2022 indy 500 entries

9:40AM EST - 9:55AM EST
4.21.2020

 THE MAIN LESSON I LEARNED IN MY TWENTIES WAS SOCIAL DISTANCING. BASICALLY. THEN, AS SOON AS I HIT MY THIRTIES, IN THE 2020'S, BOOM. SOCIAL DISTANCING IS NOW THE NEW NORM RIGHT? THIS IS WHAT THEY ARE SAYING. THEY HAVE BEEN SAYING MANY THINGS FOR DECADES NOW. SEVEN DECADES. IF NOT MORE. BRENDAN ASKED ME TODAY, VIA TEXT MESSAGE, WHAT I PLAN TO DO ABOUT THE MARKETING AND PROMOTION OF THIS ART PORTFOLIO? NOT THINKING ABOUT IT ALL REALLY. IN ALL ACTUALITY. IT WILL SERVE AS NOTHING MORE THAN A SERIOUS ROADBLOCK. AS A CREATIVE ARTIST, MY ONLY JOB IS TO MAKE THE FREE THROW. WHATEVER THE SHOT IS, MAKE IT. THE PROJECT IS THE SHOT. MAKE THE SHOT. ONLY THE SHOT MATTERS. THE SHOT, THE ONLY MATTERING FACTOR. AS AN ARTIST, I ONLY HAVE ONE JOB. MANY RESPONSIBILITIES I MUST HANDLED CONCERNING THE CRAFT. ALL RESPONSIBILITIES ACTUALLY. ANY OTHERS MUST BE DELEGATED TO THOSE ON THE PAYROLL. THE RIDDLE WASN'T HOW I WOULD GO ABOUT THE MARKETING. i WOULD GO ABOUT THE MARKETING BY HIRING MARKETERS. PUT THE SPECIALIST TEAM YOU NEED AROUND YOU ON THE PAYROLL. THIS SIMPLE. AT 25 YEARS OLD I WAS AT SUCH THOUGHT LEVELS. ONCE I WROTE "CFK" I WAS ABLE TO REALIZE I WAS GOING TO HAVE TO FUND THE PROJECTS MYSELF. HENCE THE FINANCIAL WORLD OF INVESTING I NOW FIND MYSELF EXPLORING. I AM SO GRATEFUL I AM STILL ALIVE. I THANK GOD FOR MY LIFE. I DON'T THINK ABOUT THE HOO RAH OF IT ALL. THE FLASHING LIGHTS. THE MEDIA. THE OSCARS. THE HOLLYWOOD WALK OF FAME. I FOUND A WAY TO SKIP THE LIGHTS AND THE MEDIA. STRAIGHT OSCAR STATUETTES AND THE STAR WALK POSITION. 

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7:18 AM EST - 7:54AM EST
THURSDAY APRIL 23RD, 2020
4.23.2020 -
4.24.2020 -
11:23PM EST - 11:55PM EST
FRIDAY APRIL 24TH, 2020
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CHAPTER SEVEN: THE DEPRESS IS MY BEST FRIEND

 I STARTED A NEW FILM SCRIPT YESTERDAY MORNING. "FROM THE GET GO" "NAIJAH FOURLEAF CLOVER" IS THE PEN NAME. THE PEN NAME IS CREATED IN HONOR OF NAIJAH GROVER SR. R.I.P. TO NAIJAH GROVER SR. THIS IS THE BEST I CAN DO. TO HONOR MY FALLEN COMRADES WITH MY ART. GIVING THEIR NAME THE CREDIT. MY NAME NEED NOT BE ON THE BOOK PENNED BY MY OWN. I GAVE AWAY THE CREDIT. THE SPOTLIGHT. I DON'T WANT THE SPOTLIGHT. I WOULD PREFER TO SHADOW OPERATE. THE SHADOW GOVEY DOESN'T REAR IT'S UGLY FACE...SO WHY SHOULD I? THE GOAL IS TO WIN. WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO WIN? CREATE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. CREATE AS MUCH AS YOU CAN FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. SEEK NO SPOTLIGHT. UNDERPLAY ALL ACCOMPLISHMENTS IN ANY SPOTLIGHT. GIVE ALL SPOTLIGHT AWAY. SHARE ALL SPOTLIGHT. TOTALLY IGNORE THE QUESTION YOU CAN'T ANSWER WITH TALK OF SOMEONE DEAR TO YOU. PUT OTHERS ON WITH YOUR SPOTLIGHT. OTHER THAN THAT, DENY EVERYTHING. A MAN LIKE YOU CAN'T GO ON THE BREAKFAST CLUB. IF I GO TO ANGELA YE SHE'S GOING TO LOVE ME. I WILL GO TO INTERVIEWS AS AN ACTOR WITH SCRIPT. I WILL BRING AN ACTOR IN A SUIT, TO PLAY MY LAWYER. EVERY QUESTION I CAN'T ANSWER, I'LL THROW A SIGN. THEN HE WILL WHISPER IN MY EAR. THEN I WILL REPEAT HIS WORDS. "COUNSEL HAS ADVISED I DON'T VERBALLY ENTER SUCH TERRITORY." I ENJOY MY LIFE. I JUST WANT TO KEEP IT SIMPLE. I WAS WILLING TO SACRIFICE ANY SUCCESS FROM THE CRAFT I GAVE MY LIFE TO. I GAVE MY LIFE TO LITERARY HISTORY. I GAVE UP MY PERSONAL LIFE TO ATTAIN INCLUSION. LITERARY HISTORY INCLUSION. I GAVE UP EVERYTHING. I HAVE NOTHING ELSE. I ONLY HAVE TEN THOUSAND FILES. MAYBE 5000 HOURS. YOU CAN'T CONTROL ANOTHER PERSON. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOURSELF. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOUR FOCUS. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOUR ATTENTION. YOU CAN ONLY CONTROL YOUR AMBITION. I CAN CONTROL MY INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY. SPENDING YEARS PUBLISHING BOOKS, I WILL NEVER REGRET. I CAN NOT RISK LOSING MOMENTUM WHILE INSIDE A DOOMED RELATIONSHIP. I AM MORE CURIOUS OF OTHER IDEAS THAN OTHER PEOPLE. I AM A MAN OF IDEAS. I AM DRAWN TO IDEAS. I WANT TO HEAR SOME IDEAS. WE AS PEOPLE ARE IDEA CREATORS. SO IF YOU HAVE NO IDEAS, WHY HAVE A BRAIN? 4.24.2020 - 11:23PM EST - 11:55PM EST THE DEPRESSION IS MY BEST FRIEND. IT IS ALL I HAVE. THE PAIN INSIDE, IS NOT REAL. IT'S REAL. BUT IT'S NOT REAL. IT'S INSIDE. THE INSIDE CREATES THE OUTSIDE. THE OUTSIDE AFFECTS THE INSIDE. THE INSIDE AFFECTS THE OUTSIDE. DO YOU KNOW WHAT I SAY? EXTERNAL EVENTS CAUSE MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL EVENTS. EMOTIONAL THOUGHTS FOCUSED AND DIRECTED, CREATE REALITIES. THE DEPRESSING THOUGHTS ATTACK ME. ONE PERSPECTIVE. PERSPECTIVE NUMBER TWO: THE DEPRESSING THOUGHTS CHASE ME TO THE PATH OF PROLIFIC ART PORTFOLIOS. IT ALL STARTED WITH THE DESIRE FOR THE LEGENDARY ARTISTIC PORTFOLIO. FROM 20 YEARS ON TO NOW. AT 30, THE FIRST PORTFOLIO IS DONE. THE CREATIVE PORTFOLIO IS DONE. THE NEXT PORTFOLIO, PORTFOLIO NUMBER TWO, IS THE NEXT DESIRE. THE ECONOMIC PORTFOLIO. THE NEST EGG. THE FINANCING OF CHADXZAVIERFILMS. DAVIDXCRICHTON PUBLISHING. VANESSA B. STALLONE PRODUCTIONS. CLOVER MEDIA. ROCKMAN INC. THERE WAS NOTHING ELSE TO DO. THE DEPRESSION MADE IT SO EASY. THIS MAKES EVERYTHING SO EASY. I FEEL SO MUCH PAIN, I CAN CREATE MY OWN REALITY. I PAY THE PRICE. EVERY DAY. EVERY SINGLE DAY. THE PAIN KEEPS ME HUMBLE. THE EGO'S AT BAY. THE EGO CAN ONLY THINK. EGO CAN NOT ACT WITHOUT MY PERMISSION. THE DEPRESSIONS MAKE THE EGO LESS APPEALING TO HUMOR. NEVER HUMOR THE EGO. BE AS NICE TO AS MANY PEOPLE AS YOU FUCKING CAN. YOUR LIFE IS ON THE LINE. I AM GLAD I CAN LOOK AT SUCH A THING IN SUCH A WAY. ON SUCH A DAY. IT IS THE FEELING OF FEELINGS YOU WOULDN'T ALWAYS WANT TO ADMIT TO. HOW CAN I BEAR YOU TO CONTINUE TO LOOK AT ME, WHEN I ADMITTED HOW I TRULY FEEL ON THE INSIDE? DID IT AFFECT HOW YOU SEE ME NOW? I'M NOT ASHAMED OF HOW I FEEL BC I FEEL IT. IT'S ALREADY HERE. I AM ASHAMED IT EVEN CAME AT ALL. I AM ASHAMED OF WHAT TRANSPIRED EMOTIONALLY. IN EXCHANGE, MY BUCKET LIST WAS MY LIFE. I LIVED MY BUCKET LIST. I HAVE NO ANGER TOWARDS THE COSMOS. THE UNIVERSE. I AM AN ADMIRAL IN THE UNIVERSAL SPACE NAVY. IT'S JUST A HARD PILL SOMETIMES. I'VE BEEN AT THIS SO LONG, IT IS STARTING TO FEEL LIKE A MOVIE ROLE ITSELF. I AM PLAYING ME. I AM CHASING THIS ONE GOAL. THIS ONE FILM. ALL ABOUT THIS ONE MAN CHASING THIS ONE DREAM, IS IN ONE FILM. WHAT GENRE? DRAMEDY. YOU FEEL SO NOT APPRECIATED IN YOUR PERSONAL LIFE. YOUR FAMILY LIFE. BEING 30. NO CREATED FAMILY OF YOUR OWN. YOU CAN LNLY SEEK APPRECIATION FROM YOUR EFFORTS IN YOUR CHOSEN INDUSTRY. I FEEL AS IF I CHOSE WRITING AND FILMMAKING. I CHOSE FILMMAKING. NOVELIST. FILM EDITING. DIRECTING. SCREEN WRITE. I WAS CHOSEN TO WRITE. I CHOSE THE FILM DIRECTION. PUNNING? PUNNING! I WAS THE BORN WRITER. MAYBE BORN FILMMAKER I DO NOT KNOW. I CHOSE FILMMAKING MYSELF. MAYBE IT WAS CHOSEN FOR ME TO CHOOSE IT. I APPRECIATE MY LIFE. THIS FILM ENTRY, SYRACUSE FILM FESTIVAL 2020 ENTRY, THE FIRST EVER FESTIVAL ENTRY. I HAVE MADE NO ACTS TO GET A DEAL. SPIRITUALLY I CAN ACCEPT NEVER SEEING RESULTS FROM THE INDUSTRY ITSELF. THE INDUSTRY CHOSEN FOR ME IS RUN BY THE DEVIL AND I AM A MAN OF GOD SO I HAD TO LET GO THE DESIRE FOR NOTICE. NO NOTICE. JUST ACTION. NO FLASHING LIGHTS. JUST TYPING A NEW BOOK FROM SCRATCH IN THE KITCHEN. SCRATCHING THE KITCHEN. CHICKEN SCRATCH IN THE KITCHEN. 

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1:29AM EST - 1:52AM
5.1.2020
FRIDAY MAY 1ST, 2020
CHAPTER EIGHT: MY BEST FRIEND INDEED

 ALL I THINK ABOUT IS WORKING ON MY CRAFT. THE ONLY THOUGHT PRE DOMINANT WITHIN IS WORKING ON THE CRAFT. ENDLESSLY BEATING ON THE CRAFT. WRITING AND PUBLISHING AS MANY NOVELS AS I CAN PER YEAR. RECORDING AS MANY AUDIO FILES IMPROMPTU AS I CAN. READING AS MANY PROFESSIONAL HOLLYWOOD CLASSIC SCRIPTS ON TAPE AS I CAN PER YEAR. READING SHAKESPEARE ON TAPE. EDITING VIDEOS FOR MY TWO YOUTUBE CHANNELS. INVESTING $10 IN FOREX AND TRADING IT TO $1000 PER WEEK. INVESTING $1000 PER WEEK OR MONTH IN STOCKS AND CRYPTO. INVESTING IN REAL ESTATE WITH THE FOREIGN CURRENCY TRADING PROFITS. RESEARCHING FINANCE IS WHAT I THINK ABOUT AND DESIRE. WRITING NOVELS FROM THE RESEARCH ON FINANCE IS WHAT I WORK TOWARDS. WRITING HELPFUL MATERIAL AND PUBLISHING IT FOR POSTERITY AND LONGEVITY IS WHAT I DESIRE. WHAT I PURSUE? LITERARY HISTORY. A CINEMATIC LEGEND IN THE LITERATURE AND CINEMA INDUSTRY. I PUT ALL OF MY EFFORT IN MY SPARE TIME INTO THESE EFFORTS. THESE PROJECTS. THIS FILE CREATION PROCESS. THE DOCUMENTATION OF MY ADULT LIFE. MY PERSONAL TIME DIARIES. MY TIME CAPSULE LEFT TO THE WORLD TO WATCH ONE DAY. I USE THIS PROCESS TO SPEND MY TIME. TO INVEST ALL OF MY SPARE TIME INTO THE ACCELERATION OF THE MY SKILL SET. TO BEAT ON THE CRAFT. THE ART FORM. CINEMA AND LITERATURE. TWO CONNECTED INDUSTRIES. TWO CHALLENGES TO CONQUER. USING LITERATURE TO SOLIDIFY THE ENTRY ONE DAY INTO HOLLYWOOD. MY TEN YEAR OLD VIDEO FILE COLLECTION SHOWS MY DOCUMENTATION AND EDITING SKILLS. THE ABILITY TO CAPTURE INTERESTING FOOTAGE AND EDIT IT. THE PROCESS OF CREATING CONCEPTS FOR SKITS ND EPISODES OF NEW SERIES CREATED. THE FIVE YEAR DAVID X. CRICHTON LITERARY PORTFOLIO SHOWS THE ABILITY TO WRITE A PROFESSIONAL NOVEL AND FILM SCRIPT. THE FIVE YEAR AUDIO FILE AND AUDIO BOOK COLLECTION SHOWS THE IMPROMPTU SKILLS. FREESTYLING FILM SCRIPTS, IN FORMAT, ON AUDIO. FREESTYLING NOVELS, IN FORMAT, ON AUDIO. ON THE INSIDE, I AM JUST BROKEN INSIDE. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING TO KEEP THE DEPRESSION AT BAY BUT TO RELEASE ALL FRUSTRATION THRU THE PROCESS OF CONSTANT CREATION. NON STOP. TO PUNISH THE PAIN. TO PUNISH THE EGO. I SIT IN ONE SPOT AND FOCUS. I SHOW MY MIND WHO IS IN CHARGE. I HAVE TO STOP NOW TO SHOWER AND GET MY CLOTHES FROM THE DRYER DOWNSTAIRS. I HAVE TO WORK OVERTIME TOMORROW, CLOCKING IN EARLY. I HAVE TO WRAP THE CREATIVE SESSION UP EARLY TONIGHT. JUST THINKING ABOUT NOT CREATING FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT MAKES ME SAD. I HAVE TO FACE THE SADNESS WHEN I AM NOT CREATING. CREATING IS MY WAY OF FIGHTING BACK. I'LL BE BACK. THANK YOU ALL FOR MAKING IT THIS FAR IN THE PUBLICATION. 

