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I really just want to emphasize how much of a lottery this system is. I was rejected from University of Texas (Austin) as an IN-STATE applicant but accepted to Penn. None of it makes sense. Didn't get into my Brown ED either. If you've had some bad news these past couple weeks don't take it personally, none of it makes sense. If you're still a junior (or younger) and have yet to apply, I can only really recommend the unfortunate suggestion that you might need to write many applications because each one really is just luck.

Fame, recognition, and celebrity have been a part of the books since CC when John Bristow chose Strike because he recognized the name and ended with “I am become a name”. In fact, Strike has had to deal with it his entire life in the form of curious classmates and assumption-making strangers while enjoying few of the benefits of being Jonny Rokeby’s son. For Strike, anonymity was one the army’s great attractions. It was a place to develop his own talents and live his life away from the shadow cast by his parents. Back in civilian life, Strike thinks his growing name recognition is linked to Rokeby’s willingness to claim him now and that Rokeby is trying to avoid bad publicity. It feels to me that there is a developing story about success, its costs, and its unexpected pitfalls. It’s a bit two-faced, like Janus/Janice. I think one of the things that drives Strike is a desire to show Rokeby and the world that he can make it on his own, that he needed Rokeby as little as Rokeby wanted him, but at the same time the agency, his means of proving that, is threatened by its success.
If the partners continue to solve high-profile cases I don’t think they will be able to avoid the consequences of their success indefinitely. I think it’s only a matter of time before Strike, and maybe Robin, too, can’t take part in investigations the way they like to. In IBH we know Strike is concerned about his own fame and physical recognition. It was central to both the Charlotte and Madeline storylines. Robin was in the news for her heroics and when Anomie sent Zoe/Worm28 their pictures from the paper, Zoe recognized Robin. I don’t imagine that Strike and the agency will fade from public interest now they caught another killer and his getting stabbed in the process. I realize JKR can magically avoid the consequences of the agency’s fame if that’s her wish, but it’s starting to feel that they will soon face limits on what they can do, and maybe that’s JKR’s intention.
I suspect it will become impossible to go out into the street without risking recognition, and maybe it will actually happen, thereby blowing a big case. Fame and success have a way of getting out of control and being a destructive force, just look at Edie and Josh in IBH and Lula’s distrust of nearly everyone around her in CC. I wonder if Strike’s inability to control his own celebrity will gain him some understanding of Rokeby’s life and if he and Robin will need to reassess the future of the agency, specifically their role in it. This scenario also fits into my belief that the end of the series will somehow bring us back to the beginning when Robin walks through the door for the first time, beginning their partnership. Perhaps the series will end with some kind of exit.
What do you think? Do you think their own success will lead to major changes or will they manage to avoid the pitfalls?

repost cus i don’t wanna get doxxed 💀
Demographics

• Gender: F
• Race/Ethnicity: Chinese
• Residence: Northeast
• Income Bracket: 60k
• Type of School: IB school
• Hooks (Recruited Athlete, URM, First-Gen, Geographic, Legacy, etc.): First-Gen

Intended Major(s): Cultural Anthropology
Academics

• GPA (UW/W): School doesn’t do GPA (but probably around a 3.8-3.9)
• Rank (or percentile): N/A
• # of Honors/AP/IB/Dual Enrollment/etc.: 7 IB courses (3 HL, 4 SL)

Standardized Testing List the highest scores earned and all scores that were reported.

• SAT I: 1460 (720 RW, 740 M)

Extracurriculars/Activities List all extracurricular involvements, including leadership roles, time commitments, major achievements, etc.

1. Family Responsibilities
2. Charity organization
3. Charity organization tutoring program
4. Community centecanvassing
5. Leadership summer program
6. Yearbook club
7. Art club
8. Free tutoring services for elementary students
9. Art commissions
10. School newspaper

Awards/Honors List all awards and honors submitted on your application.

