syshtem is finally fully flushed of those drugs, both you and that shentient fight or flight response are going to FUCKING DIE! YOU HEAR ME! YOU ARE GOING TO CEASE TO EXIST-“
“Sir?” I heard a feminine voice speak.
I screamed like a little girl and nearly leapt full out of my bed at the interruption.
Predator?
SHUT UP, YOU SURVIVALIST PSYCHOPATH!
“Yesh?” I asked simply, as though there was absolutely nothing wrong with anything that I had probably just done right in front of the nurse.
“Are you alright?” She asked.
“No.” I answered with 100% honesty. “No I am not alright.”
“I assume that it’s related to the drugs?” She asked.
“They aren’t drugs. They are medicine.*
“They are not medichine you fucking retard.” I spoke, almost on reflex, straight at a wall.
“… medicine?” She asked.
“Those drugsh were preshcribed by ‘doctors’ from the ‘predator disease’ fachility.” I made sure to stress my words to focus of how ridiculously cruel my situation was.
The nurses confusion increased as it mixed with shock.
I looked down at the floor in pain of my memories. I was finally able to tell my story, but I needed to keep myself from sobbing as well.
“It was only a couple of yearsh ago when I was dragged away. I didn’t do anything wrong. I was jusht having a bad day. The outbursht I had out on the shtreet was jusht me letting out my anger. Nobody even got hurt. Of course, the exterminatorsh immediately mishtook my anger for a shign of predatory behavior, and dragged me to the fachility. They put me in the chair. I hated that fucking chair. I begged for a way out, and they offered a way out. ‘Tesht out this batch of medichine’ they shaid. ‘If you shurvive, you can leave with shome preshcription’ they explained. I took the drugs, and I jusht happened to not die, and the effects that the drugs had were what they conshidered acceptable. Now, they require that I take the preshcribed doshes every day. As I took the medicine, I began to hear voices. As the voices got louder and louder I realized something.” I explained, my voice growing more cracked as I spoke.
I felt my stress cloud my mind. I could feel my sentient fight or flight response wanting to lash out. To add to the description. I honestly didn’t have the will to stop it.
”I hate them. I fucking hate them. They just like the predatorsh. They inflict shuffering for their own pershonal gain. They desherve to die horrible deaths.” I turned my head at the ‘nurse’. “You desherve to die ash well. All of you shtood by and watched as my body washted away! How could you do that?! You’re shupposed to be empathetic you shick fucks! WHY THE FUCK DOESHN’T ANYONE SHARE THAT WITH ME!?!”
I continued to stare at the nurse as she started back with…
…sympathetic horror in her eyes.
I regained control over myself as I broke into sobs. “I jusht want to go back. Back to the way thingsh once were. Ish that sho much?” I said, trying not to choke between sobs.
I felt a pair of comforting arms wrap around me. With some hesitation, I returned the embrace.
“Sir… I’m sorry to inform you…” What? Sorry to inform me what?
Am I going to die?
I hope you die, in all honesty.
“We took scans of your brain. We compared them to scans from the last time you were screened. I’m sorry to inform you that… the continuous use of so much drugs has permanently altered your brain chemistry. In other words… you now have a mental illness.” The nurse explained.
Yay! I’m not dying!
My blood ran cold. I was too shocked by the revelation to have any meaningful reaction. That means that I now have to deal with these horrible voices forever.
Heh.
The irony isn’t lost on me.
The facility meant to cure predator disease actually afflicted me with it instead.
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I'd never heard of the Nero Bros quest til this latest playthrough, so I thought I'd try it out, but then when I got to Memoria, I forgot about it and plowed exactly halfway through the dungeon triggers before remembering I needed to revisit Lindblum between each. Now I'm slogging through most of Memoria, back and forth for hours getting the second set of quest triggers.
On the one hand, level grinding was probably inevitable to face Ozma anyway, so it's good to get a bit of that in while doing other things.
On the other hand, literally nodding off playing this part and it takes SO LONG and there's no fast travel and UUUUUUUUUUUUUGH
Anyway, how are y'all's current playthroughs going?

I know I've apologized a million times and it means nothing now. But I was naive, stupid, got carried away because I thought I had a "past" with him. I never wanted to lose you even then as a person. I kept lying to him about us. About how little you meant to me to not make him feel guilty for stepping in and ruining lives. Calling our thing as nothing more than a "reddit joke". We know it was way more than that. I was a terrible person and I've faced my karma. I should've never let him in my life in the first place. I knew we weren't going to be a forever thing , but whatever we had in the 2 weeks together meant a lot. I wish I could go back and undo everything, start over. My life would've still been a mess but I would be happy, alive, like I felt with you. I get that you hate me and rightly so,I hate myself too. I don't say this because I'm alone now or anything, but I've always missed you even when I was with him. Not romantically, but you get the point. You couldn't forget me either. I so wish I'd realised how selfish, toxic and narcissistic he was and cut him off back in Feb last year. I really do.