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5.2.2020
MAY 2ND, 2020
5.3. 2020
SUNDAY MAY 3RD, 2020
8:28AM EST - 9:12AM EST
TUESDAY MAY 5TH, 2020
5.5.2020
CINCO DE MAYO
1:51AM EST - 2:39AM EST
9:09PM EST - 9:41PM EST
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CHAPTER NINE: SKIDLY DO

I HAVE GIVEN MY CHILDHOOD INTEREST, TO MY ADULTHOOD. THIS DOCUMENTARY IS A TIMESTAMP OF MY ADULTHOOD. MY TWENTIES. TWO YEARS FROM 2011 TO 2013, THIS ENTRY WON'T HAVE THAT FOOTAGE. FROM 2013 FOOTAGE ON I AM USING. TODAY IS SUNDAY. THE FOREX MARKET OPENS TODAY. 6PM. UNTIL FRIDAY AT 5PM. 120 HOURS. THREE TRADES ON THE LINE. THE MONEY LINE. GREAT BRITISH POUND U.S. DOLLAR. BUY. 24990. IN ONE ACCOUNT. THE OTHER ACCOUNT. TWO TRADES. BUY. AUDNZD. FOREIGN ON FOREIGN. EXOTICS. BUY ALL WEEK FROM HERE. SELL AT 500 POINTS OVER THE NEXT ZERO POINT UP. GBPUSD SELL UNTIL THE CURRENT ZERO POINT. 25. SELL TO 26 ZERO POINT. SELL AT 26900 TO 26150. SELL AT 27 ZERO POINT. AUDNZD. MUCH SIMPLER. BUY ALL WEEK. SELL AT 500 OVER NEXT ZERO POINT. UNTIL CURRENT ZERO POINT. WEEK OVER. BASED ON NOTES. THE DEADLINE FOR THIS ENTRY IS JUNE 2020. THE TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF TRADING CURRENCY. IN 2013, I PURCHASED FOR $88 A PIECE, THREE BTC. BITCOINS. I SOLD TOO EARLY. IMMEDIATELY. IN 2015, AFTER WRITING "CFK 1-6" I REALIZED I HAD TO FUND MY ART MYSELF. I DID NOT WANT TO RELY ON THE ART I CREATED FOR SUSTAINING A LIVING. I WANTED SUCH A FACTOR OUT OF THE EQUATION. I WOULD PREFER RATHER. INVESTING MONEY INTO THE ART INSTEAD. THE MONEY FROM THE BOOKS? INVEST IT. STOCKS. REAL ESTATE. BONDS. ASSETS. DIGITAL ASSETS. GIVE HALF OF THE PROFITS AWAY. TO PEOPLE WAY LESS MATERIALLY ABUNDANT. (TUESDAY 5.5.2020 CINCO DE MAYO 1:51AM EST - 2:39AM EST) CHAPTER NINE. HALFWAY THRU THIS PUBLICATION. VOLUME THREE. MONEY PROBLEMS. HONEY MONEY PROBLEMS. THE CHADFILMS ORIGIN STORY/ THE SYRACUSE FILM FESTIVAL ENTRY. 2020. AUDIO NARRATION. THIS IS NEARING THE END. THE BOOK CONTINUES. FOR ANOTHER TEN CHAPTERS MINUMUM. 15 CHAPTERS MAX. THE FESTIVAL ENTRY. THE DOCUMENTARY. CONTAINS THIRTY MINUTES OF FOOTAGE USING ON SCREEN AUDIO. THIS IS MY FIRST FILM FESTIVAL ENTRY. EVER. I WANT TO SUBMIT THIS, FOR MY OWN GRATIFICATION. FOR ME TO BE AT PEACE KNOWING I FINALLY SUBMITTED A CREATION. I'VE BEEN IN THE CREATIVE DUNGEON FOR A DECADE. IT'S BEAUTIFUL. CLEVERLAND IS A REAL PLACE. YOU CAN ONLY GET THERE ONE WAY. THRU YOUR MIND. THERE'S A THRESHOLD OF CREATIVITY WITHIN YOU. WHEN YOU BREACH THIS LINE, YOU ACCESS CLEVERLAND. BREACH THE LINE OF COURSE. TEACH THE FINER COURSE. IN 2015 I BREACHED THE LINE. THE COMMERCIAL PUBLICATIONS HAVE BEEN POURING OUT SINCE. SYRACUSE HAD A FILM FESTIVAL WHILE I WAS LIVING THERE. I ENTERED THE FESTIVAL. I LOOK FORWARD TO WATCHING MY ENTRY INITIALLY. R.I.P. TO FLIGHT KOBE. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD I AM STILL ALIVE. I GAVE MY LIFE TO MY GOD GIVEN TALENTS. THE PURSUIT OF THE GIFTS. I'VE BEEN AN ARTIST STARVING FOR ONE DECADE. HALF A DECADE MORE AND I'M THE OVERNIGHT SUCCESS STORY. OVERNIGHT MY GRASS. 

(9:09PM EST - 9:41PM EST)

 HERE IS WHERE THE WRITING ITINERARY IS GOING. THIS IS VOLUME THREE OF HONEY MONEY PROBLEMS. THE VANESSA BUNNI STALLONE PEN NAME. THE VANESSA STALLONE PORTFOLIO. HER CATALOGUE. THE DEBUT PROJECT. THIS PROJECT. HER DEBUT. THE NAIJAH CLOVER AND JOSH ROCKMAN DEBUTS ARE NEXT. I WILL WRITE BACK AND FORTH FOR EACH CATALOGUE. FOR EACH PEN NAME. I WILL PUBLISH THE ANNUAL COLLECTIONS UNDER A COMBINED AND CREATED PEN NAME. CLOVER S. ROCKMAN. CLOVER STALLONE. THE 2020 COLLECTION ISN'T DAVID CRICHTON'S AT ALL. DAVID CRICHTON IS OFFICIALLY RETIRED. I GAVE AWAY DEBUTS FOR STALLONE TO CRICHTON. OR I LET CRICHTON KEEP THOSE IDEAS. FROM 2017 ON I WAS PREPARING TO RETIRE CRICHTON. THE TIME WAS JUST TAKING IT'S TIME PASSING. I FEEL AS IF THE DXC PORTFOLIO IS HALL OF FAME BOUND. I'M UTTERLY REASSURED ABOUT IT. EVERY PUBLICATION UP TO THIS ONE WAS DAVID CRICHTON. NOW VANESSA STALLONE HAS HER TURN. CLOVER ROCKMAN IS NEXT. NAIJAH CLOVER AND JOSH D. ROCKMAN ARE THE NEXT PEN NAMES. THE LITERARY DIRECTION. I DON'T LIKE DRAMA. I WRITE DRAMA. A GOTHIC LITERATURE PIECE IS NEXT. DAVID CRICHTON HAS A FILM SCRIPT "GOYLE". GOTHIC LITERATURE INSPIRED. AN IDEA GIVEN TO ME FROM A FRIEND TO SEE WHAT SPIN I PUT ON IT. I WAS RESEARCHING GOTHIC LITERATURE AROUND THE TIME. RECENTLY I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT IT AGAIN. I WANT TO WRITE SOMETHING WITH DESCRIPTIVE DETAILS. NOT JUST FIRST PERSON DIARY ENTRY PERSPECTIVE ANYMORE. THAT'S DAVID CRICHTON. NOW, LET US GO FOR SECOND AND THIRD PERSON PERSPECTIVE. BEING DESCRIPTIVE USING ANALOGIES. THE LITERARY ELEMENTS AND DEVICES. THE POETIC ELEMENTS AND DEVICES. A LIST OF ADJECTIVES. I WILL CREATE MY OWN BOOK OF PROMPTS TO USE TO CREATE MY NEXT PUBLICATIONS. THE DAVID CRICHTON FORMULA, IS ABOUT TO BE PUBLISHED IN ITSELF. 

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CHAPTER TEN: EXTREMELY
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11:19PM EST - 12:02AM EST
TUESDAY MAY 5TH, 2020
5.5.2020 -
WEDNESDAY MAY 6TH, 2020
5.6.2020
10:37PM EST -
SATURDAY MAY 9TH, 2020
5.9.2020
"NEEDS MORE DRAGONS"
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: THE INTRODUCTION
HE WOKE UP IN THE CASTLE. DAY 30. THE SAME CASTLE. PECULIAR IN IT'S SMELL. FAMILIAR IN THE TASTE OF FOOD. THE BEDS. CHANGE. THE ROOMS CHANGE. THE WOOD SMELLED OF PAINT. FRESH PAINT. PAINTED RIGHT BEFORE HE WAS BROUGHT HERE. THE CASTLE ON THE ISLAND. HIT BY HURRICANES THRU THE NIGHT. TORNADOS DURING THE DAY. OUTSIDE OF THE CASTLES. THE FIELD. DON'T GO INTO THE FIELD. GHOSTS FLOAT ABOVE THE GROUND. THE BODIES OF THE GHOSTED, LITTERED INDISCRIMINATELY ALONG THE DUSTY LAWN. DRAGON BREATH. SCORCHED SALIVA. THE SMELL OF SUCH SEEPS THRU THE SPACED BARS. HE RARELY EVER GOES TO THE WINDOW SPACE. THE BARS. THERE ARE SCREAMS FROM THE OUTSIDE. A QUARTER OF THE TIME. THERE ARE SCREAMS FROM THE INSIDE OF THE CASTLE. HALF OF THE TIME. THE ROOM IS ONLY EVER WARM, FROM THE DRAGON BREATH. BOGS. THE ENVIRONMENTS CHANGE INBETWEEN SLEEPING. HE HAS BEGAN TO GET USED TO THESE THINGS. HE WAS USED TO ISOLATION. NE'ER THIS MUCH ISOLATION. NEVERTHELESS, HE IS IN MORE ISOLATION THAN ANYONE OUTSIDE OF OUR BOUNDARIES. I WATCH HIM ALL DAY. I AM PAID, TO WATCH HIM, DAILY. I AM PAID, TO SEE HIM THRU TO THE DAY, FOR WHICH HE WAS BROUGHT HERE FOR.

 DAY ONE: THE DOOR WAS OPENED LOUDLY. WITH NO REMORSE. THE BANG ECHOED. BY THE TIME THE RINGING STOPPED. HE WAS THROWN ONTO THE FLOOR. I DON'T KNOW WHO DID IT. I ONLY SAW HIM START TO GET UP. HE WIGGLED. THE CHAIN WAS ATTACHED TO HIS FOOT. THE RIGHT ANKLE. WITH A CUSHION. THE CHAIN LENGTH LONG ENOUGH TO LEAVE THE ROOM. HE DID NOT FOLLOW THE GUARDS BACK OUT OF THE ROOM AFTER THEY HAD LEFT. 

(5.9.2020 10:37PM EST- 10:47PM EST)

 HE HIT THE GROUND SO HARD, HE TOOK A NAP. A THIRTY MINUTE NAP. HE AWOKE. TO A FIGURE. IN THE SHADOWS. OF THE DEEPEST CORNER, OF HIS ROOM. HIS ROOM WAS VAST. HE NOTICED. AS HE LOOKED AROUND. OBSERVING. WHAT HIS NEW HOME HAD TO OFFER. WITNESSING THE SPLENDORS. OF THE CASTLE. WHATEVER THEY WERE. SO FAR. THE FIGURE APPROACHED FROM THE SHADOWS. HE EXTENDED HIS ARM TO BRUTUS. "I'M DRACO." BRUTUS (OFF SCREEN) 

DRACO TOLD ME. THE TRUTH. HE WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME. HE WILL ALWAYS FEAST UPON MY GREATEST FEARS. MY GREATEST INHIBITIONS. HE WOULD ALWAYS EXPLOIT THEM. TO HIS FULLEST ADVANTAGE. THE VAMPIRIC PSYCHIC OPERATIVE. DRACULA. THE PSYCHIC VAMPIRE. MORE LIKE CALIGULA. IN THE FEELING. HE ADMITTED. HE IS HERE TO STAY. THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO TO RID MYSELF OF HIS PRESENCE. HE HAS BEEN AROUND ME ALREADY. FOR THE LAST TWELVE YEARS. HE HAS JUST BEEN UNCOVERED BY THE PYSCHE ITSELF, AFTER A 12 YEAR PERIOD OF SNUGGLING COMFORTABLY, INSIDE MY HEAD. HE AIMS TO DESTROY ME FROM THE INSIDE OUT.

BRUTUS WALKED TO THE WINDOW SPACE. THE WINDOW SPACE FILLED WITH BARS. HE STARED OUT THERE. CONTEMPLATING. ON THE WORDS. HE NOTICED FOG FEVERISHLY FLEEING THE FORTRESS. TURNING AROUND TO BURNING. NO SMOKE. NO JOKE. THE DRACULA BLOKE. SLIPPED AWAY ALMOST SILENTLY. EGG YOLK. 