1. PVSA bronze
2. Posse semi finalist

Letters of Recommendation (Briefly describe relationships with your recommenders and estimated rating.)
Counselor- 6/10 I don’t really have a relationship with him, so I think it might’ve a pretty generic recommendation.
Teacher 1 (Art teacher)- 8/10 I was a pretty good student in her class and I genuinely enjoyed art, so I think it was a pretty good recommendation.
Teacher 2 (History teacher)- 7/10 Unsure about this one because while I participated in his class often and talked to him outside of class, I handed in work pretty late…
Teacher 3 (Math teacher)- 7/10 Unsure about this one too. I was a decent student, but sometimes I slept in class lol
(just to preface the teacher reccs were carried over from my Questbridge application and I was told by my teachers that the application asked them targeted questions, so I think the reccs might’ve been more in-depth than typical reccs)
Interviews
(Briefly reflect on interview experiences, if applicable.)
Yale- 6/10 My first and only interview. I definitely fumbled. My interviewer was super sweet, but I was noticeably very nervous and started rambling. I sent him a thank you note after so maybe that might’ve cleared things up???
Essays (Briefly reflect on the quality of your writing, time spent, and topic of main personal statement.)
Personal statement- 7/10 this stressed me out SO much. By the last week of December, I still had no essay done (no applications done either). I made two versions — one was about being Chinese American (real original), the other one was about my desk and talked about how the objects on it represented me. I sent the desk one to Yale, Brown, and Tufts and the cultural one to the other schools I applied to. I’m assuming they weren’t that bad considering my acceptances.
Yale Supps- 8/10 I enjoyed writing them — esp the 35 word ones! They were a bit cringe, but I thought I responded to them well!
Decisions (indicate ED/EA/REA/SCEA/RD)
Acceptances: * Williams College RD (probably will commit!) * Tufts University RD * Stony Brook University RD * Binghamton University RD * Queens College RD * Hunter College RD
Waitlists: * NYU CAS RD * Yale College RD (HOW EVEN?!?! I THOUGHT I WAS GNA BE AN INSTA REJECT)
Rejections: * Brown University RD
Additional Information: I genuinely don’t know how I managed to make it out of this decision season alive. I’ve been a long time lurker and after reading many rejection posts (from people with way better than stats than me), I was a bit worried coming into this cycle. I previously applied for Questbridge (twice in fact — CPS and NCM) and was rejected both times, so that certainly did not help. I was also going through some personal issues at the time, causing me to miss ED deadlines and having to rush ALL my applications the week before January 1st (0/10 experience; would not do again). Getting my first reach acceptance from Williams felt like a fluke — still does! I’m insanely grateful for the acceptance!
For incoming seniors, I want to emphasize how important essays are. I don’t think my stats were anything T-20 worthy. However, my essays definitely showed my voice and the person I am (even if they were a bit cringe…). Also PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE start your essays early. Rushing everything the week before was genuinely horrible and I submitted essays that were kinda unpolished.
Unless my Yale waitlist works out (doubt), I will be attending Williams College! Go Ephs!