AITA for telling my roommate she shouldn't have been masturbating?
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I'll try to keep this short. So basically I(19F) am a first year college student and live in the dorms with two roommates(both 19F). Our families all live nearby, so all three of us go home pretty often. My one roommate, Allie, goes home VERY often so a lot of the times it's just me and the other roommate Victoria. Anyway, this week is finals week during college and all of Allie's finals are online so she just went home for the weekend and isn't coming back this week. I came back a few days into the week, while Victoria came back on Sunday. The important part is that Victoria has been alone in our dorm room for a few days now. The second important thing is that our dorm room is just one room with three beds, three closets, and three desks. Admittedly that's very little privacy.
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Anyways, Victoria had texted me and asked when I was going to be back in the dorms, and I told her Wednesday afternoon. However, unfortunately on Tuesday night at around 11 pm I had a pretty big fight with my family and decided to come back early right at that very second. I took the train back and ended up arriving at around 2 am(Wednesday morning). I was trying to be quiet and enter so I didn't wake Victoria up but to my absolute shock I walked in on her masturbating openly.
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It was super awkward as I apologized and looked away while she got herself decent really quickly. She was all red-faced but didn't apologize, and just said a quick goodnight and went to sleep. I got into bed too but thought about it and decided she was an asshole for doing that.
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Like, the three of us share this one room. I woke up her and told her that (I don't think she was really asleep though). I just said I wanted an apology but to my absolute shock she said she was sorry I saw that but wasn't sorry for masturbating because it's her room too and that she hadn't expected me back at 2 am of all times and that I should have at least texted. I guess that last part is true but hindsight is 20/20 and also I was really shaken up after the fight with my parents and wasn't thinking too straight. I mean I guess she's always been less conservative than me and Allie but I never thought she would go this far. I was too shocked to say anything else so I just got back into bed. AITA ??????

I'll try to keep this short. So basically I(19F) am a first year college student and live in the dorms with two roommates(both 19F). Our families all live nearby, so all three of us go home pretty often. My one roommate, Allie, goes home VERY often so a lot of the times it's just me and the other roommate Victoria. Anyway, this week is finals week during college and all of Allie's finals are online so she just went home for the weekend and isn't coming back this week. I came back a few days into the week, while Victoria came back on Sunday. The important part is that Victoria has been alone in our dorm room for a few days now. The second important thing is that our dorm room is just one room with three beds, three closets, and three desks. Admittedly that's very little privacy.
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Anyways, Victoria had texted me and asked when I was going to be back in the dorms, and I told her Wednesday afternoon. However, unfortunately on Tuesday night at around 11 pm I had a pretty big fight with my family and decided to come back early right at that very second. I took the train back and ended up arriving at around 2 am(Wednesday morning). I was trying to be quiet and enter so I didn't wake Victoria up but to my absolute shock I walked in on her masturbating openly.
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It was super awkward as I apologized and looked away while she got herself decent really quickly. She was all red-faced but didn't apologize, and just said a quick goodnight and went to sleep. I got into bed too but thought about it and decided she was an asshole for doing that.
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Like, the three of us share this one room. I woke up her and told her that (I don't think she was really asleep though). I just said I wanted an apology but to my absolute shock she said she was sorry I saw that but wasn't sorry for masturbating because it's her room too and that she hadn't expected me back at 2 am of all times and that I should have at least texted. I guess that last part is true but hindsight is 20/20 and also I was really shaken up after the fight with my parents and wasn't thinking too straight. I mean I guess she's always been less conservative than me and Allie but I never thought she would go this far. I was too shocked to say anything else so I just got back into bed. AITA ??????

I'll try to keep this short. So basically I(19F) am a first year college student and live in the dorms with two roommates(both 19F). Our families all live nearby, so all three of us go home pretty often. My one roommate, Allie, goes home VERY often so a lot of the times it's just me and the other roommate Victoria. Anyway, this week is finals week during college and all of Allie's finals are online so she just went home for the weekend and isn't coming back this week. I came back a few days into the week, while Victoria came back on Sunday. The important part is that Victoria has been alone in our dorm room for a few days now. The second important thing is that our dorm room is just one room with three beds, three closets, and three desks. Admittedly that's very little privacy.
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Anyways, Victoria had texted me and asked when I was going to be back in the dorms, and I told her Wednesday afternoon. However, unfortunately on Tuesday night at around 11 pm I had a pretty big fight with my family and decided to come back early right at that very second. I took the train back and ended up arriving at around 2 am(Wednesday morning). I was trying to be quiet and enter so I didn't wake Victoria up but to my absolute shock I walked in on her touching herself openly.
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It was super awkward as I apologized and looked away while she got herself decent really quickly. She was all red-faced but didn't apologize, and just said a quick goodnight and went to sleep. I got into bed too but thought about it and decided she was an asshole for doing that.
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Like, the three of us share this one room. I woke up her and told her that (I don't think she was really asleep though). I just said I wanted an apology but to my absolute shock she said she was sorry I saw that but wasn't sorry for touching herself because it's her room too and that she hadn't expected me back at 2 am of all times and that I should have at least texted. I guess that last part is true but hindsight is 20/20 and also I was really shaken up after the fight with my parents and wasn't thinking too straight. I mean I guess she's always been less conservative than me and Allie but I never thought she would go this far. I was too shocked to say anything else so I just got back into bed. AITA ??????