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9:21PM EST - 9:58PM EST
WEDNESDAY MAY 6TH, 2020
5.6.2020
10:50PM EST - 11:15PM EST
SATURDAY MAY 9TH, 2020
5.9.2020
SOUTHERN GOTH
SOUTHERN CLOTH
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THEY ALL SAT IN THE LIVING ROOM. THE PLUSH, LIVING ROOM. THE WAR. THE WAR HAD JUST ENDED. OUR LABOR FORCE IS GONE. OUR LABORERS. OUR LABORERS ARE GONE. "THIS HAS BEEN THE WORST DECADE. FOR ME. FOR US. MY FAMILY. REPAIRING DESTRUCTION WITHOUT OUR PROPERTY". THE FAMILY. ENTERS THE LIVING ROOM. LILY LIVIDLY LENDED HER LIKENESS. THE SHADES WERE SHAFTED. RETRACTED. WITH REAL TACT. THEY WERE DISTRACTING. WE ALL STOOD IN THE CENTER. OVER THE CARPET. PERSIAN.
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 LILY MAY. MARY TONNIE. SUSIE DEAN. LULA MAE. ANNE MIG. CONNIE. ALL SITTING IN THE LIVING ROOM. THE SHADES DRAWN. DARKNESS LAYING DEEP WITHIN THE LAIR. THE LAYERS OF TRUTH. EMANATING. FROM THE MOUTH OF CAESAR. CEASAR. KAISER. RICE. "THE SOUTH LOST THE WAR." LULA MAE - "THE SOUTH LOST THE BATTLE." CEASAR - "THE SOUTH LOST THE ENTIRE WAR, WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? THEY SURRENDERED." LULA MAE STANDS UP. SWISHING THE BEVERAGE AROUND WITHIN THE CUP. SMELLS THE DRINK. LOOKS UP AT CEASAR. SMILING. "THE ENTIRE WAR YOU SPEAK OF, IS A MERE BATTLE IN THE ONGOING WAR." CEASAR. "YOU MEAN THE WAR THAT WILL NEVER END?" LULA MAE. "EXACTLY. THE NEVER ENDING WAR." LILY MAY. "SO IF THE WAR ENDED AND OUR SIDE SURRENDERED, WE, CONTINUING THE WAR EFFORTS IN A NEW WAR, WOULD HAVE TO BE DOING SO IN A WAR OF SECRET MISSIONS?" ANNE MIG. LOOKS AT LILY MAY. LOOKS BACK TO LULA MAE AND CEASAR RICE. "SO WHAT IS THE NEXT MISSION?" (5.9.2020 10:51PM EST - 11:15PM EST) CONNIE STOOD UP. "THE ONLY THING THAT WILL SEE US THRU THIS, IS TO REALIZE. TO REALIZE ONE THING. ONE THING ONLY. WE DID NOT LOSE THE WAR. OUR ALLEGIANTS. OUR ALLIES. OUR SOUTHERN REBELS. DIED AS FIGHTERS. SOLDIERS. FIGHTING ON THE FRONTLINES. OF AMERICA. OUR PRECIOUS AMERICA. NOW IN OUR OWN PRECIOUS LAND, WE ARE THE REBELS. THIS I CAN NOT TAKE. THIS I WILL NOT STAND FOR. NOTHING OF THIS SORT WAS EVER MEANT TO HAPPEN. THE PREVIOUS GENERATION OF ALLIES DIED AS SOLDIERS. THE WAR WAS FOUGHT IN OPEN WAR FARE. ACTUAL WARFARE WAS NEFARIOUSLY DECLARED. THE NEXT BATTLES. WILL NOT BE FOUGHT IN OPEN FIELDS. THEY WILL BE FOUGHT IN OPEN COURT. IN OPEN SESSIONS OF CONGRESS. THE SENATE. THE GOVERNORSHIP. THE LEGAL SYSTEM. WE WILL CONTROL THE HANDCUFFS. WE CONTROL THE BADGES. WE WILL CONTROL THE WEAPONS. THE FIREARMS. THE TASERS. THE BILLY CLUBS. THE STARS ON THE BADGE WILL NOT CHANGE. ONLY THE WORDS WILL. TO 'PROTECT AND SERVE THE PLANTATION'. EXTRACT THE WORD 'PLANTATION'. 'THE SLAVE PATROL BADGE' FOR THE 'SHERIFF'S BADGE'. WE WILL WIN THE WAR. THERE WAS A NEW LAW PASSED. PREVENTING CITIZENS FROM SLAVERY. UNDER ONE CONDITION. WE SHALL EXPLOIT THIS CONDITION. WE WON'T SEE OUR PLAN MANIFEST IN FULL. BY THE END OF THE DAY. WE WILL GET OUR SLAVES BACK. WE WILL ENSLAVE THE ENTIRE NATION. THE SAME NIGGERLOVERS. WE WILL ENSLAVE THEIR ENTIRE FAMILY. IT WILL TAKE SOME TIME. JUST TO FIGURE OUT THE POLICY. IN FULL. THE MASTER POLICY. 'MASTER POLICY?' THE RE ENSLAVEMENT POLICY. WE WILL CREATE JAILS. PRISONS. THREATEN THE VOTE GETTERS TO GET THE CRIME RIDDEN NEGROES OUT OF OUR STREETS. WE WILL INCARCERATE THEM. THEY WILL ROT IN PRISON CELLS. ALL ACROSS AMERICA. WE WILL PURCHASE PRISONS. JAILS. WE SHALL OWN THEM ALL. ONE PRISON EVERY THOUSAND MILES. UNTIL WE CAN DO BETTER. WE WILL WIN THE SHERIFF'S RACE. THE ELECTIONS. WE WILL WIN THEM ALL. DEMOCRATS. REPUBLICANS. MANDATORY MINIMUM SENTENCES. FOR REPEAT OFFENDERS. OF CRIMES FOR MONEY. FILL THE POPULATION AREAS WITH CRIME. SO MUCH CRIME THE HOUSE VALUES PLUMMET. GET THEM ON THE STREETS. THEM PUT THEM IN THE PRISONS. OWN THE PRISONS. GET MORE INVESTORS TO BUILD MORE PRISONS. SHARE THE PROFITS TO INVESTORS. ALL OF THE LEGITIMATE NEGROES. WE NEED TO MAKE THE DOLLARS WORTHLESS. SOME HOW AND SOME WAY. WE WILL DETACH THE GOLD FROM THE DOLLAR. AND STEAL ALL OF THE GOLD. HIDE THE GOLD IN A BUILDING. HUNDREDS OF YEARS LATER. THEN BLOW UP THE BUILDING DECADES LATER. THEY ALL STARTED LAUGHING. HILARIOUS HILARITY WAS NO SCARCITY. THE WINTER CHILL FILLS THE ROOM. WITH GLOOM AND DOOM. THE FOG OF THE VISION. SUCH A CLEAR VISION. BUT A CLEAR VISION HEADING FOR DISASTER. WHY BE SO VAMPIRIC? 

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8:19AM EST - 8:45AM EST
MAY 17TH, 2020
5.17.2020
SHORT STORY
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THE INTRODUCTION: BAD HABIT MONEY

 WHAT YOU MAY NOT REALIZE UNTIL AGE THIRTY? YOU SQUANDERED YOUR YOUNG ADULT INCOME, YOUR CHANCE FOR WEALTH CREATION, ON HABITS. ROUTINES. BAD HABITS. BAD ROUTINES. BEER, TOBACCO, MARIJUANA, BEING A PILL POPPING ANIMAL, ALL HAVE SIDE EFFECTS. ADVERSE EFFECTS. FINANCIAL SIDE EFFECTS. FINANCIALLY ADVERSE BEHAVIOR. EVERY DOLLAR SPENT ON A PACK OF RELLOS. EVERY SINGLE DOLLAR SPENT NOT ON RENT OR FOOD IS A WASTE. A TERRIBLE. THE WORST KIND OF WASTE. HORRIBLE TASTING WASTE. HORRIBLY TASTY. TERRIBLY HORRIBLE. YOU'RE GOING TO WASTE EVERY DOLLAR YOU EARN ON BULL SPIT AND FUN. THE DOLLAR IS A GAME. A SICK GAME. ACQUISITION AND INFLATION. PURSUING THE OPPORTUNITY TO ACQUIRE SOMETHING THAT IS IN FACT INFLATING, BY NATURE. BY DESIGN. NATURAL PHENOMENA MY GRASS. PHENOMENA BY DESIGN. FRED HAMPTON. YOU WERE NEVER FORGOTTEN. WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW AT TWENTY, EIGHT TEEN, NINE TEEN, YOUR YOUTHFUL PRIME, WAS THE TIME PERIOD TO ESTABLISH THE FOUNDATIONAL SEEDS OF GENERATIONAL WEALTH. AT TWENTY, RIGHT OVER YOUR HEAD. IT IS SO SAD TO ME, I DO NOT EVEN WANT TO KEEP WRITING ABOUT THIS. YOU'RE NOT GOING TO LISTEN. IF YOU ARE OVER 25, YOU ARE AT THE PRE FORK IN THE ROAD. THE FORK IN THE ROAD IS AGE THIRTY. IF YOU CAN BEND THE FORK PROPERLY DIRECTED BY AGE 25, YOU ARE AHEAD BY SO MANY YEARS IN THE TIMELINE. IT IS ALWAYS CHESS OVER CHECKERS. I LOVE CHECKERS. WITH CHESS HOWEVER, HE WHO CONTROLS THE MIDDLE FOUR SQUARES, CONTROLS THE GAME. FRESH OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL, YOU'RE MORE THAN LIKELY DESTINED TO MAKE DAM NEAR EVERY MISTAKE IN THE BOOK TWICE. THAT'S A BACK TO BACK REPEAT. THE NATIONAL CHAMPIONAHIP. THE NATIONAL DONKEY OF THE YEAR CHAMPIONSHIP. IT IS SIMPLE. REAL SIMPLE. REALLY SIMPLE. EXTREMELY SO. IF SOMEONE WANTS SOMETHING FROM LIFE, THEY WON'T SEEK ANYTHING ELSE. WHATEVER YOU SEEK, YOU SHALL FIND. I GET IT NOW. YOU WILL BE SHOWN BY LIFE, FROM EXPERIENCES, MEMORIES, MOMENTS, EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE IN FACT LOOKING FOR. IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT INFORMATION IF OFFERED TO YOU, IF YOU'RE NOT LOOKING FOR THAT, YOU WON'T EVEN REGISTER THE OPTICALS. THE OPTICS. YOU WILL NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING AT. IT WILL BE AS IF YOU CAN'T EVEN READ THE LANGUAGE BUT YOU'LL SWEAR THE EXPERT. I GET IT NOW. THE ONLY PERSON YOU NEED TO HELP YOU SUCCEED, IS YOURSELF. IF YOU DESIRE SUCCESS FROM YOUR LIFE, YOU WON'T DESIRE A DAM THING ELSE. NOT ONE OTHER CIRCUMSTANCE. YOU DESERVE WHATEVER YOU PURSUE. IF YOU PURSUE NOTHING ELSE THEN DOUBLY SO YOU DESERVE IT. BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU PURSUE. MAK SURE IT IS REALLY IN TRUTH WHAT YOU WANT. WHEN YOU'RE READY FOR WHAT I CAN OFFER YOU IN THOUGHTS, THIS BOOK WILL APPEAR. IF YOU FIND THIS BOOK, YOU WILL CHERISH THE DAY. THIS BOOK IS AIMED TO BE THE MOST INFLUENTIAL STRATEGY GUIDE YOU EVER IMPLEMENTED ECONOMICALLY. EVERYONE STARTS AT THE BOTTOM ECONOMICALLY. IF YOU CAN REMAIN DEPENDENT FREE WITH NO ATTACHED BODIES TO YOU, YOU CAN RISE HIGHER AND FASTER OUT OF THE ECONOMIC PIT OF FINANCIALLY DECREPIT NESS. 

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THURSDAY APRIL 22ND, 2020
4.2.2020
"HONEY MONEY PROBLEMS"
V.B. STALLONE
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DEAR HONEY: THE INTRODUCTION; VOLUME THREE

DEAR HONEY DEAR HONEY, THIS IS VOLUME THREE. IN ITS ENTIRETY. I ADMIRINGLY, WHILE ADMIRING, THE PERSON YOU WERE, BECOME THE PERSON I AM. WE WILL FOREVER BE FRIENDS. AFTER THE END. WE WILL FOREVER BE BEAUTIFUL. APART. FROM THE START OR TOGETHER. I REALIZED MY EMOTIONS WERE SEVERED, FOR ME TO BE THE PROGRESSOR. OF BETTER TIMES FOR THE HUMAN RACE. NOT THE AGGRESSOR. IN VIOLENCE. THE AGGRESSOR IN SILENCE. STAYING SILENT, THINKING TO MYSELF. I MISS YOU HONEY. I MISS THE FUNNY MOMENTS WE SHARED. YOU KNEW I CARED. NOW YOU KNOW I CARED. THIS BOOK IS FOR YOU. WRITTEN UNDER YOUR PEN NAME. WE CREATED IN YOUR MEMORY. WE APPRECIATE YOU SO MUCH. IF THERE'S NO RUSH, THERE IS NO TIME TO SPARE. I HUSH, TO TAKE ME THERE. I WANT TO TAKE YOU INTO LITERARY AND CINEMATIC HISTORY HONEY. NO MYSTERY HONEY. I AM WRITING POEMS IN PROSE. FROM POEMS TO PROSE WE ROSE. FROM PROSE TO POEMS WITH COZE WE COAST. FINANCIAL LITERACY. IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO STUDY. THE ONE THING WE NEVER FOUND OUT. WE WERE CLOSE. WE WERE PUSRUING IT. IN A DOSE. IN DOSES. WE REALLY DOZED THOUGH. WE REALLY DIDN'T KNOW THOUGH. CERTAIN TERMS. WE WERE LEARNING IT. EARNING IT. I MUST GIVE US CREDIT. WE WERE RIGHT THERE. WE JUST DIDN'T LET IT. OVER TAKE US IMMEDIATELY. TO WHERE WE IMMEDIATELY. WERE LITERALLY. RESEARCHING. FINANCIAL LITERACY. SO NOW. AFTER DOING SO SOLO. I THINK OF YOU AND REMEMBER YOLO. SO I WROTE THIS FOR US DOLO. HONEY YOU AND I. STARTED ANOTHER GLOBAL ECONOMIC REVOLUTION. YOU WANTED TO BE AN ACTRESS. ONE DAY. ACTORS. ACTRESSES. WILL ACT THIS. THEY WILL TURN THESE WORDS INTO MOVIES HONEY. GROOVY. I ONLY FILMED FOR FILMING SOOTHED ME. SOOTHING. IN THE MOST. SOOTHINGLY MANNER. NERDS INTO NEW TEES. I STAY SO BUSY HONEY. I GET CONFUSED. WONDERING DID I WORK ENOUGH? SO I GIVE ALL OF MY SPARE TIME TO IT. SO THE ANSWER WILL ALWAYS BE NO. SO ALL OF THE SPARE TIME WILL BE DEDICATED TO IT. TIME TO EAT FOR A BIT. RESEARCH SOMETHING. THEN COME BACK AND FINISH WRITING THIS NEW VOLUME. THE CHAD FILMS STORY. THE SYRACUSE FILM FESTIVAL IS IN OCTOBER. THE THIRD WEEK. LIFE IS STILL WEIRD HONEY. AS MUCH AS I CAN ACCOMPLISH. YOUR NAME WILL BE RIGHT THERE WITH ME. ANYTHING BENEFICIAL TO THE HUMAN RACE. I WILL ATTACH YOUR NAMES. NAIJAH GROVER, VANESSA HONEY MALONE, JOSH D. HUTCHINSON. 

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4.3.2020
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CHAPTER ONE: THE CHAD FILM.