The Fear of a Crime Without Punishment
My introduction is directly related to the philosophical material! Read it. I must include real life grounded storytelling to highlight the arrogance and grandiosity of philosophy. Let's not pretend these vices are not tied to philosophy (especially early modern philosophy).
I learned about the bystander effect or bystander apathy in AP psychology. It presented itself as novel, so I listened in public for odd behavior. I felt grateful for this paranoia because it relieved my self-esteem. Paranoia is a fantastic embodiment of terror. I grew hopeful to remember the effect when a situation might arise, so I should take action without naive hesitation.
I was hopeful until I met a child on an Italian metro with a stuffed animal. I don’t remember what it was, but it lifelessly dangled from her right hand. Her skin was light brown. She wore a pink flannel fleece and looked seven or eight years old. Her face was soft and round. Her grayish cheeks held a lot of freckles. I think there were birthmarks too, but I don’t remember. Her legs held very still the whole train ride.
I felt terrible looking at her. A white man with mild olive skin, about 40 years old, pointed his sharp chin and shiny glasses about the subway. He might have held a briefcase in one hand. His other hand was tight around her left upper arm. I remember because it was the far shoulder from me, and her socket cocked in the air as her hips made space between them. I wanted to ask her name, but I did not know if she spoke English. I wanted to ask if that was her father, but I didn’t want to break a cultural norm.
I stared at her for five stops, and her terrified eyes kept returning to mine. I cannot understand if it were me staring at her and scaring her, or her staring at me and scaring me. I snapped my head at everyone standing around me. I don’t remember what they looked like, but nobody met my eyes. I felt like I was begging when I began to think I was going insane. I watched him pull her off the train. It was over after that, but it stays with me. My fear of embarrassment was stronger than my will to ask a child if she was safe. This truth, even if the girl were with a trustable man, shows something about relation. For Leibniz, this is a mark in my mind. It is a mark of guilt. It can be traced to something deeper than failing to help a girl on the train when I ask how do I know when to be guilty if nobody told me to be?
I knew better as Discourse on Metaphysics weighs on my conscience. The text is full of suffering. The intensity and effort put into the details of the text make me speculate that Leibniz was distressed over the issue of god. Philosophers admire courage, but I think there are marks of fear in their ideas.
I think this applies in Leibniz as we trace the marks back to sins that are forgotten. This task becomes impossible without god. As for why it is impossible, we first follow god’s attention to us and us to him to discover what is. “For instance, it is a great mistake to believe that God made the world only for us, although it is quite true that he made it in its entirety for us and that there is nothing in the universe which does not affect us and does not also accommodate itself in accordance with his regard for us, following the principles set forth above.” (Leibniz 52). The world is not only for us, but it reflects off of you in its entirety. This is found later by tracing relations of the mind. A world made by god only for human needs would be physically impossible because the universe would lack properties that are for things indirectly related to human needs. It would also lack things that harm humans, but those things are necessary for the whole of the physical world.
Everything in the universe affects everything else and these connections can be found through subject predicate relation. With unlimited resources and power, there is no motive or practical reason for god to create excess. This implies there is nothing in excess to cater to anything because everything accommodates everything.“This, then, is how one can conceive that substances impede or limit each other, and consequently one can say that, in this sense, they act upon one another and are required, so to speak, to accommodate themselves to one another. ” (Leibniz 48). To humans, he gives what is necessary for each individual and separate subject to live in a way that provides them with certain love, virtue, and well-being (as long as they make the correct judgments). This is what the word “accommodation” means. It is not limited to material resources either. Though the love is provided, this implies that god’s love is not a provisional love. It is always there.
With divine a priori knowledge, we can make these aforementioned correct judgments, but it is upon us to pay attention. It is our responsibility. “Plato also strengthened his view by way of a fine experiment, introducing a little boy, whom he leads insensibly to extremely difficult truths of geometry concerning incommensurables without teaching him anything, merely by asking appropriate questions in proper order. … One can even say that it already possesses these truths, if they are taken as relations of ideas.” (Leibniz 58). This attention, to the relation of ideas, unless you happen to be a student of Plato or some other wise man asking you the right questions, is not necessarily accommodated to you. This is not bad luck. There is no luck when god chooses the best of all possible worlds.
With certainty, it is in every individual’s capacity to attend to this knowledge. When I say in your capacity, I mean it constitutes your subjective being and relation to the entire universe, but it is not necessary for you to attend to. Without luck, certainty and necessity split, “... even though it is certain that God always chooses the best, this does not prevent something less perfect from being and remaining possible in itself, even though it will not happen, since it is not its impossibility but its imperfection which causes it to be rejected. And nothing is necessary whose contrary is possible.” (Leibniz 46). An individual’s bad luck is not necessary because, with luck, the contrary is possible. With the contrary being possible, luck becomes an illusion where you forget your choices, yet your choices were not forgotten.