Take down: collar tie - inside tie

• Starting position: we have collar tie (right hand on their neck) and inside tie (left hand on their right bicep). Our partner takes the outside tie. Note: try to keep elbow down on collar grip for better control of partner.
• We'll put downward pressure (snap down) partner using these ties. Since we are snapping them downwards, they will have the tendency to react and go the other direction (upwards). We will time their upwards motion and use our inside tie to create space under their right armpit.
• Now, we drop our right knee to between their feet, and push our head, hip and left leg through that space under their right armpit. We roughly end up with our right flank against theirs. Remember to keep a strong collar tie.
• We pick their right leg with our left hand; our right hand still on collar tie. Now, pick up our right knee (the one that is kneeling between their feet) by turning 90 degree into them. If we have strong pressure on the collar tie and continue to turn, the takedown will be completed.

Notes:

• We want to keep breaking their posture, i.e. bend them with our collar tie. The lowemore bend their body is, the easier it is for us to complete the take down. If we allow them to stand straight up, this technique is not as effective.
• If their head is in the pocket of our shoulder, that can prevent us from pushing through the space under their armpit. We should reposition so our head is in their shoulder's pocket, allowing us to push through more easily.

Main topic: Underhook - Overhook Relationship
Important concept: Underhook is more effective when our belly buttons are facing each other. Overhook is more effective when our belly buttons are both facing same direction/the ground.
Half-guard Bottom - Partner Has Underhook Looking to Pass

• Starting position: we are playing bottom half-guard. Again, I'll assume we have our partners' right leg between our legs, and we are laying on our right flank (sorry lefties!!) Our partner finds an underhook on our left arm, and they are looking to pass.
• We need to take control of partner's left wrist with our right arm; otherwise, they can pass easily since they will have control on both sides.
• Axe kick with our left leg to sit up and get on our right palm. Free right leg so we are propped up by our knees and right hand. Now, both our belly button and partner's belly button is facing the ground => it's time to take the overhook! We are now in the dogfight position.
• Push down our left shoulder to smesh :D their face towards the ground. Note: we are not pulling their shoulder up to our armpit; we are pushing them down. Smesh.
• While keeping pressure, extend left leg out front. Then, right leg cross over and take front head lock. Try to position our fore-arms and grips in a way that lock their face, i.e. do not allow our partner to escape to the side.

Note:

• It's not useful to take early overhook, when our belly buttons are still facing each other. Instead, we can use our left arm for something else. For example, if our partner is not passing but pinning us hard (their head is on the underhook side), we can use our left arm and try to push their head towards the other side. Now, we have a bit less weight on our left side and can axe kick to get up.
• We need to keep good pressure when stepping to front and taking front head lock. If we don't, then our partner can shoot forward and perform a double leg takedown.

Half-guard Top - Punishing Bottom Player's Back Take Mistake

• Starting position: we are playing top half-guard (again, right leg in partner's guard). The bottom player finds an underhook in our right armpit, and they now look to take our back.
• As described in previous note, in a proper back take, the bottom player will bump the top player forward. This makes the top player drop both their hands on the mat to support their weight. Now, there is a safe space to go through and back take. However, let's suppose the bottom player makes a mistake and does not do this step, i.e. as a top player, our right arm is not supporting our weight.
• As the bottom player tries to back take with said underhook, there will be that moment where both our belly button and their belly button face the same direction. Time to punish: take that overhook. We are now in a mirror position to the above scenario: we are in the dogfight position with our right arm overhooking.
• Similar to above: push our right shoulder down to smesh, step right leg out front, cross left leg over, take front head lock.

Other examples of the underhook - overhook concept

• We are in half-guard bottom and take underhook. Partner takes overhook while our belly buttons are still facing each other. This is not advantageous for top player, and we can perform a Plan B sweep: We hug them tight to lock their arm, grab their knee with the other arm, and roll.
• We are under partner's side control and try to escape. We bridge and try to wrestle up, but we make the mistake of keeping the underhook when our belly buttons are roughly both facing the ground. Our partner can take an overhook and transfer to front head lock :(