DEAR SYRACUSE, NEW YORK, MY NAME IS CHAD XZAVIER HARRIS. I AM THIRTY YEARS OLD. I WAS BORN IN MIAMI, FLORIDA ON DECEMBER 29TH 1989. I AM THE YOUNGEST OF THREE BOYS. MY FATHER HAD A SON BEFORE HE HAD ONE WITH MY MOTHER. DAVID HARRIS AND SUZANNE HARRIS. MY PARENTS. DAVID HARRIS JR. QUENTIN HARRIS SR. JUSTIN HARRIS. MY BROTHERS. I HAVE NO SISTERS. SHAKEVIA KANAIJAH, DANTE DONOVAN, SHYANNE, QUENTIN JR., MALIAH SONAE, QUAN, ATIYANNA. MY NIECES AND NEPHEWS. I'VE SEEN ATIYANNA ONCE. SHE WAS ALMOST TWO. HAVING A TWO YEAR OLD NIECE WHO I'VE SEEN ONCE SHOWS ME NOW, I AM THE MAVERICK OF THE FAMILY. I RESERVED MYSELF FOR MY FIRST ADULT DECADE. I BEAT AT MY CRAFT. I WORKED AN HONEST JOB TO SUPPORT MYSELF. I USED ALL OF MY SPARE TIME, HONING THE SKILLSET. MY PARENTS DIVORCED. I WAS SEVEN. JUSTIN IS FOUR YEARS OLDER. QUE IS THREE YEARS OLDER THAN JUSTIN. DAVID IS AROUND THREE YEARS OLDER THAN QUE. MY MATERNAL GRANDMOTHER. THELMA LEE WASHINGTON. PASSED AWAY WHEN I WAS SEVEN. JOSIE REE HARRIS. THE PATERNAL GRANDMOTHER. PASSED AWAY WHEN I WAS EIGHT. I'VE ALWAYS HAD AN AFFINITY AND AFFECTION TOWARDS AND FOR OTHER PEOPLE'S GRANDMOTHERS. I ALWAYS WONDERED IF THOSE WITH GRANDMOTHERS, APPRECIATED IT. FOR THE MOST PART, ANYONE OLDER DOES FROM WHAT I CAN SEE. I MOSTLY JUST WONDER WHEN IT COMES TO YOUNGER PEOPLE. CLOSER TO THE AGE I WAS. ALL OF THAT AT ONCE MADE ME FEEL VERY VULNERABLE. I BELIEVE MY MOTHER WAS THE FIRST DIVORCE OF HER SIBLINGS. THAT TIME BELONGED TO US. IT WAS THEN WHEN THE FEELINGS OF NEGLECT, ABANDONMENT AND NOT FEELING APPRECIATED AND WANTED GREW AND GREW. THEY NEVER STOPPED GROWING. THE FAMILY HISTORY JUST PROVIDED MORE AND MORE INCIDENTS OF THE HARMFUL VARIETY. OF A HARMFUL NATURE. IT SHOULD HAVE NEVER BEEN THOUGHT, I WOULD STICK AROUND SOMEWHERE I WASN'T WANTED. AS I BEGAN TO STUDY BIOGRAPHY AND THE HISTORY OF AMERICAN POLITICS, POP CULTURE, SPORTS, ART AND MEDIA, ALONG WITH ANYTHING ELSE I WAS RESEARCHING, I BEGAN TO REALIZE WHAT I HAD TO STUDY. A BROAD SCOPE OF INFORMATION. I ALWAYS FELT THERE WAS A DEEP UNIVERSAL CALLING FOR GREATNESS FROM ME I MUST ADHERE TO AND FIND. AND SO I LEFT TO FIND IT. I DO NOTHING BUT INTROSPECT MYSELF. I STAY TO MYSELF, BC I AM MORE LIKELY TO KEEP MYSELF OUT OF TROUBLE, BY MYSELF. I AM LESS LIKELY TO LOSE FOCUS ALONE. I AM PRETTY WELL TRAINED AT KEEPING MYSELF WORKING ON MY SOLO PROJECTS. AT BEST, IT KEEPS ME OUT OF TROUBLE. I AM THIRTY, NO BABIES AND NO FELONIES. CLEARLY, I DON'T FAVOR DRAMA OR VIOLENCE AND FIGHTING AND ANY FORM OF UNCONSCIOUSNESS. 

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4.6.2020
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CHAPTER TWO: WHEN CHAD BEGAN FILMING

MY FATHER AND I WATCHED FILMS TOGETHER. IT WAS MY MAIN MEMORY WITH DAD. "CON AIR". "CHILD'S PLAY". "JAWS 3". "THE FOX AND THE HOUND". "AUSTIN POWERS". "NOTHING TO LOSE". "BLUE STREAK". "SCREAM". "FACE OFF". "CONGO". "JURASSIC PARK". "DOUBLE JEAPORDY." "MEN IN BLACK". WHEN THE PARENTS DIVORCED, IT SUCKED. SUCKED SO MUCH, I MADE MY FIRST FILM AT 12 YEARS OLD. THE DIRECTORIAL DEBUT. I DEALT WITH THE DIVORCE IN NO SPECIFIC MANNER FOR 5 YEARS BEFORE I FILMED SOMETHING. AS SOON AS I WAS GIVEN THE CAMERA, I FILMED WITH IT. THE LAST DAY OF 5TH GRADE. GOT IT ON CAMERA. JOE AND CHRIS AGUILA. WENT TO THEIR HOUSE. CHRIS IS JOE'S LITTLE BROTHER. 3RD GRADE. THERE WAS A HORNET OR YELLOW JACKET OR WASP, AT THEIR POOL. WE RAN BACK INSIDE. I CAN STILL REMEMBER. VIVIDLY. SHOUT OUTS TO MS. SARAH. R.I.P. JOES DAD. A CAMERAMAN FOR THE NEWS. THE FIRST FRIEND I MET IN SCHOOL. HIS DAD WAS A NEWS CAMERA MAN. I'M BLESSED TO HAVE FOUND OUT HOW TO DEAL WITH THE UN PLEASANT CIRCUMSTANCE PRESENTED. EARLY ON. I WAS WRITING. I THANK GOD I WAS MEANT TO TRAVERSE THESE PATHS. I TOTALLY AM AT HIS WHIM. I AM AT GOD'S MERCY. UNDER GOD'S WILL. I HAVE GIVEN UP MY ENTIRE LIFE TO SERVING THIS PURPOSE. I HAVE NOTHING. NOTHING BUT ONE OBJECTIVE. ATTAIN THE DESTINY. THERE WAS A REASON I WAS SENT HERE. DO IT. NOTHING ELSE MATTERS. DO IT. GET IT DONE. TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE. WASTE NOT WANT NOT. WASTE NO TIME. WANT NO TIME. ALL TIME IS DEVOURED. ALL OF OUR TIME IS DEVOURVED WITH CREATIVE EXPRESSION PRODUCED. THE CREATIVE. THE FINANCIALLY LITERATE CREATIVE. I SERVED MY PURPOSE. WHAT I WANT TO BE REMEMBERED FOR. I HAVE TO DO GREAT THINGS. IN ORDER TO BE ADEQUATELY REMEMBERED. I ONLY WANTED TO WRITE A CLASSIC NOVEL. 5 YEARS LATER. THERE'S NO PROOF I HAVE NOT WROTE MANY CLASSICS BY NOW. THE YEARLY COLLECTIONS I PUBLISH NOW ARE 500 PAGES. THREE OF THOSE NOW. WORKING ON FOUR. THIS YEAR WOULD BE THE FIRST COLLECTION, NOT FROM DAVID CRICHTON THE PEN NAME. 

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4.7.2020
TUESDAY APRIL 7TH, 2020
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BETWEEN THE AGES OF 12 AND 21, I WAS ONLY WRITING POETRY. BETWEEN 18-21 I HAD PUBLISHED MY FIRST POETRY AND NON VERSE COLLECTIONS. I SENT A FILM TREATMENT TO DWAYNE CARTER'S PRSION CELL IN 2010. BEFORE MY 19TH BIRTHDAY, I HAD THE FIRST COLLECTION PUBLISHED. FROM THERE, IT TOOK HALF A DECADE TO BECOME DAVID CRICHTON. MENTALLY. DAVID CRICHTON IS THE FORMULA FOR HOW I NOW APPROACH WRITING PROJECTS. IT'S JUST A LIST OF GUIDELINES. I'LL GO THRU THEM IN A LATER CHAPTER. INBETWEEN THE FIRST COLLECTION PUBLISHED AT 19 AND THE DAVID CRICHTON EXPERIENCE, IS CHADXZAVIERFILMS. FIVE YEARS OF CHADFILMS GREW INTO DAVID CRICHTON PUBLICATIONS. BEING DAVID CRICHTON FOR FIVE YEARS, I WANTED TO RETIRE THE NAME. IN HALF A DECADE I HAVE THREE FULL COLLECTIONS. MY OWN THREE "HARRY POTTER BOOKS". THAT'S A GOOD FIRST HALF A DECADE. NOW LET'S RAMP IT UP. ONE COLLECTION EVERY YEAR. I HAVEN'T BEEN EDITING FOOTAGE INTO VIDEOS AND PUBLISHING THEM ON YOUTUBE SINCE 2017. WHEN I HAD GOTTEN THE TAX RETURN AND BOUGHT EQUIPMENT. BEFORE THAT I WASN'T FILMING SINCE THE DAVID CRICHTON EXPERIENCE HAPPENED. AROUND THANKSGIVING 2015, I GAVE UP A DSLR I HAD. I HAVE FOOTAGE OF EVERY YEAR BUT THE CAMERAS VARIED. FROM 2011 - 2013 WERE MY PRIME YOUTUBE YEARS. WHICH IS ONE DECADE AGO. NOW IS MY RE EMERGENCE. WITH EVERYTHING I'VE CREATED SO FAR. WHICH IS STUPENDOUSLY LOADED. 10,000 MEDIA FILES. SO NOW, GOD WILLING, I AM WORKING ON THE FILM FESTIVAL ENTRY. THIS IS THE NARRATION. THIS IS ALSO VOLUME THREE. VOLUME THREE OF "HONEY MONEY PROBLEMS". VANESSA BUNNI STALLONE IS THE PEN NAME. THE NEXT PEN NAME IS NAIJAH CLOVER. JOSH D. ROCKMAN IS THE NEXT PEN NAME AFTER NAIJAH CLOVER. DAVID X. CRICHTON, STALLONE, CLOVER AND ROCKMAN. THE PEN NAMES. THE FIRST PEN NAME RAN FOR FIVE YEARS. THE LAST TWO YEARS INTRODUCED STALLONE. STALLONE HAS ONE VOLUME PUBLISHED AND ONE READY. THIS IS VOLUME THREE FOR STALLONE. AFTER THIS, VOLUME ONE FOR CLOVER WILL COMMENCE. 

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4.7.2020
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CHAPTER THREE: THE DAVID CRICHTON EXPERIENCE

 2001. 2000. 2002. MADE MY FIRST FILMS DURING THOSE YEARS. USED A CAMCORDER FOR THE FIRST TIME. 2011. THE YEAR I LAUNCHED MY FIRST TWO YOUTUBE CHANNELS. KEVITV. SEEXZAVIERFILMS. CHIZZI KENNEDY. 2015. THE YEAR I RECORDED MY FIRST DIARIES. VIDEO FORMAT. 24 HOUR LONG VIDEO DIARY. FILMED DURING MAY 2015. DURING THE PHONE GIRL SITUATION. THE PHONE GIRL EXPERIENCE. THE DAVID CRICHTON EXPERIENCE HAPPENED THE FOLLOWING MONTH. JUNE 2015. THE MONTH I WROTE "THE PHONE GIRL". JULY 2015. "CFK" WAS WRITTEN. BY DECEMBER 2015, "CFK" AND "THE PHONE GIRL" WERE FINISHED. MY FIRST TRILOGY. "TPG". "CFK" MY FIRST DOUBLE TRILOGY. IN NOVEMBER 2015, I AUDIO RECORDED THE FIRST TWO FRANCHISES. I BEGAN "CLEVERLAND AND CLEVERFIELD" IN JANUARY 2016. THOSE THREE NOVELS WERE VERSE NOVELS. BY NOVEMBER 2016, "THE PRINCE WHO KNEW TOO MUCH" AND "THE PRINCE'S PHILO" WERE WRITTEN. "THE PRINCE WHO KNEW TOO MUCH" FRANCHISE, WAS NOT OF VERSE NOVELS. "THE PRINCE WHO KNEW TOO MUCH" WAS THE FIRST PROSE NOVEL WRITTEN UNDER THE DAVID CRICHTON PEN NAME. "MEGAN AND THE LAW OF ATTRACTION". THE FIRST AUDIO IMPROMPTU VERSE NOVEL RECORDED. USING THE TASCAM AUDIO RECORDER. BOUGHT THE TASCAM IN NOVEMBER 2015. "MEGAN AND THE LAW OF ATTRACTION" WAS AUDIO RECORDED ON MOTHER'S DAY 2016. BASICALLY DURING THE ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF DAVID X. CRICHTON'S "THE PHONE GIRL". 2016 WAS THE YEAR OF HEAVY AUDIO RECORDING. STARTED YOUR AUDIO DIARIES IN LATE 2015. YOU PICKED IT UP IN 2016. 2016 IS THE FIRST YEAR OF YOUR AUDIO DIARIES. NOVEMBER AND DECEMBER 2015 HAD THE BEGINNING DIARIES. CREATIVE DIARIES. IN DECEMBER 2015 YOU AUDIO FREESTYLED THE CREATIVE DIARY. THE 24 HOUR EXPRESSION OF WHERE YOU WANTED TO TAKE YOUR NEWFOUND CREATIVE LEVEL. I WAS SIX MONTHS DEEP INTO THE DAVID CRICHTON PORTFOLIO WHEN THE AUDIO RECORDED APPEARED. GOING INTO DAVID CRICHTON'S FIRST THREE FRANCHISES, I HAD A 24HR VIDEO DIARY. PREPPING THE URGE FOR MORE DIARIES AFTER THE FIRST PROJECTS. BACK AND FORTH I WENT. BETWEEN DIARIES AND CREATIVE DIARIES. PRODUCTION DIARIES. PRODUCTION DIARIES OF NOVELS AND SCRIPTS. THE NOVELS AND SCRIPTS THEMSELVES. AUDIO DIARIES. IMPROMPTU VERSE NOVELS. GOING INTO 2017. I WAS AUDIO RECORDING HUNDREDS OF HOURS OF MATERIAL EVERY SEASON. I WAS RECORDING LIKE CRAZY. WRITING AND RECORDING. WRITING AND RECORDING. THE SPRING OF 2017. I AUDIO RECORDED FILM SCRIPTS IMPROMPTU. FOR LIKE THREE MONTHS. ON AVERAGE 30 PROJECTS PER MONTH. ONE PER DAY. I KNOW THE FIGURE IS CORRECT BUT I STILL FEEL WEIRD SAYING IT. [YOURLISTEN.COM](https://YOURLISTEN.COM) HOLDS THE MAJORITY OF THE AUDIO FILES. I AM IN THE PROCESS OF EDITING VIDEOS WITH THE AUDIO FILES INSIDE NOW. IAMMICKEII. CHAD HARRIS. THEWHITERABBIT. THE THREE USER NAMES FOR YOUR LISTEN. YOUR LISTEN DOESN'T LET YOU LOOK UP USER NAMES. TYPE IN THE CHAD DIARY. THIS WILL PULL UP TWO ACCOUNTS. PARAMORE LAND. ALL ACCOUNTS SHOULD BE ACCOUNTED FOR THEN. ON SOUNDCLOUD. CHAD HARRIS 20. [DXCEXPERIENCE.BLOGSPOT.COM](https://DXCEXPERIENCE.BLOGSPOT.COM). [LULU.COM](https://LULU.COM) HOLDS THE PUBLICATIONS. DAVID X CRICHTON. VANESSA B. STALLONE. THE PEN NAMES FOR THE PUBLICATIONS ON LULU. IN OCTOBER OF 2017, I MOVED TO SYRACUSE, NEW YORK. I MOVED BACK TO GEORGIA ON VALENTINE'S DAY 2018. I MOVED BACK TO SYRACUSE ON AUGUST 10TH, 2018. I BOUGHT THE BUS TICKET ONE DAY IN ADVANCE. COST HALF THE OVERTIME CHECK. I MISSED NEW YORK STATE. I MISSED SYRACUSE. I LOVED IT HERE. I LOVE IT HERE. IT'S AWESOME. I REALLY ENJOY IT. IT'S VERY PEACEFUL. THERE ARE CAMERA'S ON THE STREET. MAKES ME FEEL SAFE. JACK FROST IS VERY ACCOMODATING. I LOVE THE ARCHITECTURE HERE AS WELL. MAKES ME WANT TO STUDY ARCHITECTURE EVEN MORE SO. 