This is the difference between necessity and certainty. You look for the knowledge and recognize it by seeing how it makes you more powerful and happy when you do pay mind to it. This is the opportunity for the salvation of any individual subject. You have the god-given ability to save yourself, or a child on the metro!
No matter how confused you may become, this knowledge will torment your mind as punishment, or some other punishment from external bodies will happen to you, because of your defiance of god. Returning to metaphysics, everything accommodates everything else including morality.
If you were not punished, then the world would be affected by your imperfection, but god only chooses the best world, so it must necessarily correct you. If not, the world would be in contradiction with god’s perfection. A world without punishment would be impossible because a world without evil isn’t necessarily good, “For it can happen that a change that increases the expression of one diminishes that of another.” (Leibniz 48). This is the nature of evil in god’s perfect world. Regardless of pain or pleasure, excessiveness is certain to be punished, because it doesn’t necessarily have to exist. This is certain because good is not contrary to evil. Punishment is the contrary while goodness merely follows god’s intended simplicity of minimal interference.
There doesn’t have to be evil, because it isn’t all about you. You suffer from someone else’s sins, and your punishment is proportional to their crimes. This comes from interest with time (Leibniz 61). Don’t respond to punishment and be damned because that is necessary for the order of goodness. If not damned, respond to the punishment as you have as many opportunities for salvation as the limits of your being permit. We become linear in time, and the degree to which we are being punished is a measurement of progress. Death implies a crime can exceed the limits of your being and ruin hope for salvation. Where do marks and traces lead us? This leads us to a crime that is disproportionate to an individual's capacity for punishment, and the punishment stays with the living after the life of the criminal. If not, the laws of morality, metaphysics, and even materialism would be defied. This is “...the economy of our salvation,” (Leibniz 68). Materialism being violated is not important. Proportional doesn’t mean exact equivalence or duplication as structures of phenomena take on different forms through time. This is how a priori properties exist in our accommodation in apparent chaos. Without order, we are in pain and scared.
The task of the individual and subjective being to have good judgment arises. We are blank slates remembering through experience, and the responsibilities of goodness are placed upon us no matter the perspective. “But when we are concerned with the exactness of metaphysical truths, it is important to recognize the extent and independence of our soul, which goes infinitely further than is commonly thought, though in ordinary usage in life we attribute to it only what we perceive most manifestly and what belongs to us most particularly, for it serves no purpose to go any further.” (Leibniz 59). Individuals as monads express the whole universe, so they/we don’t need to learn from experience. A monad can deduce from specific marks that make up their being, “…. but also an active power, a power by virtue of which there have always been in its nature marks of the future production of this thought and dispositions to produce it in its proper time.” (Leibniz 60). With their being as an expression of the whole, experience is a reminder of what already exists. This is different from having Descartes’ thoughts placed by god into an individual's head. The individual is thinking of every virtual and real possibility but on their own.
From this perspective, again, gifted by the grace of god, there is a priori knowledge within all of us, and when we do not listen, we are punished for the sins that god remembers. But because knowledge is a priori, there is Christian salvation. Our crimes can warrant punishment beyond the capacity of our being to salvage itself. This limit leaves some individuals to be damned. The damned can live as if they were not damned, but their punishment will continue regardless. I’ll be damned as long as I am selfish. My gut, or for Leibniz, the knowledge of god, told me to ask a simple question. I thought of ten excuses not to ask instead. The virtual possibilities rendered me uncertain.
The question remains. If the consequences of our crimes exceed the limit for us to redeem ourselves, how does reality maintain order? Are we stacking up interest for crimes long forgotten? What it means to disregard god’s knowledge is to be damned and forgotten without guilt because that is what happens to those unable to love. Still, god never forgets.
We approach the fear of Discourse on Metaphysics through its resolution. Our mind is connected to the anthropomorphic god by imitation (Leibniz 67). God’s memory is immortal and in us. If not, there could be no relation, “...God alone being able to act upon them, that none of our actions are forgotten; that everything is taken account of, even idle words or a spoonful of water well used; finally, that everything must result in the greatest welfare of those who are good; that the just will be like suns; and that neither our senses not our mind has ever tasted anything approaching the happiness that God prepares for those who love him.” (Leibniz 68). What scared Leibniz? The possibility of a crime without punishment. A forgotten crime. The punishment for that crime is possible with god’s immortal memory, but without that memory, without marks and traces, there is no order. Here, I find the terror of a godless world. After failing to love a child being dragged away, I am grateful for punishment. What am I without a guilty conscience?
Work Cited
Leibniz, Gottfried Wilhelm, et al. “Discourse on Metaphysics .” Philosophical Essays, Hackett Publishing Company, Indianapolis, 1989, pp. 35–69.
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Anyway, I'd like to express disdain for the entire discipline. All these professional guidelines on a subreddit! Let's pretend this logic is important.

If anyone would like to share some wisdom — I’m looking to add a dust collector to my garage. I would be running a 2hp cabinet table saw, the Dewalt planer, a bench top jointer, and perhaps in the future, a 14” band saw.
I have two options. In either scenario I’d like to install a micron canister. The runs won’t be very long (within half a 2 car garage). Table saw run will be “permanent” with second run being one to which I bring the tools.
1 - a WEN DC 1300 ($389). I have a few WEN products already, so I’m familiar with their +- quality. I was pretty set on ordering this one until option 2 recently became available.
2 - Jet DC 1200FS (708629) — priced on Marketplace at $250. It’s manufacture date is Aug of 2000. It needs a replacement chip bag. It is 1-1/2 HP with stated CFM of 1200.
I’m familiar with Jet’s quality reputation, but my hesitations are 1) is 20 years old pushing it when it comes to a motor?; 2) will I be able to find parts — not only to repair, but canisters and debris bags. I found the manual with the bag’s stock # and have come up empty. How specific are the fittings for these bags and canisters? Is it as simple as matching diameter? Something tells me it’s not.
Any guidance is appreciated.

I recently had a problem where I can play high notes efficiently at home but terribly in band. Today I practiced with a lot of people from band and got high notes out pretty much perfectly 🤩🤩. The tips i got from yall really helped a lot 😃

Title, looking to sublet my room this summer (May, or part of May until the end of August). Third floor, the biggest room in the house, Kitchen, and basement with in-unity laundry. Also has a backyard and cool fire escape to hang out on. 6 person house total, will be 4 guys and 1 girl living there over the summer. DM for pictures and address, or any other questions!

May newly open café 10 mins away from my apartment and chika saken ng kawork ko masarap daw yung rice meal nila hehe. After work, pumunta na ko para dun na magdinner. May biglang tumabi saakin na guy and kinalabit niya ko, he said "uy, andito ka pala". I barely recognized him so I gave him skeptical look and bigla ko siya namukhaan, siya yung guy na nakatira sa third floor ng apt na inuupahan ko rin. We ended up eating together since he was alone naman. Habang nakain one of the crew asked us if pwede niya kami kunan ng picture for promotion daw sa cafe. Nawindang ako. I told the guy na sabihan si kuya crew na ayoko coz I don't want to drawn any attention. Ipopost nila yung pic sa page nila at baka may makakita ng picture ko.
Idk, feeling ko naoffend ko si kuya crew. Nahihiya ako sa kaniya feeling ko ang rude ko. Nakokonsensya ako. C'mon, isang pic lang yon for promotion ng café nila tas di ako pumayag? Pero ayoko din ng pinopost ng iba yung picture ko sa social media. Rude ko no? Rude ba ko? Di kasi mawala sa isip ko.

Will I ever be enough? Is there people out there that won’t just completely abandon you after you put your heart and soul into it? And had the most deep and beautiful connection ever?
I just can’t wrap my head around how someone can turn on you like that. After everything. Literally the most meaningful moments of my life were with her.
The best conversations I’ve ever had, the best love, support, sobbing in each other’s arms. How do people just forget that? I thought she was the prettiest soul I’ve ever met.
Idek what to do with everything, the hats she made me, the pictures she drew, the love letters she wrote me. The goodbye one makes my heart ache bc it feels like everything said in it was a lie. How does she not miss me?
I’ve been through some shit, but this takes the cake. Like wow.

I've been using IXL as an intervention tool throughout the year for 6th, 7th and 8th grade math. It's a small school, so I have each grade two class periods a day. In the afternoon, every friday, they would complete the diagnostic and work on recommended skills while I check their note sheets. There are two incentives offered for this.
•At the end of each quarter, students are awarded extra credit points based on their growth from the end of the previous quarter.
•With every recommended skill that they complete after finishing the diagnostic, they get to take a turn adding some feature to a shared drawing up on the board.
The expectations are clear. They are to work silently, individually, and consistently across the 35 minute block of time. I add a strike to the board whenever they're getting too noisy and after 3 strikes, their drawing gets erased. I take this time to do individual notes checks from throughout the week.
Here's the problem: the students have stopped caring. They will talk openly and loudly and horse around without regard for the reward or punishment. My Friday afternoons have become a chaotic mess of the kids basically doing whatever they want since they can't keep their picture on the board for more than 5 minutes and they don't care enough about their grades to be motivated by extra credit.
I've racked my brain but I can't come up with another approach to this that I can foresee alleviating the issue. If you have experience in middle school math, with IXL, or both, I'd love to hear your suggestions.