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TUESDAY APRIL 7TH, 2020
4.7.2020
WEDNESDAY APRIL 8TH, 2020
4.8.2020
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CHAPTER FOUR: VANESSA HONEY MALONE, NAIJAH GROVER SR. AND J.D. ROCKMAN

 I AM LISTENING TO MY RENDITION, READING OF "ROMEO AND JULIET". I SERVE AS GOOD A MAN AS YOU. YES BETTER SIR. YOU LIE. REMEMBER THY SMASHING BLOW. ENTER BENVOLIO. PUT UP YOUR SWORDS. ENTER TYBALT. LOOK UPON THY DEATH. THEY FIGHT. I USE PEN NAMES FOR THE PUBLICATIONS. I USE PEN NAMES FOR MANY REASONS. THE DAVID CRICHTON PEN NAME. DAVID IS MY FATHER'S NAME. MIKE CRICHTON IS MY FAVORITE AUTHOR AS A TEEN. "JURASSIC PARK" "THE LOST WORLD: JURASSIC PARK". "SPHERE". "CONGO". "DISCLOSURE". "THE GREAT TRAIN ROBBERY". "ANDROMEDA STRAIN". "A CASE OF NEED". "TIMELINE". "THE 13TH WARRIOR". "EATERS OF THE DEAD". "RISING SUN." "TRAVELS." "E.R.". "WESTWORLD"? THE CURRENT PEN NAMES. THE CURRENT PEN NAMES ARE CREATED IN THE HONOR OF MY DEAD HOMIES. THE FALLEN SOLDIERS I MET ON MY JOURNEYS. THRU OUT THE YEARS, I MET A FEW PEOPLE WHO PASSED. THESE PEOPLE HAPPENED TO BE CLOSE TO ME. I FELT THE PAIN OF THEIR PASSING. UP CLOSE. VANESSA HONEY MALONE. SOMEONE WAS ARRESTED IN THE 8YR OLD COLD MURDER CASE. MY MOTHER TEXTED ME WITH THE LINK TO THE ARTICLE. AS I WAS READING THE ARTICLE, MY MOTHER CALLED ME. SHE RECOGNIZED THE NAME. VANESSA HONEY MALONE. I ALWAYS MENTION HER. HER NAME IS BASICALLY MY PEN NAME. I TOOK A NAP TO REFRESH THE BRAIN. THINKING MAYBE I WOULD DREAM HER IMAGE OR MEMORY UP. 

VANESSA STALLONE IS THE CURRENT PEN NAME. NAIJAH CLOVER IS THE NEXT PEN NAME. NAIJAH GROVER SR. I MET NAIJAH GROVER SR. DURING THE SUMMER BEFORE MY SENIOR YEAR AT SALEM HIGH. CLASS OF 2008. NAIJAH WAS THE CLASS OF 2009. I INVITED NAIJAH'S MOTHER TO MY GRADUATION. KEVI WAS AT MY GRADUATION. KEVI GRADUATED FROM SALEM TEN YEARS LATER. CLASS OF 2019. NAIJAH DIED WITH TWO OTHER CLASSMATES, DERRON AND TERRENCE ON MOTHER'S DAY 2008. NAIJAH NEVER SAW BARACK OBAMA POP UP. HE MAY HAVE ONLY SEEN A GLIMPSE. NAIJAH HAD A SON AFTER HE PASSED. NAIJAH WAS BLESSED FOR THAT.
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CHAPTER FIVE: THANK YOU AND COME AGAIN MY FRIEND

THE SYRACUSE FILM FESTIVAL. OCTOBER'S VERY OWN. I AM ENTERING. GOD WILLING. I AM GOING THRU THE RAW FOOTAGE. I WILL INCLUDE SHAKESPEARE AUDIO. THIS AUDIO BOOK IS INCLUDED. THE CHAD FILM. SOMETHING I HAVE BEEN WAITING ON FOR TEN YEARS. I AM NOT SURE WHAT THE OUTCOME WILL BE. I HAVE PUBLICATIONS. NOVELS. FOR FILM SCRIPT RIGHTS. FILM SCRIPTS. MY WAY OF ENTERING CONSIDERATION FOR LITERARY HISTORY. THE LITERARY LEGACY. MY WAY OF HAVING A CHAD FILM REGARDLESS OF LIFE. PROPER ACTION. NOW, EDITING THE RAW FOOTAGE, I REALIZE, I AM MAKING THE CHAD FILM THERE. THAT IS A CHAD FILM. SO NOW, I HAVE TO MAKE THE CHAD FILMS AS IF, I NEVER MAKE IT TO HOLLYWOOD. THIS WAY, THE CHAD FILMS ARE AS POWERFUL AS I CAN MAKE THEM. THE COMBINATION OF THE AUDIO FROM 2015 ON AND THE RAW FOOTAGE FROM 2011 ON. 11:00PM EST - 11:29PM EST I SPEND THE DAYS. THE DAYS IN WHICH I AGE. TO CONTINUE TO GRASP THE MOMENTS. LEAVING ME AMAZED. AMAZED BY THE FACT I AM STILL HERE. I CAN STILL HEAR. HEARING WITH THE STILL EAR. STILL EARS. LIFE IS STILL CLEAR. IT IS CLEAR. IN THESE TRYING TIMES. WE MAY BE IN THE DYING TIMES. SO IF I AM DYING I. ONLY NEED TO RECTIFY. I DIDN'T SEE WITH RECKLESS EYES. KEPT CONTROL OF THE RECKLESS SIDE. I NEVER WANTED TO WASTE. THE TIME I HAD. IN THESE TIMES IN WHCH I WAS PLACED. DEFINITELY NOT MISPLACED. EVEN THOUGH I ALWAYS FELT OUT OF SYNC. WITH THIS PLACE. I WAS IN SYNC. WITH THE DARLING INSTINCT. REALLY. REALLY REALLY IS WHAT I THINK. WHEN IT COMES TO POP CULTURE. PLOPPED DOWN LIKE A VULTURE. NO DRAKE I GOT CULTURE NO BLOOD. UGH. YEA. HA. IMMERSED IN CULTURE LIKE MERSA. NO CRUD. WHAT? MORE LIKE YUCK. I BE STUCK. I WAKE UP LIKE WTF. I'M STILL HERE. SO I'M STILL CLEAR. MINDED. THE DESTINY OF MINE I BETTER FIND IT. I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME AND TO THIS I'M BLINDED. YOU COULDN'T BLIND SIGHT IT. EASTER SUNDAY APRIL 12TH, 2020 - 7:11PM EST - 7:45PM EST 

I JUST WOKE UP. THANK GOD. FIRST THING I DO? I THANK GOD. AS I LAY IN AWE. I ONLY SAY WHAT I SAW. I ONLY PLAY WITH IT ALL. I TAKE NAPS BEFORE THE MIND FALLS. VICTIM TO THE DARK MIND'S PAWS. AW. I TOOK THE NAP. FOR THE CLARITY IT GAVE BACK. AWOKE TO A SLAP. OR AWOKE FROM A SLAP. I WOKE UP FROM A DREAM. TO WAKE UP IN A DREAM. TWO DREAMS. LIFE IS JUST TWO DREAMS. YOUR WHOLE LIFE. YOU CAN CONFUSED. OVER WHAT GIFTS YOU MISUSE. OR DON'T WANT TO USE. WHICH IS AGAIN TO MISUSE. OR GIFTS YOU DON'T WANT TO LOSE. THE SAME GIFTS THE DEEPEST STATE DOESN'T WANT YOU TO CHOOSE. SO CHOOSE FOR YOUR LIFE. WHICH DREAM IS REAL? WHAT MAKES THIS DREAM MORE REAL? WHAT MAKES THE DREAM WORLD LESS REAL? WHEN YOU'RE TERRIFIED IN YOUR DREAMS. YOU WAKE UP. IN THIS DREAM. YOU CAN END UP TERRIFIED UNTIL IT'S ALL OVER. THERE IS NO WAKING UP FROM THIS DREAM WITHOUT LEAVING. THIS IS THE LONG DREAM. THE DREAMWORLD. WHEN SLEEP. MAY BE THE CLOSEST TO OUR ORIGINS. WE SEE. HOWEVER INDEED IT ALL MAY ACTUALLY BE. I WOKE UP TO PHONE NUMBER OF ROCKMAN'S MOM. JD HUTCHINSON. I GET TO BE IN CONTACT WITH HIS FAMILY AGAIN. I HAVE BEEN IN CONTACT WITH CRYSTAL LATRICE ALL YEAR. NOW I CAN REACH OUT TO UNCLE WALLY AND ROCK'S GRANDPARENTS. RON?
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FRIDAY APRIL 17TH, 2020
4.17.2020
FRIDAY APRIL 17TH, 2020
4.17.2020
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CHAPTER SIX: TALKED TO ROCK'S MOM

 I TALKED TO JOSH D. HUTCBINSON'S MOTHER. I TALKED TO MS. SADONNA FOR AN HOUR. WAS INTRODUCED TO HER HUSBAND RON. I MISSED HEARING HER VOICE. I ENJOYED HEARING HER VOICE. MARCUS AND NAY ARE GETTING MARRIED. I CHERISH HAVING THEM IN MY PAST MOMENTS OF GROWTH. I CHERISH THE OPPORTUNITY TO RECONNECT WITH THEM ALL. I WILL KEEP IN CONTACT WITH THEM ALL. I HAD GREAT TIMES LIVING WITH THEM. I WAS LIVING WITH HER AND ROCK FROM SEPTEMBER 2016 TO MARCH 2017. THE FIRST YEAR OF DAVID X CRICHTON. I HAD PUBLISHED "THE PHONE GIRL" THAT SPRING. I HAD PUBLISHED "CLEVERLAND" THAT SPRING. ROCK HAD A COPY OF "CLEVERLAND". "CLEVERLAND AND CLEVERFIELD". HE READ SOME OF IT IN FRONT OF ME. HE SAID. "I CAN RAP THIS BRO". I LOOK FORWARD TO WRITING A VERSE NOVEL UNDER THE TITLE. IT JUST FELT REALLY GREAT TO HEAR HIS MOTHER'S VOICE. I CHERISH THE TIME I WAS THERE. AS ROUGH AS IT GOT AFTER HIS DEATH, I DON'T REGRET ANYTHING. I AM PROUD I MET HIM. HE HAD FAITH IN THE JOURNEY I WAS ON. HE TOLD ME I WOULD BE RICH BUT THAT WASN'T WHY HE WAS MY FRIEND. I REMINDED HIM OF HIS LITTLE BROTHER. COREY. HE TOLD ME FOCUS ON MY BOOKS AND NOT SMOKING. HE WAS A REAL FRIEND. I HAVE NOTHING BAD TO SAY ABOUT THEM EVER. I MISS HIM. I THINK ABOUT HIM DAILY. I ALWAYS COUNTDOWN. THREE YEARS. FOUR YEARS COME CHRISTMAS. I MADE A PEN NAME FOR HIM BY THIS POINT. I LOOK FORWARD TO STARTING AND COMPLETING THE FIRST TRILOGY. CLEVERLAND IS A REAL PLACE. IT IS IN YOUR MIND. YOU GET THERE USING YOUR MIND. IT IS A REALM YOU ENTER THRU YOUR MIND. CLEVERLAND IS CLOSED ON SUNDAYS. JOKING. THE FOREX MARKET IS CLOSED ON SUNDAYS. THE STOCK MARKET IS CLOSD ON SUNDAYS. I FULLY DISCOVERED "CLEVERLAND", THE PLACE, IN 2015. BY JANUARY TO MARCH, 2016, "CLEVERLAND THE VERSE NOVEL" WAS BEING WRITTEN. "CLEVERLAND" IS WHERE I LEARNED TO GO, TO PULL OUT MY IDEAS FROM. "CLEVERLAND" IS WHERE THE IDEAS ORIGINATE FROM. "CLEVERLAND" BECAME MY HOME. MENTALLY I HAVE BEEN TRAVERSING THRU CLEVERLAND MY ENTIRE LIFE BUT I DIDN'T HAVE A NAME FOR IT. NOW I KNOW THE NAME. THE FORMULA FOR WRITING THE DAVID CRICHTON NOVELS, CAME FROM "CLEVERLAND". "CLEVERLAND AND FRIENDS" COMING SOON. NOW, YEARS LATER, "CLEVERLAND" HAS A NEW MEANING TO ME. EMOTIONALLY, "CLEVERLAND" HELPS ME STAY ENTHRALLED IN "CLEVERLAND". "REALITY IS CREATED". "CLEVERLAND" IS THE LAND, THE REALM OF IDEAS ARRIVES FROM OR DWELLS IN. IDEAS LIVE IN "CLEVERLAND". SO IF I LIVE IN CLEVERLAND, WITH ALL OF MY SPARE TIME, WITH ALL OF MY BEING. YOU TAP INTO "CLEVERLAND" ALONE. ONCE THE CONNECTION IS STRONG HOWEVER, YOU SHALL WIN THE WAR. YOU WILL BE ABLE TO TAP INTO CLEVERLAND, WHENEVER, FOR HOWEVER LONG. 7:00PM EST - 8:03PM EST 

4.20.2020

THE THING ABOUT CHAD. CHAD IS A HUMAN. CHAD IS AN ARTIST. CHAD IS AN ARTISTIC HUMAN. I WRITE WHAT I FEEL. I WRITE THE DEEPEST THOUGHTS I CAN MUSTER. I WRITE AS HONEST AS I CAN BE. THEN I STRIVE TO BE AS HONEST AS I CAN WITH MY ADMISSIONS. CHADMISSIONS. THE CHAD MISSION. THESE ARE DIARIES. IN ESSENCE. I MASKED THEM AS NOVELS THE BEST I COULD. I ONLY KNEW ME. ALL I KNOW IS ME. SO I WRITE ME DOWN ON PAPER. FROM THERE IT'S BE AS CREATIVE AS YOU CAN BE. CLEVERLAND IS ME. I AM ALWAYS IN A STATE OF CREATIVE BEING. CFK IS ME. I AM ENTHRALLED BY HISTORY NOW BC OF JFK. THE PHONE GUY IS ME. MEGAN THE PHONE GIRL CREATED DAVID CRICHTON. SHE BROKE ALL ILLUSIONS ON THE OPPOSITE SEX. SH HAPPENS. IT JUST DOES SOMETIMES. I GOT WHAT I ALWAYS WANTED. CREATIVELY. IT WAS ALCHEMY. THERE WAS A TRADE. MY EMOTIONS WOULD CATALYZE EVERY BOOK. EMOTIONALLY I COULDN'T HANDLE ANY DEVASTATION FROM A PERSONAL LIFE PURSUIT. EMOTIONALLY EVERYTHING GOES INSIDE OF THE PORTFOLIO. THE ONLY THING I COULD EVER CONTROL. THE REALIZATION THAT ANOTHER PERSON WILL DO WHAT THEY WANT. REALIZING THE DYNAMICS OF MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER. HAVING MULTIPLE PERSONS AROUND YOU CAN LEAD TO DISORDERS IS WHAT I AM SAYING. THIS WAS 2015. BEFORE MASS COVID SCARE. I WAS ALREADY ON THE TIP. PAUSING. I HAVE BEEN SCARED OF OTHER PEOPLE FOR FIVE YEARS AT LEAST. THE TRUST ISSUES I HAVE INCURRED FROM PERSONAL EXPERIENCES WITH FRIENDS, FAMILY AND THE OPPOSITE SEX GENDER HAVE PREPARED ME FOR THIS. THOROUGHLY. 9:40AM EST - 9:55AM EST 

4.21.2020

I just finished funding my Roth IRA for 2022 today, now I’m trying to plan what to do for the next year.
Right now we (husband and I) have an emergency fund that I just got to $10K in a HYSA earning 3.75%. I feel this is too low and I want to to get it to at least 15-16K (this number works for us).
Normally I put money into both the savings account and the Roth every month, but I can only afford to put $1K per month total, and if I keep doing only ~$500 a month to savings it will take too long to get to our goal. The reason I want to kind of speed it up is I plan to switch jobs this year because I’m miserable in my current job, which is stable, and I will be earning less at my next job, I’ll feel more comfortable with more in the emergency fund quicker.
I thought I could switch it up this year and for the next 6 months or so, put the entire $1K into either the Roth or the savings, then for the 6 months after that, put the whole $1K to the other account. I am also aware that the new max contribution for 2023 is $6500.
Either way I will make sure my Roth is fully funded by the deadline next year, but I am not sure which one to tackle first? Or should I continue doing what I was doing before and do half and half to each every month? Which one would you feel more comfortable finishing first?