I make these every summer for parties. I'm excited it's starting to warm up and almost outdoor party season again!
Recipe from this blog: https://sallysbakingaddiction.com/lemon-bars-recipe/#tasty-recipes-67259
Ingredients
Shortbread Crust

• 1 cup (230g; 2 sticks) unsalted butter, melted
• 1/2 cup (100g) granulated sugar
• 2 teaspoons pure vanilla extract
• 1/2 teaspoon salt
• 2 cups + 2 Tablespoons (265g) all-purpose flour

Lemon Filling

• 2 cups (400g) granulated sugar
• 6 Tablespoons (46g) all-purpose flour
• 6 large eggs
• 1 cup (240ml) lemon juice (about 4 lemons)
• optional: confectioners’ sugar for dusting

Instructions

1. Preheat the oven to 325°F (163°C). Line the bottom and sides of a 9×13 glass baking pan (do not use metal) with parchment paper, leaving an overhang on the sides to lift the finished bars out (makes cutting easier!). Set aside.
   
2. Make the crust: Mix the melted butter, sugar, vanilla extract, and salt together in a medium bowl. Add the flour and stir to completely combine. The dough will be thick. Press firmly into prepared pan, making sure the layer of crust is nice and even. Bake for 20-22 minutes or until the edges are lightly browned. Remove from the oven. Using a fork, poke holes all over the top of the warm crust (not all the way through the crust). A new step I swear by, this helps the filling stick and holds the crust in place. Set aside until step 4.
   
3. Make the filling: Sift the sugar and flour together in a large bowl. Whisk in the eggs, then the lemon juice until completely combined.
   
4. Pour filling over warm crust. Bake the bars for 22-26 minutes or until the center is relatively set and no longer jiggles. (Give the pan a light tap with an oven mitt to test.) Remove bars from the oven and cool completely at room temperature. I usually cool them for about 2 hours at room temperature, then stick in the refrigerator for 1-2 more hours until pretty chilled. I recommend serving chilled.
   
5. Once cool, lift the parchment paper out of the pan using the overhang on the sides. Dust with confectioners’ sugar and cut into squares before serving. For neat squares, wipe the knife clean between each cut. Cover and store leftover lemon bars in the refrigerator for up to 1 week.
   
6. Freezing Instructions: Lemon bars can be frozen for up to 3-4 months. Cut the cooled bars (without confectioners’ sugar topping) into squares, then place onto a baking sheet. Freeze for 1 hour. Individually wrap each bar in aluminum foil or plastic wrap and place into a large bag or freezer container to freeze. Thaw in the refrigerator, then dust with confectioners’ sugar before serving.
   

I've done my best to use my Chromebook as it was designed to be used. But there are still a handful of things I cannot do except in Linux. Since crouton went south (and it was always a hack), and since the things I want to do require device access, I cannot use crostini. So I have no choice but to install Linux on a USB and dual boot.
So, I have 2 specific questions:

1. Does ChromeOS run slower in developer mode?
2. Exactly how is developer mode less secure than normal mode?

In case you're curious, I'm using a MIDI keyboard. Even though I can create music online with, e.g., BandLab and SoundTrap, I really prefer using Audacity along with Fluidsynth. Also, I like to decrypt CDs and DVDs, and this is not feasible in crostini.
The questions I'm asking are really more out of curiosity, as I'm going to run ChromeOS in developer mode come hell or high water :-O
Thanks in advance for your comments.