3.1.2020
SUNDAY MARCH 1ST, 2020
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SESSION NUMBER:
SCENE #12: THE ZERO SUM GAME

SCENE #12:. YOU DOWNLOAD [FREEWALLET.ORG](https://FREEWALLET.ORG) APP. OPEN AN ACCOUNT WITH YOUR FACEBOOK. YOUR GOOGLE PLUS. YOUR PHONE NUMBER. DOWNLOAD DOGEWALLET APP. FOUR CRYPTO WALLETS. RIGHT THERE. COINBASE. THE FIRST CRYPTO WALLET. THE OFFICIAL BITCOIN WALLET. DOWNLOAD E-TRADE APP. SIGN UP FOR E-TRADE. GLOBAL ACCOUNT. TWICE. INDIVIDUAL ACCOUNT. THREE TIMES. JOINT ACCOUNT. IF MARRIED. OR NOT. ROBINHOOD ACCOUNT. STASH ACCOUNT. INTERACTIVE BROKERS. FXCHOICE. TRADERSWAY. THIS IS THE SET UP YOU NEED. TO TRADE CURRENCY. WHILE BUILDING THE EQUITY. IN EVERY AVAILABLE EQUITY. YOU'RE TRADING FIAT CURRENCY. BUILDING THE EQUITY IN DIGITAL CURRENCY. CRYPTO. THE CRYPTO RISES. SIGN UP FOR NEXO WALLET. TRANSFER TRADING PROFIT. BUILT IN CRYPTO. TO CRYPTO WALLETS. INCLUDING NEXO. ESPECIALLY NEXO. NEXO WALLET. THE FIRST OFFER FOR THE CRYPTO LOAN. THE FIRST DIGITAL ASSET USED AS LOAN COLLATERAL. HOWEVER MUCH THE DIGITAL ASSET. IS WORTH. THE AMOUNT IN LOANS YOU CAN GET. MEANING NOW. A NEW FORM OF CREDIT. THE FUTURE OF THE CREDIT LINE. THE FUTURE OF CREDIT LINES. THE FUTURE OF THE CREDIT CARD. THE FUTURE OF CREDIT. NOW. THE MILLION DOLLAR LOAN. IS POSSIBLE. THE MILLION DOLLAR LOAN. IS SUPER POSSIBLE. THE MILLION DOLLAR LOAN. IS DUPER POSSIBLE. SUPER DUPER POSSIBLE. YOU DEPOSIT CRYPTO INTO THE NEXO WALLET. WAIT FOR THE RIPE SEASON. TAKE OUT A LOAN. YOU MUST FLIP THE LOAN. YOU MUST DOUBLE THE LOAN. AS FAST AS POSSIBLE. AS SAFELY AS POSSIBLE. SO IF YOU EARNING POWER IS A MILLION DOLLARS. LOAN A MILLION FROM YOUR CRYPTO STASH. WITH ALL OF THIS DONE. NOW YOU HAVE YOUR CRYPTO HOLDINGS. BEING BUILT. FROM FOREIGN CURRENCY TRADING PROFITS. IN CRYPTO. THE PROFIT IS BUILT IN CRYPTO. IN CERTAIN TRADING ACCOUNTS. TWO XRP ACCOUNTS. ON FXCHOICE. TWO USD TRADING ACCOUNTS. TWO EUR TRADING ACCOUNTS. TWO GBP TRADING ACCOUNTS. TWO BTC TRADING ACCOUNTS. TWO ETHEREUM TRADING ACCOUNTS. THE ONLY ACCOUNTS YOU WITHDRAW FROM. FOR CONSUMING THE MONEY ON BILLS. LIVING EXPENSES. BUSINESS EXPENSES. COMES FROM THE USD TRADING ACCOUNTS. LEAVE THE EUR AND GBP TRADING ACCOUNTS. AS A BANK FOR SAVING. IN FOREIGN FUNDS. A FOREIGN SAVINGS FUND. AT THAT NATIONAL INTEREST RATE. SAY YOU BUILD THE EUR AND GBP TRADING ACCOUNT. TO ONE MILLION EUROS AND ONE MILLION POUNDS. YOU STASH THEM IN A FXCHOICE WALLET. NOW YOU HAVE TWO MILLION IN EUROPEAN CURRENCY. AS YOUR EMERGENCY BACKUP. MAKING YOU A MULTI MILLIONAIRE. NO MATTER WHAT. UNTIL YOU SPEND. NOW YOU GET A USD WALLET. GET THE BTC WALLET. THE ETH WALLET. THE XRP WALLET. SO NOW. YOU HAVE MULTIPLE TRADING ACCOUNTS. IN MULTIPLE EQUITIES. IN ALL AVAILABLE EQUITIES. AND THE RESPECTIVE WALLETS. FOR HOLDING THE SAVINGS. AND TAXES. YOU BUILD PROFIT IN ONE ACCOUNT. TRANSFER $10 ANOTHER ACCOUNT IN THAT EQUITY. YOU WILL NEED $30 IN ONE EQUITY. TO CONVERT IT TO ANOTHER EQUITY. $30 IS BTC ACCOUNT TO CONVERT TO AN XRP OR USD ACCOUNT. I HAVE TO DO THIS NEXT. WHEN IT IS TIME TO SWITCH. I HAVE TO CLOSE TRADES ON ONE OR TWO. NOT RE ENGAGING IN NEW TRADES ON TWO ACCOUNTS. SO I CAN TRANSFER PROFITS TO ANOTHER TRADING ACCOUNT. TO INCREASE PROFITS AND ACCOUNT AMOUNTS. NOW. THE E-TRADE AND ROBINHOOD ACCOUNTS. FOR THE USD WALLETS. THE USD EQUITY TRADING PROFITS. SPENT ON STOCKS. CONSUMING SHARES. HOLDING SHARES. BUYING THE STOCKS. TECHNOLOGY STOCKS. EMERGING TECHNOLOGY STOCKS. EMERGING MARKETS. NANO TECHNOLOGY. BIOMETRICS. CYBER SECURITY. CYBER NETICS. CRYPTO CURRENCY. ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE. ROBOTICS. PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY. BIONICS. MYO ELECTRIC PROSTHETICS. COGNITIVE SCIENCE. BIO SCIENCE. BIO TECH. NEURO SCIENCE. ENTERPRISING SOFTWARE. FULLY IMMERSIVE VIRTUAL REALITY. E-COMMERCE. M-COMMERCE. VIRTUAL REALITY. SMART DIAPER. SMART TECHNOLOGY. FIVE G. FIVE G PHONES. AUTONOMOUS CAR TECH. THIS IS HOW YOU COMBINE. THE TRADING FOREIGN CURRENCY. WITH CRYPTO CURRENCY HOLDING. STOCK HOLDING. STASHING THE PROFITS. MADE APPLYING THE OSCILLATION STRATEGY. THE OSCILLATOR. OSCILLATING. CATCHING EVERY OSCILLATION. 500 POINTS IN BETWEEN. 500 POINTS PER TRADE. 500 POINTS PER HALF SWING. BACK AND FORTH. 50% RETURNS. 100% RETURNS. EVERY DAY. EVERY OTHER DAY. EVERY TWO DAYS. EVERY WEEK. EVERY MONTH. EVERYTIME YOU DOUBLE. IF YOU DOUBLE DOWN. PUTTING YOUR DOUBLE BACK DOWN. NOW YOU'RE DOUBLING. YOUR DOUBLES. YOU ARE DOUBLING DOUBLES. AT THIS POINT. IN CONJUNCTION WITH. PAYING ALL OF YOUR BILLS. IN ADVANCE. INVESTING THE MAJORITY OF THE TRADING PROFITS. INTO THE LONGTERM VISION OF THE STOCK MARKETS TECH TRAJECTORY. THE TECHNOLOGICAL SECTOR. IN THE STOCK MARKET. IS POISED. ON IT'S OWN TRAJECTORY. EVERY DECADE. EVERY DECADE IS THE START. OF THE NEW REVOLUTION. TECHNOLOGICAL. THE NEW TECH REVOLUTION. THE TECH REV. THE TECHNO REVO. OF THE 1990'S. THE 2000'S. THE 2010'S. THE 2020'S. THE 2030'S. THE 1980'S. THE 1970'S. SOME. SO LONG AGO. SOME NOT TOO LONG AGO. THE REST. RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER. THE NEW YORK SESSION. CLOSES. IN 30 MINUTES. THE SESSION WILL BE CLOSED IN THIRTY MINUTES. THE SYDNEY SESSION. IS UP NEXT. THE FOREX MARKET. IS OPEN. 120 HOURS. PER WEEK. 5PM EVERY DAY. STARTING SUNDAY. IS A NEW 24 HOUR PERIOD. GONE. FROM THE 120 HOURS TOTAL. YOU HAVE TO WORK THE MARKET. TO WORK THE MARKET. FOR 120 HOURS. STRAIGHT. NON STOP. EVERY DAY CONSECUTIVE. EVERY WEEK. CONSISTENTLY. MONTHLY. BRINGING IN 1000% IN PROFIT. 700% WEEKLY. 1000% WEEKLY. 1400% WEEKLY. 120 TIMES IN PROFIT. MONTHLY. STASHING THE MANJORITY. INTO DIGITAL ASSETS. INTO ASSETS. INTO MORE ASSETS. INTO ALL ASSETS. INTO NOTHING BUT ASSETS. PURCHASING. PURCHASING. AND PURCHASING. ASSETS. ALL VARIETIES. QUITE FEVERISHLY. 

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1:25AM EST - 1:51AM EST
3.2.2020
MONDAY MARCH 2ND, 2020
SESSION #1:
3.2.2020.
11:36AM EST - 12:00PM NOON
SESSION #2:
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SESSION NUMBER:
SCENE #13:

SCENE #13:. THE FOREX MARKET OPENED AT 5PM. ON SUNDAY. MARCH 1ST. 2020. TODAY IS THE SECOND OF MARCH. MARCH 2ND. 2020. THIS IS THE FIRST WEEK. WE ARE APPLYING. THE FULL STRATEGY. THE OSCILLATION. THE OSCILLATION COASTER. COASTER OSCILLATION STRATEGY. OPERATING TWO BROKERAGE ACCOUNTS. JASON'S BROKERAGE ACCOUNT. MY OWN BROKERAGE ACCOUNT. JASON'S BROKERAGE ACCOUNT. HAS ONE TRADING ACCOUNT. ACTIVELY TRADING. THE TOTAL BALANCE. $30. EQUITY $30. THE OPEN TRADES? AUDNZD SELL. TIMES TEN TRADES. CAUGHT BETWEEN POINT 617 - 680. 100 POINTS FROM 780-800. WHERE IT PEAKED. AT 11PM. THE ASIAN SESSION. THE TRADING VIEW STATS. GREEN. 65%. 630 POINTS UP. IN THE GREEN. THE BLUE. THE BLACK. THE PROFIT. MMY BROKERAGE ACCOUNT. TWO ACTIVE TRADING ACCOUNTS. TOTAL BALANCE. IN ACCOUNT. $90. JASON'S ACCOUNT. CAN TOUCH THE $100 LEVEL. FROM THIS SWING DOWN. 10 TRADES TIMES $6. $60 PLUS $30. $90. EQUAL TO MY BROKERAGE ACCOUNT NOW. IN GOLF TERMS. ONE PUT. ONE DRIVE. ONE SWING. EQUALLED THE BALANCE OF THE $30 ACCOUNT. WITH THE $90 ACCOUNT. NOW BOTH ACCOUNTS ARE SWINGING. FROM THE $100 LEVERAGE LEVEL. THE LEVEL OF LEVERAGE. EACH SWING. BRINGING IN 50%. RETURNS. ON INVESTMENT. 50% GAINS. GOING FOR 100% GAINS. EACH SWING. UP OR DOWN. THREE TRADING ACCOUNTS. ACTIVELY TRADING. FOR 120 HOURS. RIDING THE HIGH POINT. DOWN TO ZERO. RIDING THE ZERO POINT. BACK TO THE HIGH POINT. MINUS 100 POINTS. PER DAY. FROM 200 POINTS. IT GOES BACK UP TO HIGH POINT. THIS WOULD BE FRIDAY. BASED ON MEMORY. THE CURRENCY TRADING. IS FOR FINANCIAL FREEDOM. ALSO. ENSURING FINANCIAL FREEDOM. IS ALWAYS A REALITY. THE VERY PROBABLE.. POSSIBILITY. PURCHASING THE STOCKS IN ALL EMERGING TECH INDUSTRIES. SAVING MONEY. IN THE TECH MARKETS. SAVING PROFITS. STASHING PROFITS. PLACING PROFITS. ALLOCATING PROFITS. ACQUIRING PROFITS. DISTRIBUTING ACQUISITIONS. AT THE $100 LEVERAGE LEVEL. WITH TWO BROKERAGE ACCOUNTS. OPERATING AT THE $100 LEVERAGE LEVEL. TIMES TEN. ANY PLUG IN. IS POSSIBLE. AND EVEN MORE PROBABLE. WITH THE 700%. BATTING AVERAGE. 1000% BATTING AVERAGE. LEGENDARY. TIGER WOODS THE TRADE. PUT THE GOLF BALL. WHERE IT NEEDS TO BE. THERE IS A TIME AND A PLACE FOR EVERYTHING. THEN IT'S CALLED THE. HOLE IN ONE. IF YOU CAN MULTIPLY THE BALANCE. TIMES TEN. FROM MONDAY. ON TO FRIDAY. 5 DAYS. 4 AND A HALF SOON. $1000. IN EACH BROKERAGE ACCOUNT. $2000 TOTAL. YOU AND JASON. CAN PAY DEBTS. AND INVEST. CONTINUING TO PAY DEBTS AND INVEST. PAY DEBTS AND INVEST. PAY DEBTS AND INVEST. LEARN TO LEVERAGE WHAT'S LEFT. LEARN TO LEVERAGE THE BEST. THEN PAY YOUR DEBTS AND INVEST. WITH BILLS NOW PAID IN ADVANCE. INVEST WITH THE CHANCE. PAY DEBTS AND INVEST. 3.2.2020. 11:36AM EST - 12:00PM NOON THE FIRST THING I WANT TO DO. IS TO THANK GOD. I WANT TO THANK GOD FOR WAKING UP TODAY. I WANT TO THANK GOD. FOR ALLOWING ME ANOTHER DAY OF LIFE. I WANT TO THANK GOD. FOR WAKING UP MY FAMILY. MY PARENTS. MY MENTOR. MY MENTOR'S FAMILY. MY FRIENDS. MY FRIEND'S FAMILIES. I TAKE NO DAYS FOR GRANTED. I WILL PURSUE DESTINY UNTIL THE DEATH OF ME. I HAVE NO CHOICE. IF DEATH WILL CATCH ME OFF GUARD. I WANT TO CATCH DESTINY BEFORE HAND. I WILL GO TO THE GRAVE WITH AN ACQUIRED DESTINY. THE ASCERTAINED DESTINY. I WOKE UP TODAY. THANKED GOD. FOR GIVING ME ANOTHER DAY ON EARTH. I TEXT MESSAGED GOOD MORNING. TO LOVED ONES. I CHECKED THE TRADES. I CHECKED THE TRADINGVIEW FIRST. SO I KNOW. THE PRICE POINT. WHEN I WENT TO BED. THE AUDNZD WAS 1.04700. PEAKING AT 1.04800 BY 11PM. FROM 11PM. AUDNZD. SWITCHED INTO SELL. I ENTERED TEN TRADES. AUDNZD SELL. ON ALL THREE TRADING ACCOUNTS. WOKE UP. AUDNZD. WAS 1.04300. 1.04450. FLUCTUATING BETWEEN THOSE. JASON'S ACCOUNT. BALANCE $29. EQUITY $39. PERSONAL ACCOUNT. BALANCE $89. EQUITY $117. ON ALL THREE TRADING ACCOUNTS. NZDUSD BUYS. SIX ON JASON'S. I BELIEVE. NINE TRADES. BUYING. NZDUSD. ON EACH OF THE PERSONAL TRADING ACCOUNTS. ONE TRADING ACCOUNT IS OPERATING. AT THE $100 LEVERAGE LEVEL. CLOSER TO $150. $25 AWAY FROM IT. THE FIRST SET OF TRADES. AUDNZD SELLING. WE WENT UP AND DOWN. ONCE. FROM 5PM TO 8PM. BUYING AUDNZD. SELLING AUDNZD FROM 8PM ON. 11PM IS A BETTER TIME. ON SUNDAY NIGHT. TO SWITCH. FROM BUY TO SELL. AUDNZD. POSSIBLY OTHER FOREIGNS. ESPECIALLY OTHER FOREIGN VS NZD OR AUD PAIRS. COMMON DENOMINATORS. THE ERROR I MADE LAST WEEK. WITH AUDUSD. NZDUSD. WAS GOING IN THE SAME DIRECTION AUDNZD WAS GOING. AUDNZD. OPERATES OPPOSITE THE DIRECTION OF. AUDUSD AND NZDUSD. THE DOMESTIC PAIRING OF THE COMMON DENOMINATORS. AUD AND NZD. THOSE PAIRS. VS THE USD. GO THE OPPOSITE WAY OF AUDNZD. AUDCAD POSSIBLY. HAVEN'T TRADED AUDCAD IN A YEAR. I CAN TRADE IT ON META TRADER. 5. APP. 4. THOSE ARE USD EQUITY ACCOUNTS. THE TRADING PROFITS BUILT IN USD. THE USD ACCOUNTS. ARE THE WITHDRAWAL ACCOUNTS. THE RIPPLE XRP ACCOUNTS. BTC ACCOUNTS. ETH AND LTC ACCOUNTS. ALL SENT TO CRYPTO WALLETS. FOR CONVERSION. AND SAVING. INVESTING. LOANING OUT. TO NEXO WALLET. THE EUR AND GBP TRADING ACCOUNTS. WILL BE SENT TO EUR AND GBP WALLETS. FOR FOREIGN SAVINGS ACCOUNT. HAVING A SAVINGS ACCOUNT. IN A FOREIGN CURRENCY. ANOTHER NATION'S DOLLAR. I THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING HE HAS DONE FOR ME. BY TRADING THE AUDNZD. BUYING IT ON SUNDAY AT 5PM. SELLING IT AT 11PM ON SUNDAY NIGHT FROM NOW ON. BUYING IT MONDAY. WHENEVER IT HITS THE ZERO POINT. WHEN IT DOES. HIT THE ZERO POINT. THE AUDUSD AND NZDUSD WILL BE SELLING. NOW. THEY ARE STILL BUYING. AUDNZD IS SELLING. NO WAY NZDUSD IS SELLING ALONG WITH THE FOREIGN ON FOREIGN RATE. THE FOREIGN VS DOMESTIC IS DIFFERENT. DEFINITELY. DIFFERENT. LOOKING AT IT IN SUCH A WAY. WHEN YOU SWITCH ON ONE. YOU SWITCH THE OTHER. TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE CHART. SO WITH NINE NZDUSD BUYS. RIGHT NOW. IN THREE ACCOUNTS. THE SAME THREE ACCOUNTS. HOLDING THE TEN AUDNZD SELLS. AUDNZD WILL BUY BEFORE NZDUSD. AUDNZD WILL SELL BEFORE NZDUSD. SO NZDUSD. WILL SELL AND BUY. AFTER. AUDNZD IS DONE. BUYING OR SELLING. THE TEN AUDNZD. WE BOUGHT ONCE. WE SOLD ONCE. THE SECOND IS UP. ON MONDAY. WHAT TIME? WE WILL FIND OUT. 8PM AND 11PM. EASTERN TIME. WE WOKE UP TO. NZDUSD. AT $0.62744. LAST WEEK. DROPPING FROM 64.000. TO 63.000. PENNIES. BETTING ON. THE 62.744. GOING TO 63.500-63.700. THIS WOULD BE $10 PER TRADE. IF NOT TEN. $5. UP TO 63.500. $5 TO $7. TIMES NINE. TIMES THREE ACCOUNTS. SO YOU CATCH BUY AND SELL NUMBERS ONE THRU TEN. THRU OUT THE WEEK. BUT BY TRADING AUDNZD. FOR EXAMPLE. AND THE DOMESTIC PAIRING OF AUDUSD OR NZDUSD. YOU CATCH THE BUY AND THE SELL. NUMBERS ONE THRU TEN. AGAIN. SO. ON MY WAY TO BUY NUMBER TWO. AUDNZD. I AM ON BUY NUMBER ONE. NZDUSD. SELL NUMBER ONE. AUDNZD. NOW. SELL. NZDUSD. NEXT. ONCE. BUY NUMBER TWO. COMMENCES. AUDNZD. TWO DIFFERENT CURRENCY PAIRS. THREE DIFFERENT CURRENCY PAIRS. EVENTUALLY SIX. TWO AUD OR NZD ON CAD. FOR EXAMPLE. THEN CADUSD. AUDUSD. NZDUSD. NOW YOU WOULD BE CATCHING THE ROUND TRIP. THREE DIFFERENT TIMES. 50% RETURNS. MINIMUM. EACH ONE WAY. 100% RETURNS. PER ROUND TRIP. THREE ROUND TRIPS. BACK TO BACK. TO BACK. POSSIBLY. 300% RETURNS. THANK GOD. LET US FIND OUT. LET ME FIND OUT. LET ME FIND OUT I GOT IT. 

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2:18PM EST - 3:19PM EST
THURSDAY MARCH 5TH, 2020
3.3.2020
R.I.P. TO MY UNCLE DEREK
MY AUNT GLORIA'S HUSBAND
MY DAD'S YOUNGER SISTER'S HUSBAND
LOVE YOU UNCLE DEREK
THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING KIND TO ME
I'LL MISS YOU
I'LL THINK ABOUT YOU FOR FAVORABLY
THE REST OF MY LIFE
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SCENE #14:

SCENE #14:. THE FOREX MARKET. CLOSES. TOMORROW EVENING. OPENS UP. BACK ON MONDAY. 36 HOURS OF NO TRADE. ENJOY NO TRADE. SO THIS WEEK. WHAT HAPPENED. I STARTED A NEW JOB ASSIGNMENT. TWELVE HOUR SHIFTS. HAD TO GET ADEQUATE REST. WENT TO THE HOSPITAL YESTERDAY. MY TRADES SHOULD PERFORM BETTER. OFF OF THE STRENGTH OF THAT. ENERGY WISE. FOCUS WISE. KARMA. WORK ETHIC WISE. THEY HAD TO CUT ME. IN THE MOST GENTLE AREA. EVER. NEEDLED ME TWICE FIRST. SO DURING THE WEEK. IN TRADING. AFTER THE MARKET OPENED ON SUNDAY. I WENT INTO BUYS. ON FOREIGN AND FOREIGN. IT HAD BOUGHT UP BY MONDAY. THEN WAS WHEN WE NEEDED TO SELL. WE DIDN'T SELL. NOW IT'S SELLING. WE CONTINUED TO OBSERVE. WE CONTINUED TO OBSERVE SPECIFICS. ONE SPECIFIC. THE USD PAIRINGS. MOVE AFTER OR BEFORE. THE FOREIGN ON FOREIGN. EURGBP. AUDCHF. AUDNZD. WE TRADED THOSE PAIRS AS WELL. AS WELL AS GBPUSD. EURUSD. IS NEXT. THE USD PAIRINGS. ALLOW US TO. TRACK THE FOREIGN ON FOREIGN. THE FOREIGN ON FOREIGN PAIRS. ALLOW US. TO TRACK THE USD PAIRINGS. WE ARE HEDGING. TRADING DIFFERENT TIME ZONE CURRENCIES. THE CURRENCIES OF EACH TIME ZONE. THIS IS HOW OUR WEEK HAS BEEN. HASN'T BEEN TERRIBLE. THANK GOD. WE LOOK TO FORWARD TO NEXT WEEK. WE LOOK FORWARD THE 36 HOURS OF NO TRADE. WE WILL BE WORKING DURING THE THREE DAYS. THE FOREX MARKET CLOSES AND RE OPENS. MONDAY WE ARE OFF. TO TRADE AND SWITCH OVER. NOW. WE HAVE SWITCHED OVER. INTO BUYS. ON NZDUSD AND AUDUSD. ON THE FOREIGN ON FOREIGN. GBPEUR EURGBP. SELLING. 86600. AUDCHF. SELLING 62600. USD. SELLING. 29400. 29300.29200. ON WEDNESDAY. GBPUSD. 27500. WE WATCHED IT RISE TO 29400 BY TODAY. THURSDAY. TODAY IS THURSDAY. BY THURDAY. WE WATCHED THE GBPUSD RISE $20 PER TRADE. SMALLEST LOT SIZE. SMALLEST AMOUNT. OF LEVERAGE PUT DOWN. IMAGINE 5 TRADES. GBPUSD. THRU OUT THE WEEK. THE PRICE OF NZDUSD IS 65900. TOUCHING 66 PENNIES. 66000 POINTS. AUDUSD. THE SAME RATE. TRAVELLING AS. NZDUSD. THREE THOUSAND POINTS. BEHIND. 62950. 63000. THE ZERO POINT. LAST NIGHT. WEDNESDAY NIGHT. WE WATCHED THE NZDUSD AND AUDUSD. WE WEREN NOT TRADING THEM. THEY WERE RISING TO 66200. 63200. WE WERE NOT SURE IF THEY WOULD RISE TO 66500. 63500. WE FORGOT ABOUT LAST WEEK. THURSDAY. THE USD PAIRINGS. ROSE TO THE 200 POINTS. OVER THE ZERO POINT. THEN DROPPED UNTIL THE MARKET RE OPENED. BY FRIDAY. THE USD PAIRINGS. MAY BE. AT THE 700 POINT MARK. BELOW THE CLOSEST ZERO POINT. UNDER THE NEXT ZERO POINT. THE GBPUSD. DEFINITELY. HAS MY FULL ATTENTION. CATCH IT DOWN. BACK $20 PER TRADE. CATCH 5 TRADES ON THE WAY DOWN. 

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10:16PM EST - 10:17PM EST
THURSDAY MARCH 5TH, 2020
3.5.2020
R.I.P. TO MY UNCLE DEREK
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SCENE #15:. THE MARKET. CLOSES. TOMORROW AT 5PM. THE GBPUSD. THE SURPRISE. THE SURPRISE OF THE WEEK. WE HAD NO IDEA. THE GBPUSD AND EURUSD MOVE MORE THAN 1000 POINTS. PER WEEK. EURUSD WAS AT. 1.14000. WENT TO 1.11 SOMETHING. NOW AT 1.12500 OR 300. TO BE HONEST WITH YOU. I HAVE MANY TRADES IN. SO I CAN GO IN AND OUT OF EACH ACCOUNT. CLOSING AND OPENING TRADES. NEW TRADES. NEW PAIRS. KEEPING THE SAME PAIRS. IN TOTAL. SWITCHING THE INDIVIDUAL TRADING ACCOUNTS. AROUND. FOR INSTANCE. EVENTUALLY STRUCTURING. AN ACCOUNT. FULL OF EACH CURRENCY YOU TRADE. THEN. AN ACCOUNT FOR. FOREIGN ON FOREIGNS. AUDNZD. EURGBP. AUDCHF. EURTRY. GBPTRY. JPYCAD. WE LOOK FORWARD TO. OBSERVING HOW THE TRADING GOES. FOR GBPUSD. THE NEWEST PAIR. AUDCHF. NEW PAIR. WE TRADED EURGBP BEFORE. WE ARE TRADING EURGBP. ONCE AGAIN. THE GBPUSD MOVES AT 2000 POINTS. PER SWING. THE EURUSD. MAY MOVE 2500-3000 POINTS. PER SWING. $25-$30. PER TRADE. 5 TRADES FOR EURUSD AND GBPUSD. EACH. $100. EACH.GBPUSD AND EURUSD. COULD HONESTLY BE. 20,000 POINTERS. PER SWING. 10 TRADES. EURUSD. TEN TRADES. GBPUSD. $200 PER SWING. PER CURRENCY PAIR. $500. PER SWING. BACK AND FORTH. BETWEEN. EURUSD. AND GBPUSD. THRU OUT THE WEEK. JUST THOSE TWO PAIRS ALONE. WHILE TRADING OTHER PAIRS. FOREIGN ON FOREIGNS. DOMESTIC ON FOREIGN. WE CAN REALLY TOUCH $2000-$5000 PER WEEK. TOTAL. WITH EURUSD AND GBPUSD. BEING THE PULL UP 20,000. 30,000. 40,000. 60,000. POINTS. IN JUMPERS. PULL UP JUMPERS. WRITING EVERYTHING DOWN. AS WE LEARN IT. SO IT GETS UPLOADED. PUBLISHED. THE DOCUMENTATION. NEVER PUBLICIZED. HIDDEN. IN PLAIN SIGHT. 