Get Off SexuallyMy Email:Thu, Oct 4, 2018, 8:43 PMto Michael, Jeremy
My parents get off sexually that I was a virgin until I was 24-years-old, had no social life growing up, was running myself into the ground, was hospitalized 6 times in 2011. They get off that I went crazy from their abuse.
My Mom, Dad, AND Step Dad.
Dr. Garrett's Reply:Thu, Oct 4, 2018, 10:02 PMAndrew
It is not a credible idea that your mother, father, and step-father are sexually aroused by your suffering. One possibility here is that when you are feeling the constraints of your life, you blame your parents by bringing charges of sexual perversity. You and I need to investigate where this feeling that your parents are fiends comes from.
Hiding In My Bedroom
My Email:Mon, Oct 8, 2018, 11:39 AMThere was a time I spent the majority of every day in my bedroom, hiding from the world. That's still SORT OF true, but I've gotten MUCH BETTER.
On the internet, I'm not shy. I post all sorts of wild and crazy thing... In real life, I'm scared of my own shadow. I'm very anxious.
I was severely bullied as a child. And I learned the world was a chaotic and hostile place. The truth is, it's not nearly as bad as I think.
I've become frustrated and have the desire to meet people in real life, so I'm venturing outside my comfort zone more and more. But I feel like I wear my scars like The Scarlet Letter. I'm exposed for all to see.
I have a second date with a woman tomorrow night. I'm hopeful. But I feel like such a loser. I'm afraid when she discovers I haven't worked since 2011, that I have a mental illness, she'll run away.
Plus I'm really anxious. But I'll give it a try. The first date was VERY SUCCESSFUL.
Dr. Garrett's Reply:
Mon, Oct 8, 2018, 7:50 PM
Hold on to this perspective.
Nude Photo Shoot?
My Email:Thu, Oct 18, 2018, 11:44 AM
I went on the website Model Mayhem as a goof, and a professional photographer offered to do a nude photo shoot with me. And all kidding aside, I'm considering it.
I've already taken some amateur nudes with a tripod and would love some professional photos as well.
But my Mom said it might turn inappropriate. What do you think?
The women he's photographed have given him great reviews, it seems legit.
He's been "shooting for over 15 years" and a woman said it's "Nothing but comfort and full of laughs".
Should I do it?
He said I need to provide the location. Obviously, I can't do it at my house. He suggested a motel room, or outdoors. Where should I go?
Thanks
UPDATE:I just sent him a reply e-mail showing interest. I can still cancel at any time.
Dr. Garrett's Reply:Thu, Oct 18, 2018, 8:02 PM
Andrew
Even if the risk with this photographer is low, why take any risk? To what end?What use can you put such photos to? It is easy to attract interest with sensational nudity. Anyone can do it by taking their clothes off. It is harder to work at recovery in the real world where you attract interest because of who you are as a person.
My Email:Fri, Oct 19, 2018, 8:33 AM
Don't get me wrong, I want real world recovery, and I want to attract people with my personality. But I'm 31 years old, my modeling days are ticking away.
I'm looking for someone say doing a nude photo shoot is a good idea, or isn't a horrible idea... but no one is saying that. Lol.
Here's my argument. I'm an exhibitionist who loves posing for photos. I've already taken many amatur nudes, posted them publically on the internet (nothing to lose).
The photographer appears professional
Obviously, I'm concerned about it turning inappropriate. I don't want to get raped.
But we had a long text message conversation yesterday. His reviews appear positive. He said he could also do underwear modeling, and even t-shirt and jeans modeling.
I plan on simply meeting him this weekend at a coffee shop to discuss photo plans.
I'm not in "fighting shape" at the moment. I've been overeating and not exercising as much. But it shouldn't take me long to slim down, especially with motivation.
I know this is a horrible idea. But I really want to do it. Lol.
My Email:Fri, Oct 19, 2018, 11:07 AM
It looks like I won't be doing this photoshoot anytime soon, on my limited budget I can't even afford a $60 motel room. Ugh!
My Email:Short Stay MotelFri, Oct 19, 2018, 12:10 PM
I may do some modeling with a professional photographer. And he taught me a new term, short stay motel.
You mean to tell me, they're places you can rent for just a few hours?! You don't need to stay overnight?!
This knowledge would've been useful years ago. Lol.
Dr. Coplan's Reply:Fri, Oct 19, 2018, 2:14 PMto me
Have u checked out his credentials?
Dr. Garrett's Reply:Fri, Oct 19, 2018, 4:53 PM
short stay motels are well known to prostitutes, for obvious reasons
Seeking Arrangement
My Email:Tue, Oct 23, 2018, 5:50 AM
I've been texting this sugar momma who I met off of the website Seeking Arrangement. It's where successful people go to meet attractive people. Obviously, I'm an attractive person. She's in her mid 50's.
For sending underwear pictures, she said she's going to give me an allowance of 200 dollars weekly, but we intend to meet in person at some point.
My allowance would increase if she sees a commitment. She said, "I’m a total package I just need some good company and loving."
She said, "I intend adding you to my pay roll, so I wouldn’t have to repeat it every week, and you also get it even when I’m away for work, So you would get your allowance accordingly."
She asked for my account and routing number, but I'm reluctant to send because it seems like a scam. This seems sketchy, right?
Dr. Garrett's Reply:Tue, Oct 23, 2018, 5:16 PM
This is obviously a scam. As we discussed today, you feel more comfortable living in the daydream world where a sugarmomma will take care of you just for taking your clothes off rather than facing the more anxiety provoking reality of making your way in the real world.

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