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11:25PM EST - 12:00AM EST
3.5.2020
THURSDAY MARCH 5TH, 2020
R.I.P. TO MY UNCLE DEREK.
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SCENE 16: SCENE 16:. NOW. BACK TO THE STOCK MARKET. THE FOREX MARKET. IS ONE HALF OF THE COIN. THE QUARTER MILLION DOLLAR COIN. A QUARTER MILLION. WORTH OF COINS. BACK AND FORTH. LEARN TO FOREX TRADE. TRADING CURRENCY. LEARN WHAT INDUSTRIES. TO INVEST. TRADING PROFITS. INTO. STOCK MARKET WISE. THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COIN. LEARN TO TRADE. LEARN WHAT TO HOLD. CURRENCY AND STOCKS. CURRENCY VS. STOCKS. CURRENCIES VS. CURRENCIES. IN ORDER TO. PURCHASE TO HOLD. BUYING STOCKS. IN EMERGING INDUSTRIES. BIO TECHNOLOGY. BIO METRICS. ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE. ROBOTICS. ENTERPRISING SOFTWARE. FIVE G. QUANTUM COMPUTING. AUTONOMOUS VEHICLE TECHNOLOGY. COGNITIVE SCIENCE. PSYCHO TECHNOLOGY. TECHNOSOPHY. TRANSHUMAN INDUSTRIES. VIRTUAL REALITY. FULLY IMMERSIVE. VIRTUAL REALITY. NEURO SCIENCE. BIO SCIENCE. NANO TECHNOLOGY. CYBER NETICS. CYBER SECURITY. CRYPTO CURRENCY. BIONICS. MYO ELECTRIC PROSTHETICS. SEGUE SHIP. ON BOARD. TRADINGVIEW WEBSITE. THE DOT COM. TYPE IN NANO TECHNOLOGY. TYPE IN NNVC. NAOV. NANO VERICIDES. NANO VIBRONIX. TWO NANO TECHNOLOGY COMPANIES. AT THE TOP OF THE PAGE. ABOVE THE PRICE. IS AN INDEX OF HYPERLINKS. CLICK EACH ONE. IN A NEW TAB. MARKETS. US. STOCKS. TECH SECTOR. IT WILL NARROW IT AND BROADEN IT FOR YOU. YOU CLICK EACH ONE. IT BROADENS OR NARROWS YOUR SEARCH. NOW YOU HAVE A DATABASE. OF ALL OF THE AVAILABLE STOCKS. IN ANY INDUSTRY. RELATED TO YOUR INDUSTRY. OF RESEARCH. YOU HAVE A SCOPE NOW. YOU HAVE THE SCOPE NOW. BROADEN THE CIRCLE OF THE HOLDINGS. THE WATCHLIST. BROADEN IT. NARROW IT. AT WILL. CONSTANTLY. THIS IS BY FAR. THE BEST WAY. I HAVE FOUND. TO DISCOVER NEW STOCKS. IN THE PARTICULAR INDUSTRIES. I AM LOOKING INTO. IN ONE LIST. A BUNCH OF LISTS. THEN THE FOREX TRADING. WHEN THE PROFITS ROLL IN. THE TRADING PROFITS. GO TO. THE HOLDING PORTFOLIO. TO CATCH UP. TO HAVE $100,000 INVESTED IN STOCKS PERIOD. THAT IS SUCCESS. FROM WHERE I AM NOW. HAVE $100K IN FOREIGN CURRENCY TRADING PLATFORM. $100K IN STOCK TRADING PLATFORM. $100K IN STOCK HOLDING ACCOUNT. $100K IN VARIOUS BONDS. $100K IN CERTIFICATE OF DEPOSITS. $100K IN CASH RESERVE. $100K IN BANK ACCOUNTS. $10,000 PER ACCOUNT. ART. WE ARE GOING TO BUY ART. A WAY NO ONE ELSE BUYS IT. WE WILL FIGURE IT OUT. TO AMASS IPO ART. A WAY TO FIND BRAND NEW ART. FIND THE CIRCUITS FOR BRAND NEW ART. BUY ALL OF THE ART. AS SOON AS IT COMES OUT. BUY AS MANY OF THEM. AS SOON AS THEY ARE AVAILABLE. CONQUER THE CIRCUITS. IF YOU FIND YOURSELF IN BIDDING WARS. YOU'RE ON THE RIGHT TRACK. YOU BETTER BEAT THEM. THEY'RE OBVIOUSLY. WILLING TO BATTLE YOU. IN A BIDDING WAR. FOR THE SAME IPO ART. MAYBE. THEY THINK YOU KNOW WHAT THEY KNOW. YOU DON'T. BUT YOU DO. THEY DON'T KNOW THAT. AND THEN THEY DO. $100,000 IN ART PAINTINGS. NOW. HOW MANY PIECES OF ART. CAN YOU GET. FOR $100K? ESPECIALLY IF YOU CAN ONLY BID ON ART. YOU WOULD HAVE TO. HAVE $100K FOR BIDDING ON ART. THEN $100K. FOR BUYING THE ART ELSEWHERE. AT ONE SALES PRICE. 

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5:45AM EST - 6:37AM EST
SATURDAY MARCH 28TH, 2020
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 SCENE #17:. THE KEY TO THE FOREX TRADING. THE KEYS ARE IN THE CHART. THE FOREX CHARTS ON TRADINVIEW, HAVE NUMBERS. NUMBERS FOR YOU TO PLAY. YOU PLAY THESE NUMBERS. THE FOREX MARKET IS OPEN FOR 120 HOURS STRAIGHT. THE NUMBERS ON THE CHART, WILL EVENTUALLY HIT. JACKPOT. CA-CHING CA-CHIING? YES. DOUBLE. DOUBLE. DOUBLE - DOUBLE. IT TOOK ME ONE YEAR AND TEN MONTHS TO REALIZE. REALIZING WHEN WE FIRST STARTED TRADING CURRENCY, IN JUNE 2018, WE WERE SETTING PARAMETERS USING SWIPE TRADE. THE TIME INBETWEEN THEN AND NOW, WE WERE MARKET EXECUTIONING TRADES. JUST WATCHING TRADES DOUBLE. DOUBLE UNTIL THEY DIED. WE NEVER TOOK THEM OFF OF THE TABLE. THE TRADES. THE PROFITS. THE TRADE'S PROFITS. WE WANTED TO KNOW IT'S SCHEDULE. IN RETROSPECT, THE BEST WAY TO KNOW WHEN IT DOES IT, IS JUST TO PUT THE PENDING BUY OR SELL LIMIT IN AS A TRADE. OPPOSED TO MARKET EXECUTION AS THE ENTRY POINT, WITH NO EXIT POINT. AKA THE TAKE PROFIT. FOLLOW THE CHART. WHATEVER THE CHART SAYS, PLACE THE ORDER. WHEN ANOTHER TRADINGVIEW TRADER GIVES AN IDEA, PLACE ONE ORDER WITH THEIR PARAMETERS. WHATEVER THEIR STOP LOSS IS, THAT IS YOUR ENTRY POINT. NORMALLY I THOUGHT STOP LOSS WAS MORE LIKE THE AMOUNT AFTER WHAT YOU SET YOU'RE WILLING TO LOSE. OR IT CRASHES. I DON'T SET STOP LOSSES ON THE TEN DOLLAR ACCOUNT. IT'S TOO SMALL TO GUARANTEE EQUITY FOR ANOTHER TRADE. MAKE YOUR ENTRY POINT THE STOP LOSS. THAT'S THE BEST STOP LOSS. IT IS A DAM SHAME IT TOOK THIS LONG. TO FIGURE THE FOREX MARKET KEY IS TO FOLLOW THE CHART TOOK TWO YEARS. I AM SO GRATEFUL TO GOD HE GAVE ME THE ANSWERS. I ALWAYS HAD FAITH. I WAS ONCE AGAIN, THREE FEET AWAY FROM GOLD. THE TRADING STRATEGY I EMPLOYED DURING THE FIRST WEEK OF CURRENCY TRADING, WAS THE ANSWER ALL ALONG. SWIPE TRADES. BUT SWIPE TRADES THE CHART. FOUR HOUR AND DAILY. HOURLY AND WEEKLY. THE MONTHLY. ENTERING THE TRADE AT THE END OF ONE SIDE OF THE BAR. IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION. UP UNTIL THE OPPOSITE END OF THE BAR. THEN BACK AND FORTH. R.I.P. TUPAC AMARU. I THANK GOD SO MUCH, FOR THIS SINGLE OPPORTUNITY. 

I hired a personal injury firm to represent me in a personal injury case, but my experience with them has been disappointing even beyond my wildest expectations. During negotiations, my attorney, a professional bullsh*t artist, repeatedly told me that my case was worth more than the settlement amount, but he still strongly urged me to settle and accept the offer against my better judgment. It soon became evident that there was a lack of diligence, urgency, and care paid to my case. It seemed like he was only interested in settling the case quickly, rather than putting in additional research or effort to reach a satisfying result. Looking back, I felt forced to follow his counsel to accept the low-ball offer of $35,500 on nearly $19,000 in medical bills, barely enough to cover their 33.3% attorney fee and my own bills.
On April 6, 2022, I sustained extensive injuries, including a 2-inch diameter concussion and subsequent dent on my head, bruising, and injuries to my neck, arms, shoulder, both legs, and knees in a car accident in Seattle. I had difficulty walking for many months due to shooting pain in my knees, and I hired this firm to protect me during my recovery process. I finished all treatment in August 2022. I had to spend hours tracing down providers and insurance representatives during my workday, which was something I specifically hired this firm to do. Paralegal told me during our last interaction over the phone that I did not have health insurance last year, which was not true as I had provided that information when I signed with the firm and they had it on record. Attorney later said she misspoke, but it raised concerns about whether they cross-checked information for accuracy.
Furthermore, a majority of bills from this case have been sent to collections and I have been in the complete dark as to when they would resolve. My insurance company had no records of radiologist or Physical Therapy office, and I had to personally bring all this to their attention and present relevant information to facilitate these claims. I never received detailed and itemized ledgers of claims, dates of service, or regular updates.
I found additional errors with their balances at UW Medicine and learned more balances were in collections. When I brought this to their attention, I was met with more condescending and dismissive responses. It is very clear that this firm is incapable of taking responsibility for their actions and apologizing for their mistakes.
The lack of communication and negligence from this firm is deeply unacceptable and has caused me significant harm. I was then handed over to the 'managing partner' to be handled and mitigated. It was clear immediately by her condescending tone that she did not take this case seriously and offered to 'set up weekly meetings over the next few months' as the case resolved and bills re-processed due to this firm's specific errors. I started to look deeper into the firm and ask questions around other firms as to their conduct and reputation. It is clear now that this is simply a high-volume firm and litigation adverse, meaning they try to settle cases as quickly as possible without consideration for the best outcome for their clients.
Even after I brought all this to their attention and they agreed to take 25% off the attorney fee, a slap in the face for the amount of time I have personally put in to get this case back on track, the managing partner, has now said to 'please move forward with filing a complaint with the Washington State Bar. We will cooperate fully with them and hold the remaining funds in trust.'
What can I do to hold these people accountable?

I've tried following the instructions from the Docker - ArchWiki but docker run hello-world fails with
bash [email protected]:~ 125$ docker run hello-world docker: Error response from daemon: failed to create shim task: OCI runtime create failed: runc create failed: unable to start container process: error during container init: unable to apply apparmor profile: apparmor failed to apply profile: write /proc/self/attapparmoexec: no such file or directory: unknown. ERRO[0000] error waiting for container:
and docker run -it --rm archlinux bash -c "echo hello world" fails like so:
bash [email protected]:~ -$ docker run -it --rm archlinux bash -c "echo hello world" Unable to find image 'archlinux:latest' locally latest: Pulling from library/archlinux docker: no matching manifest for linux/arm64/v8 in the manifest list entries. See 'docker run --help'.
I see that Jeff Geerling make it work a year ago, but Asahi Linux has changed since then and I think I'm following all of the things he said to do, but still not having luck. I'm unfortunately neither a Docker nor a Linux on Arm64 expert, so when Google fails to point out anything useful, I'm sorta at a loss. Any help would be appreciated.

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Can someone help me figure out why my Apache Guacamole install isn't working?
I built the Guacamole server from source, but needed to pull code from github instead of using the 'official' 1.5.0 release because it can into syntax issues on my system (Slackware ARM current). The Github pull built successfully and seems to be running ok.
I installed the 'release' Guacamole Client .war because trying to build from source resulted in build errors that I wasn't prepared to dig into. The war file seemed to install fine in Tomcat (10.1) and the Webapp manager says it's running.
But when I point my browser to the application path, it starts to load the page, but then fails, resulting in a blank white screen.
On the server, I've looked at the Tomcat logs and didn't see anything obvious beyond the last few entries in the access_log; requests for assets like css, javascript or images are apparently returned ok (return code 200), but when it starts requesting api calls, those requests are returned with code 500.
I've posted my logs here: https://github.com/gotkube/guacamolefails
I'm stumped, and the logs aren't giving me much to go off of beyond those 500 return codes.
I'd appreciate a point in the right direction to try and figure this out; I've spent most of this week trying to get this going and it just doesn't want to for some reason.
Thanks!

Okay, I've been trying to find ways to put this out somehow, I talked to a friend about but I wanted more pieces of advices. In 2019, my last year in high school, I became friends with this girl (let's call her Marnie). Marnie and I were always into the same things, we had a lot in common, we liked the same artists, movies and eventually books (after she incentivated me to start reading more, now I'm a bookworm because of her). In 2020 with all the COVID sh*t, we barely saw each other, but still we talked every single day. In 2021 when things were starting to get back to normal, we were hanging out together once again, we rewatched all the Studio Ghibli's movies, and got drunk listening to indie songs (yeah, we're lame young hollowheads). But still in 2021 things got a little bit deeper between us and it didn't look like a friendship anymore, we had made out sometimes in the past just fooling around, but now it was more constant and I started confusing my feelings for her (actually I think I always felt like that about her, but refused to accept it). Anyways, we kept this confusing relationship without labeling it, and I never talked about it because I didn't want to hear an eventually "I don't wanna a relationship", though I know we loved each other, at least we said that a lot. The problem was that she hates São Paulo (a Brazilian state), she lived here because her mother lived here and she'd have a better education in school, but deep inside I always knew she'd do anything to go back to Bahia (another state), where she was born and raised, to live with her dad. In 2022 we were already in college, but she passed in a test of a good university in Bahia and didn't think twice, she moved away and eventually started a new life. Today we're not as close as we used to, and I don't think I'll feel anything closer than what I felt for her, I know I'm still young (I'm 20), but it sucks that I can't have that kind of connection with anybody else that I met later. In the end of 2022 I knew she was dating a guy there, and I am fooling around with someone every now and then (she's a friend of ours) but it's superficial. Well, with all that said, I just wanted to know how to feel things like those again.